Chapter 56 The sea cleans up the dust, and the old dreams linger
Zhang Qian recalled: "Wang Kang and I have often come to the beach to play since we were children, picking shells, catching sea crabs, catching jumping fish, walking and singing on the beach hand in hand, talking about ideals, talking about love, and even swimming, rowing, surfing in the sea together, doing everything. It was the happiest, innocent, most romantic and beautiful time in my life, impressive, unforgettable, fresh in my memory, and I can't erase it for a lifetime, I can't forget it, and I will always stay in my memory. ”
Zhang Qian looked at the sea for a long time, as if she was still recalling and imagining the innocent romantic life she spent with Wang Kang. But that life is gone, and there is no way to come back. Now it is Zhao Jie, his former secretary, who accompanies Wang Kang on a walk by the sea; And accompanying her was Li, her special assistant, an image and demeanor that looked like Wang Kang, but he was a migrant worker from Daliang Mountain in the mainland. The scenery is still the same, and the personnel are not; It's the same two, and the situation is different. She did this, but she deceived herself and wanted to regain some of the good things of the past. But she has mixed feelings in her heart, and it is difficult to express them. The reality is so cruel and helpless, she has to accept it if she doesn't want to.
After a long time, Zhang Qian turned around and asked Li: "What have you and Tao and Xing played since childhood?" ”
Li knew that Zhang Qian wanted to hear their stories and compare them with those of her and Wang Kang, so he said: "We are completely different from you, our hometown is a mountainous area. Children can't play without the mountains. For example, climbing cliffs and exploring gullies, watching the sunrise and sunset, clouds gathering and scattering, watching Mingquan Waterfall, birds flying and flying, and watching wild animals, such as monkeys, squirrels, and pheasants. When I was a child, I used to see these scenes and thought they were beautiful and fun. Sometimes you can catch a small bird or squirrel and bring it to your home to raise. Then there is to go over the mountains and forests, pick up mushrooms, fungus, wild fruits, hazelnuts, and take them home to eat. When they reach the age of seven or eight, they not only play, but also help the family mow the grass, herd pigs, and herd sheep, but they still can't do without the mountains. We love the mountains, respect the mountains, and fear the mountains, because if we don't pay attention, there will be danger. We worship the mountain god the most, thinking that he has given us abundant mountain goods and can help us avoid disasters. ”
"Did you fall in love at that time?"
"Don't talk about it. How do three people fall in love? At that time, I didn't understand these things, that is, I wanted to play together from morning to night every day, and I didn't want to be separated; I also know that we must unite and help each other, so that we can overcome difficulties and not be bullied by children from other villages. Especially the peach and apricot, it seems that they dare not go out and can't work without me. What about you? You guys know you're in love at such a young age? ”
"It's not a serious relationship, in fact, I didn't know what it was to fall in love at that time, I knew that a boy and a girl were good, and when they grew up, they would get married, just like their parents would sleep in the same bed, and they would give birth to little dolls."
Zhang Qian recalled the past with Wang Kang when she was a child, laughing happily, leaning forward and back, the beads swaying, very happy and innocent.
"In the end, Hong Kong is an open city, and even children are sensible early."
"It's not a good thing either, the early you are sensible, the early you mature. Wang Kang was fifteen or sixteen years old and I was dating, and as soon as we met, he held my hand tightly, and when he saw no one, he hugged me, kissed me, and rubbed and touched me. ”
"It seems that this guy has not been a good thing since he was a child." Li was angry for a while, and even scolded Wang Kanglai; But as soon as the words came out, he felt inappropriate, because Zhang Qian still loved him, and he couldn't help but secretly look at Zhang Qian.
Zhang Qian blushed a little when she heard Li scolding Wang Kang, and said, "You can't say that about him, in fact, he is also a very kind person." Whether walking on the street, or at the station or wharf, he always takes the initiative to give them some money when he sees someone begging for food, or a disabled person; After he became general manager, he often mobilized his father to donate money and materials to do good deeds, and he was a well-known philanthropist in Hong Kong. ”
"If he is so kind, why is he so ruthless to the person he has loved since childhood?" Lee asked rhetorically.
"No, he wasn't ruthless to me and didn't file for divorce. I took the initiative to get a divorce. ”
"That's weird, since you still love him, why did you take the initiative to file for divorce?"
"It's all because I'm too willful, strong, and can't tolerate sand in my eyes."
didn't want to do it to this day, Zhang Qian still protected Wang Kang, and did not admit that Wang Kang was ruthless to her, but said that she blamed herself; It's self-deception, hard to understand and convincing. This can only show that she is a strong, willful, tender and restrained woman.
Zhang Qian saw that her words were inconsistent, and it was difficult to justify what she said to make Li believe, so she said: "If you don't talk about him, others can't understand it, and it will only make me sad." ”
Li figured out her thoughts: she loved and hated Wang Kang, she was unhappy together, she left, she still thought about him, and she couldn't forget him. It's really cut, and it's messy! He saw that Zhang Qian was sad, so he had to persuade from the side:
"Sister Zhang, I have heard people say that the highest state of love is giving, not possession. About you took the initiative to leave Boss Wang, and you thought the same way. ”
"I'm not that noble. I'm just a very mediocre person, and I will have seven emotions and six desires, love and hate, but the old love is unforgettable, and I can't bear to embarrass him and let his child lose his mother's love. ”
"You are kind-hearted, you have stayed in the ocean, you are knowledgeable, you can see farther than us, and you can think openly. What should be put down needs to be let go, so that you can get out of your sorrow and be happy. ”
Zhang Qian shook her head, but did not speak. This is her hidden worry, the most sad thing for her, she doesn't want to say it too clearly, and Li is inconvenient to ask, dare not ask.
The two walked side by side on the beach, leaving two neat strings of footprints on the beach. Rows of white waves gently crash against the beach, making rhythmic sounds. The waves also hit their hearts like they couldn't calm their minds. Flocks of silver-gray gulls and petrels greet the sun and soar over the azure sea, making a sharp chirping. Offshore, several small boats cast their nets to catch fish; In the deep sea, the 10,000-ton giant ship whistled and sailed into the distance.
For a long time, Zhang Qian looked at Li, thinking back to what Li said about his love story with Tao and Xing, and felt that it seemed to be similar to her situation with Wang Kang and Zhao Jie, and felt that Xing's departure from Li was also a last resort, and it seemed to be similar to her leaving Wang Kang, and there were regrets and resentments. So she said:
"You're not very old, but you're very good at talking and understanding people's moods, so it's no wonder that you were able to win the love of peach and apricot at the same time. However, although you have created a myth of 'Taoli Xingchun Breeze Family, Taoli Xing Xing Trinity', but you can't really implement it, and in the end Lao Yan separated, one family became two, and one body became two. Peach marries you, and naturally has nothing to say; But won't Xing resent you, hate you, and scold you for being a big liar? ”
"I don't think she will."
"Why?"
"Because I gave her the same amount of love and help as Momo, but I didn't ask her for anything."
"However, you didn't choose to marry her, but abandoned her, married Peach, and finally broke the pattern of one family and one body?"
"You misunderstood. What we mean by "one family" and "one body" means that three people should unite and love each other, care for each other, love each other, and help each other, just like a family, work together, improve progress together, and realize lofty ideals, rather than three people getting married together - this is impossible to achieve in New China. Again, this is not possible in Hong Kong. Love is selfish, and no two women will willingly serve a husband, just like you and Miss Zhao. ”
"There's some truth to what you're saying. However, peaches and apricots may not understand it this way. After you and Momo got married, Apricot thought you had hurt her, and since then she has ignored you and stopped accepting your help, which is a fact. How do you explain that? ”
"I think this is just a temporary phenomenon, a superficial phenomenon, and Xing will slowly think about it in the future, understand my suffering. I will also use the facts to prove that although I did not choose to marry her, my care, love and help for her will not be less than that of Peach. ”
Zhang Qian didn't believe it, and she couldn't understand it, she shook her head again and again: "I don't believe what you say at all." I ask you: You have three promises to Peach, and you will not hesitate to go out to work to earn money to fulfill your promise to her. What is your commitment to apricots? How are you going to cash out? ”
"I also have three promises to Xing: first, I will follow her advice, I will not lose my ambition when I fail in college, I will not be depressed, I will not be discouraged, I will continue to work hard, work hard and forge ahead, and finally end up with her on the same path and realize our common childhood ideals. I left my hometown, my wife and children, and unswervingly came to Shenzhen to work, just to realize our childhood dream, Xing's expectations for me. Second, although we are no longer together, I will continue to care for her, love her, and help her. Even though she was angry with me and ignored me, I kept writing to her, sending money, understanding her situation, her needs, and asking for help for her. Thirdly, I sincerely hope that she can find someone she loves and loves her as soon as possible to be with her for the rest of her life. I will sincerely persuade her, help her, and sincerely wish her that she too will have a husband who truly cares for her, and a happy family. Isn't this also a piece of love for her? ”
Zhang Qian listened to Li's three promises to Xing, remembered Wang Kang's ruthlessness to her after the divorce, and exclaimed:
"Although you are young, your mind is as broad as the sea, which is admirable! If Wang Kang's mind can be as broad as yours and still care for me as before, even if I get divorced, I will have no regrets. It's a pity that he doesn't have the same mind and understanding as you. He hasn't seen me since the divorce, not even a phone call, not a letter. But I still think about his many good things, and I can't forget them. People, whether rich or poor, sincerity and true affection are the most precious and rare! ”
Li was praised by Zhang Qian, remembered his debt to Xing, and was a little embarrassed, and said, "Don't praise me like this first." Although I have thought so, said it, and done it, the vicissitudes of the world and the changes may not necessarily be realized. ”
"Just because you have this love, this determination, and work so hard, you can't do it completely, and you should be commended. You can rest assured, in the future, I will support and help you fulfill your three commitments to Apricot, just like I did to Peach. What is needed, just say to me. ”
"Thank you! Still, I want to work hard to fulfill my promise to them. Just like when I was a child, they wanted to eat fruit, so I climbed up the tall fruit tree and picked two bunches of fruit, one for each person, and then watched them eat sweetly, and my heart was as sweet as eating fruit. ”
"As long as you give, don't ask for anything in return, you are the highest state of love. I understand your thoughts, and I will not interfere with your emotional life. I just admire you, admire you, and sincerely want to help you fulfill your heart's desire; If you accept it or not, I won't blame you. In short, you are willing to tell me your love story and your intentions openly, heartfelt and heartfelt, which touches me very much; I can do a little bit for your pure and beautiful love, and the beauty of adults will be satisfied. ”
Zhang Qian said sincerely and emotionally, and Li was very moved, so he had to express his gratitude.
When Zhang Qian came to the sea, she couldn't help but think of Wang Kang, thinking of the sweetness of the past, but thinking of today's Wang Kang made her sad and helpless. She was depressed and upset, and she couldn't solve it, so she had to turn to Li for help:
"Li, I want to go down to the sea to wet my feet, let the clear blue sea wash away the dust and troubles in my heart, are you willing to accompany me?"
At this moment, she completely lost the momentum of the general manager, and discussed with him purely in an equal, friendly and consultative tone; This moved Li very much, he hurriedly agreed, and said according to Zhang Qian's heart:
"Of course. The world is full of red dust, and people living in the world will always be contaminated with mundane thoughts, and saints are inevitable. Go to the sea and wash yourself, get rid of mundane thoughts, and you will be relaxed and happy. Well, I will accompany you to receive the baptism of the sea. ”
"You say, is the sea really so magical?"
"I think there must be. There is a dragon lord in the sea, just like there is a mountain god in our mountains, there are gods, this blue sea water is the divine water, it is the most holy, and it will definitely wash away your troubles. ”
So the two of them quickly took off their shoes and socks, rolled up their trousers, and walked into the sea together. The cool water, soft sand, and smooth sea breeze suddenly made them feel pure and unwanted, forget the mundane, and feel relaxed. Zhang Qian happily shouted at the blue sky and the sea:
"The sea, Lord Dragon, I come to you with the most pious heart, and worship you as your daughter; Be merciful, do not spare your holy water, wash away all my sorrows and troubles, and then give me joy, give me ideals, and give me strength! I will always remember your kindness and thank you forever! ”
Li saw that Zhang Qian was so pious, completely put aside the solemnity and dignity of the general manager, put aside the troubles in his heart, and lived happily like a sixteen or seventeen-year-old innocent and lively girl, like a peach and apricot in middle school, so he plucked up his courage and shouted at her:
"Hey! Sister Zhang, listen: you are the daughter of the sea, your heart must be as broad as the sea, as long as you put aside the mundane thoughts, you will regain joy, love, ideals, and strength! Remember my words and your wish will come true! ”
Zhang Qian saw that Li let go of her usual humility, and responded to her with great interest, not only did she not get angry, but she laughed "giggled" more than once, like a string of silver bells; She picked up the seawater and splashed it on Li's body, saying, "You are the Dragon King, you know my mood, and you know my wishes and ideals?" ”
Li remembered what he had just said, and was afraid that Zhang Qian would be angry, so he had to say:
"You are the daughter of the Dragon King, how dare I be the Dragon King? I can only be a herald under the Dragon Lord, but what I convey is the Dragon Lord's orders, so you still have to obey and carry it out. ”
"Flim Flam!"
She picked up the sea water again and threw it at Li, not wanting to use too much force, her feet slipped, and she almost fell. Li hurriedly stepped forward to hug her, and Zhang Qian hugged Li so that she didn't fall.
Li suddenly became nervous, he let go of Zhang Qian, dusted off the sea water on his body and said:
"Sister Zhang, although you are a daughter, as the general manager of the company, you can't bully people too much; You see that the dragon lord is angry and wants to punish you. ”
"What? Am I not good enough for you? Whether it is yourself, family, hometown, or friend, I have fulfilled all your wishes, and I allow you to call me 'Sister Zhang', which means that we are already friends and sisters, equal! Aren't you satisfied? ”
"So, you're a dragon girl, and I'm a dragon son?"
"What to do? You refused to join you, so I had to ask my father to take you as a righteous son. ”
Zhang Qian looked at Li again and giggled. Li Bujue blushed with shame, he remembered Tao's infatuation with him, and said:
"Sister Zhang, it's not that I don't want to be rich, but I just don't want to be Chen Shimei."
"You, it's not as good as Chen Shimei: Chen Shimei still dares to pursue the freedom of marriage, and the emperor's daughter dares to cheat and marry; You don't have the guts. If you still want to start a business, you have to be bold, put aside the stereotypes, move forward bravely, and be fearless! Do you dare? ”
Zhang Qian stretched out her slender hand and patted it lightly on Li's face, pointed ahead and said, "Look ahead, there is a mirage there, the scene is infinitely beautiful!" Li looked ahead, and saw the sea as far as the eye could see, and there was no mirage. He touched his face and said: "To start a business, you must first save your life, you can't try the law, Master Bao's tiger head is not a vegetarian, you are not afraid, but I am afraid." ”
Zhang Qian grinned and said, "You, you're still a little tender, just kidding, it scared you like this." ”