Ning Xiaonuma appeared, and she was alone.

The two looked at each other silently, but neither spoke.

Seeing Liu Ze's haggardness, she was still nervous, and then let go, she was never a hypocritical person, her face was always light and light, that was because she was wrapped in a hard shell, and no one could see the softness inside.

"Drink porridge first."

She said these three words, and ate in silence.

She has never felt softness and warmth, and she will not give softness and warmth to others.

After this meal, the two of them walked out of the cafeteria together, keeping a distance not far and not close, and neither of them spoke, as if two strangers were walking on the road.

Ning Xiaonuma thought, I still don't want to hurt others, I say that I can live alone in this life.

Liu Ze felt a great sadness in his heart, he was already like this, still couldn't he see a trace of her compassion? Then she really didn't feel anything about him.

The heart is miserable, and the feet are walking fast, unconsciously going in one direction.

At first, he was just walking in psychological pain, but halfway through, he noticed that Ning Xiaonuma had also been following, and he instinctively walked towards the shadows and darkness.

I don't know the unfamiliar out-of-the-way place until I go anywhere.

Ning Xiaonuma's insecurity reached the extreme, and he stopped, and Liu Ze also stopped when he walked more than ten meters.

"Why don't you want to go down with me? If you don't go down, how do you get to where is the front? ”

Liu Ze shouted loudly.

She stood silently.

"Life is vast, the future is unknown, how can you know the result if you don't go on?"

He approached her and asked aloud.

"Do you know that since I met you and met you, I have been planning the future all the time, and your future, we will start a family, do you know my definition and desire for family since I was a child?"

He vented a stagnant breath in his heart.

"I'm special, I really really want a warm home, a particularly safe haven, no matter how hard I work outside, I need to grovel and obey against my will, I don't care, I know that there is a warm home, I know that when I go back, it is the safest and most relaxing, for this home, I can give everything, even my life."

"What is the meaning of being alive? That's what I'm alive for. ”

Ning Xiaonuma glanced at him, and a warm current moved in her heart, why didn't she desire it?

Liu Ze grabbed her shoulders and looked at her affectionately, her face was still quiet, "Xiaonuma, since I was a child, I feel different from other children, I always have to think about a lot of questions, why I live, why I die, why everyone ends up dying, and they have to work so hard, what is the difference between early death and late death, I have been thinking about why I live?" Heh, I'm always so cranky that my high school homeroom teacher said I was like a little old man. ”

He was sincerely dissecting his heart to show her.

"Until one day, I figured out, since we all have to die, where is the meaning and criterion of life? The life I pursue is to have no regrets or regrets about anything in the moment before I die, so I will think carefully about every major decision I make, and will I regret it a year later? Will I regret it in five years? Ten years, twenty years, will I? ”

"Yes, we've known each other for a short time, and I've been thinking about it for the past two days, why I was able to live well before you appeared, and now I can't go back to you again? That is, I will regret it, I will regret it, I will always think that I have planned a beautiful and happy life for us, why don't you want to go with me? Yes, sometimes we can't see the road ahead clearly, the darkness is pervasive, as long as we hold hands together, we can walk through it, and we can achieve what we want and want. ”

He took her hand and spoke earnestly.

A warm current in the corner of her eyes, she felt crystal teardrops, yes, she has always felt that he is very mature and can see it thoroughly, but she doesn't dare to take that step, yes, will she regret it? She was asking herself.

A crack cracked in the thick layer of ice that enveloped it.

"Where's your phone?"

Ning Xiaonuan's mind was very confused, and he took it out mechanically, Liu Ze looked for the number inside, and there was no mother's name, and asked, "Which one is your mother's phone?" ”

"What are you going to do?" She was nervous and reluctant to mention the name.

"If you don't dial, I'll dial them one by one and tell everyone who knows you how sincere I am to you."

She really had to be a little frightened, how resolute, how courageous, how determined was it to do this?

She looked at his face seriously and thought, can I spend my life with this man? Building a happy and warm family like he said, harmonious and beautiful, that was a dream she never imagined, but it was attractive, wasn't it?

Wouldn't it be nice to give it a try?

She hesitated.

"Don't you even give me a chance to show my resolve?" Liu Ze became more and more determined, "This is the last thing I will do for this relationship, don't worry, I won't bother you anymore, I just want to do my best, so that even if I fail, I am willing, I have no regrets, I don't want to regret not persisting at this moment before I die." ”

She was sour, took the phone and entered the number.

Toot and dialed.

She was nervous, and she was really afraid of some dirty voice.

Not really.

Answering over there, Liu Ze took it, took a breath gently, and said, "Auntie, hello, I am Xiaonuma's classmate, I have a good impression of her, and I have been pursuing ......"

Facts have proved that the young and steady Liu Ze is deeply loved by middle-aged and elderly women, and the two chatted for twenty minutes before her mother asked Xiaonuma to give the phone.

A moment of silence.

"Xiaonuma, mom has always hoped that you will have a happy and warm family in the future, Liu Ze is very steady, his ideas are very mature, and he is also very courageous, you can try to get along, mom doesn't want you to be ...... because of you"

Before he could finish speaking, Ning Xiaonuma said, "Oh, I know." ”

I pressed the phone, and my mind was very chaotic and imitating, as if her most painful side was exposed to the sun, scorched and smoking.

Liu Ze hugged her tightly, very tight, smelling the good smell of her hair, faint, very elegant.

"Give me a chance, give myself a chance, I will do what I say, I will do everything I can, and I will leave no regrets in both of our lives."

Whispering, full of warmth.

Ning Xiaonuan's psychology was warm and warm at this moment.

On the way back, the two held hands and didn't say much.

Liu Ze was very happy, and sent her to the door of the apartment all the time, reluctantly waving goodbye.

As soon as he walked a few steps, he received a text message from Ning Xiaonuma.