Chapter 190: Self-Satisfaction (First Update, Ask for Subscription!)
Something about the second practice lonely soul.
Old Master Xu didn't tell Huijue the identity of this person, he just said that as long as Huijue and they arrived at the Nanyang Oasis, they could see her.
Wanting to influence her and let her let go of her obsession is also a relatively simple thing compared to other practicing orphans.
Therefore, the matter of Mu County was over, and Huijue and Fu Qingxiao went to Nanyang Shahai together.
"The long 800 miles of sand sea are all caused by the power of a half-immortal and a wrath, and when it comes to such a realm, moving mountains and reclaiming the sea, destroying the heavens and the earth, it really doesn't matter. ”
The wind and sand around him swirled, and Fu Qingxiao couldn't help but sigh.
Her eyes were full of inexplicable light.
It seems to be a reverence for the half-immortals, and it seems to be a little ambitious, hoping that he will be able to reach such a state in the future.
However, Fu Qingxiao's words fell, but Huijue shook his head.
His expression was a little persistent,
"Amitabha. ”
"The ability of a half-immortal is indeed incredible. ”
"The power of a rage burned 800 miles, a long sea of sand, and no grass grew for more than 3,000 years. ”
"With such power, you can really be called a land immortal. ”
"It's just that the only pity is that this kind of power has not been able to be used to benefit the people, not to mention, but has caused misery to the living beings, which is really a pity and a pity!"
Saying this, Huijue clasped his palms together and bowed slightly,
The little monk lost his words, hoping that the two immortals would not blame. ”
The events of those years are no longer known.
Two half-immortals, which is right and which is wrong, and what are they fighting for, who can determine the truth except for themselves.
It's just that if such a power can be used to benefit the common people, every move can bring how much merit it can bring.
And how many poor people who cannot be liberated.
Thinking of this, Huijue naturally sighed a little in his heart.
This is also because of the situation he is in now, and he feels it.
If he can have the ability of a half-immortal now, he can naturally do it, many things that he wants to do now, but he can't do it because of his strength.
At least you don't have to face the dilemma of being led by the nose now.
However, in the face of Hui Jue's words, Fu Qingxiao smiled, but also shook his head.
Then she looked at Hui Jue, but said,
The little woman understood what the master was thinking. ”
"But because the immortals are capable, they have to help the mortals. ”
Such an idea is inevitably difficult for some strong people. ”
"Actually, master, you may not have realized that your idea of wanting to purify the world is right, but what you are doing is wrong. ”
Hearing Fu Qingxiao say this, Huijue couldn't help but ask,
"What's wrong?"
Regarding Huijue's rebuttal, Fu Qingxiao also seemed to have expected it.
She smiled and continued,
"Master's idea is very good, Pudu Shiren. ”
"It's just that, in Qingxiao's opinion, you seem to be sincere in saving people, and you can even sacrifice everything you have, just to help others. ”
"But, is this what you really do from your heart?"
Facing Fu Qingxiao's words, Huijue also smiled, but he didn't answer.
Because for him, this question does not need to be answered.
Looking at Hui Jue's appearance, Fu Qingxiao continued,
"Nope. ”
"Maybe for you, for the people you are saving, you are really saving them, even at the expense of what you have. ”
"But in Qingxiao's view, you have fallen into delusion. ”
"You don't want to save people from your heart, you just want to redeem yourself by saving people. ”
Or that what you do is nothing more than the self-satisfaction of those who have power. ”
In the last sentence, Fu Qingxiao looked directly at Hui Jue with both eyes and said word by word.
Fu Qingxiao's words fell, and Huijue was stunned.
Her words were like a bolt of lightning striking Huijue.
Huijue's soul was blank for a moment.
"Really, is that so?!"
At this moment, countless thoughts flashed through Huijue's mind.
His present life, his past life.
Is his desire to save people and save the world really just a kind of sick self-satisfaction? Or rather, his own escape and redemption of the sins he has committed.
With these thoughts flashing, Huijue's eyes seemed to appear one after another unforgettable pictures.
Cold winter.
Only six years old, he stood in front of the fireplace.
The old dean sat in a chair and hugged him, with a kind smile on her face.
......
"Little Wind, wait for me, wait for me......"
The little girl shouted loudly as she ran.
Under the bright sun.
In the courtyard of the orphanage, two children are laughing.
That smile is innocent.
......
Inside a dark rental house.
She knelt in front of him with a purple face, begging bitterly,
"Please, let me go, I know, I'm sorry for you!"
She begged for mercy like that.
But he just didn't say a word, and with the knife in his hand, he slit her throat.
......
The autumn breeze of Sother was blowing.
The yellow leaves kept falling.
He stood by the small lake in the park, looking at the calm lake, and there was only sadness and remorse in his heart.
"If there is an afterlife, I hope that I can be a good person......"
With that, he jumped into the icy water.
Memories and images of the past come to mind.
Huijue unconsciously showed a somewhat sad look on his face.
Cold sweat poured out of his face.
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his chaotic mind finally calming down a little.
"Because in the incense belief, too many distracting thoughts have polluted my consciousness, so that my state of mind can no longer maintain its original purity and emptiness?"
In my mind, there were many distracting thoughts, and such a thought arose.
Then he slowly opened his eyes again.
His eyes had regained their composure,
"So what?"
"What if it's not?"
"For me, it's just a matter of doing it. ”
Towards Fu Qingxiao, Huijue said.
However, this time, Fu Qingxiao shook his head again,
"Even if you can save them once, what about next time? Can you save them for the rest of your life?"
"You can save ten people, a hundred people. ”
"But how many people are there in this world?"
"You can save the Terrans, but what about the multitudes outside of humans?"
"How much can you save?"
"You can't even save yourself. ”
"So what?"
Huijue spoke,
"Because it's difficult, because it's impossible to save everyone, don't you save it?"
"For me, it doesn't matter who I am. ”
"I saved people because of something. ”
"How many people can I save. ”
"Save them a few times. ”
"But as long as I see it, and I can do it, I will do it. ”
Saying this, an inexplicable smile appeared on Huijue's face,
"Sounds silly, doesn't it?"