It turned out that Wu Hongmei had not come to class since Monday. I said how could she ignore the few days she was sick. No matter how shy she is, and I have such a high fever, she will come to visit me in the dormitory.

I asked a few people, but they didn't know why. Wu Hongmei is like a grass in the woods, this grass is withered and glorious, and those towering trees will not care about it at all.

I can't really tell what the fuck feels like.

In those days, the class teacher's class was either empty and we studied on our own, or the Chinese teacher took the class. The head teacher is cooperating with the police station in the investigation. At the same time, he and the principal had to go to Yu Huihui's house every day to do pacifying work. Therefore, I can't see his shadow all day long, and he is the only person who knows Wu Hongmei's dynamics.

I'm just going to live like this.

I suddenly wanted to smoke. I would love to sit on the high ground behind the school building at dusk, watching the sun set slowly over the treetops, cigarette in my mouth. That's when I realized that smoking is a lonely state of mind.

I never smoked again without Brother Jun.

Saturday's recess doorman brought me a letter. On the envelope, the sender and the mailing address should both write the word "inside". As soon as I saw the handwriting, I knew that it was written to me by Wu Hongmei.

I opened the envelope and the letter read:

Hello Zheng Qihang!

By the time you received this letter, I had been away from Jiangcun Middle School for almost a week, and if I was not mistaken, you should have heard from me on Saturday.

This week has made you worried.

Please forgive me for not saying goodbye. Actually, I wanted to say goodbye to you last Saturday morning when I was collecting my things after school, but you know that I am not a good person to express myself, and I couldn't say anything at that time, so I finally chose to write a letter.

Actually, I'm a borrower. You may not know that I transferred to Jiangcun Middle School in the same semester as you, but a month and a half earlier than you. I transferred because I couldn't stay in my old school (please forgive me for not telling you what school my school is, and please don't ask the class teacher, I'm sure you will respect me in this regard), because many people in my class laughed at me, my self-esteem was always hurt, and I couldn't stay, so my father transferred me to Jiangcun Middle School.

I originally planned to stay until mid-June and then go back to my original school to take the high school entrance examination (one thing you need to understand is that if your student status is not transferred to Jiangcun Middle School, you will also be a student of Jiangcun Middle School, and you will also have to go back to your original school to take the high school entrance examination. Haven't you always wondered why the teachers didn't care when I had such good grades. By now you should understand because I'm a borrower).

But now I have to go back to my old school early, because I can't stay at Jiangcun Middle School anymore. Not for any other reason, but because of you, I'm afraid that if I stay any longer, I won't be able to control my feelings, and I know that I don't deserve them.

Really, I've changed a lot because of your arrival. The biggest change is that I have gained self-confidence, although I still have low self-esteem.

You may not believe it, but I sat alone from elementary school to junior high school. Because of my appearance, no one wants to share a table with me, so I always sit alone at the back of the room until you show up.

Because of your appearance, I changed the history of not having a tablemate.

But, you don't know, your presence has made me sleep hard for several nights in a row. Before you even transferred to school, the head teacher had already approached me and told me your story in class.

I've never been at the same table, and I have to accept a terrorist tablemate all of a sudden, how can I not be afraid? So I fell when you walked towards me that day.

But who knew that such a terrorist was such a kind and righteous person? In particular, I never discriminated against people like me.

Really, you've made me change my mind about a lot of things. It even changed the perception of people. You made me free myself from the autistic space, you made me dare to laugh, dare to express, dare to perform, dare to think and dare to sing, so that my parents said that I was a completely different person.

Especially at the New Year's Day party, you pushed me to the stage, let me see my own value, let me experience what success is, and let me really know myself. Now, I dare to sing everywhere, really.

All thanks to you, my only tablemate.

You may ask, why are you in a hurry to go back to your original school?

The reason you ask this is that you don't notice how cramped and uneasy I am in front of you during these days.

Especially after you rejected Yu Huihui's pursuit in front of your classmates in the classroom, my feeling was even stronger. I will be nervous in front of you for no reason, and I will even have a feeling of not breathing. Haven't you noticed that my face turns red as soon as I talk to you lately?

You should certainly understand why.

I have already said that I am not worthy of such feelings, but man is an animal of feelings. No matter how inferior a person is, no matter how depressed a person is, no matter how humble a person is, they all yearn for beautiful things and want to have them.

So I had no choice but to leave.

No, no, don't be sad, don't feel sorry for me, you should be happy for me. I'm really happy because this experience will be something I will cherish for the rest of my life, because it changed me completely.

You don't have to worry about me. I am no longer the same Wu Hongmei, I will get along well with my classmates when I return to my original school, even if someone laughs at me, I won't care, because my mood is completely different from before.

Maybe it's because I'm trying to say too much, and I've written so much before I know it, I think it's time for me to put it down.

But I also want to talk about you, Zheng Qihang, you are too kind-hearted, you think too much for others, and you always wronged yourself, so you are often hurt. In addition, if you are too straight, it will inevitably make people jealous. It might be better if you take a little bit.

Finally, I wish you success in your studies and a happy and successful life.

If there is fate, we will meet again.

Your tablemate: Wu Hongmei.

I put the letter away and put it in my bag. That's something I didn't expect. No wonder last Saturday morning when school was over, Wu Hongmei always stayed in her place and stopped talking. She must have had something to say to me at the time.

She didn't leave an address, she didn't allow me to inquire about her school, she didn't want me to contact her again, she wanted me to quit in her historical stage.

The reason why she is so decisive is actually a kind of inferiority complex that is at fault.

She wanted to keep that piece intact. She feared that any word would ruin the integrity.

But why did she say that if she was fated, she would get together again?

I can't figure it out.

In short, there are hundreds of teachers and students in a huge school, but I feel like I am living in a vast desert, and I am always alone.

Of course, Chu Huoyu will also talk to me. However, how much interest do I still have in talking after all of a sudden I have been through so much? There was only silence.

But it's silence, and Chu Huoyu will also be silent with me. Is it sympathy?

I do not know.

After Yu Huihui's affairs were dealt with, the head teacher returned to the class, but he was no longer the director of political education. The principal was relieved of his position and demoted to an ordinary teacher, but he also did not teach the curriculum.

The average principal would ask to be transferred after such a big incident, and I don't know why the principal would want to stay.

Maybe this is his roots.

Li Xiwen was arrested and sent to re-education through labor. On the day of the incident, he was taken away by the police station, so I never saw him again, but I often thought of him, his desire to see the girl's ass, the way he wore a red condom and was pulled by Yu Huihui and Chu Huoyu, and remembered that he pronounced the third tone of "I" as the second tone of "my mother......

I called my father to verify my school status. My student status is indeed retained in Hua'an No. 4 Middle School, and I do have to go back to Hua'an No. 4 Middle School for the high school entrance examination, and I am also a borrowed student in Jiangcun Middle School. After the dismissal of the principal, this information was announced at the teachers' meeting, and I suddenly became a member of Jiangcun Middle School.

I vividly remember how the teachers took a 180-degree turn towards me.

The only happy one is Wang Qianjun, who is back to being the school treasure of Jiangcun Middle School. Naturally, he often went to the dormitory to "visit" again, and many people gathered around him to listen to him tell those ghost stories, and his voice became hearty and high-pitched again.

He's been nicer to me. He would lend me extra materials that the teachers gave him, but I was always dismissive, and he repeatedly said, "How can you stop caring about such good information"? He didn't seem to know that Jiang Shixiong had "betrayed" him.

I was very amuseful to go back to the seat where Wu Hongmei and I were sitting in the fifth row. I don't know why, only in this position can I ignore the attitude of the teachers towards me, and only in this position can I review with peace of mind.

I listened to that box of Teresa Teng's tapes badly.

The review for the high school entrance examination ended quickly, and in the last mock exam in the county, I left some questions for many subject papers, and I wanted Wang Qianjun to maintain that good feeling.

Because, everything here will become my memory.

The day has come to leave Jiangcun Middle School. It was my grandmother who found a car to pick me up.

At that time, I was the only one left in the dormitory. The first and second years of junior high school are on vacation, and my classmates have already gone home. The dorm room was empty. The floor in the dormitory was a mess, full of test papers and books.

I walked to the open space behind the classroom. Chu Huoyu stayed there. From afar, the river glistens in the sun.

"Haven't you gone back yet?" I say.

"Not yet, what about you?"

"I'm waiting for the bus."

"Zheng Qihang, will we see you again?" Chu Huoyu is quite sentimental.

"Yes."

"You won't forget Yu Huihui, will you?"

"No, it won't. I'm here because I think of her. I said.

"Me too. Everything felt like a dream. ”

"But there is no Yu Huihui in the dream."

"If you think about it, there will still be it in the dream, but the impression will become more and more blurred." Chu Huoyu said

"Yes. Goodbye, the car that picked me up came. "I heard the horn of the little car.

"Welcome to Jiang Village as a guest."

"I won't come to Jiang Village again."

"Oh."

"You should know why."

"I know. Then goodbye. ”

"Goodbye."

I left Chu Huoyu and went to the playground. A small car is parked in front of the dormitory. My grandmother and mother stood beside the car. They've moved my stuff to the trunk.

I walked towards them.

Sitting in the car, I didn't want to talk. Both my mother and grandmother thought I was sad to leave Jiangcun Middle School.

The car stopped for a moment in front of the breakfast shop. The breakfast shop lady said goodbye to us. The mother had already settled the account with the hostess.

The car started and I noticed in the rearview mirror that the proprietress had been standing there waving to us. Her figure is getting smaller and smaller.

I saw Hao Junqi running on the road waving her little hand. I just remembered that I hadn't thought of Hao Junqi for a long time.

I subconsciously touched the jade pendant hanging around my neck and the raised sarcoma on the middle finger of my left hand.