“”

To be honest, Bayi Yonglin's encouragement to Ji Yuehua, Ji Yuehua herself did not agree with it at all.

Even though on the surface, he seemed to play a big role in the battle, but in the end, if he was really strong enough, he shouldn't have let even the crises mentioned by Yayi Yonglin happen.

It's just that the crisis that can't be prevented from happening is not a credit at all. Not to mention, as a protector, he actually lost consciousness before successfully ensuring the safety of Yayi Yonglin and let the Yayi Yonglin, who should have been protected, take action personally, which is the best evidence of his dereliction of duty as a guard. At this point, no matter what Bayi Yonglin says, Ji Yuehua will not change her opinion.

But why?

Why did he not intend to correct the above views at all, but when he heard the words of Bayi Yonglin, he couldn't help but feel snickering joy in his heart?

Is it really okay to be so brazen to be happy about something that you don't even admit to yourself?

"Ah, Sister Yonglin"

This emotion should be ashamed of it.

But why?

"My performance all the time, can I count it as a passing grade?"

Before he realized it, his mouth had uncontrollably expressed the doubts that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

The result is everything.

Whether you pass or fail should not be influenced by the evaluation and opinions of others, but should be based on your own heart on the premise of facing the result. Make your own judgments. In particular, frustration is one thing, the brain is functioning normally. That's another story.

Ji Yuehua's head is not stupid.

Of course, he couldn't have felt it, and now Bayi Yonglin was trying to comfort him. Considering the character of this genius sister's knife-mouthed tofu heart, in such a situation, there is only one answer he can get if he deliberately asks such a question.

But why?

Even though he knew that he could only hear answers that were favorable to him, he couldn't help it. I want to hear the eight meanings Yonglin say that answer herself.

"Ahh It's better than expected. In the beginning, I didn't expect such a day. Appointing you as my deputy, I probably thought I didn't need such an existence as a "deputy" in my life, right?"

Sure enough

Even the habit of hiding one or two thorns in his speech was completely suppressed. What came out of the mouth of Bayi Yonglin was Ji Yuehua's expected answer.

Completely incomprehensible.

Hear preset answers that can only be beneficial to you. Is it really that gratifying?

"So. Actually, I'm not as bad as I thought, am I?"

It's as if the mind is broken, and it can't be stopped.

Wanting to hear more such answers, Ji Yuehua muttered and asked.

"Nonsense. You're the only deputy I've been able to identify with all these years, how can you be bad?"

"But, Sister Yonglin, don't you really think I'm useless? In terms of strength, I am far inferior to the adjutants of the other 13th Divisions in terms of scientific and technological acumen, and I am not as good as Sister Yonglin. If it were not me who stayed by your side today, it would be Adjutant Jiang Yun and them. Or the words of Director Mengmei, presumably. This level of danger can be passed even with your eyes closed, right?"

"What stupid things do you think you are behind them? Especially that old woman, don't look at her like this, she's so old that it's okay to be your mother's mother! Don't forget that you're only twelve years old now, and you've only been in the military for about two years, and by the time you're in your thirties, it's not too difficult to deal with S-Rank "Calamity", right?"

"But, Sister Zi, they"

"Your two sisters are special examples! Let me tell you, according to the records of the Technology Development Bureau, even the adjutant of the 6th Division you just mentioned took nearly seven years to kill the A-Rank "Calamity" in a heads-up after officially joining the military department. Your sisters have only spent just over two years doing this, and they are a complete outlier. Even though you're an outlier, there's no need to compare yourself to them! What's more, the two of them are two years older than you, aren't they? If you give you two more years, you might be able to catch up with them by now. ”

"Don't I have to compare myself with Sister Zi?"

Ji Yuehua gently repeated the words of Bayi Yonglin in her mouth.

For him, this is another thing that he cannot understand and will not agree with. He aims at his sisters, and wants to be an existence that can protect his sisters, so isn't it a matter of course to compare himself with his two sisters?

Whether it is consciously inferior to the two sisters, or desperately trying to catch up with the two sisters, both are based on the premise of comparison with the sisters. Among them, the former is his positioning for himself, and the latter is his goal. If he gave up the premise of "comparison with his sisters", then what would he have left?

It's not that he doesn't know how terrible his sisters' talents are. However, in order to protect the two Yakumo, he must catch up with his sisters. If you want to catch up with them, you must make them the target of comparison, to confirm how big the gap between them is

The two of Yakumo Azusa gave him the joy of "birth".

His life exists for his sisters. Becoming the person who can protect the two of Yakumo Azusa is his life goal and the meaning of survival, so in the final analysis, it is impossible for him to give up comparing with Yakumo Azusa and the two.

But, even so

Hearing Bayi Yonglin say this to him, Ji Yuehua still had a feeling of relaxation in her heart.

If it's really like what the other party said, it doesn't seem bad.

If you really let go of the comparison with your two sisters and give up this endless pursuit, maybe your life will become aimless and meaningless at that time, then, the anxiety and oppression that have been pressing on your heart can also be put down, right? Not only can you concentrate on the troubles related to your relationship, but maybe you can also find something that you find interesting and can devote yourself wholeheartedly to? Just like Tachibana Yukino likes the tea ceremony, Yayi Yonglin is obsessed with scientific and technological research.

Such thoughts flashed in Ji Yuehua's mind. I unconsciously wanted to laugh, if it weren't for the loss of control of my body, I am afraid that a faint smile would have appeared on my face at this moment.

Even he couldn't figure it out

In his opinion, there is no way to imagine that he will go on a life that no longer puts the protection of his sister in the first place. But why, does he think it's not bad?

In the end, it turns out that he can't even understand his own heart?

"Ah, Sister Yonglin"

"What's wrong?"

"Although I'm not as good as Sister Zi and them, but I, can I be regarded as hard work?"

"Ah, yes. You've worked hard. ”

"Really?"

It turns out that he has worked very hard

So, it doesn't matter if you just sleep here for a while, right?

(To be continued.) )

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