Chapter 56: It's hard to love yourself
According to the normal rules of etiquette in the world, since Duanmu Shuofeng swept away all domestic competitors with a thunderous momentum, forced the palace to take the throne, and officially ascended the throne of the country and announced it to the world, Duanmu Nanli, as his own sister, should be regarded as the eldest princess of their David Kingdom, and this year, she has just turned seventeen years old.
As far back as the ancient times when the human race had just formed the concept of tribes, it was clearly recorded in the classics: a woman was seven years old, her kidneys were vigorous, and her teeth were longer; Twenty-seven and Tianqi was in heaven, Ren was connected, Taichong was prosperous, and the moon was in the present, so there were children; Sanqi, the kidney qi was average, so the true teeth were born and long; Four-seven, the muscles and bones were strong, the hair was long, and the body was strong; Five-seven, the Yangming veins were weak, the face began to burn, and the hair began to fall; Six-seven, the three yang veins were weakened on the top, the face was scorched, and the hair began to be white; Seven-seven, the Ren pulse was weak, the Taichong pulse was weak, the heavens were exhausted, and the tunnel was impassable, so the shape was bad and there were no children。
This is a detailed record of the specific changes in a woman's body at each stage of her life.
Thirteen women, the folk mostly take the word "cardamom" as a pronoun, which is a very appropriate metaphor in the shape of cardamom flowers, the so-called cardamom flowers, Zhang but not obvious, beautiful but not surprised, is precisely the best portrayal of an ignorant girl in that shy and glamorous state.
But all flowers, the best, is also its most beautiful time, is the kind of blooming, budding moment, to flowers than people, a woman's best years, is at the age of thirteen or fourteen, the age of the beginning of love.
And when a woman reaches the age of fifteen, it will be called the year of "and Xuan", the so-called and Xuan, it is to describe the appearance of a woman after marriage to tie her hair and insert a hairpin, so folk women, most of them will get married around the year of Twenty-seven, this is because of the woman's Twenty-seven, you can have a child, and the child daughter-in-law of the general rich family for their young master is also at this time, it will be allowed to do things like clouds and rain, too early, it will hurt the body.
Therefore, a woman like Duanmu Nanli, who is not yet married, and has not even formally made a marriage contract, is already considered an older leftover woman in the human society of the Canghai Realm, but in the end, because she is a patriotic royal family, as long as she is willing, she is actually not worried about getting married, and it can even be said that if she makes a noise today, the person who comes to the door tomorrow to propose marriage will have to block the entire palace gate.
But if she is unwilling, because of the reason why the eldest brother Duanmu Shuofeng is still there, no one dares to force her, and there will never be that kind of vicious woman who has a bad heart, who can't see that this unmarried girl looks better than herself, and has been secretly instructed by others to chew her tongue in front of her.
Defending the country, everyone knows that this sister who is a lot older than himself is the real rebel of Duanmu Shuofeng, if you calculate him Duanmu Shuofeng for the sake of interests, in fact, he may not be anything, at least he will never retaliate against you at that time, but once this sister is involved, he will never hesitate to kill, there was a tragedy in the capital in the early years, which is a bloody precedent, if not, she would not have the opportunity to meet Gu Xuan for the first time.
Since Duanmu Shuofeng ascended the throne, he has not been immersed in the joy of finally getting what he wants and ascending to the throne for too long, nor has he been indulged in the wonderful atmosphere of ten thousand people bowing down and the ministers bowing.
The eldest brother can be called very good to her, so good that almost no one can find any fault, and this is completely a kind of doting without asking for anything in return, it is expected that she was born in the emperor's family, she should not be able to help herself, as a victim of politics, marrying someone she doesn't love, it is very normal and reasonable.
Even she herself had already prepared for this kind of psychological preparation early, but in this case, Duanmu Shuofeng was not afraid of trouble at all, rescued her from the whirlpool of the capital, and brought her to Qilian City, his side, although he had never let her leave this one-third of an acre of land, although he would also send the man he liked and wanted to be her future husband to her side, so that they could have more contact, but as long as Duanmu Nanli refused, he would never force it.
For a woman, especially for a woman born in the emperor's family, it is such a rare happiness to be able to have the right to choose love freely, even if she is as ambitious as Duanmu Shuofeng, she never thought of using her marriage and happiness as her own help, in exchange for the help of some people, if this is known by the women of the harem of all dynasties, I am afraid that the entire Weiguo capital will be overwhelmed by the feelings of envy and jealousy.
Duanmu Nanli's mother died early because of serious illness, and her father was also very distant from her, she was actually brought up by Duanmu Shuofeng since she was a child, and they all said that the eldest brother was like a father, and she was definitely very attached to Duanmu Shuofeng, the eldest brother, although occasionally disgusted with his excessive worry about herself, but Duanmu Nanli herself understood that this was definitely a blessing that many people couldn't ask for and couldn't repair.
As for Gu Xuan, that is the first man she likes in her heart in the past seventeen years since she was born, and the first in the world, except for her eldest brother, who can leave a complete image in her heart, often miss tea and dinner, and even let her dare to do something for him that may make her own brother unhappy.
What is even more pitiful and distressing is that men and women in this world have always had different definitions of love, or the degree of need for affection.
For the vast majority of men of the human race, compared with the country and the beauty, the former always seems to be more important, more desirable to get, and some people will even say such as "brothers are like siblings, women are like clothes", "gentle township is a hero's mound" Such bastard words, they are ashamed to indulge in feelings, suffer from gains and losses, and people who indulge in gentle townships are often ridiculed as having no ambitions.
It seems that the tone of the whole society is to require men to focus more on their careers, and women are like an accessory that will naturally appear with the improvement of their status, and they will not be cherished, so men's greasy taste often comes faster than they imagined.
What's even more terrifying is that if a man can be accompanied by more than one woman, it is a celebrity and a gentleman, and it is enviable, but if a woman is accompanied by multiple men, it is shameless and violates etiquette.
Different from men's ups and downs, it is difficult to be single-minded, once a woman likes a person, it is a lifetime, she can give up everything for her, let go of everything, humble to the extreme, not to see the past and present, so many women have been deceived by the negative man to have nothing, but still in love, no regrets, at most just anger outsiders, but will not be how to him, in fact, unless it is extremely disappointed, otherwise it is difficult for a woman to make up her mind to leave a man, especially since they have accepted the ideological edification of three from four virtues。
For this feeling that she can't help but control, what can she say, what do she think, should she hate, but should she hate the other party if she is not a patriot, or should she hate herself for not being a Liangguo person, kind as she is, she can't give birth to such extreme thoughts.
But fate is like this, it has never had any mercy at all, arranged a given result for one thing, arranged a given life for a person, and will never care about the feelings of the parties, good people may not have good rewards, and bad people may not have evil rewards, this is the most serious world, there is no distinction between good and evil, and there is no meaning for the word "fairness".
The so-called heaven and earth are not kind, and all things are used as dogs, which is the truth, this is not that heaven and earth are not merciful, but only in this way, that is the real great benevolence, only by not favoring all things, and treating all living beings equally, this is the open heart of heaven and earth, and can be regarded as real fairness.
At the beginning of the war between the two countries, they suddenly became inseparable enemies, and under the overturning of the general situation, there was no longer a position to speak of, so in that case, she dared to write a letter to Gu Xuan and reveal her heart, which was already a very bold act.
can only be said to be as lively and cheerful as her, simple and kind as her, and has always been very brave to pursue what she wants, just like when she tried every means to leave the shackles of Qilian City, did she really not know that there was danger outside, in fact, it was not, but because she was such a character.
As a girl who has just met someone she is sure she will like for the rest of her life, she is so brave, but she is so cowardly, and the most abrasive gains and losses in love are vividly reflected in her body.
She has already confided her love to the other party so boldly, in fact, because she feels from the bottom of her heart that both parties are possible, at least, the other party should also like herself, even if it is enough to meet each other, isn't it, she has already made it clear in the letter, even if it is just to meet each other, but her sweetheart has not replied, which makes her who has been waiting for a long time soon lose that firm courage.
Time, it's something that can consume everything, little by little, eroding her confidence in love, in fact, the girl is not as brave as she imagined, so indomitable, this may also be the pitiful appearance of everyone who has moved their hearts first in love.
However, this hope generated by love was not completely shattered, just when she was almost desperate, a few days ago, she suddenly waited for a letter, not his, but far away in the capital, a person named Xie Shi sent it, saying that she was guaranteed to let her see her sweetheart.
Pei Sheng Nandi Xie Shi she knows, even if Duanmu Shuofeng has protected her well since she was a child, but these are common sense, besides, this has always been to correct others, he is only a temporary Da Situ, and Duanmu Shuofeng's private relationship is not bad, otherwise he will not be arranged by Duanmu Shuofeng as the big Situ guarding the rear, so she and Xie Shi, in fact, still have a few sides before, of course, what really makes her not hesitate at all, she is willing to leave everything behind, and secretly run over, or the love that is reluctant to let go。
As long as there's a glimmer of hope, it's time to try to grasp it, isn't it?
At least the girl has such an attitude towards this love, so she came desperately, and after meeting Xie Shi, she was arranged in this remote small courtyard, Xie Shi told her very sincerely, because she was in a hurry, so it would take some days to do, she was at this time, and also calmed down a little bit of that turbulent feeling, but understood that he had now fallen into the hands of the other party, and when he looked at the guards around him, he was very strict, and he directly gave up the idea of escaping, but in these lonely and lonely days, she was here every day, looking at the green vines in the garden in a daze, and sitting for a day。
Tonight was the same, but when she heard the movement at the door and subconsciously turned her head, she couldn't believe her eyes.
Heavenly
The stars are dotted, looming, the garden on the ground is full of mist, like a dream, she is wearing a cloak used to keep warm, white as snow, and a circle around her neck looks at the warm silver mink, and the inside is an equally simple white shirt, which sets off her whole person, as if the Yaotai fairy is in the world, ice muscles and jade bones, and the country and the city!
The look that made Gu Xuan very impressed when he first saw it, the heroic appearance disappeared, and turned into a mixture of grief and surprise, the originally plump and extremely cute cheeks of the girl had been inexorably emaciated in the days of waiting, but it did not affect the slightest beauty of the whole face, but it just turned the five points of playful childishness into three points of fascinating fairy world ethereal air and two points of pity for the weak willow Fufeng, she is still the first beauty of the country.
Xie Shi, who had been quietly leading the way in front, had quietly turned around and left at this time, leaving this small world alone to these two young people who had not seen each other for a long time.
It was after a few breaths that she finally reacted, it turned out that all this was not in a dream, nor was it because she had looked at the stars for too long, but it was a real thing, she immediately stood up, kept her eyes open, looked at him, as if she was afraid that if she blinked, he would disappear again, the expression on her face changed several times, and suddenly opened her lips, and asked the first sentence of the two when they met: "Why didn't Brother Xuan reply to Nanli's letter?"
At this moment, it is no longer the slightly rusty "Engong", but a girl's unique "Brother Xuan".
Gu Xuan was silent, he stood in place, his hands suddenly didn't know how to put it, the recent high-spirited and majestic King of Hedong County, at this moment, there was a sense of crampedness.
Why don't you reply?
But will he be able to reply?
What should I do?
Between the two, because of each other's different backgrounds, there is naturally an unchangeable barrier, not to mention, he feels that he doesn't love her, at least there is no such irrepressible surging love that matches the same as a girl.
As for saying that there is affection between the two parties, it does, and he doesn't want to deny it, but it is not love, at least not deep love, based on this, he does not feel that he should accept the other party's love, thus delaying her life.
He thinks so, no matter what kind of result Da Liang and David will go to, who wins and who loses, in short, there is him here, and there is Duanmu Shuofeng's brother over there, so that she will not be wronged, she can still be her princess and enjoy all the glory, but now that the results of the war are unknown, how can he, as a Liangguo person, rashly reply to her?
It must be known that the most difficult knot in the world to untie is actually not a failure after hard work, but a person who has given hope, but failed to do what he promised.
A sweet dream, in the moment of disillusionment, is the most desperate.
This is his Gu Xuan's truth, and it is also his criterion for doing things, so he is reluctant to have more contact with Duanmu Nanli, because he understands that the more he gets in touch, the greater the expectations of the other party will be for this relationship, and he is unwilling to let such a simple, cute, and good girl who has done so much for himself toss and turn in extreme pain.
But today, knowing that she was waiting for him here, Gu Xuan still couldn't help but come over, maybe he just wanted to make everything clear in person, because he didn't want to escape from the other party again this time, but the next moment he asked that sentence from the other party's face, before he could think about how to answer, Duanmu Nanli was already like a deer, trotting towards him.
In this world, a young girl can do it to such an extent, and it is okay to say that it is a husband.
This Hedong County King, who has always been decisive in killing and killing outside, has high skills, and can even compete for the first person in the martial arts in the south, for this "sneak attack", he couldn't react at all, and was deceived into his arms generously, but he only smelled a charming fragrant breeze, his body stiffened in an instant, and he was a little stupid, because he really couldn't imagine that the other party would be so bold and would express his love in his heart so unabashedly.
Yes, the love that surged in the secret and set off waves finally turned into an intoxicating love after a long time of brewing.
At this moment, she can't take care of other things, she can't restrain herself anymore, what courtesy, righteousness and shame, what two countries are at war, and even whether it will cause the other party's disgust because of too much enthusiasm, she doesn't care anymore, at this moment, she just wants to hug him tightly and never let him leave.
She hugged Gu Xuan's waist with both hands, and buried her face deep in Gu Xuan's arms, thanks to the fact that when she was waiting for Duanmu Lei and his group to come from the palace, Gu Xuan had already changed her clothes in advance under Xie Shi's special reminder, otherwise she might smell a very bad smell of blood.
At the same time, a weak voice with a cry that was as suppressed as possible and a girl's talent sounded in his arms.
"Why are you here?"
The expression on Gu Xuan's face was very complicated, he slowly moved his stiff neck, lowered his head, looked at the lovely child who was sobbing in his arms, and subconsciously stretched out his hands to hug her, but he stopped in the air.
He didn't dare, he didn't dare to give hope to the other party, because he thought that in this relationship, he was the one who was destined to disappoint, not because Duanmu Nanli was bad, but because the fate of the two sides, when they converged at the beginning, was wrong, and everything should not have happened to make her so sad.
Why things have turned out like this, in fact, he can't say, maybe this is fate, it will never go according to the process that people expect, all the predictions about the future are actually meaningless and illusory, because you can never imagine what tomorrow will be like, whether it is good or bad, I don't know, besides, feelings are unreasonable.
If you like you, you may not like it, and what you like may not like you, everyone says that you may not be tempted by the beautiful you, and he or she, who looks mediocre in the eyes of outsiders, is full of brilliance that cannot be looked at directly in your eyes, this is feelings, there is no logic to talk about.
His face was stiff, his Adam's apple rolled a few times, his dry lips opened and closed, and his voice was very low, even a little hoarse and slightly trembling.
"You've lost weight. ”
It was only three words, but he said it very slowly, very slowly, and the pause in the middle was extremely long, and his voice was so low that it was like a mosquito moaning softly at night, but these three words were so heavy that they smashed on the girl's heart and smashed her dizzy.
She raised her head suddenly, her eyes were full of tears, just like the smoke and rain in Jiangzhou, hazy, like real and illusory, the dew rolled down, so poignant that people looked fascinated and didn't want to move for half a minute, even a determined person like Gu Xuan, the silent heart, couldn't help but "bang" and jump.
She shouted softly, "Brother Xuan。。。。。。 ”
This sound is really soft, extremely coquettish, enough to teach the human form to stand upright, melt the golden stone, but before the words were finished, Gu Xuan's hands just stretched out all of a sudden, and suddenly pressed on the girl's full chest coldly, and then pulled back like lightning.
In fact, he just subconsciously wanted to push the other party away first, because this posture really made him speechless, but if he was not careful, he did this extremely obscene thing, even he himself was a little blushing at the moment, you must know that no matter how powerful he Gu Xuan is, he is just a chick who has never tasted the taste of a woman.
The girl was suddenly attacked, in this case, she was already very nervous and sensitive, and she couldn't help but let out a lustful light ding, and her body suddenly softened, Gu Xuan felt the change, and completely subconsciously stretched out his hand and held the other party's body that was about to fall, and the sentence "I don't think it's good" was suddenly suffocated back into her stomach, so she could only carefully use the forearm of her left hand to support the girl's slender and weak waist.
But in the next moment, her two dazzling jade arms had already boldly surrounded her, grabbed Gu Xuan's neck, and did not choose to force the other party down, but hooked up with the trend, and tried to lift her body, Gu Xuan didn't have time to react, and suddenly she was kissed on the lips by the girl.
Completely different from the natural roughness of men's skin, it is an unusually soft, wonderful and wonderful touch, which adheres tightly to one's face, and with it, a fragrant fragrance that people are reluctant to refuse.
I can't use words to describe what that fragrance is, it is more elegant than flowers, but it is stronger than grass, it is more intoxicating than wine, but it is more mellow than tea, that is the taste that belongs to her alone, in this world, you may be able to find someone more beautiful than her, and even more lingering fragrance than this, but there is no second person, there will be the same fragrance, and tonight, no, in her life, this fragrance, belongs to him alone.
Thick Zhu Yandan lips, yellow kiss full of red.
The lips gradually became lighter, and the clouds turned empty.
Lu Ji is a young Wei Wang's family, with green sideburns and red lips.
The red lips did not move, and the mouth was fragrant.
A thousand words, ancient and modern verses, how can they describe this wonderful moment?
The movements of the young girl were so immature, so unfamiliar that they might make onlookers feel ridiculous, she just pressed her lips tightly, and that was already the only action she naturally made at the moment when her head was now a mess.
As for the boy's movements, he was so stiff and motionless, like a sculpture.
The stars in the world witness all this, and the insects on the ground have stopped because of this, and the love flowing in the small courtyard at this moment is true, and there is only this one love word in the world, which can make people move forward the most, even if it is a moth to the fire, even if the future is uncertain, it is also willing!
Even his eyes couldn't help but be intoxicated with such tenderness, blurred, chaotic, his body suddenly relaxed, his hands couldn't help it, it was completely natural, and he also wanted to hug the person in front of him, kiss her well, and respond to her enthusiasm with his own enthusiasm, but suddenly, he suddenly woke up again, and the psychedelia in his eyes disappeared all at once.
In fact, I can't tell what he thinks.
His mind was now full of chaos, many thoughts, many pictures in his memory, and sounds, all flashing together.
Just now, he suddenly thought of Fuyin, the merman woman he had really been silently loving in his heart, in fact, the communication between him and Fuyin, the princess of the merman clan, was far earlier than with Duanmu Nanli, and at the same time, it was also more.
I think that at the beginning, when the two first met, they were in Haizhou
The Royal Hunting Ground, at that time they were just two children of more than three feet, at that time, he was even still confused, he was a foolish prince who could be amused at will in the eyes of outsiders, and it was because he met her that he was able to have a chance and open his mind.
Then the two met again, it was a full thirteen years later, it was in the capital of Liangguo, she set foot on the land of Liangguo again, as the envoy of the mermaid clan to the capital, to discuss the cooperation between the two clans, at that time, he had always been low-key, in the state banquet to show off, just to attract her attention.
Then at the celebrity-gathered, Gu Cang's Winter Solstice Poetry Meeting, the two of them secretly left the hall and strolled through the back garden of the Prince's Mansion, and it was there that they had their first hug, including the two of them later, roaming the capital, which was even more envious of others, although in addition to walking around, the two of them did not have any more touch, but the spontaneous joy in his heart was completely indescribable.
In fact, this is not only because of his thoughts about her, and the special feelings that have been born since he was a child, after thirteen years of brewing, he has become more mellow and intoxicating, but also because he has been looked down upon by others since he was a child, and was deliberately suppressed and made fun of by his own brothers。
Not to mention that after that, Fuyin traveled thousands of miles to Huangsha County to find him, and his words were full of concern for him, which was really a wonderful experience that made the corners of his mouth can't help but rise when he thought of it, and it was a very rare memory for him.
It is precisely because of the existence of Fuyin that he can't accept Duanmu Nanli's love from his heart, although it is common for men to have three wives and four concubines, but he is unwilling, at least, he must not give Fuyin an explanation first, this is a primary and secondary question, he must have asked Fuyin before he can face Duanmu Nanli later, not to mention, he feels that he is in the middle of Duanmu Nanli, there are too many things interspersed.
Since you can't give it, then don't promise, even if at the time of the promise, the feeling is true, but he believes that the other party's disappointment, even despair, is also true, after all, he is still the kind and thoughtful fifth prince after all, not the current Hedong Junwang who is decisive and will start to consider lowering his bottom line, especially in this matter, especially in the treatment of Duanmu Nanli, even more so.
How could he hurt such a kind, lovely, and innocent girl?
Besides, there is nothing wrong with loving someone.
It's a pity that he doesn't understand a woman's mind, he never knows, and he will never understand, at this time, a straightforward refusal will be more heart-piercing than making the other party lose later, and it will be more painful to extricate himself, because in any case, a woman will never regret it at this age when her love is first opened, as long as she really loved at that time, even if the other party did do something very sad later, even if the beautiful promise turned into an empty joy, but what I remembered afterwards was always only the good of that person, and I didn't want to mention the bad of that person。
Regardless of the outcome, those who have really liked it will be sincerely grateful for the encounter itself.
I don't know if this is a kind of self that comes naturally from men in a male-oriented society, or because he is such a person, all in all, he is just making a choice that he thinks is better for the other party, but I don't know, this is actually not a good decision, at least not for her, at least not at the moment.
Even if you have a good heart at the beginning, if you don't do it right, the results are likely to become unexpected.
He sighed secretly in his heart, and then resolutely stretched out his hand, gently pushing away Duanmu Nanli, who was still with his eyes closed and still immersed in the lingering that he had waited for so long, and at the same time quietly took a step back.
I think that at the beginning, when he was in the back garden of the prince's mansion, although he didn't have such a fierce kiss, Fuyin did the same thing to him, but he didn't push the other party away, but he was a little unsatisfied, and the difference in mood was obviously visible.
But this short small step fell on the eyes of the girl who had opened her eyes, full of stunned looks, and even the red glow that had just risen on her face had not yet receded, but it was so piercing, so obvious, so desperate and painful.
It seems that all hope is gone, just this small step, but standing in front of him, he has been separated from himself by thousands of mountains and rivers, unable to cross, her heart has been at this moment, from the highest place, completely fell to the bottom.
Gu Xuan didn't know what was happening silently in front of him at all, he just turned his head and didn't dare to look at her at all.
yes, how dare he go and see it?
He's just talking to himself.
"Nan Li, I think, this is not good. ”
His voice was very low, but it fell on the ears of Duanmu Nanli, who was close at hand, like a thunderclap, which completely extinguished the light in her heart, especially his tone, which was still a little fluctuating from the beginning, but in the back, it became more and more calm and powerful, as if it was slowly firming, like an unbreakable wall, so it fell defenselessly in the center of the two people, fell in the center of the two hearts, and isolated her.
Duanmu Nanli couldn't help but lower his head, and two lines of tears slipped silently.
She didn't dare to cry out loud at all, the heroic spirit of dancing and playing with swords back then, but where could she match such a pain that penetrated deep into the bone marrow, yes, no matter how bold and strong people were outside, at such a time, they couldn't stop this sword that pierced their hearts, and even, the stronger they behaved, the more they looked at them and didn't care, the more they couldn't resist and sank into it.
She was so bold to express her feelings of longing and admiration to the other party, and even took the initiative to offer her first kiss to the other party, she had given everything, traveled thousands of miles, and done so much, but what did she get in the end, it was just an indifferent refusal.
The girl is puzzled, because she is just a girl who has just met her long-missed sweetheart!
Gu Xuan didn't turn his head to look at this scene at all, he just tried very hard to make his tone seem less hurtful, his hands kept kneading his clothes, and he was talking about everything.
"Nan Li, actually, well, how to say it, actually, in fact, I, I, I understand your mind, but maybe you, maybe, you, you may need to think about it seriously, hey, alas, in short, I, in fact, there is not much contact between us, you don't know me, maybe, maybe you just remember the one you thought I was, but in fact it's not like that, I'm not just the good person who saved you, it's not that simple, that is, in fact, I have a lot of them, a lot of others, you can say faces, or looks, in short, there are a lot of things you haven't seen, I think, I think a good girl like you, Actually, it shouldn't be on me, um, stumbling, that's not a very good choice, Nan Li, I hope, you can understand. ”
As smart as he is, he will never know a woman's mind, let alone understand her helplessness and sadness at the moment.
Listening to that Xie Shi, the front line has been defeated, hundreds of thousands of troops have fled, my brother doesn't know whether he lives or dies, and he doesn't know what Wei Guo will become in the future, he has relied on since he was a child, and he suddenly disappeared like this, she is so lonely, Gu Xuan can be said to be the only one she can rely on now, and she can trust with all her heart, but how could he say that?
She didn't do this because she was worried about the unknowable future, but because of the unknowable future, right now, after Gu Xuan said these words, she gave this girl too much oppression, so much that she was almost out of breath.
She lowered her head, reluctantly suppressed her crying, and said lightly in an almost murmuring voice: "Xuan, Brother Xuan, Nan Li understands, understands。。。。。。 ”
Yes, she understood, it turned out that all this was just her own wishful thinking, it turned out that all of this was just a mirror, it turned out that you Duanmu Nanli, it was nothing more than that, even if you recommended yourself to the pillow seat, the other party would not accept it, but would only think you were disgusting.
The girl who was originally as bright as the afternoon sunshine, but now it is like a flower in autumn, the cold wind blows, and she sees the petals falling, in such an empty world, she can only slowly wither, because she knows that no one will appreciate her, love her, and cherish her.
And Gu Xuan, it was finally at this time that he remembered it, raised a smile and said: "Nan Li, no matter what, I hope you can find that happiness that belongs to you, the second brother once told me that there can be many choices in life, there is only the most suitable one for you, there is never the best one, and there is no worst one, in fact, you don't have to, alas, in short, it doesn't have to be like this, rest assured, no matter what, I Gu Xuan will 。。。。。。 ”
The latter words, he couldn't speak, because his voice slowly came down at this moment, he thought that the other party had figured it out, he was relieved, but suddenly turned his head, but found that his eyes were empty, under the starlight projection, where could he still see people?
"Squeak!"
Suddenly there was a sound of the door closing in front of her, it turned out that all this was not a dream, but she had turned around silently and returned to the cold house by herself.
"South。。。。。。 ”
He stretched out his hand to the front, his face was entangled, but no matter how hard he tried, the next word was unspeakable.
He can't keep it, because he feels that the long pain is better than the short pain, he is just making a choice that is good for both parties, even if he doesn't understand, he is doing it just to fill his guilty heart, just to convince himself.
"Alas。。。。。。 ”
Gu Xuan couldn't help but sigh heavily, he only felt that in fact, what he said and did was wrong just now, not to mention that he was qualified to think about these things, he was going to set off again tomorrow, he could only keep admonishing himself in his heart, constantly comforting himself, doing all this for the good of the other party, he was right.
The cold air in the night is getting thicker, and it is even a little biting at this time, this is the coldest time of the day, Gu Xuan was silent for a few breaths, turned around silently, and walked away from the courtyard, but he didn't find that the cloak that was as white as snow fell to the ground and no one picked it up.
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Creation.,Actually, it's all casual.,Feel it.,I thought about it for a while.,I wrote it.,Write more.,And there may be a lot of nonsense in your opinion.,Or secondary two.,Boring.,Disdainful content.,Actually, I also want this chapter to be directly free.,But I can't tune it.,That's it.。
In short, these two chapters are dedicated to my favorite characters in this book, and I am willing to say more nonsense for Miss Nan Li.
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