I went back to school that night and was in the faculty building again.

I took the key to Ye Wen's bedroom from Luo Feng, and her parents only took away her body, but not her things, so I wanted to go over and have a look.

When I came to Ye Wen's room, I pushed the 'door' and walked in. The room is very simple, with a clean table top and neatly folded quilts, which are still spotless.

The only place where the mess is placed is in the middle of the room, where there is a chair lying on the ground crookedly, and there is a hook on the ceiling 'flower' board above the chair, it is conceivable that this should be the place where Ye Wen hanged herself at that time.

A picture came to my mind, Ye Wen leaned her neck close to Bai Aya, kicked the chair under her feet, her body swayed like a willow branch, her hair covered her entire face, and her hands naturally drooped, like a doll......

Ye Wen seems to love to read, indeed, I remember her previous habit of going to the library every night, and the shelves next to the 'bed' were full of all kinds of books, most of them, both foreign and domestic. Only, strangely, these books are not very famous, and I can hardly find a single famous book on her shelves that I used to name.

I was flipping through Ye Wen's bookshelf, but between the gaps that were piled up, I found a thick black book, and I 'pumped' her out, which seemed to be a diary.

Is it Ye Wen's diary?

I looked at the black book, and I didn't know if I should open it or not. But in the end, it was opened, and it was a pink 'colored' title page, but there was not a word. I continued to flip through and found that many of the pages had been torn off, leaving jagged marks on the paper.

I quickly understood why Ye Wen tore off all these pages, because in this way, people who opened them could see what Ye Wen wanted to show people as soon as possible, and I was surprised to find that this thing was written to me by a special 'door'.

Ji Nan, this is the last time I keep a diary.

I've been keeping this diary since four years ago, and I'm tearing it out because I don't want you to know how weak I was before, but maybe you know that I'm a person who doesn't know how good I can disguise myself.

Forgive me for choosing the path of death in the end, although Yang Zhilun is about to die and my revenge has been avenged, I thought that I could leave this place and start living again. But after taking revenge, I found that I had no idea where I was going. My youth 'spring' has been completely ruined by Yang Zhilun, and I only found out when I looked back that I didn't have a friend during this period of my youth 'spring', and my classmates who were students were also gradually estranged because of the different circles of work and life later.

Ridiculous, right? Hehe......

I don't know if they've heard about my current situation, but if they do, they'll probably pretend they don't know me as a person.

I thought about leaving, but I had no idea where I was going, who I was going to, or even if I should go home. The day my mom found out about me, she slapped me in the face, she said that I had lost her, and all my relatives in the family knew about it and seemed to be waiting to see my jokes.

I don't care, anyway, every day in school, I'm used to hearing me in the eyes of others. I just hope you don't laugh at me. Ji Nan, I don't know what you think, but in my eyes, you may be my only friend over the years. Thank you for helping me, I'll admit, you're not like a little 'bastard', and I don't know why you became a 'bastard'. If...... If I could be ten years younger, and nothing like that had happened, maybe I would have tried to pursue you like a little girl...... Haha, if you get angry when you hear it, think I'm joking.

Sometimes I wonder if Yang Zhilun had threatened me for the first time, I would have been able to stand up and expose him, would there have been no follow-up events? Isn't it possible to stop him, so that there won't be so many 'girl' students who will be harmed by him again?

Sometimes I regret it, but when I think about it, it doesn't seem like there's anything to regret. Because I know that even if I go back to the past, maybe I will still make the same choice, choose to swallow my anger, choose to endure humiliation. Because I don't dare, I actually know best how small my courage is, Yang Zhilun took a photo of me at that time, I really can't imagine what it would be like to let my former students, those children, let them see it.

I was just one person, I was the only one, I was just an ordinary 'woman'...... I really don't have the courage to face those things alone......

That night on the rooftop, I really wanted to look back at you and ask if you could give me a hug, just a hug between friends. But I finally held back, knowing that my body was already dirty, and that although you were a bastard, you were much cleaner than me, even cleaner than the people in the school who seemed to be full of poetry books.

At the end of the day, I still felt that maybe death was my best place, and that the best time of my life had been ruined. I'm tired, and I don't have the energy to think about how to manage my future years. Actually, I really wanted to jump from the rooftop that day, but you came, but you told me that if you jumped from here, death would be ugly.

I'm really scared, and I want you to take one last look at me, not to see me fall beyond recognition. So I chose to hang myself in my bedroom, and I deliberately opened the 'door' halfway before hanging, so that it would be easy for people to find out, I didn't mean to scare people, I just didn't want my body to rot, I didn't want my body to be stored in that lonely room for weeks without anyone finding out......

Ji Nan, thank you, thank you in the end, if it weren't for your appearance, maybe I would still choose to die in the end, but I may never be able to take revenge. This person who ruined my youthful 'spring', of course I want him to die, I don't want him to live in this world anymore and hurt more 'girl' students.

Maybe I shouldn't have come to this school in the first place? Or should I not have chosen to be a teacher in the first place? Maybe it's just because I'm naïve......

Make a wish before I die, I heard that the last wish a person makes before he dies will definitely be fulfilled.

My youthful 'spring' is already like this, no matter how much I regret it, no matter how I sigh, it can't be changed, I just hope you can be different.

My wish is that you will never regret your youthful spring......

Ye Wen's handwriting was already blurry in the end, and I 'touched' the irregular water stains on the diary. My tears hit my hands and splashed on the diary, and the words on the diary joined together. I closed the journal and gently set it aside.

I felt so tired and sleepy, I lay on Ye Wen's 'bed' and fell asleep deeply.

This is the dead man's room, and I am lying on the dead man's bed. But I wasn't scared at all. Because I know that even if Ye Wen's lonely soul comes back and sees me, she will definitely not hurt me, she will definitely not.

……

A few days later, Xing Yu told me that Ye Wen was buried today and asked me if I would go.

I shook my head and said, no.

Xing Yu looked at me with some surprise, as if he didn't expect me to say this.

I didn't explain, and went to sleep on my stomach again.

The desks in the classroom were hard, and it was uncomfortable to sleep on them, but it was numb to sleep on my arms, so I just made do with it. But I don't know how I slept, when I woke up, I found a piece of clothing pillow under my head, I recognized this dress at a glance, it was Xiao Ning, and there was a faint fragrance on it.

I turned around and asked, "Aren't you cold?" ”

Xiao Ning waved his hand and said, "No, in fact, I wore a little too much today, so I'll just use it for you......"

I found that I was too lucky compared to Ye Wen. Although I was also alone when I was in junior high school, I now have a group of friends so many that I feel that I owe them a little bit more than I can't pay them back.

I returned the clothes to her and smiled and said, "Thank you, Xiao Ning." Then he gently 'touched' her hair.

Xiao Ning blushed and dodged: "Ah...... What are you doing, you ......?"

After school in the evening, the dormitory ** point. I came to Ah Sheng's dormitory alone and shouted at the 'door', "Ah Sheng, come out." ”