That afternoon we lay in Simmons' bed for nearly half an hour. The wind from the electric fan blew away the heat and blew away Hao Junqi's dreaming feeling.

We all feel very happy. It's a very satisfying feeling. Hao Jia fell asleep between us.

If it weren't for Hao Junqi remembering to cook, we would have continued to lie down.

We walked together to the kitchen. Hao Junqi used the rice cooker to wash rice, and I squatted on the ground to choose vegetables. Hao Junqi stir-fried, and I cooperated with her and handed her oil, salt, sauce and vinegar.

Hao Junqi urged me to go to the living room to watch TV, but I didn't agree. I love the feeling of doing things with Hao Junqi. If I sit alone in the living room and watch TV, I will have the same dreaming feeling as Hao Junqi.

What I need is to stay by Hao Junqi's side. Seeing her and hearing her voice will turn into a real feeling.

Because, eighteen years is enough to turn reality into a dream.

After eating, because Saturday night was the only night that Xu Xiaorou didn't study late, the four of us went out to the mall, shopping, and walking.

Many people think that we are a family of four, and they cast very envious eyes on us.

Whether it is in the mall or on the street, Xu Xiaorou takes Hao Jia with her. Hao Jia became her follower. This all stems from the fact that Xu Xiaorou bought several toys for Hao Jia.

Xu Xiaorou's activity may be reflected here.

In this way, Hao Junqi and I can have a very comfortable conversation.

In the middle of the call, my mother called again, and after I said a few words, I asked Hao Junqi to communicate with my mother. Unexpectedly, the call lasted for twenty minutes.

They have so much to say to each other.

So much so that when Hao Junqi returned the phone to me, I could clearly feel that the phone board was hot.

Hao Junqi's eyes were full of tears again.

"It's okay." I comforted Hao Junqi.

Hao Junqi nodded, "I also know that everything is over, but ...... I still can't help but cry when I think of the past. I even wanted to cry when I heard Mr. Yan's voice. ”

This is called seeing things and thinking about people, touching the eyes and hurting.

"People who have been through too much tend to become vulnerable." I say.

"yes. There are no fewer tears shed these days than they did then. ”

"When everyone has met, and when things like reminiscing are done, it won't be so sad."

"When will my brother return to Hua'an?"

"How?"

"I want to visit Mr. Yan. It's time for me to visit them. ”

"You can go whenever you want."

"But there's something weird." Hao Junqi changed the topic.

"Which point?"

"I also said a few words to Mr. Zheng just now, and I feel that he is in a very heavy mood. Especially when I said that I lived with my brother, he was silent for half a minute. I always felt like he had some concerns. ”

"What are the concerns? When people are old and have chronic diseases, they will inevitably be in a bad mood. I said. But my heart is cold, Hao Junqi's feeling is the same as mine!

So, what is it that makes my father worry about me and Hao Junqi getting along?

Father actually does not reject Hao Junqi. He specially went to Yangjiang to visit Hao Junqi, and gave her a sum of money privately because of Hao Junqi's financial difficulties.

It's a mystery.

……

The next day, I woke up early. Thinking back to being able to say good night to Hao Junqi in person last night, my heart is still full of happiness.

Hao Junqi and Xu Xiaorou were washing clothes together in the bathroom, talking to each other. Hao Jia was still lying on Simmons, but she had also woken up. She's playing her own game.

Everything was so beautiful.

After breakfast, I first sent Xu Xiaorou to Yangjiang No. 1 Middle School, then Hao Jia to kindergarten, then Hao Junqi to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and finally to the hospital.

It's still early. I sat at my desk and flipped through the medical records written by Wang Hao for a while.

After reading the medical records, I went to the bathroom, and when I came back, I found Jin Rusheng in our office.

"So early, Director Kim." I took the initiative to say hello.

"I'm looking for you."

"Is there something wrong? Did you arrange for us to have a big meal again? "We occasionally invite the patient's family out to dinner for a big meal.

"It's a temporary change. The dean of the operation of the wife of the director of the National People's Congress still asked me to do the surgery. ”

"Oh?" I was amazed. This kind of temporary surgical change is not uncommon in surgery, but it has rarely happened to me.

"The dean wanted to call you personally, but he was afraid that he couldn't tell you clearly on the phone, so he asked me to come over early in the morning to explain to you."

"I'm at the dean's disposal." I say. But I can't tell how lost I am. Not to mention how much I prepared for this, like mentioned earlier, the main thing is that I have too much to expect from this surgery. In county-level hospitals, there are too few opportunities for such practice.

Needless to say, the accumulation of a surgeon's clinical experience depends on a large amount of practice.

"I know you must have a pimple in your heart," Jin Rusheng saw my heart clearly, "but to tell you the truth, I don't have any bottom in my heart." So yesterday the dean said that you should be the main knife, and my shoulders suddenly became lighter. I don't really have much confidence. ”

"Don't be modest at this point," I looked at Jin Rusheng gratefully, "in a way, you can be regarded as my teacher." If you don't have faith, no one in our department has faith. ”

"No, set sail, I'm not modest," Jin Rusheng patted me on the shoulder, "I'm talking from the heart." You are more savvy than I am in this type of surgery. ”

When Jin Rusheng said this type of surgery, he refers to those major surgeries that are too complicated.

"But I can't push it off," Jin Rusheng continued, "I heard that the dean said that it was the opinion of the son-in-law of the director of the National People's Congress, and I must be in charge." In this kind of matter, the dean can only listen to the family. ”

"What kind of character is the son-in-law of the director of the National People's Congress?" I asked.

"I'm not very clear. I heard that he is the deputy captain of the urban management brigade, and the director of the people's congress is a daughter, and he cares very much about his son-in-law's opinion. I hope you understand. ”

"I can understand, Director Jin, if there is nothing else, I will go to the ward rounds."

"Okay."

Jin Rusheng walked out of the office. I sat in my seat for a while, and when I had calmed down, I went to the ward.

The appointed time for the operation of the wife of the director of the National People's Congress - 9:00 clock arrived soon. The people involved are engaged in intense work.

I sat idly in my office, bored flipping through the patient record book. When a patient's family came in to inquire, I was very patient in answering the questions. Wang Hao sat across from me.

"Teacher, the dean really didn't think about making this arrangement." Wang Hao held my grievances for me, "Obviously, you are the most sure of this operation." I'm really worried that Director Jin will have a big negative factor after the operation. ”

"This is the request of the patient's family, not the will of the dean." I say.

"But the dean has the right to decide. He should put himself in the patient's shoes. ”

"That being said," I said, "but Wang Hao, you have to know that society is a very complex group. The dean is actually very difficult to do. Many times, the opinion of the family must come first. ”

"But I still feel aggrieved for the teacher."

"Forget it. I'm sure Director Jin will grasp it well. ”

Before I could finish my words, a nurse hurried into the office, "Quick, Zheng Yidao, quick!" "The nurse was out of breath.

"What's the matter?" I immediately stood up from my position.

"Hurry to the operating room. Come on. ”

"What's the matter?" I had a hunch that something was wrong with the operation of the wife of the director of the National People's Congress.

"Don't ask why? Come with me to the operating room. "The nurse came straight to my arm.

I went quickly to the operating room with the nurse. In the locker room I did all the disinfection and then walked into the operating room.

I saw the shadowless lights on. The patient's abdomen has been opened. Jin Rusheng was stunned.

Some of them were anxious.

Walking into the patient's side, I immediately understood from the patient's state that Jin Rusheng couldn't move his knife.

Perhaps Jin Rusheng was frightened by the patient's state.

Seeing me enter the operating room, Jin Rusheng immediately gave up his position. I walked up to the patient, and the patient's condition was very similar to what I had seen in my clinical practice. The tumor on the stomach was about 3 centimeters in diameter.

Jin Rusheng was probably stunned by this tumor.

I took a deep breath. Thinking back to the movements of the skilled surgeon in the Second Affiliated Hospital, combined with my several speculations about this operation, I quickly found my senses, and then went under the knife decisively.

Everyone cooperated very tacitly.

The surgery was over after 65 minutes.

It took 5 minutes less than the surgeon's masterpiece at the Second Affiliated Hospital!

When the assistant stitched up the patient's opening, I was pleasantly surprised. I couldn't have imagined that it would take less time than the surgeon at the Second Affiliated Hospital to perform similar surgeries.

You know, how much Ai Sadako and I admired that surgeon at the beginning. He is simply a specimen of our future medical practice.

Who would have thought I would break his record?

Of course, five or six years have passed, and perhaps that surgeon has broken his own record.

But, even so, I'm just as proud.

Another round of praise.

Jin Rusheng and I discussed it all the way to the surgeon's office. The reason why Jin Rusheng did not dare to use the knife was ultimately a matter of confidence. It's not a technical issue.

It was at the spiritual level that the dean and his family put a lot of pressure on Jin Rusheng.

Of course, the deteriorating state of the patient is also an aspect.

"Set sail, you saved me today," Jin Rusheng kept putting his hand on my shoulder, "Really, the moment I opened the patient's stomach, my mind went blank." It's like the trainee teacher walks on the podium for the first time, and her mind suddenly goes blank. ”

"It must be too much pressure." I say.

"That's right. I felt like I had a thousand pounds of weight on my shoulders. As long as you are still not confident. Overcautious. ”

"yes, don't you tell me so often? The most taboo thing a surgeon does is to hold back and not want you to make the mistake yourself. ”

"That's true. Once people lose their self-confidence, they can't do anything to put me. And this patient is so special, how can I not feel stressed. ”

"I understand. I don't feel pressured at all. ”

"yes. That's what makes you better than me. All I need is your composure and confidence. ”

"You've won the prize, Director Kim."

"Really."