2 July 2008

Graduation is tantamount to falling out of love.

Only I know how much I have paid for this person in the past four years, but I have never been able to return to the same sincere treatment.

Zhang Qi is right, his own heart hurts.

That person has never really hurt, how can he understand me.

Thinking of parting a day later, I am very reluctant to give up, but people are not even willing to accompany me for one more afternoon, is it so demanding to leave a calm Say Goodbye?

While arguing, my heart slowly became cold.

What is the meaning of such feelings? It's stupid to insist on four years, so stupid.

I've always been afraid to face reality, but after all, I have to force myself to make that cruel decision.

It's time, it's time for it all to end.

Okay, on the day of graduation, we broke up.

From then on, the heavens are separated, and they will never see each other.

Either way, thank you for all the happy times in these four years.

Without you, I wouldn't be so pushing myself to lose weight.

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have chosen this path to leap across the ocean away from my parents.

But, unfortunately, we didn't end up together.

That's what you want, right?

Hope you see this post.

I don't want to contact you again.

See you again.

Liu Ze was very sour when he read this, the two of them quarreled badly together, they were not together, they hurt each other, no one would let anyone go, and finally said that they would break up after graduation.

I wonder how they face each other's days when they know the results?

This may also be a very high level of love.

10 August 2006.

When I arrived at Jingcheng Station, it was still early in the morning.

Saying goodbye to the warm home and the summer vacation that could have been crazy, a box, a long-distance train overnight, the summer of the ice city is gradually moving away behind me.

Looking up at the sign in a trance in the meager morning light, I said to myself in my heart: "Beijing, I'm here!"

Subway-City Railway-Walking, I finally dragged my suitcase to New Oriental, and the sun made me a little dizzy.

The hall was already full of people, and tired but slightly excited faces flashed before my eyes, and I felt the urge to cry in my heart.

Trekking in a foreign land for my ideals, although the faces around me are unfamiliar, I am not alone at this time.

When I received the pass from the staff, it was as if someone had pointed me in the right direction.

For the sake of love, choose this road to leap across the ocean, come on.

12 September 2006.

I'm a spoiled girl, and the culprit for being spoiled is: my dad.

Dad has a famous saying: Girls are born to be petted.

I guess dad wants a well-behaved daughter.

But when I was young, I wasn't well-behaved at all, and I often fought with boys.

But what can I do, my daughter can't pick it, my dad still loves me and spoils me the same, and spoils me until I am 21 years old.

When I was a child, the family conditions were not very good, according to my mother, as long as my father took me to the street, I told him to buy anything, and never refused me.

When I was very young, my parents took me to sleep.

Mom doesn't like people to move when she sleeps, but I always move around restlessly, and my mother gently pinched me, and I would hide in Dad's bed, and Dad always held me very carefully, avoiding Mom's hand.

……

Later, I was busy in high school and went to college, and I went home less often.

I always feel that my father has gray hair and wrinkles.

Every time I go home, the time is always too short, it's always hard to see my father's face, he is running around and working, and my father and I can't have him to hold me and make me happy.

In college, I realized how willful I was, and I realized that except for my father, there are few people who can tolerate my willfulness.

So, I had to grow up.

But Dad, I have been spoiled and pampered by you for more than 20 years, how can I change my willfulness, how should I learn to grow?

You just irresponsibly meet all my unreasonable demands, but don't teach me how to go through my own ups and downs, making me naïve to think that everything has a father.

Dad, when I was in high school, you told me that I don't interfere with you what kind of man you want to find as a husband, as long as you like it, as long as he is good to you.

……

I believe that one day, when I tell my dad that I have found someone to take over and pamper me, he will secretly wipe his tears and send me all the blessings he can give.

I believe that one day, when I put on the wedding dress and let my father send me out, I will definitely see the tears in my father's eyes.

3 November 2006.

Some people say that a woman who feels the pain of falling out of love is because she has given too much in the relationship and can't turn back.

Some people also say that falling out of love feels like an ulcer in the mouth, and the more it hurts, the more you have to lick it, and the more you lick it, the more it hurts.

What exactly is a broken love for a woman? 10 women, there are definitely 10 different feelings.

But now women are more and more in agreement on one point - falling out of love cannot be gaffe.

I can lose this man, but I must not lose my judgment on my future life because of this man, I must not lose my expectations and yearning for love because of this relationship, and I must not completely deny my beauty because of this man's "non-choice".

Beauty can be in a number of ways.

Silence always feels that if a woman can smile, be beautiful, and continue when she is out of love, this beauty is forever beautiful.

8 April 2007.

This afternoon, Mom came to school.

She said she was passing by on an errand, and I knew she was here to see me.

She sat in front of me and babbled on the advice to eat more rice and meat at every meal, and stop dieting to lose weight.

If I want to prepare well for the GRE test, she and my dad will prepare me financially.

She also cautiously asked me about my emotional problems, afraid that I would delay my lifelong event because of going abroad.

She kept talking and talking, but I suddenly panicked, is this woman sitting in front of me really my mother?

The impression of the mother is serious and strong.

She always carries a myriad of proud titles on her head.

However, in the past, she who had no smile and always criticized me, but today she came all the way to tell me to eat well and take care of myself, and treat me as if I was a little girl who couldn't do anything at the age of one.

Mom's hair is a little messy, and the gray hair in the middle is so eye-catching.

The wrinkles on her face were getting more and more, and the vigorous strong woman was just a chattering middle-aged woman in front of me.

Suddenly I regretted it, regretting the wrong things I had done to her before.

Because she secretly had a boyfriend in high school, she, a teacher who has always taught other people's children, was criticized by my homeroom teacher at the parent-teacher meeting.

Because of my indifferent attitude once, she was so strong that she hid in her room and cried after losing her temper at me.

After reading it, Liu Ze realized that he had already burst into tears, the ruthless girl he had seen under the apartment again and again, or the girl he met with Wei Sixin on the road, it was all flat and one-sided, and everyone's heart hid countless secrets, at this time, Kou Chong's image was three-dimensional in his mind.

He witnessed the love between Wei Sixin and Kou Chong all the way, torturing each other, all kinds of blood, he used to despise it, at this moment, he was more understanding and helpless.

There's no one who doesn't want to be respectful.

How does a girl who is spoiled by her father learn to get along with a boy of the same age? What's more, this boy is also a child spoiled by his mother.

One wants to find his father, and the other wants to find his mother.

They can only torture each other.