The author must be crazy to write such a chapter (convinced)

Originally, I just wanted to introduce the life of the protagonist a little.,I didn't expect to be able to stop as soon as I started writing.,I was stunned to write nearly 6,000 words of setting for his past (frightened)

If you're impatient, you can skip it directly.,This chapter is just the result of the author's whim.,It's basically nothing to do with (>_<) the main story.

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- Sun may be a weirdo, not much of a maverick, but always out of place with ordinary people.

For example, he prefers the continuous drizzle of spring to the sunny days.

When others sit at home and frown, helplessly looking at the rain outside the window, he always likes to walk in the rain with his bare arms open, enjoying the feeling of the cold raindrops falling on his face.

And when the ends of the hair are condensed by the rain, the feeling of falling down and gently leaning on the face is even more exquisite, as if the timid little hands of a lover are quietly caressing their skin.

Of course, Sun may also know how terrifying a man with soaked arms wide open and a lewd smile on his face looks terrible in the eyes of others.

In order not to be ostracized, in order to cater to others, he carefully buried all his anomalies deep in his heart, disguised as an ordinary passer-by, who can be seen everywhere, and lived cautiously as if walking on thin ice.

Interpersonal communication is the same, he prefers to stay alone in the corner and read quietly than a lively party, and he enjoys the kind of nodding acquaintance more than talking about everything with people.

Although various collective activities are never absent, they are always hovering in the most inconspicuous corners.

Until now, Sun may still remember that on the day of the junior high school graduation ceremony, the girl who had been sitting in the back row noticed herself quietly leaving the crowd and stopped herself as she was about to walk to the bus stop.

"Now, here's for you! A parting gift!"

It was a gray woolly bear about half a meter tall, and it was quite well made, which was a great gift for a junior high school girl.

Sun may have noticed the conspicuous guy a long time ago, he thought it was the girl for her best friend, they were inseparable in the class, even the toilet together, gossip duo.

"No, no, haven't you already given out small gifts in class before?"

Sun may have raised the keychain in his hand and politely refused.

"It's too expensive."

I'm just talking to her between classes.,And occasionally she can be called stupid to ask about the relationship between math problems.,At most, acquaintances aren't even friends, right?

The sudden kindness made Sun perhaps confused, and subconsciously chose to escape.

Although the girl repeatedly stubbornly wanted to give the woolly bear to Sun Maybe, he still did not accept it in the end, and fled in a panic under the clumsy excuse that the bus came.

Before he turned around, the girl bit her lower lip lightly, looked at the hairy bear in her arms with a silent look, and stood in place in a daze, which deeply met Sun Maybe's eyes.

In a trance, he felt that the softest place in his heart silently cracked a cold gap.

He didn't know what happened to the girl after that, after all, he was a coward who didn't even dare to look back.

Although there is a QQ group in the class (there was no WeChat that year), but after entering high school, Sun may never have logged in to that number again, and everything in the past was cut off by him without nostalgia, after all, it was only a junior high school relationship.

I may have really made the worst choice.

But, that's fine

Sun may have looked at the passing scenery outside the window, silently comforting himself.

Anyway, from now on, everyone will go their separate ways

Anyway, we will never meet again

It's not a very intimate relationship anyway

Well, that's it

That's it, go down alone

Never hurt, alive

Of course, Sun may not be a lone wolf, and after graduating from high school, he still has two bad friends who have kept in touch. Although I don't contact at all on weekdays, at most, I received a New Year's video of the philosophy ♂ master praying mantis sent by the other party during the ♂ Spring Festival, and replied with a happy New Year ♂, by the way, to discuss philosophy ♂.

The only time of the year to meet is the CCG exhibition, and three big men ran to the pavilion to face the beautiful women (?) together. COSer drooled, looked at the plastic figure on the glass counter and looked at the plastic figure in the glass counter together, chatted about the fun of farting for a year, reminisced about the past in high school, and then ate a casual meal and went back to their respective homes to find their mothers again.

It will not interfere too much in the other person's life, nor will it cause any burden to the other party.

It's really a friend who is as light as water, but Sun may be very satisfied, this is his ideal interpersonal relationship.

In the past, he would have covered up his dark thoughts, but now he has indeed let go of all restraints, no longer cares about the eyes and evaluations of others, and shows his thoughts and thoughts as he likes, just as now he sits by the stone bridge on the pan pond, waiting with anticrative expectations for the coming of the rainstorm.

Normal people will go out of their way to find rain when they have a problem with their brains! Or the pouring rain in the coastal cities in the summer! Raindrops the size of quail eggs can smash you straight to the point where you can't even open your eyes, believe it or not! Don't underestimate nature, you guy, hey!

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Sun's family may not have been as happy as it could have been.

The face and voice of the man who was his father, to be honest, he didn't remember much anymore, after all, he hadn't seen it in fourteen years.

The only thing that remains, or rather, is the heart-rending cry of my mother when I was six years old, and the faint sound of furniture cracking and beating in the room.

Young Sun may not have understood what that meant, but he could feel his mother's pain and helplessness, pounding on the locked doors and windows like crazy, crying and screaming to get her out.

But after all, he was only a six-year-old child, and he couldn't do anything at all, even if his voice was hoarse and his palms were red, but the doors and windows were still immovable in front of him, and the little boy deeply realized for the first time how weak he was, and hated his incompetence for the first time.

Later, Sun may have been comforted by the grandparents who heard the news, "It's okay, it's okay", ignoring his pleading and forcibly dragging him away.

swindler

It's all liars

Sun may have just discovered that the grandparents who had always been amiable have become so hateful, are they all deaf and can't hear their mother's crying?!

Not long after that, the little boy witnessed his mother being crushed to the ground and beaten by his father, and for the first time in his life, the boy understood what killing intent and hatred were.

Without the slightest hesitation, he picked up the heavy bunch of keys that had been placed on the table, and reflexively smashed it at the disgusting face that resembled himself.

Impartial, right in the forehead.

Unfortunately, despite the hardness and weight of the metal keys that would break a person's head and bleed, it was an incredible miracle that the six-year-old Sun might be able to throw it a dozen paces away from the target.

The man had only a faint red mark on his forehead, but he looked at the child standing in the doorway, glaring angrily at his child—he finally stopped his fist, rubbed his forehead, and muttered away.

After that day, my mother disappeared from the house.

After a while, Sun may have heard that they were divorced after all, and his mother also took him out of the Fengxian District and came to the urban area of the magic capital, and the two of them lived together for fourteen years.

Sun may not have been back to that place since he left, and the man seems to have forgotten that he still has a son, he has never called Sun maybe for fourteen years, and he has not paid a penny in child support.

Many years later, Sun may have heard from his relatives that not long after that the man remarried and had a daughter, but this may have nothing to do with Sun Mayn, and his sister, whom he had never met, probably didn't know that he had another brother.

Sun's mother was a strong woman after all, and she didn't want to have anything to do with the family for some money, and although it was hard, she still walked all the way with the child alone.

Fortunately, several relatives saw that their mother and son were not living well, and they all tried their best to help a little bit, and in the two years when life was the most difficult, Sun may have been displaced in turn to live in various relatives' homes, while his mother stayed in the city and worked hard.

Compared with the carefree children of the same age, Sun may have had an easy childhood.

He once accompanied his mother to huddle on the edge of the Suzhou Creek before the rectification, in a dilapidated warehouse to be demolished.

In the summer, Suzhou Creek is full of garbage and dead fish, and even if you close the windows tightly, you can't stop the pervasive smell.

Rows of low-slung concrete bungalows alongside the river, dilapidated and dirty, at odds with the glossy cosmopolitan city of Magic.

Living in this kind of place are basically outsiders who come to the magic capital to work hard, and everyone's face is full of tiredness of life and confusion about the future, and they go out early and return late in a hurry.

Even on Saturdays and Sundays, it's always deserted and quiet, and vacations are too luxurious for people here.

Sun, who was a solo caretaker, was always wandering around with a pair of siblings in the neighborhood, and although the area is now dominated by rows of real estate and roads, the most important thing in Sun's childhood was wasteland, abandoned houses and trees.

The three children are like wild monkeys, jumping up and down in all kinds of uninhabited areas.

They once built a small hut out of bricks and banana leaves on the wasteland, and treasured the garbage they collected as treasures, and they once walked among the collapsed and ruined houses, only to be pierced by iron nails protruding from the wooden plank, and the soles of their feet were so painful that tears flowed.

But it didn't take long for the area to be forcibly demolished to build a new town, and all the people living in it had to go their separate ways to find a new place to live.

For the giant beast that continues to move forward in the wind and waves, these people living at the bottom are really like ants clinging to it, and they are dizzy and floating around by the slight tremor between its actions, but they are unwilling to leave and can only endure silently and drift with the current.

Since then, Sun may not have seen the siblings again, although they were with each other for a short time, he always thought of them, and this was perhaps the easiest and most free period of his life.

Sun, who has tasted the warmth and coldness of human affection with his mother, may undoubtedly be precocious and silent, he has learned early to put on a mask of hypocrisy, to deal with those naïve children of the same age with an estranged and slightly jealous attitude, and to cover his dark and suspicious heart with a plain and kind smile.

The seeds of hatred planted in childhood have not been erased with the passage of time, but have grown stronger and stronger in the midst of repression.

In the past 14 years, he has never forgotten his weakness and incompetence at the beginning, why, why I couldn't do anything at that time!

If I could have punched him to the ground, if I had been able to lift a kitchen knife in the kitchen......

Whenever he thought of his childhood, Sun's heart was filled with anger, and remorse and self-reproach overwhelmed him, making him almost breathless.

But fortunately, since his junior high school, his life has gradually been on the right track, and his mother opened a small restaurant with the savings he had saved hard, although he didn't make a lot of money, but finally made his life a little richer, and finally had a stable place to live, no longer having to wander around.

Looking at the smile on his mother's face that gradually increased, the flame of hatred in Sun's heart slowly extinguished.

That's how it should be

That's how it should be.

Just when Sun may have entered college, he is finally no longer a drag from his mother and can finally be self-reliant.

Woe has come.

Human life turns out to be so fragile, the day before you still get along day and night, the person who talks about everything, may be separated by yin and yang the next day and never see each other again.

Sun may not have heard much about the cause of the accident told him, it seems that his mother's battery car that had been used for nearly ten years had a malfunction and brake failure, and he had a messy life in those days.

Although most of the responsibility was not on the other party, the old mother of the truck driver still came to the door with 50,000 yuan to apologize, and Sun may not have refused.

Sun may not even remember how he spent that time, he was like a spectator, watching his body run around with cold eyes.

It paid the restaurant's chef and waiters a handsome severance payment, then closed it for good, held a shabby funeral, and sold or discarded everything in the house it had rented for several years.

When he came to his senses, he had already returned to the dormitory, and he could only come back here, there was no place for him in this world......

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Sun may have thought about revenge, but he really didn't know what to do.

The man was already in his fifties, and he must have had a big belly and loose muscles, and he could probably breathe for half a day when he climbed the stairs.

On the other hand, he is in his twenties at the peak of his life, and he usually does not neglect to exercise - a height of 1.78 meters and a weight of 70 kilograms, although he is not a muscular man, he at least has six-pack abs.

It shouldn't take much effort to kill him unintentionally, hehe, after all, he is his son, who would have thought that killing relatives or something would happen in reality?

Sun may have had a plan of revenge in his mind over and over again, and really intended to turn it into reality.

In fact, killing people is not a difficult thing in itself, many people are just afraid of the consequences - arrest, prison, social erasure.

But now Sun may have no worries, so he has no fear.

There is a decoration team near the restaurant, and Sun May's mother invited them to decorate the restaurant, and in his spare time, Sun may always like to go to their warehouse to watch them process various materials, and he will become familiar with them after coming and going, and he also learned a few carpentry techniques from the foreman.

So when Sun may have asked to borrow a machine to make some gadgets, the foreman agreed without much thought - Sun may have deliberately picked them to visit them when they were about to go out to pick up work, so as not to let people find out what his true purpose was.

After all, the foreman also watched Sun maybe grow up all the way, and he didn't doubt anything else, just told a few words to be careful not to hurt himself, and gave Sun the key to the warehouse door with confidence, and led the team out.

The warehouse is full of wooden planks, tiles, bags of cement and other building materials, all kinds of processing equipment, and even a huge circular saw dedicated to cutting steel bars, which must be invincible if used to cut flesh, but unfortunately the heavy base and huge volume doom this thing to be a weapon at all.

Sun may be just an ordinary person after all, it is definitely unrealistic to expect him to start with any prohibited props, and he doesn't have the confidence to get a middle-aged man empty-handed without relying on tools, so weapons are a must for him.

But the knives that can be bought in the supermarket are too cheating, the tip of the knife is so smooth that even thicker clothes can't be pierced, not to mention, there is no sharpness at the edge of the blade, this kind of thing is usually used to cut vegetables, but it is not as reliable as a brick if it is used to kill people!

That's where the grinder comes in!

Moreover, it is not a common hand-held grinder in the warehouse, but a large pedestal type, which is much easier to operate, and even half of the layman can use it decently.

Sun may have spent an afternoon sharpening five kitchen knives before finally getting a finished product that satisfies him.

Although it is not said that the hair is blown off, Sun may have just pressed it a little harder and his fingers were cut a shallow opening, and the tip of the knife was polished by him with great effort, and the sharp and abnormal flashed with a trace of cold light, and this kitchenware finally had the appearance of a weapon.

If it were a game, Sun might have received something like that-

Your kitchen knife (whiteboard) has been successfully refined, and the sharpness is +1, and the attack power is +1.

Sun may have put the kitchen knife in his backpack and just took the subway back to school - although the subway in the magic capital has security checks, most of them are quite loose on the surface, as long as it is not a large suitcase, even if you ignore the security check and walk directly over, they will not care about you.

In the days that followed, Sun may have been practicing silently with a weapon in his arms, sometimes in the cubicle of the toilet, sometimes on the roof of the late-night dormitory.

Pick, stab, wipe, chop, chop

In his mind, he simulated countless ways to kill his opponents, and as he practiced relentlessly, he became more and more comfortable with the kitchen knife, like an arm.

But the more he swung the knife, the weaker the killing intent in his heart became, and the more hesitant his body movements became.

Even if he really succeeds, his mother will not come back after all.

Does revenge really make sense or something?

My life is already a mess, do I want another family to be buried with me?

After all, I still have a sister I have never met, and her life that may have been happy and happy was shattered by a brother who suddenly appeared, is this really the result she wants......

Eventually, he hid the knife at the bottom of the locker.

That's it

In the end, Sun's son may not have been able to embark on the road of revenge, but spent two years in college in a daze.

Not to mention socializing with people, he rarely even goes to class, but fortunately, the teachers in the professional class also know about the changes in his family, and they are quite tolerant of his performance, even if he doesn't come to class, as long as Sun may come to the exam obediently at the end of the term, it will not make him fail.

His mother's hard work over the years has also left him a small amount of savings, and he still has a surplus after deducting the tuition fees for four years of college, and Sun may be extremely frugal in his usual food and clothing, so he doesn't have to worry about living - at least not in the past few years of college.

What will become of this wasted person in the future....

Sun may have sat on the stone bridge across the pond and smiled self-deprecatingly

Forget it, let's take it one step at a time, life is already so bad anyway, at least, it won't get bad anymore, will it?