"I see you're quickly becoming an expert in love analysis." I scoffed. But I secretly complained in my heart, it seems that it was a good idea to bring Jin Limei to Hua'an that day.

"Another thing, maybe you didn't notice it yourself, Zheng Yidao." Jin Limei ignored my taunts, "You didn't realize that as long as you are with me, you have a lot of words, you like to communicate with me, and you are especially good at saying things that hurt me." ”

I was stunned and said, "Is that so?" You're too sensitive, aren't you? ”

Can you deny that? You see you're with someone else, whether it's in the office or at the dinner table, do you ever talk like that to me? Jin Limei continued.

"Yes. When I drink too much. I said.

"You know it's time to drink too much. If you don't drink, who are you not stuffy with? So, Zheng Yidao, stop deceiving yourself, we are all adults. ”

"Listen to what you mean, do we have to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau tomorrow to get a marriage certificate?" I teased.

"I'd love to." Jin Limei said.

"But I'm not happy."

"It's okay, then I'll wait for you when you like."

"But what if I'm not happy in my life?"

"Then I'll wait for you for the rest of my life."

I turned my head to look out the window. Night has fallen. Street lights are flashing.

Really fainted. Jin Limei is also too straightforward.

After a while, I turned my head back. I noticed that Jin Limei's eyes were full of tears.

I broke the silence: "Jin Limei, don't think I'm too ruthless, I'm really not as good as you think, so you don't have to do this to me." Really, I would prefer that we maintain this relationship. We maintain this relationship, and I feel more natural and happier. That's why I'm so open and talked about with you. I'm so scared that once we break through this relationship, we won't have this tacit understanding between us, and therefore we won't have this kind of happiness. ”

Jin Limei moved her body and said, "How come?" I wonder how you can have such concerns? The further development of our relationship between us, our relationship should be more natural and happier, how can we lose happiness? Is it said that love is the grave of happiness? ”

"There are some things you don't necessarily understand." I sighed.

"I'm a married person, so what else don't I understand?" Jin Limei said.

"Everybody has something they don't understand." I say.

"Then please tell me."

"I can't tell you right now."

"You can't tell me, hmph, I know, isn't it Hao Junqi? I can't get used to your hypocrisy. Jin Limei became emotional.

"Hypocrisy? Am I hypocritical? "I don't understand why Kim Li-mei called me hypocritical.

"Because you don't dare to face it. The complex you can't open is actually Hao Junqi. This Hao Junqi planted what you thought was the love in your heart when you were a child, and because this love has not been realized, you always can't let go, and you are always looking forward to it. ”

"......" I looked at Jin Limei.

"I even think that you divorced your wife for this reason because you have been looking for it. I have already pointed this out. This is often the case with many things, because if you don't get it, you feel that it's incomparably good, and you always want to get it. That's how you are mentally right now. And now, Hao Junqi suddenly appeared next to you, or rather, you finally found Hao Junqi, so you are even more entangled, especially what makes you entangled is her tragic experience. However, Zheng Yidao, sympathy is not love, do you know? Love can't be sandwiched with a little sympathy. You don't have an emotional foundation at all, think about it, can Hao Junqi, who is now thirty, be the same as the twelve-year-old Hao Junqi in your impression? ”

The more Jin Limei analyzed, the more energetic she became, and she even forgot about her illness. Of course, it's also possible that the constant infusion of potions is working. Her pale face grew red.

"Don't say it." I interrupted Jin Limei, "Don't analyze it anymore, because you can't understand the relationship between me and Hao Junqi." ”

"I'm just saying, I'm just going to let you analyze your feelings thoroughly. You can't run away like this forever. Jin Limei said.

"Escape? What do I run away from? I asked, surprised.

"Your true feelings. It's the feelings for me. ”

"Please, don't do that." I say.

"That's what I am. This is Jin Limei. If I don't, I won't be Jin Limei, you know? It's okay, Zheng Yidao, I'll wait for you to untie the complex. What I have is patience. ”

……

For the next two or three days, I was reminiscing about what Jin Limei said. Jin Limei's obsession with me touched me and stressed me at the same time. I feel like I should be cautious about this relationship. One thing is for sure, I don't want to and can't hurt Jin Limei.

The question is, how do I say what can I do to make Jin Limei die for me?

One is that she decided that I had a crush on her. The three points she analyzed, put on ordinary people, can get the conclusion she has reached. But she didn't know that I wasn't an ordinary person, that I was a person who trespassed on a forbidden area, that I was a person with a supernatural flesh ring on the finger of my left hand.

The second is that she doesn't admit that I have feelings for Hao Junqi. She felt that I was sympathizing with Hao Junqi. Her feelings were not unreasonable. To be honest, after 18 years, I don't know if I have a feeling of love for Hao Junqi, and whether the mood I currently have is the feeling of love, I can't be sure.

But what is certain is that I will work hard with Hao Junqi to cultivate a sense of love. My feelings for Hao Junqi are by no means just sympathy.

Not to mention anything else, what the flesh ring spirit is maintaining urgently needs to be examined.

Therefore, the best way to make Jin Limei die is to give everything and the plate.

But just like Ding Ying, just like Ai Zhenzi, if Jin Limei didn't see the spirit of the flesh ring flashing in person, what would she believe it? Will she believe us if we have broken into the so-called forbidden zone? Will she believe that the Optimus Stone Pillar Cliff has cracked into a concave and convex stone wall? Will she believe that the flesh ring on our middle finger has a supernatural spirit?

It only pushes her to identify her feelings more and more.

Either way, though, the overall thing is, I have to distance myself from Jin Limei. I can't let Jin Limei fall into the whirlpool of love that Xu Xiaorou talked about.

……

The hot weather has been going on for quite some time. The maximum temperature sometimes reaches 37 degrees Celsius.

In the operating room, even though the air conditioning is on, you are still sweating because you are constantly in a state of tension.

In the past few days, I have had several major surgeries in a row.

Hao Junqi still goes to set up a stall every night, and I accompany her whenever I have time.

In this hot weather, that alley is exceptionally sweltering. The tall buildings on both sides block the wind blowing from the Yangjiang River.

I remember it was Thursday night that week, and I went to Hao Junqi's stall very late because of things in the hospital. When I arrived at the point where Hao Junqi set up her stall, Hao Junqi was about to pack up the stall and go home. I noticed that her skirt was sticking to her back, and the piece on her back was soaking wet, reflecting the buckle of her bra.

It was an unusually hot and humid day.

"This summer seems to be a little hotter, and it's only been June that it's been so hot." I'll help sort it out together.

"I've heard it won't cool down until next week." Hao Junqi said.

"I've heard that, too. It seems to say that some typhoon is about to make landfall. ”

"I heard that this typhoon is not seen in 50 years. I don't know if I have checked in and landed from. ”

"I didn't pay attention. Anyway, those coastal cities. Speaking of which, it's better for us to be a small place, and the wind and rain are smooth. There were no major droughts and no major floods. There is no need to worry about earthquakes. I said.

"But I don't want it to rain. When it rains, I can't set up a stall. Hao Junqi said.

"You can't set up a stall, just relax. Why so hard? Didn't I advise you many times not to set up a stall? ”

"But my brother's money always has to be repaid."

"Brother's money, brother's money, since it's brother's money, what else can you pay back? Didn't you say that my brother's home is your home? Do you know? My eyes were moist when you said that that day. "Now, at this moment, my eyes are moist too.

"No, you have to pay back the money anyway. Do you think it's two pieces a piece, one hundred and two hundred? ”

I couldn't help but grab Hao Junqi's hands in my hands, "Junqi, you can't think like this, you can't think like this, you know?" Brother gives you money because he doesn't want you to live so hard, and he doesn't want you to have too much pressure in life. If you still keep it in mind, wouldn't it make no sense for me to give you money? ”

"How could it not make sense? It's relieved me a lot. I feel light now. ”

"In that case, why do you care if you can set up a stall? You have to remember, Junqi, that you are no longer alone now. You have a brother now. Brother's money is your money. Brother has as much money as you have. You know? ”

Hao Junqi nodded, and shook her head again, "Is it okay to think so?" She pulled her hands out of my hands and looked at me infatuatedly.

"No, you can, you have to think so. Junqi, my brother has been missing eighteen years in your life, and my brother wants to make up for these eighteen years as much as possible. Brother wants you to have the shadow of your brother in your future life. So, there's no need to negotiate any more, from tomorrow onwards, we won't set up this night's stall. "The more I talked, the more excited I became.

"Don't set up a stall at night?"

"That's right. Didn't I persuade you many times? The debt has been repaid, why is it necessary to set up a stall? Not for anything else, there's no need to do this for Hao Jia, right? ”

"Brother-" Hao Junqi finally couldn't control herself and threw herself into my arms.

"Junqi." I hugged Hao Junqi's waist tightly. I felt that the words about Hao Jia touched Hao Junqi's pain.

"Brother—"

"Hmm."

"Is it brother? Is it really Brother Sailing? ”

"Yes, it's Brother Sailing." Tears welled up in my eyes.

"Brother promised Junqi not to leave Junqi in the future, okay?" Hao Junqi choked.

"Brother promises you, brother will never leave Junqi in the future. Brother wants to be with Junqi forever. ”

But Jun Qi was always afraid that this was a dream. Jun Qi feels like she is living in a dream these days. ”

"I'm like that too, and I'm afraid it's a dream because I've had it countless times and you're not there when I wake up." I say.

"I don't know how many times I've dreamed of us meeting each other, on the train, in the cinema, and even in the thatched house where we lived when we were kids, but every time I wake up, it's empty, and I can't even see your shadow."

"But it's not a dream now, you know? You can perceive my existence, I can perceive your existence. ”

"Hmm." Hao Junqi hugged me harder, "I really sensed my brother's existence. ”

"From now on we will always be together."

"Hmm. Together forever, never separated again. ”

If it weren't for Hao Jia's call that night to separate us, I don't know when or to what extent we would have been hurt. It was Hao Jia's call that brought us back to our composure.

On the way back to drive them back, Hao Junqi once again told them about going to the East Gate on Saturday. We agreed on the time and place of the meeting.