Chapter VIII: Identity
"I was not born, and I was old. You hate me for being late, and I hate you for being early. ”
"Since you say goodbye, you have always kept your old heart. Luoyang is a long way away, and it uses a few gold. ”
"I have a heart, and no one can talk about it. Send the wind to blow away the clouds, and speak to the sky and the moon. ”
"Don't travel thousands of miles, and there is no time to come. On the thirtieth day of the month, there is no night without lovesickness. ”
The mournful and mournful songs continued to float in my ears like a miserable ghost.
I was not in a high mood, but as soon as this voice came out, all the relatives in my heart turned into a tide and turned over the river and the sea.
The lyrics that I sing now are the original text in the porcelain inscription poem of the Tongguan kiln, not the later online version of "Jun Sheng, I was not born", chanted by the way of singing, the poignant feeling is even more sad, the heartstrings turn, the kind of parting, sadness, lovesickness and reluctance The emotions of parting, sadness, lovesickness and reluctance completely filled my mind at once.
I listened silently to the mournful song, and did not say a word for a long time, until the song was over, and I sighed heavily.
"Daughter-in-law, are you here?"
How could I not hear it, this mournful song like a heavenly voice was made by my ghost daughter-in-law, Zhu Huiyuan.
Although she is now on the verge of dying because she has absorbed the resentment curse on me, at least she is still with me now, but she has not been willing to come out to meet me.
"I remember the last time I sang this song, it was still for my father to say goodbye, how many years have passed, I almost forgot the content of this song, fortunately, it's not too bad, right?" Although I still can't see Zhu Huiyuan's figure, the voice came from my side, and I can feel that she came to my side.
When I heard her talk about "Father", I couldn't help but be surprised, could it be that my ghost daughter-in-law still has such a background? At this time, I hurriedly said, "Of course it's not difficult to hear, my daughter-in-law sings like a heavenly sound, daughter-in-law, what do you mean by your father just now?" Could it be that you are still the princess of a country? ”
If that's the case, then wouldn't I be a colt?
Thinking of this, I was amused by myself, and the original sadness in my heart was a little less.
Unexpectedly, my unintentional words seemed to seriously hurt Zhu Huiyuan, she was silent for a long time, only in exchange for a sad sigh, "People who have lost their country, how can they talk about their homeland and identity." ”
I opened my mouth and wanted to continue asking, but when she said this, all the words I wanted to say were sealed in my mouth.
For a moment, the silence and darkness around me were completely overwhelmed by the tide, and I don't know how long I was silent, but I finally broke the original silence.
"Hui Yuan, don't worry, I have already begged my grandfather just now, and my grandfather said that he would find a way." I looked at the empty surroundings and comforted them.
It's just that Zhu Huiyuan obviously didn't believe my words, and let out a laugh indifferently, and said, "My husband can be like this for my wife, and I am already satisfied with my wife, we have no chance in this life, if there is a next life, my wife will definitely repay my husband's kindness." ”
Every word of hers is like a needle and thread constantly piercing my heart, what can I do? Did she do much for me?
"Hui Yuan, don't say that, I'm sorry for you, I owe you too much, but since grandpa has agreed, he will definitely find a way." I hurriedly said.
Zhu Huiyuan didn't continue to speak, and responded to me with silence.
I really couldn't stand the oppression of the darkness and silence, so I quickly found a topic and said, "Hui Yuan, I want to meet you." ”
I've known my ghost daughter-in-law for more than ten years, but we have only met twice, and they have all met in a hurry and separated, and wanting to see her again has become an obsession of mine over the years.
Zhu Huiyuan was still silent for a long time before she said, "My wife is a ghost and evil, what is there to look at, if I can't keep my wife as a wife, it's even more ugly than that mountain spirit and wild monster, if I frighten my husband at that time, it will be a big sin to be a wife." ”
In ancient times, women paid attention to the three outlines and five constants, and as long as they identified a man in their lives, they would pay for it without regrets.
Since they got married, their husbands have become their world.
Of course, no matter what age a woman is, she will not change in terms of paying attention to beauty and caring about the opinions of her sweetheart.
It's like now, although Zhu Huiyuan says that she is ugly, I can still feel that she is still quite concerned about her appearance.
I have seen Zhu Huiyuan's appearance twice, no matter how I say it, how can the appearance of a fairy be comparable to that of a mountain spirit and wild monster? I immediately said, "No matter how ugly you look, since I have married you, I don't care how you look, and we have been married for more than ten years, but you have not let me see you for more than ten years, do you know how much I want to see you?" ”
Zhu Huiyuan stopped talking, but I could clearly feel that a cold body was slowly leaning on my shoulder.
In the end, she still didn't want me to see her, in fact, I also understood in my heart the reason why she did this, that is, I didn't want to be very concerned about her after her soul was gone, which is the old saying "out of sight, out of mind".
"Hui Yuan, you...... How long will you be able to suppress that curse? "I don't want to say that the soul is gone, the word is too heavy for me and can crush my heart.
"Ten days."
This night, I chatted with Zhu Huiyuan for a long time, and I also knew that she had actually been by my side since I was a child, witnessing my growth and protecting me from danger, we all forgot the time for this chat, and I never thought that the two of us could be so speculative, and she also revealed some stories about her to me, but when it came to her father and family, she was silent.
About the time of the rooster's crow, Zhu Huiyuan left, her voice never appeared again, and I fell asleep in a daze, I seemed to have a long dream, in the dream I was in a very large palace, there were civil and military officials in the palace, and there was also Zhu Huiyuan wearing a gorgeous gown.
In the dream, the civil and military officials respectfully called her a princess.
At about seven o'clock, my grandfather woke me up, who was still dazed, and he asked me to sort out my package and go into the mountain again.
Yes, maybe only the people in that Taoist temple can help Zhu Huiyuan now.
I remember the Taoist temple that my grandfather said, my grandfather took me there when I was a child, and my yin and yang eyes were sealed by the old Taoist chief in that Taoist temple, I remember, the old Taoist still called my grandfather my junior brother, but I don't know that after so many years, the old Taoist is still not there.
I casually packed my luggage and followed my grandfather into the mountains, where the mountain roads had been covered by weeds for more than ten years, and at a glance, there were countless towering trees everywhere, these trees stood tall all around, and the degree of density even completely blocked the sunlight from the branches, hiding this place into a dim otherworld.
This walk is another three days, to the third day I saw the familiar bluestone road again, but things are not people, this bluestone road is not as clean as before without a single fallen leaf, at a glance everywhere is dead branches and leaves, they will completely bury the old ancient road.
As we walked forward, we came to the temple that covered a large area, and I found that it was much dilapidated, and even collapsed in many places due to disrepair.
The door was closed, and I knocked a few times, but there was no response from inside.
"Grandpa, doesn't it look like there's anyone living here?" Eventually, I asked.
But the grandfather was silent, he stepped forward and patted the closed, painted door with great stubbornness, and the sound of "dong dong" was extremely hollow here, like a dying old man, making a final struggle.
I don't know how long it took, but finally my ears moved and I heard a few heavy footsteps.
I was stunned, I didn't expect this place to really be inhabited.
It didn't take long for the red door that had peeled off the paint to slowly open, and the moment I saw it, I was stunned for a moment, this was an old Taoist priest with gorgeous hair and a haggard face, he was wearing an old Taoist robe, and he was holding a dust whisk that looked old.
I know this old Taoist, it is the Taoist priest who sealed my yin and yang eyes when I was six years old, I didn't expect that after all these years, he is still alive, but looking at the posture, I am afraid that it is not far from driving a crane to the west.
I originally thought that it should be his disciples who came out to open the door now, but I didn't expect it to be him.
The old Taoist priest didn't seem surprised at all when he saw me and my grandfather coming, he smiled and said, "You're finally here." I don't know why, but I felt a sense of relief in his words.
I looked at him puzzled, and after greeting him politely, I asked, "Did you already know that we were coming?" ”
The old Taoist priest smiled and didn't say anything, just silently looked at my grandfather beside me, and I was stunned and immediately reacted.
These two people are commensurate with brothers, grandpa is a yin and yang gentleman, and he is proficient in feng shui in the village, so his senior brother should not be weaker than grandpa, and it is naturally not a problem to be able to calculate our arrival and purpose.
I wanted to speak, but my grandfather grabbed me and turned around to leave.
"God, let's go, grandpa will take you to find another place to save your ghost daughter-in-law."