TEXT NO.76 (Love is Selfish)
Then, in contrast, the girl he regarded as an opponent showed indifference to these grades, rankings, and even the teacher's public rewards and praises. All the while, I just sat alone in the window corner at the back of the class and didn't say a word. Not as noisy as other girls, and not in groups like other girls. Always be alone, or bury your head in a book, or look out the window in a daze.
It's just that her attitude was more like a pride in the eyes of the students at that time, and even Luo Mingyan thought so.
"At that time, I thought you were so hateful! The grades are the first, and even the scholarship is gone, but they are all cold and indifferent. There was a little smile on the corner of his mouth, recalling the feelings of his student days, a little funny and naïve, and so nostalgic.
"It's quite hateful, good grades and pride, and must be despised by many people." It's not the same thing to have good grades, it's really a bad beating. Knowing that she had such a past, Mucha smiled a little embarrassed.
But Luo Mingyan suddenly felt sour in his heart and silently denied her words; Actually, it's not pride, it's just ...... I've been lonely and unaccompanied.
I found out about this before a unit test in the second semester. When he came back from a club activity that day, he had just walked to the door of the classroom when he heard an argument coming from inside. No, it's not so much a quarrel as a one-sided invective.
For some reason, several girls in the class actually gathered around her seat, and one of them shouted at her with a sharp voice, "What qualifications do you have to look down on people!" Don't think we don't know! You're an illegitimate daughter, and your mother is an unsightly junior! It's a vixen! You're the daughter of a junior! What do you pretend to be high, and you will be a garbage again! It's also an illegitimate daughter who can't see the light!"
Those words were very excessive, Luo Mingyan was even surprised why those girls could scold such ugly words, even he couldn't listen to them! But what he was even more surprised was that in the face of such ugly abuse around her, she could still bury her head in her textbook without raising her head.
In the end, the girls were coaxed away by the teacher, but she remained calm as if those things had nothing to do with her. At the time, he didn't understand why she could be so calm? Now I understand that she is not calm, but just trying to restrain herself.
Because she knew that even if she retorted, her anger and crying would be of no avail! It just makes me sadder and weaker. So she disguised herself with indifference, and even more so protected herself with indifference.
He finally won the unit test that day, regaining the first place from her. But he was not happy in his heart, and even felt dishonorable! Because he saw it when he was helping the teacher collect the rolls, she accidentally left tears on the rolls.
Later, he heard some more about her background, but he didn't know if she was an illegitimate daughter; I only know that she has no parents and is now fostered in a wealthy family. Some people say that it is her biological father's house, and others say that it is her relative's house. He didn't figure out the details, and he didn't want to figure them out, and he even hated people who said bad things about her.
When he came back to his senses, he found that his attention to her had long been irrelevant to her grades. I just don't want her to be alone again, I don't want her to be alone anymore, and I have to hide even crying.
"And then? Did we make friends? Interrupting his thoughts faintly, Mucha was full of interest in what he said about the past.
His gaze stayed on her white face for a while, and looking at her bright eyes full of interest, Luo Mingyan took a breath lightly and said, "Later, even if you don't know each other, you don't know each other." In my sophomore year of high school, we joined the student council together, and this time I am better than you, I am the president of the student council, and you are the vice president, so you have to listen to me. He made a humorous gesture that he would not say anything heavy that would make her sad.
She has forgotten everything now, so forget it completely! Although he will have some regrets, he also thinks it is worth it to see such a bright smile and vitality on her face!
"Poof, that's congratulations." It could be heard how much Luo Mingyan wanted to win her at that time, and for his current little pride, Mucha couldn't help but laugh.
"Don't congratulate too early, although I was happy to death at the time, but the teacher told me, this son was originally for you, but what do you say yourself, you are too busy studying, there are too many things, and you don't want to do it! That's why it fell on me!" Putting on an unbearable look on the past, Luo Mingzhen shook his head.
Mucha couldn't help but smile at his words, although restrained, the corners of her mouth revealed her mood.
"Laugh if you want, I actually think it's funny." The young man was ignorant, he was so naïve at that time, Luo Mingyan couldn't help but want to laugh.
"Ahem." Seeing through it, Mucha coughed awkwardly and then said, "Then, is it because of this that we have become friends who are both enemies and friends?" ”
Looking at the teacup's eyes, Luo Mingyan took the teacup and said slowly: "Well, I became a friend." "However, it should be his one-sided feelings, right? Because she will always be so gloomy and independent, no matter what she does, she is just a person. Even if they joined the student union together, she only regarded him as a work object and a classmate.
It's just that he can't say any of these things now. Moreover, he also ......, "However, that was only the beginning, and later, our relationship was not so simple." ”
A trace of astonishment flashed on the face of "......", and the bright smile gradually turned into a blank, and Mucha looked at him worriedly.
"Let's eat first, the dish is here." Suddenly diverted the topic, and saw the flight attendant coming with a tray, Luo Mingqian hurriedly put away the teacups.
"yes, okay." He didn't say any more, and Mucha secretly breathed a sigh of relief.
It's just that the two people chatting didn't seem to notice that someone had paused at the door of the restaurant and stayed between them.
Luo Mingyan's appearance gives Mucha the impression that he is polite and full of bookishness. But after talking too much, she found that he was actually very humorous, and when he told her about the past, he always had a half-joking tone, which made Mucha laugh all the time.
It's just that I don't know if it's because she didn't ask why he didn't say it, or what, Luo Mingyan was talking about their things at school. He didn't mention her life experience.
"Mingzhen, have you ever met my parents?" Maybe she was avoiding the question too, but she couldn't help but ask in the end.
"No, I didn't have time to meet your parents, and you suddenly disappeared." Shaking his head without thinking, Luo Mingyan said with regret.
Why does "......" sound a little weird?
Mucha thought silently. But when he said this, she also let go of a certain knot. About her parents, about her family.
"Alright, this is our long-awaited reunion dinner, enjoy! Moreover, I have said so much, can you also tell me how you have been in the past six years? His eyes were suddenly gentle, and he asked with pity.
"Well, it's okay......"
Continuing to eat and chat, she simply talked about the past six years. said that she had a good life except for no memory. originally planned to settle in Taiwan forever, but if it weren't for her daughter who accidentally became a child star to film here, she wouldn't have come back.
Listening to these words, Luo Mingzhen felt that fate was precious. If his father hadn't told him to come back to work, he might have stayed abroad. And then they never see each other again in their lifetime!
However, since there is still fate, then he has to grasp it well, right?!
After eating, Luo Mingyan drove her back to the hotel. Along the way, the two of them also chatted with each other.
"Mucha, if I say ......" Suddenly she opened her mouth in a somewhat heavy tone, and stopped in the middle of speaking, Luo Mingyan looked at her curious expression.
"What do you want to say?" He made her panic like that.
"What do you think I would have had with you before?" I could tell that he had stopped abruptly just now in order to speak more tactfully.
"Uh......"
Swallowing his saliva secretly, in fact, from his previous words, Mucha could already tell that their previous relationship did not seem to be as simple as that of classmates and friends. It's just that she subconsciously wants to avoid this question again.
But now, Luo Mingyan has asked her like this, and she doesn't seem to be able to run.
However, she still deliberately pretended to be stupid and explained: "Classmates, don't you say that we are classmates!" Oh, and there's the competition!"
Choked by her words, and then looked at her smiling appearance, Luo Mingyan smiled bitterly. As a top student in the law department, how could he not see that she was hiding? But seeing that the hotel was almost there, he didn't want to hide.
"Well, it was a classmate at first, but then it wasn't that simple." Chasing and fighting to get the topic closer, Luo Mingyan said very seriously: "We have been together until you disappeared." ”
"......" Mucha didn't know how to describe his feelings, should he laugh, cry, or roar?
Thousands of grass and mud horses galloped through her heart again, and then made her look at him with an embarrassed expression, not knowing how to answer.
When the hotel arrived, Luo Mingyan stopped the car and turned her head to look at her more attentively at her expression that was a little overwhelmed at the moment.
"Mucha, I'm thinking, if the child is mine, do you think it's possible?"
He said it gently, but Mucha's heart felt like a bomb had fallen!
The confusion just now turned into real surprise, and his clear eyes like autumn water opened wide, reflecting his serious face at the moment.
He, he's the star's own father?! No, it can't be!
"Mingyan, please don't be joking! The stars are not yours. For what he said, without even giving a possibility, Mucha was already self-denying!
"How do you know it's impossible?" frowned, she denied it too quickly, which made Luo Mingyan feel very uncomfortable. Even if the child is really not his, then hasn't she forgotten the child's biological father? Why can't that be his? "We dated, we were together before you disappeared, why wasn't the child mine?"
"Because ......" wanted to refute, but his words seemed to be completely logical, and she was not allowed to refute them at all.
However, she was so sure in her heart; The stars are not his, he is not the father of the stars!
"Have we really ever dated?" Her mind was already a mess.
"Yes." He knows it's despicable, but isn't it selfish to love someone? He lost his chance six years ago, so this time he must seize it! Even if it's a child!
His affirmative answer made Mucha even more overwhelmed, and even the previous feeling of denial was shaken by his determined expression.