After eating the dumplings, everyone was still unsatisfied, but I knew I had to go back.

I didn't want my father to worry too much.

Of course, the father may have fallen asleep, but it is also possible that he was just lying in bed and not asleep. He had to hear his daughter open the door and enter the house before he could sleep peacefully.

Qi Caihong sent us to the gate of the hospital.

"Thank you for the gift." Qi Caihong said.

"Thank you for your singing, I'm really happy, Sister Rainbow." I say.

"They're all so crazy, and if they're happy, they'll come often."

"Okay." I waved.

Qi Caihong waved at us.

The moon has risen to its old heights. It's the first quarter moon. I've been stuffy in the room for too long, and I feel extra cool when I walk on the road in the evening breeze.

"How? Happy? Qi Zhengzhe spoke.

"Hmm. It's like a birthday party. I didn't expect Sister Rainbow to be so talented. ”

"So you have to come out and have more contact with everybody. Seeing you smiling so happily, I think it's worth it to bring you out. ”

"What? Didn't Sister Rainbow invite me? ”

"No, I thought of taking you there. What's wrong? ”

"Not really? Just ask. ”

Come to think of it, if Qi Caihong thought of inviting me, we communicated in the store for such a long time, how could she not mention her birthday?

"She must think you're still a student." Qi Zhengzhe added.

"Oh."

When we walked to the wholesale department, we found that the store was closed. Auntie should go to sleep. Auntie needs to wake up early, and of course she won't stay at the store for too long.

Qi Zhengzhe opened the door of the store and entered the store to take a look, and he had to sort out the accounts. This is his habit of opening a store for many years, and no matter how late it is, he has to make a summary of the day's operation.

I walked alone along the alley.

The houses on both sides of the small alley blocked out the moonlight, and it was a little dark in the alley. Fortunately, every corner is familiar, and I can walk to the old house with my eyes closed, and there is nothing to be afraid of.

No one would have thought that there would be a person standing in the middle of the road so silently that I almost hit this person.

"Oh my god." I felt my heart rush to my throat.

It's Qi Zhengli!

"What are you doing standing here?" I was terrified. I looked forward, and then back, and there was no one else.

"Don't look at it, I'm waiting for you."

"Wait for me? What are you waiting for me? ”

"Waiting for you is to tell you that you are really wild." After speaking, Qi Zhengli turned around and walked inside.

"What do you mean?" My second monk was confused.

Qi Zhengli didn't look back, nor did he say another word. I watched him walk into his house. The first floor of the building was pitch black, and only his bedroom was lit up.

I walked to the bungalow. This is such a weirdo.

The door of the bungalow was hidden. I gently pushed the door open, and the wooden door creaked.

A coughing voice came from my father's room, "Coming back?" ”。

"It's back, Daddy." I felt guilty. Sure enough, my father didn't fall asleep.

"Go to bed early." Two more coughs.

"Okay."

I hurriedly took a shower and went to bed.

As a result, I had insomnia. I can't sleep no matter how I sleep.

I think about a lot of things.

It's funny to say, I compared my feelings for my brother with Qi Caihong's "feeling of love", and came to a conclusion: I fell in love with my brother when I was twelve years old. Maybe sooner.

Isn't this a ridiculous conclusion, brother? Can anyone be precocious enough to have hazy feelings for the opposite sex at the age of twelve? My brother will think it's funny, too.

It wasn't until more than a decade later that I was fortunate enough to read Shi Tiesheng's novel "Retreat Notes" and learned that several of the main characters in this novel sprouted love for the opposite sex at the age of nine, and I was relieved.

The scene when Painter Z set off to look for the girl was very much like an experience I had before. The girl he had been looking for had been confused with the girl I had been looking for on writing night.

Z or me, is that season too early? Nine years old, it seems too early.

The nine-year-old boy started his career as a man with a childish pretext starting with a little trick......

The above three passages are excerpts from Shi Tiesheng's "Notes on Nothingness". Nine-year-old painter Z and nine-year-old disabled person C have very similar experiences when they fall in love with a girl who is also nine years old. It's not unusual for me, a twelve-year-old girl to fall in love with a thirteen-year-old boy.

I remember that from the first time I heard that my brother was going to return to the city sooner or later until my brother finally left the east gate, I was looking forward to Ai Ai, and my mood was always very low. I can't tell how sad I am. Especially after the date of your departure has been decided, I feel that the sky is cloudy for me, even if the sky is clear.

Every time you promised that you would never go back to the city, even though I knew it was a comfort to me, I was relieved.

Where will it be like Qi Caihong who won't miss Yu Yinshan for three or five days?

The reason why I remember Li Shangyin's poem "The body has no colorful phoenix wings, and the heart has a good heart" is so firmly because he has too much telepathy, and Li Shangyin has described this indescribable feeling.

As soon as the teacher introduced this poem to me, I felt a sense of joy in my heart, and I felt that I had an ideological resonance with the ancients. How can you not remember this verse?

Thinking about it like this, he doubted that when Qi Caihong and Qi Zhengzhe were very engaged in talking, an inexplicable mood rose in his heart.

That indescribable taste can't be a kind of jealousy, right?

What am I jealous of?

Jealous of Qi Rainbow's goodness to Qi Zhengzhe? Still unwilling to be snubbed by Qi Zhengzhe? The question is, did Qi Zhengzhe snub me?

After thinking about it, I figured out that it wasn't jealousy, but a lost mood. After all, at any time and on any occasion, Qi Zhengzhe was centered on me, and that night, Qi Caihong took away this central position.

Because, as I speculated, Qi Zhengzhe affected Qi Caihong's feelings for Yu Yinshan. Or, Qi Caihong has feelings for Qi Zhengzhe.

Because of this, she will call Qi Zhengzhe when everyone celebrates her birthday.

It's just that Qi Caihong didn't expect Qi Zhengzhe to take me.

And she couldn't feel Qi Zhengzhe's special feelings for me, so she subconsciously "resisted" - when Qi Zhengzhe was learning to cut firewood, she deliberately cared about Qi Zhengzhe, and deliberately sat next to Qi Zhengzhe in the room to find various topics to communicate with Qi Zhengzhe, so that Qi Zhengzhe didn't take into account my feelings.

That's because Qi Zhengzhe wouldn't have expected Qi Caihong to have feelings for him at all. Qi Caihong's relationship with Yu Yinshan is not a matter of one or two days. Everyone in the neighborhood knew that these two young men were going to be a couple sooner or later.

Qi Zhengzhe must have this ideology. He's going to be defenseless.

Thinking more about Qi Zhengli's "weird" behavior.

How could a good Qi Zhengli wait in the alley, just to tell me that I am "wild"? It's incredible, isn't it?

The word "wild" is often used by aunts to describe Qi Zhengli. When Qi Zhengli came back for dinner in the evening, his aunt would scold him: "Where did you die again, you can't even come back to eat on time?" ”

I seem to have told my brother that the Qi family always has to wait for everyone to arrive before starting the meal.

As soon as Qi Zhengli finished eating and put the bowl down, he walked out, and his aunt would say, "Look at you, I don't know where to go wild." Why don't you stay home all day long? ”

So, Qi Zhengli used this word to describe me, it must have been influenced by my aunt.

But how could he think I was wild? He didn't know where I had gone.

Maybe his aunt told him.

The question is, when will Qi Zhengli pay attention to my whereabouts, except for the time when Li Zheng is pestering me?

Don't say three or five days, even ten and a half days Qi Zhengli doesn't see me, and I'm used to it.

Well, even if he accidentally learned that Qi Zhengzhe and I went to Qi Caihong's house, how could he think that I was "wild" in his consciousness?

Brother, I'm really a person who stays at home. I've described my morning and evening routines to my brother. Twenty years later, I am an authentic homebody. I almost don't go anywhere.

Even if Qi Zhengli thinks I'm wild, he can't afford to wait in the alley and tell me his feelings in person.

Unless he deliberately! As deliberate as Qi Rainbow!

When I tutored Qi Zhengli the next day, I thought he would take the initiative to bring it up, but Qi Zhengli was lukewarm as usual, as if there was a mountain between us. Or maybe last night was like he was sleepwalking, so he didn't have the slightest impression.

I tried to speak a few times and stopped. After Qi Zhengli finished writing the homework I assigned, I couldn't hold back any longer, and I said, "Qi Zhengli, what did you mean by me being wild last night?" Sister Rainbow's birthday, Qi Zhengzhe took me over to congratulate. ”

"I don't understand what you're saying?"

"How is that possible? Last night you stopped me in the alley and said I was wild, and you said you couldn't understand what I was saying? ”

"You're getting the wrong person." Qi Zhengli stood up from his position, "I'm going out to play." ”

I was dumbfounded. Could it be that Qi Zhengli really has sleepwalking? Because I couldn't be mistaken, I saw Qi Zhengli walk into his building.

"Don't be in a hurry, Qi Zhengli," I said, standing up, "I have always had a doubt in my heart. ”

"What doubts?" Qi Zhengli had already walked to the door of the room. He just stopped and didn't look back.

"Your math skills are obviously not bad, why did you score 42 points in the test?"

"No comment." Qi Zhengli walked out of the room and down the steps.

I almost choked to death.