He bit his lower lip, thinking of his second uncle's contemptuous eyes towards his father, remembering the lonely figure of his father being locked up outside the door of the family banquet behind the rocks, and remembering the scene where the servant pointed to him and said that this was a waste cub......

"Absolutely not!" Gu Hai said again, biting his lower lip out of the blood mark.

"Brother, the three of us are together, wear clothes made by ourselves, eat the food we earn, no matter how difficult the days are, we can straighten our backs in front of others, why do we have to rely on others to see people's faces and live?" Gu Bainiang took a deep breath.

She remembered a sentence that an old servant of the Shen family once said, and she didn't know why, this bland sentence was extremely clear in her mind at this time.

"Whoever has it is better to have it than to have it." She muttered aloud.

"Yes!" Gu Hai said loudly, "Yes, we are on our own!" Don't rely on them! Don't ask them for alms! ”

"Brother, you study hard and strive for fame." Gu Banniang held his arm and said.

"Yes," Gu Hai nodded emphatically, raised his fist and shook it, "I want to be famous, earn a wife for my mother, and see who dares to look down on us and bully us at will!" ”

As he spoke, he remembered that in the past six months, because he was worried about family affairs and absent-minded, he had pulled down a lot of courses, and there was not much time left before next year's autumn exam.

"Sister, I'm going to school." Gu Hai threw down the woodcutter and ran out.

"Brother, I'll wait for you on the mountain behind the school, you're out of school, let's chop wood together!" Gu Banniang shouted with tears in her eyes.

Gu Hai waved his hand from afar, turned the corner and disappeared, Gu Bainiang stood in front of the door and stared blankly for a while, until the neighbor's aunt greeted her, she came to her senses and closed the door in response.

Looking at the simple but life-like courtyard, Gu Bainiang clenched her fists, and took a step to change her fate, it was far from enough to keep her house and no longer go to the fence.

She knew that the family had no savings, and she should have borrowed foreign debts for her own medical treatment, and then there was food, clothing, and living expenses for the three of them.

Money.. Money... To survive there must be money, and she needs money.

At this moment, she hated herself for being a daughter, she couldn't pick her shoulders and couldn't lift her hands, she didn't know how to do it, the only thing she had was ten years of life experience, and that experience was just floating at random like rootless duckweed, following her relatives before she got married, and following her mother-in-law after getting married, even in the pharmacy she got after the separation, as the hostess, she also followed those shopkeepers....... except for listening to others, she would not do anything.

Sadness, resentment, and depression hit her heart, could she only watch what happened happen again?

So why should she be born again?

Gu Bainiang knelt in the courtyard, buried her head in her knees and cried loudly, every night, she was tortured by the memory of her "previous life", and she wanted to cry loudly, but she couldn't because her mother was sleeping beside her.

She was afraid that her mother and brother would die in front of her eyes again, and she was afraid of hearing the name Jiankang, but thinking that that person was living in Jiankang at this time, she couldn't wait to rush over with a knife immediately, kill him, kill him......

After crying happily for a while, the cathartic emotions slowly calmed down, Gu Bainiang looked at the blue sky and took a deep breath.

In her previous life, she was a very ordinary woman, although she had read a lot of books, but she never seriously thought about the truth in the books, but now she thinks about those life experiences, and then thinks about the books she has read, especially the ones that her father has taught her seriously, and her state of mind gradually calms down.

can't be anxious, can't be impatient, she has to believe that God won't be playing tricks on her if he wants her to be reborn, and besides, thinking back on the past, she Gu Bainiang also asked herself if she was a wicked person who was a traitor, and God wouldn't let her experience the pain again.

She straightened her clothes, knelt down under the pomegranate tree in the courtyard, kowtowed sincerely, prayed together, and the gods and Buddhas were on top, bless the eighteen mothers.

Cao Shi sold needlework and thread and came back in a hurry, originally in a hurry to cook for Gu Bainiang, but saw that the rice had been buckled on the stove, and the yard was clean, obviously cleaned.

"Mother, eat quickly, I'll go and deliver food to my brother." Gu Bainiang picked up the small basket and said.

Cao's tears couldn't help but fall out.

When her husband was there, although the situation at home was not good, there was still money to support her son to eat the cheapest meal in the school, so they didn't send food, but since her husband died, the family's situation plummeted, Gu Hai secretly starved in the school to save money, and after she knew about it, she cried a lot and started to deliver food.

I sent it only twice, one is that Gu Hai comes back before noon every day, and then helps her work at home, and second, she is really lacking in skills, and she doesn't worry about letting her daughter go, she naturally knows that this will ruin her son's homework, but .....

She is really guilty as a mother.

Now that it's okay, her son lets her deliver food, which means that she has started to study normally again and regained her heart, and her daughter has also taken the initiative to take care of her brother, and she has put down a stone in her heart.

"Mother, don't worry, I'm fine, I can do anything at home." Gu Bainiang looked up at her mother's face that was getting old because of her hard work, and she was also sad.

"Okay." Cao nodded and gave his daughter a loving smile, "Be careful on the road." ”

She didn't express her worries about her daughter's body, her daughter was so considerate of her, she also had to be considerate of her daughter's heart to share her mother's worries.

Gu Bainiang nodded, carried the basket, and picked up the woodcutter with her hand, "Mother, I'll just wait for my brother to get out of school and chop firewood with him, don't worry." ”

Cao Shi also thought of her injury, and looked a little hesitant, but looking at her daughter's firm eyes, she still nodded, "Okay, you..." Be careful, you have little strength, just pick up firewood..."

Gu Bainiang responded with a smile and stepped out of the door.

"Hey, Gu Niangzi.." Aunt Liu came over slowly, and saw Cao Shi standing at the door hurriedly smiled and greeted, "What did you think about that matter?" ”

Cao's face showed a little hesitation, hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Big lady, I'm bothering you... I'm not buying this house for a while.."

"What?" Aunt Liu's smiling face froze on her face.

Hearing this, Gu Bainiang looked back slightly, and a light smile appeared on her lips, but it quickly disappeared, and now is not the time to laugh.