I didn't know how to get back to my room, but I had this sentence in my head, and I didn't have any other thoughts.

After seven or eight months of getting along, in my subconscious, I have already regarded the crazy old man, Ma Pingchuan and Xue Bing as relatives, and when I suddenly learned the news, I felt that my heart hurt more than being stabbed.

I stood by the window, looking at the lights of the city, although the stars are ten thousand points, but none of them really belong to me, my full of enthusiasm, with my heart cooling little by little, suddenly a sadness rises from my heart, I only feel that the world is big, there is no place for me.

Originally, in that quiet mountain village, accompanied by my grandfather, it was home, although it was cold and poor, but it had the warmth of home.

When I got to the crazy old man, although Ma Pingchuan was cold-mouthed, Xue Bing was about to leave, and although the crazy old man was crazy and unreliable, I could feel that they were accepting me, including which security guards and servants, and they had never treated me as an outsider, and they were very affectionate to me.

At one point, I was very satisfied and felt like I was part of the family.

After two deaths, I treated Ma Pingchuan as a brother, but now he wants to kill me, just because of something that may have happened but has not yet happened.

Even though I had saved his life and fed him blood twice.

Of course, since that time against Liu Yixuan, I have vaguely guessed something in my heart, my body seems to be hiding a huge secret, this secret is related to the tattoo that my father tattooed on my forehead, and once it happens, it is very likely to get out of control and cause immeasurable consequences.

The last time I went on a rampage, if it wasn't for my grandfather's timely appearance, I really couldn't control it on my own, and I almost bit the throat of the crazy old man.

However, if I were to swap positions with Ma Pingchuan, I would definitely not do it! I would rather sacrifice my life than let my brother be harmed in the slightest, let alone kill my own brother with my own hands.

This makes my heart cold, cold to the bone, which makes my heart ache, and the painful heart is like a knife.

I suddenly missed that small mountain village, my grandfather, my father, my grandfather, my grandfather, my mother, who had never met, and even those simple and honest villagers.

However, they are not there, grandpa and father are already separated by yin and yang, grandpa's whereabouts are elusive at all, and as for mother, I don't even know where she is.

In this huge world, I am the only one left to face all this.

People are cold and thin, and they know their own warmth and coldness.

I can't have a head-on conflict with Ma Pingchuan because of this, not because of the difference in strength, it's just that I don't want to, I don't want the crazy old man to see this scene, I don't want Xue Bing to see this scene, and I don't want to have a fratricidal scene with my brother.

But I won't just sit back like this, I know that Ma Pingchuan is really murderous, and I can smell the pungent smell of blood outside the door of the study. That was Ma Pingchuan's unique symbol, as soon as that smell of blood came out, it meant that he had already made up his mind to kill me.

Therefore, I can only go, leave here, leave far away, and never meet Ma Pingchuan again for the rest of my life, like a lost dog.

But where do I go?

The city doesn't belong to me at all, I'm here, like an outsider, away from the crazy old men, I don't know how to fit into the city at all. What's more, this city is too close to Ma Pingchuan, and with the strength of the crazy old man, it should be very easy to find me! .

Go back to the mountain village? No, that place is too obvious, Ma Pingchuan will find me soon, not to mention that the crow also went to the mountain village last time, and there is a very terrible figure behind the crow, and he is also thinking that it will be unfavorable to me, if I go back, it will only bring disaster to the villagers.

I will never go back to that once peaceful and leisurely mountain village.

The lights in the city seemed to suddenly turn into mocking glances, and one by one they were saying, "Look, there's a wild dog out there." ”

I know that when I leave, I will really become a wild dog that no one cares about, and maybe no one will know if he dies one day.

But I still went out quietly, smiling and greeting the servants I met, although I was leaving, there was no need for them to see my lost soul, not to mention that I left in a hurry like a wild dog, and I didn't want them to see the real me, keep a little demeanor!

Walking along the road, aimless, the moonlight in the sky was cold, just like my mood, cold and sad.

It wasn't until I entered the city that the hustle and bustle of the atmosphere made me feel a little warmer, and I woke up to the fact that I was still in the world, and I still had to live. The traffic on the road made me a little intimidated, it felt like a tiger roaring and galloping, and this fear made me hold back a little, and as a result, I was scolded by the driver.

I suddenly laughed, being scolded is also a kind of existence, at least it means that there are people who hate me, much more than a wild dog, which will only be crushed to death, and then crushed into pulp.

I walked into a street, which was also very noisy and lively, but there were no cars coming and going. Just a little bit stronger than a wild dog, I don't need it.

Some people, even when they are about to die, maintain their dignity until they take their last breath.

Sadly, I'm one of those people.

Both sides of the street are full of restaurants and restaurants, the lights are bright and green, the singing and dancing are leveling, and the sound of boxing and guessing orders comes to my ears from time to time, and there are occasionally groups of drunks on the street, hooking shoulders and backs, and saying some drunken words loudly that even I may not be able to understand.

To be honest, I envy them, at least they have relatives, friends, brothers, and concerns in this city.

I suddenly wanted to drink, when I used to live with my grandfather, I used to drink occasionally, but never had such a strong desire as I do today, I just wanted to drink, and I wanted to get drunk, and then, whatever! Tomorrow, when I open my eyes, I can see the sun in the sky.

But I was saddened to find that I didn't even have a penny on me, and my pockets were cleaner than my face.

I will never go back, even if I starve to death outside, I don't want the crazy old man and Xue Bing to see Ma Pingchuan's long knife stabbed into my chest.

If I had a choice, I would rather be starved to death or drunk.

Of course, with my skills, I could easily take down some strong men and make the money in their wallets mine, but that would be so indiscriminate that I would probably starve to death rather than get drunk.

In this city, there is no money, you can't buy wine, and people are worthless here, unlike that mountain village, where you can owe debts. What's more, no one knows me at all, so how can I talk about human feelings.

I was smiling bitterly, but someone patted me on the shoulder, I was stunned, and subconsciously grabbed the palm, fell back, and threw the person behind me to the ground, which is one of the techniques that Ma Pingchuan taught me.

The man called "oops, oops", but it was the Guo Lao Er I saw on the construction site today, I don't know why, as soon as I saw Guo Lao Er, I felt that my nose was sour.

Finally, there is someone I know and know me.

Guo Lao Er rubbed his waist and climbed up, there were three men next to him who wanted to rush up and beat me, but they were all stopped by Guo Lao Er, I apologized, saying that I was distracted for a while, a little nervous, a few men laughed, came over like those drunk men hooked shoulders and back, praising me for my good skills.

I'm a little flattered, only Guo Lao Er has met me once, and the others are the first time I've met.

Guo Lao Er smiled: "My brother, don't look young, it's awesome!" Director Li followed and obeyed. ”

When he said this, he was just putting gold on my face and his own face, and I didn't know much about the doorway between these market men, and I couldn't interject, so I had to laugh stupidly.

The three men were even more excited, and shouted that they were going to drink, which played into my heart.

Seeing that I had no intention of objecting, Guo Lao Er immediately became happy and said loudly: "Let's go!" My brother has just arrived here, and this brother asks me to pick up the wind. ”

A few people entered the restaurant, Guo Lao Er was not stingy, ordered a table of dishes, brought up the wine, everyone poured a full glass, and said: "My brother ......"

Before the words could be uttered, I had poured a glass of wine down my throat.

I'm here to drink, and I just want to drink.

Everyone was stunned, and Guo Lao Er hurriedly said: "My brother means that he is here for the first time, so let's have a drink first, and I can count as respecting my brother." As he spoke, he also picked up the cup and drank it all in one gulp, and the other three men also drank it up one after another.

As soon as the second cup was full, I picked it up again and dried it.

I'm not just here to drink, I'm still trying to get drunk.

As for whether the dish is vegetable or not, I don't care, anyway, I have to get drunk, and I have to vomit when I get drunk, so why bother!

Now Guo Lao Er can't make it up, and the rest of the people also saw that I had something to do, so they found an excuse to leave, leaving only me and Guo Lao Er, and a large table of wine and food.

Guo Lao Er is very interesting, much smarter than I imagined, maybe this world has given him too much training, just looked at me, and said with a wine bottle: "Brother, I'll drink with you!" You can rest assured that you are drunk, everything has me, and everything will be said tomorrow. "Then pour me a full bottle of wine.

I drank it all in one gulp, and my chopsticks didn't move.

Guo Lao Er accompanied me to take a sip and poured it for me again, I nodded, he smiled, his smile revealed a trace of pity and generosity, and neither of them spoke.

In this way, Guo Lao Er poured wine, and I drank. I don't know how much I drank, and I don't want to know, I just know that I want to get drunk.

I'm just a wild dog with nowhere to go and get drunk.