I miss her when I don't see her, and I can't control my heart when I see her.

He really wanted to walk cleanly.

He could see that the little girl had some meaning for him.

He knew that joining the army meant that he had entrusted his destiny to the country.

He didn't want to drag her down, and he didn't want to ruin her youth, so that night, when he sent her home, he made a decision.

He offered to apologize to her, he offered to ask her to go to the movies, and he gave her her phone number......

Only he knows that he does these things not really to start with her, but to end up with her.

Because of the phone number, he gave it a fake.

He made an appointment to watch a movie, but he didn't plan to go.

It's not so much that he's cutting off her feelings for him, it's better to say that he's pushing himself to a dead end.

On the day of the second appointment to see the movie, he actually went.

It's just that he didn't show up.

He never knew that he was so ruthless.

He held an umbrella from afar, looked at her like a fool, stubbornly waited for him to refuse to leave, looked at her like a madman, dialed her one phone call after another......

He was so far away from her, there was the sound of cars, the wind, and the rain, but he seemed to hear her cry, and it was like he heard her cry, and it surrounded his ears one by one.

He forced himself to be calm, no matter how calm he was, he was really calm enough, until night fell, until the lights were dim, he never stepped in front of her.

She left, and he didn't leave.

He thought to himself, she is really dead now, and he should die too......

But after he ignored Mr. Gu's retention and insisted on entering the army, he realized that it was not the beginning of his dead heart, but the beginning of pain.

He began to think about her day and night, thinking when he stared at the scorching sun and stood in a military posture until he was dizzy, when he ran thirty laps around the playground until his whole body was out of strength, and when his roommate fell asleep at night and he could only keep his eyes open until dawn...... Because he didn't dare to sleep, as soon as he closed his eyes, he was like a demon, and frequently dreamed of her squatting in the heavy rain and crying......

The new recruit who has just joined the team has a large amount of training, and it has really become a thing for him to stay awake at night.

He saw a doctor, but the doctors were helpless, and in the end he had to rely on a lot of drugs to maintain basic sleep.

……

On the white and quiet hospital bed, Gu Yusheng, who was sleeping, suddenly became a little painful, layers of cold sweat broke out on his forehead, and his body began to tremble.

When Mr. Gu saw this scene, he was in a hurry, and immediately rushed to the bed and began to shout Gu Yusheng: "The rest of your life? Rest? Rest? ”

After shouting I don't know how many words, Gu Yusheng, who had slept for a full day and a night, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and she slowly opened her eyes.

Maybe it's because he's been asleep for too long, or maybe it's because the dream has been going on for too long, Gu Yusheng was a little dazed, and he watched the ceiling for a long time, until he heard his grandfather's shout again, he moved his eyes, and shouted "grandpa" in a hoarse voice, and then struggled to sit up.

It was pitch black outside the window, and there was a faint sound of a car's horn, which came from time to time.

Gu Yusheng ignored his grandfather's questions, quietly looked at the night light outside the window for a long time, and then realized that when he fell asleep, the things that came to his mind were not dreams, but the past times that he had forgotten.

PS: Plot preview: Lu Bancheng said while peeling apples: "Xiao Ai and Nuan Nuan are really difficult sisters and sisters, Nuan Nuan was betrayed by love, and Xiao Ai is father once owed a lot of gambling debts." Gu Yusheng, who had been ignoring Lu Bancheng's words, suddenly raised his head, gambling debts? On the file he checked, it was clear that her father owed gambling debts!

PPS: It's gone to bed today, and I'm going to sleep for an earlier update tomorrow, so that I can make up for it~ Everyone goes to bed early~ Good dreams and good night~ Remember to vote for monthly tickets and recommended votes on the next page~