(13) Lao Cai's sad past
He couldn't think of anything, and there was a mess in his head, but there was no trace of Xia. He didn't know where to go. Call her and she continues to shut down. He texted: "I saw you, a man in front of the seafood hotel, who is he?" She did not reply. He was getting angrier, and he had to ask!
He went back to the parking lot and thought about her company, and the ringing of his cell phone suddenly remembered. He was taken aback. But it was the technical manager who called: "Lao Cai, where are you?" The tickets are all there, waiting for you to change your boarding pass, you hurry. Lao Cai came to his senses again, so he had to turn around and drive the car to the airport.
Along the way, he had a lot on his mind. After getting off the plane, he took the time to continue calling her like a demon. It actually passed! He asked, "Why don't you answer the phone?" Where are you? Who are you with at noon? ”
Her voice was so calm that it was like nothing had happened: "I was taking a nap at noon, I put my phone on silent, I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I found that the phone was automatically turned off when it was out of power, and as soon as I turned it on, I saw so many missed calls and inexplicable text messages, I haven't asked you yet, are your eyes spent, don't you know your daughter-in-law?!" ”
He expected such an answer, he expected that he really looked away, he didn't believe that his beloved girlfriend would actually betray him, he was unwilling to be so good to her, he continued to ask: "At noon, I saw you holding a man's arm and walking out of the seafood restaurant, the restaurant I took you to on Valentine's Day, isn't it you?" ”
"Why don't you even believe me? I've been with you for six years, do you think I'm going to do something sorry for you, aren't you idle, if you have nothing to do, it's better to stop, I'm still working! Kasumi hung up angrily.
Listening to Xia's tone, it was quite wronged. He wondered, could it be that I was wrong? Am I too careful? However, if this is true...... He shuddered.
During the two days of the business trip, he was unable to give up and could not sit still. Kasumi kept silent about it, ignoring him as if she was angry.
The next day, as soon as he returned to W City, he went straight to her company, and when he saw her, he loved her to the core, and his heart softened. But at the thought of her holding hands with someone else, he angrily punched the table, the computer screen shook, and he stared at her, asking, "Was it you yesterday?" ”
Xia's face turned red with anger, and she gave him a blank look: "Crazy! ”
He trembled with anger: "Is it you?" ”
She turned her head to the wall and threw out, "Don't you even recognize me?" ”
Still unsure, he asked her to answer yes or no.
He snapped up again, "Is it you?" ”
"Are you satisfied, right? Isn't it? ”
He didn't expect Kasumi to say such an answer, he grabbed her arm and shook her vigorously, as if he could shake the answer, "Is it or not?" ”
Xia waved her arms in annoyance, trying to get rid of it, but his strength was too great, and she couldn't break free at all, so she had to compromise: "I said don't you believe it?" Yesterday I worked for a day, tired and tired, and I was wronged by you! You've always been suspicious, and since you think it's me, why do you come here to ask? ”
He had no choice but to lose, at least she denied it, and he breathed a sigh of relief.
After that, he still went to work as usual, it was time to go to work, it was time to sleep, and the lives of the two gradually returned to normal. But in the dead of night, looking at her sleeping next to the pillow, he could remember her smile when he closed his eyes, and he wondered: "Is this the person I have loved for six years?" Why am I so hard to trust her? Did I care too much about her? In the past six years, I have been obedient to her, love her, love her, and spoil her, can't she feel it? Why did I suddenly feel so strange to her? ……”
He began to suffer from insomnia. I had insomnia all night and didn't fall asleep until the wee hours of the morning.
He felt that he was suspicious, and as long as she didn't answer the phone or was busy or slow to reply to messages, he would wonder if she was in contact with someone else. Even at home, as long as she laughs with her phone, he will feel that there is a ghost. He secretly rummaged through her phone countless times, but found no clues. As soon as she said that she would work overtime or come back later, he wondered if he was going on a date with someone else. When he thought of the day when she held the man's arm, his heart felt like he had been stabbed with a knife, he had long regarded her as a part of his body, she belonged only to him, and now that she was possessed and shared by others, he wanted to tear the man apart.
In this way, he was reincarnated in doubt, affirmation, fear, pain, and self-blame. He felt like he was about to break down, trying to spy on her every move like a voyeur, like a paranoid, wanting a definite answer.
He was conflicted, thinking that when the woman he saw that day was not her, he was very good to her, bringing her foot water, rubbing her shoulders, beating her back, and cooking; Thinking that it was her time, angrily smashing things, scolding her with the dirtiest words, the two quarreled hysterically.
After the quarrel, he hugged her again regretfully and said to her: "I can't lose you, I love you!" I can't stand anybody's intimacy with you, my heart is bleeding and my bones cramping, you know? I'm willing to give everything for you! Since the first time I saw you in the library, you have become an important part of my life, for six years, the center of my life has been you, you are my sun, I am all revolving around you, I love you to the core, you know? He choked up as he spoke, and the two reconciled as before.
However, he couldn't get over this hurdle in his heart after all. That picture was like a sharp knife, piercing the softest place in his heart. Trust this piece of paper, crumple and smooth, there will still be traces, this trace, torture him physically and mentally, haggard.
One day, she said that she would work overtime at night, and after he applied to leave early, he secretly came to the door of her company and stared intently. After waiting for a while, she came out. He cautiously observed not far away. I saw her look around, and hurried to a small alley next to her. He also sneaked up on him.
Across the alley, there is a street where a white BMW is parked on the side of the road. A man rolled down the window, she stepped forward, hugged his head and kissed him, then turned around the front of the car to open the door and sit in the passenger seat. The car was gone.
This scene shocked him, and his chest rose and fell sharply as if it had been hit hard. He clenched his head into a fist. Knuckles clenched. He hurriedly chased him out and took a taxi to follow the BMW.