Chapter 89: Monologues

You've been following me, and wherever I run away, you'll be there after a while.

I want to get rid of you, but every time you appear in front of me, every time you look at me like that.

You told me not to run away, and that wherever I fled, I would be tracked down.

I don't think I'm worse than you, it's just that another person who is physically in the body will make a mistake, that person doesn't know when it will come out, and I can't suppress him.

When you were on the island, all the people in your family were killed, and that person kept looking for the murderer and wrote to call you.

The moment you saw me, I knew that my fate had come, and when I faced you, I thought about dying at your hands.

Because it's so difficult, I don't want to live this endless life for a moment.

So I wrote down my experiences in my notes, but I was afraid that the notes would be seen by the world too soon, so I divided the notes into several copies and distributed them to my people.

When you read the notes, you may understand why you were able to find me so easily.

Whenever I stand in front of the mirror, I look at myself in the mirror, the person in the mirror makes me afraid, he has a serious and upright face, which is very different from my heart, and only at this moment in front of the mirror, I can realize my true self.

Maybe it's to redeem your soul? I've done some good things, but every time it's been thankless, and the people on the island are afraid of me, and sometimes I really want to explain to them, but no one will listen to me, and no one will dare to listen.

The moment I picked up the butcher's knife, I could never look back, and that island would be where I would be buried.

But it backfired, and when I was about to die, another one came out, and when I was awake, all the enemies were lying in the graveyard, and all I could do was bury the bodies.

When there was nothing I could do, I decided to leave, to leave this ostracized island, because I did not belong there, and to the people of the island, I was an enemy from outside.

I also thought about uprooting all the roots that I had left behind, but I couldn't, no one of the wicked would do anything to their descendants, and although those descendants should not exist in the world, I still didn't do it.

It's ridiculous to think about it, I actually thought of you at that time, and I was actually quite similar to you at that time.

I heard that you settled in the north, and I was going to look for you and make a settlement with you, but that time it wasn't you who tracked me down, but I took the initiative to send it to the door, just like this time, I knew that getting on the ship would not end well, but I still came.

When you saw me, you didn't reject me, but received me with the highest standard at the time, which made me very happy.

We drank until dawn like old friends, but I didn't know if we were friends or enemies at that time.

Your life is what I yearn for, and I have thought that it would be better to live in that village with you in this life, which is also a kind of happiness.

And you agreed, and I am grateful from the bottom of my heart for your acceptance.

But when I came up with a plan to extend my life, you hit me.

You don't agree with what I'm doing, and you insist on going against me, and I can promise you anything, but not this one, because I'm so eager for life.

Even though I kept being stopped by you, I did it, and I succeeded.

When you see me again, I'm what I am.

You pointed a gun at me, and you didn't look at me like an old friend at all, and you looked at me in a terrible way that annoyed me, and that used to be the most hated look I hated.

I know you won't show mercy, and you can see from your eyes that you are full of murderous intent, so I begged for mercy, I don't want to die.

Perhaps death is the thing I fear the most, especially when faced with being blocked by you, and there is nothing more devastating for me than that kind of thing.

So I beg for mercy, I give up great dignity, and even then I beg you.

Sure enough, you put down the gun, and the moment you put the gun down, I didn't want to see you again, no, it was I who didn't want you to see it again.

It's the first time I've lost my dignity in front of you, so I don't want you to see me again, and the feeling of being trampled on is more terrifying than death.

So you have to die, just like today, and I show fear in front of you again, so you have to die.

Do you know why I created you? Actually, I just wanted to get back to Isse, but I didn't expect that I would still be as humble as before when facing you.

Maybe you're naturally strong in your bones, or maybe I'm inherently inferior to you, so I'm afraid when I face you.

This time you still lose, and history seems to repeat itself, but I don't think this time is very comfortable to win, just like the last time.

Although I won't win by force, I am already halfway to defeat you again.

The remaining half is to trample on your dignity, just as you once trampled on me, and I want you to know that no one in this world can step on my head.

So you can't die, you can't now, and you can't in the future.

Remember my face, my young face, I am no longer the aging Commander Fang.

I will take everything from you, including Sitong.

After you left me for the first time, Sitong was captured by me, and this time it was the same, but I really had no interest in this test subject.

Then die! Let this test subject accompany you to bury you, the last time you died very lonely, this time I will do the only good deed on you, let Sitong accompany you to fall into hell.

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Dr. Qian leaned on the iron door and said what he wanted to say most in his life in front of Xu Tian, and when he finished speaking, he felt that there was not much resentment left in his heart, and this time he won.

Xu Tian was knocked to the ground, and the second trauma to his lumbar spine was so severe that he couldn't stand up.

At this moment, Xu Tian also figured out more things, the scene he saw when he flashed back, and the suspense left by Commander Fang in his notes, were all solved one by one.

All the riddles that plagued Xu Tian were explained in Dr. Qian's monologue, but this was not the result that Xu Tian wanted, and this outcome was darker than all Xu Tian had expected.

For his identity, Xu Tian felt even more powerless, and this result was difficult for Xu Tian to accept.

But so what? Now there is no way to recover, Sitong was killed in front of his eyes is also Xu Tian's surprise, this frustration without any struggle makes Xu Tian ashamed, and he can only watch Doctor Qian deal with himself......

Is it?