This question is simple, but it is not easy to answer, and sometimes even Mu Qingxuan himself wonders why he kept Gu Tinglan by his side, because of his feelings for her? Or because of the memory of fighting side by side, or because of the guilt she felt for losing her cultivation.

Gu Tinglan's Baicao Garden is not strictly speaking, it is not a sect, as its name suggests, the whole sect is like a huge garden, there are many strange flowers and plants in the mountains, just walk around, a tree next to you, a grass under your feet may be a medicinal material, and the birds and beasts shuttling through the forest also have bones and other organs that can be used for medicine, but the size of the rarity.

However, although there are very few restrictions on this discipline, there is a very strict regulation, there are two kinds of exercises in the door, one is the art of saving people and helping the world, and the other is the art of killing the way, once you choose, you cannot regret it, and the disciples who reverse the exercises without authorization to save people or hurt others will be expelled from the school, without exception.

And Gu Tinglan has nowhere to go, the price of reversing the exercises is not only the loss of cultivation, but even the foundation has been destroyed, and the elders of the Danmen are helpless against this situation.

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That time, Mu Qingxuan thought that he would not survive, so when he opened his eyes, there was a blank in his mind for a moment, and he didn't know why he was still alive, until he regained all consciousness and saw Gu Tinglan, who was in a coma with a heavy blow.

In the end, Gu Tinglan was still rescued, but her cultivation was completely lost, and she was no different from a waste person from now on, Mu Qingxuan didn't know how to speak to her after thinking about it for a long time, but Gu Tinglan was unexpectedly calm, as if she had known that there would be such a result.

It was the first time Mu Qingxuan had seen her depressed appearance since they met, and the whole person was extremely quiet and quiet, which made people panic when they saw it, and they were completely no longer as happy and happy as before.

On the night when he was resting in the temporary inn, Mu Qingxuan felt a figure quietly touch his bed, and leaned into the wardrobe with cool fingertips, with a slight tremor that I don't know whether it was timidity or shyness, and the touch between his lips was urgent and clumsy. When she appeared in her room late at night, Mu Qingxuan knew what she wanted to do.

Since the departure of his senior sister a few years ago, he often lingered in the Hualou Chu Pavilion in order to relieve the depression in his heart.

Unlike those women in the past, they still have cultivation, and the ability to protect and take care of themselves, but Gu Tinglan, she has nothing, for this impulse, she may wake up one day many years later and regret not being at the beginning.

But Mu Qingxuan was also flustered in his heart, he didn't know how to appease her in the face of such a situation, her whole person fell into a desperate mood in this cold night, she hugged him tightly, like a drowning person holding the only hope, after finding that there was no response, her movements became more and more anxious and panicked.

Mu Qingxuan knew that she couldn't refuse her anymore, once she was pushed open and walked out of this door, all that was waiting for her was death. Listening to her suppressed whisper of pain, Mu Qingxuan carefully put her movements more gently, hoping that it would not bring her more pain. When he finally held Gu Tinglan in his arms, only one thought kept flashing in his heart: he didn't refuse her, and even thought about how to take care of her in the future.

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When Mu Qingxuan woke up on the second day, it was already noon, there was no accident, he smelled the smell of soothing incense in the aroma that had not yet dissipated with time, it was not a certain spice in Baicao Garden, but a kind used by ordinary people outside to supplement sleep, he looked at the bed tent above, lost his mind for a while, lost his cultivation and foundation, she was unable to even use the incense method that the disciples in the door could do, so she could only try to increase the dose of ordinary soothing incense.

I can't imagine what kind of state of mind she was in when she lit the incense with ordinary methods, more of a hopelessness for the future, and that depressed and inexplicable mood.

When he noticed An Shenxiang, Mu Qingxuan knew that Gu Tinglan had left, and they probably would never see each other again in this life, and even if they did, they would pretend not to know each other.

Mu Qingxuan closed his eyes, and the unknown emotions in his heart surged up, although he knew in his heart that this might be the best result for both her and herself, but he still wanted to keep her.

Whether it was said that she owed something because of her uneasy conscience, or if she wanted to make up for her, Mu Qingxuan searched all over the places where she might go, and two days later, she found Gu Tinglan in a town not far from here, found her, and found her.

Mu Qingxuan took her back to her childhood residence, on the halfway up the mountain not far from Ye Yan City, which was very close to the farmers under the mountain, and there were no fierce beasts and poisonous insects around, it was a very quiet place, Gu Tinglan always covered her face with a veil after losing her cultivation, and she didn't want to see people, Mu Qingxuan also eliminated the idea of asking someone to take care of her, but left Du Zhan to protect her, and also avoided the idea of someone seeing her living alone and being a woman, and giving birth to the idea of harming.

Du Zhan is very good, but he is a little wooden, and he doesn't like to talk much, and he doesn't know how to be flexible when practicing swordsmanship, but he is an excellent seedling for practicing swordsmanship. It is not terrible if a person can master all the swordsmanship in the sect, except for a master like the head of the sect, ordinary people will only be greedy and chew more if they do this, and not all people are geniuses. And if a person has practiced a sword technique thousands of times, it is the most terrifying, because he has completely understood this move, and thousands of changes can evolve in his hands, and only one shot can be fatal.

It's just that every time I see that child, I have to keep a straight face to people, and I can usually see that he will be happy when he sees him, but now, he always runs to several happy houses he frequents to block people, not only has a great temper and opens the door with his feet, but also prefers to sit on the opposite side motionless, not looking at people, not talking, and silently protesting against his behavior.

It's strange to say, it is clear that he has been by his side for more than ten years, but after a short period of getting along, he is biased towards Shiniang. Maybe in his heart, he also felt that his master was not only not responsible, but also very affectionate to the person next to him.

Du Zhan is only fifteen years old this year, only a few years old when he is alone in the mountains, he has always acted casually, after the events of the year, the teaching of his disciples is also biased towards free-range, Ting Lan has always been careful, she is the kind of person who can think about everything, maybe it is good for both of them to send Du Zhan to protect her.

Ting Lan didn't have to worry about the dangers that might occur every day because he had lost his cultivation, and Du Zhan would not be freed by him anymore, as a master, he had not been able to fulfill his duty of care when he was young.

In fact, for Gu Tinglan, Mu Qingxuan didn't know if his feelings for her were like, or love.

But when you are with her, it can always be very natural, just two people sit quietly and your mind will slow down, Gu Tinglan is doing female celebrity on the side, transcribing books, or taking care of flowers and plants, for so many years, it seems that only when she is around can she really sleep at ease, relax wholeheartedly, and when she sleeps, listening to the subtle sounds outside, she feels a peaceful room.

This feeling should be called warmth, when I used to practice swords with my master, the feeling of home that was revealed between relatives.

It's just that he gradually began to not know how to communicate with her, all these years he played with flowers, with a little light drunkenness, familiar with the scene, but at this moment he didn't know how to treat a true heart.

In Ting Lan's heart, she still can't let go of the fact that she has lost her cultivation, her self-esteem is too strong, and she never wants to drag others down, if she doesn't notice this, then no matter how difficult things she has experienced, she won't open her mouth, not even a little hint.

The only thing that can make her interested is probably cooking, she is very good at it, and fortunately, she is good at it, and this kind of thing that can kill time can also make her feel a little brighter. Only when she mentioned food-related topics, a slight look flashed in her eyes, this was the only thing she was good at now, so no matter what she did, Mu Qingxuan would eat it happily.

The brocade bag and jade box that was originally used to store and keep things fresh could not be used, so Mu Qingxuan exchanged a large number of basic charms for her from the Danmen, but they were just some attributes of ice and fire, which were used to keep warm in winter and escape the heat in summer.

Perhaps, it would have been nice to have such an outcome, she was still alive and in a place where he could often see her. It's just that I'm afraid I'll never see her as happy and free and smiling as before.

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I don't know why, Gu Tinglan has always lost her mind recently, and the prepared meals are put on the table, but she has to sit for a while before she can remember to eat, and because of this, the cooked meals will always be cool, just use it, after no cultivation, he is just a waste person, and even his body is worse than ordinary people.

Fortunately, the food left for Du Zhan will be placed outside the door in advance, and he can get food when he returns from sword practice in the mountains.

Although Du Zhan is not very old, he is polite to the point of being harsh, never stepping indoors, and even the living room that has always been used as a decoration outside, at most he will help her put some heavy objects in the kitchen.

Sometimes Qingxuan comes back, he only sees in the courtyard, and occasionally he is injured and doesn't tell anyone, sometimes I really don't know if he is wooden or stubborn.

Before that day, I saw Du Zhan stepping into the courtyard gate and bowing his hand: "Master." "It's rare for Du Zhan to come in and greet her face-to-face, in the past, in order to avoid it, he would leave after seeing the courtesy.

Qing Xuan's attitude towards her always seems to be imminent, and she has also heard of such things as lingering in the flowers, and she is afraid that the number of times she sees him every month is not as many as those flower girls. Maybe Du Zhan's real master doesn't know where she is now, but when she hears someone call her like this, she will always feel a little more warmth in her heart.

"Zhan'er, is there any news from your master lately?"