"Fourth sister, don't be uncomfortable, I knew that on the day of the funeral, I would go up the mountain with you to the crematorium together, maybe you wouldn't be scared."

When I was about to eat in the evening, Xiaoliu seemed to have the courage to walk to the kang and watch me open my mouth, "In the past few days when you have been sleeping, I followed my grandmother and mother to burn a lot of paper one night, there are cars, cows, and paper people, just like the real thing, my mother said that those are taking care of Grandma below, and Grandma will not suffer below." ”

I sat there still motionless, my heart was sour, and I clearly understood that Xiao Liu was comforting me.

"Fourth sister, don't stop talking, you go out with me, let's go on the swing......"

I didn't say anything, I looked like I was still losing my mind, the second uncle came into the room and looked at me and sighed and let Xiaoliu go to the table to eat, turning around, he looked at the grandmother who came in and whispered, "Mom, are we all wrong, no matter how Sibao used to be, at least the child is cheerful and happy, but now that he is so stimulated, he is crying, and he can't be sick." ”

Grandma didn't answer the second uncle's words, she stepped forward and gently touched my head, "Sibao, let's eat, come, put down the box that your grandmother left for you first, and ...... when the time comes."

I stubbornly held my grandmother's wooden box and shook my head, but I still didn't want to speak.

Grandma pursed her lips, as if she was desperately suppressing some emotion, "Sibao, don't scare grandma, it's grandma's fault, grandma shouldn't lead you into that house, you can blame grandma, but we have to eat, come, grandma doesn't move what your grandma left for you, can you hold it, you can hold grandma and feed you." ”

I glanced at my grandmother, moved to the ground, put on my shoes and silently made it to the edge of the dinner table.

Grandma took a deep breath and sat next to me, and after serving the meal, she brought it to my mouth with a spoonful of spoonful, no matter how big something happened to me, I had to eat when I was hungry, and there was an instinct in my body, knowing that if I couldn't eat enough, I couldn't do anything.

In other words, when I lacked the heart and eyes, I knew very well that the body was the capital of the revolution.

But now, I don't want to eat, I really can't eat, my stomach is very empty, but my heart is very blocked, but looking at my grandmother's red and swollen eyes, I know inexplicably that if I don't eat, my grandmother will be worried, so I want to eat, even if I can't eat, I have to eat.

It's a strange feeling, isn't it, it turns out that crying will make me start to worry about other people's thoughts, I start to be afraid that others will be unhappy because of me, my mind is messed up, I know a lot, but why is my heart so uncomfortable.

The dinner table was very quiet, even Xiao Liu, who had always liked to mistreat at the dinner table, quietly just pulled the rice in his bowl, maybe it was too depressing, that Mingyue cleared her throat and looked at me very flatteringly and smiled, "Bao Si, I haven't told you anything yet, after you finish eating, there is ice cream waiting for you, creamy ice cream, eat with a spoon!" ”

Xiao Liu put down his chopsticks after hearing this, "Mom, you bought ice cream for the fourth sister, then I want to eat it too." ”

"Which one I bought, it was bought by Xiaolinzi of the Han family, the two boxes he bought, you eat it is also stained with the light of Bao Si, he said that this ice cream is an agreement with Bao Si, he wants to buy it for Bao Si before leaving, Bao Si, I see that you are not awake, I am afraid of melting, so I will send it to the old Niutou's house to freeze in the freezer, I will take it back in a while, and then give it to you to eat!"

Xiaoliu was anxious after hearing this, "Mom, Brother Da Lin is leaving, where are you going!" ”

Na Mingyue looked at him and raised his eyebrows, "What do you mean to leave, it's already gone, his father came to pick him up when you were playing in the backyard, and when the car stopped at the door, the little linzi of the Han family ran into the courtyard in a hurry, and I was startled, and when I saw that Bao Si didn't wake up, he put down the ice cream and left......"

"Mom! Why don't you call me, I don't even know when Brother Da Lin is gone!! ”

Xiaoliu was aggrieved and wanted to shed tears again, "Who will I find to play in the future!" ”

Na Mingyue snorted, "How many years old are you and Han Lin, can you go together, besides, how messy things are in their house, it's not a bad thing for Han Lin to go, it's not better to go to the city than in the countryside, you know what a kid does!" ”

"Second aunt."

I pushed away the spoon handed over by my grandmother and looked at the bright moon and opened her mouth directly, I really couldn't eat it.

"Huh?"

That Mingyue was shocked, looking at me for a long time and not reacting, and thought that she was having auditory hallucinations, "You, what do you call me?" ”

"Second aunt."

I repeated softly, "Give all the ice cream to Xiao Liu, I don't want to eat ice cream in the future." ”

"Oh, you, you don't want ice cream anymore, that ...... No, Mom, did you hear me, did you hear Bao Si shouting at me!! “

Na Mingyue was incoherent excitedly, and hurriedly looked at the second uncle for confirmation, "Ruowen, Bao Si called me my second aunt, called me my second aunt!" She's really normal, she's normal! ”

The second uncle looked at me but couldn't laugh, "Sibao, why don't you want to eat ice cream, isn't that your favorite food." ”

I shook my head sullenly, "I don't want to eat anymore in the future." ”

As I spoke, I looked at my grandmother, who also had a somewhat complicated expression, "Grandma, I want to go to my uncle, can you take me to my uncle." ”

Xiao Liu sniffled and didn't forget to remind him, "Fourth sister, you haven't been to school for a few days, if you don't go, you won't have to be the first to last in this exam." ”

I didn't look at him, I just looked at my grandmother and repeated, I knew I was going to school, but I wanted to go to my uncle and tell him about the secret.

Grandma put down the remaining half bowl of rice and nodded, "Okay, Grandma will take you there tomorrow." ”

I don't need to say anything about my reaction and language expression ability after I woke up, the family is naturally in their eyes, and there is relief, like that Mingyue, she can't wait to run out of the hospital and tell the neighbors that I called her second aunt, in my memory, I seem to be calling her aunt for the first time, the earliest used to call her Rabbit Mom, and then I omitted the title, and I have no concept of her identity in my head, naturally, I won't call her.

Of course, the second uncle and grandfather looked at me a little complicated, they were careful to treat me well, and even a little depressed, I don't know what they suppressed, perhaps, just like the second uncle said, I'm afraid that I can't be relieved by some stimulus.

Am I stimulated, the fire, it scares me, but most of the time I am digesting, digesting a lot of things that I didn't understand and didn't understand before, joy and anger, sadness, heartache, and, right and wrong.

When I was going to sleep at night, Mingyue sent Xiaoliu's futon over, and grandma laid the futon on the kang, saying that she would sleep with our sister and brother in the future, I didn't react, and sat quietly in the corner of the kang with the box and waited for grandma to lay down.

Xiaoliu has always been immersed in the sadness of Han Lin's departure, and when Grandma went to get the pillow, he carefully approached me and spoke, "Fourth sister, Brother Da Lin is gone, what if Sun Hongsheng bullies us in the future, I can't beat him." ”

I withdrew my senses in a daze, and looked at Xiao Liu's words and words, "With me, no one can bully you." ”