Smoke billowed out, and the fire burned more and more alarmingly at a distance of more than ten meters in front of my eyes.

The feeling of scorching and smoking is very clear, the eyes are very spicy, tears are flowing all the time, I have always been afraid of fire, especially a big fire, before, even if I saw it on TV, I would shiver all over my body and my back was cold.

But this time, I suddenly lost the feeling of fear, and my ears seemed to be deaf, so I watched blankly, in vain, trying to find the white figure from the smoke and fire in front of me, but unfortunately, all I saw was a red ...... that seemed to ignite the sky

It's strange that I actually see beauty in it, a very hazy beauty, and I feel that the distant firelight is like a burning cloud in the sunset, and the smoke is like the smoke from the chimney on the roof of every house after sunset......

My body was very hot, very hot, as if I was being smoked on the fire from afar, I felt that I was being lifted up, but I was stupid to raise my feet and walk towards the fire in front of me, my thinking was a little ethereal and uncontrollable, at that moment, I couldn't analyze what kind of psychology I had, I just felt that she was there, and the things that had brought me the most feared suddenly became beautiful.

There was no despair, the fire did not let the people I love the most leave me, but let me see the people I wanted to see the most when I returned.

How blessed I am.

There were stones under my feet, I staggered, the corners of my mouth even held weirdly, I thought, I was laughing, I saw, I saw my mother, my real mother, she even rushed into my body, she called my name, I wanted to ask her, if she heard me I said that voice, Mom.

"Bao Si!! What are you doing! Come back!!! ”

The body staggered suddenly, I heard a buzzing sound in my ears, and the disconnected thoughts seemed to be connected instantly, and I looked back in a daze, and I saw the second aunt's slightly distorted facial features shining in the firelight, "Don't go forward!" It's on fire! It's dangerous over there!! ”

My hearing recovered at the same time, and in the blink of an eye, I saw that many people in the village were holding torches and shouting loudly at the sea of burning flowers in the distance, and everyone's faces were bright and excited.

At the snort, there was a strong smell of burnt paste, the sound of 'crackling' like jumping beans was endless, I was unresponsive, my body was very hot, it was hot like I had entered the dog weather, my clothes were wet and sticking to my body, damp, very uncomfortable......

"Bao Si! What's wrong with you! What a fool!! ”

My second aunt was still shouting at me, her hands were fixed on my shoulders and kept shaking, so that my head had to sway back and forth with her strength, I didn't know what was wrong with me, the wound on my body began to feel painful, like a needle pricking, and at the same time it was hot, so hot that I couldn't breathe.

"Bao Si! You speak, Bao Si! Don't scare me!! ”

"The Four Treasures are afraid of fire!"

I saw the second uncle in the night illuminated by the torch, he was carried by Xiaoliu and stepped on the stone under his feet, and his face was sweating profusely, "Mingyue, quickly cover Sibao's eyes, she is afraid of fire!" ”

It's so noisy, I listened to the second uncle's voice with some effort, and the 'snap' in front of me was blocked by a slap, and while falling into the darkness, I heard the second aunt speak, "This kid is sweating too much, isn't the fairy who invited him too powerful, this body can't stand it!" ”

"I don't know, pull Sibao to this side, stay away from the fire, the sweat may be roasted by the fire, I'm also sweating, hot!!"

The second aunt covered my eyes and began to pull my arm again with one hand, and when she saw me standing still, she was a little anxious, "Baosi, it's okay, let's ......"

"I'm not afraid."

I slowly pushed away the hand of my second aunt blocking my eyes, and wiped my face with it, sweating really a lot, mixed with tears all over my face, "I'm not afraid of fire......"

The voice is hoarse, maybe it is smoked, and it is very difficult to spit out words.

"Not afraid?"

The second aunt was stunned for a moment, "I remember the first time you cried when you were a child was when you saw your grandmother in the crematorium......"

"I'm really not afraid."

My eyes were still tearful, but I was grateful for the smoke and sweat at the moment, so that the tears did not seem so abrupt, and the corners of my mouth were leading, and I looked at my second uncle, "I was afraid before, because I felt that the fire took away the person I loved the most, but now, I am not afraid." ”

It was the fire that made me see the people I least wanted to see.

"What do you mean?"

The second aunt didn't understand, and looked at the second uncle in a daze and asked, "Ruowen, what's wrong with this kid." ”

The second uncle didn't understand, and his eyes were full of worry when he looked at me on Xiaoliu's back, "Sibao, you ...... just now."

"I'm fine."

I took a deep breath, turned around, and faced the direction of the sea of fire, my heart was full of pain but happiness, I can't describe it, I feel that I am unlucky, but it is the happiest......

"Bao Si!!"

Uncle Li shouted my name loudly in the crowd, and ran over in a messy manner, "Your Grandpa Li, that, it's normal to sweat when you're old!" ”

came with him, as well as Uncle Feng, his eyes were also smoked and he kept crying, and his mouth was coughing, "Bao Si, my father is too, why is this sweating so hard!" Alas, Ruowen, you also sweat...... And Bao Si you ......"

There was a slight stinging pain in the palm of my hand, and I looked down by the firelight, and the damp sweat in my palm was unusually crystal clear against the backdrop of the fire, but the wound that was bitten through the palm by the teeth of the lice tail almost shrank rapidly under the sweat, and shrunk again......

No blood came out, only faintly, and you can see that the hole outside the wound slowly changed from a hole to a needle's eye, and even, there was only a shallow red dot.

The sweat on my body was still flowing like a sauna, and I turned my eyes to Uncle Li and Uncle Feng to explain, "I said, together with the fire, the disease will be cured, these sweats are detoxification, and when the poison comes out, the disease will be half cured......"

Uncle Li and Uncle Feng were happy, they quickly ran back to share the joy with Uncle Zhao and them, and after a while, the village chief came over to confirm to me whether these lice tails were completely burned to death by the fire!

I still nodded, so the village chief also left with a relaxed look, and after a while, I heard the village chief announce with a loudspeaker, "Comrades! There will be no more Sentry No. 6 in our village from now on! Since then, peace has been completely restored!! ”

There were a lot of people in the village who came around, who knew each other and who didn't know each other, and they cheered warmly around me, as if I had overcome the century-old suspicion in the village, the No. 6 outpost was blown up, the lice tail was extinguished, and the people in the village no longer had to be afraid!

Even if I didn't want to, I was lifted up by many people with many arms, and they threw me high, as if this was the only way to express the joy in their hearts at this moment.

My body was more and more in the air, and my eyes looked at the still sporadic firelight by the river, and suddenly I felt that everything was still, as if I was about to reach a high point within reach, but in the next second, my body began to fall rapidly-

"Oh, oh~~!"

I don't know that I have been thrown back and forth a few times, but I keep rising and sinking, the expression on my face is wooden, and my body is here, but my thoughts have already drifted away with the white shadow.

The people in the village are really excited, I don't know what kind of bonfire party is held in our village by the river, my protagonist was praised by everyone, and finally when the fire was all extinguished, Uncle Li and they went to collect grass ashes when they were still amazed, "Bao Si is an ordinary person, Bao Si is not!" Didn't you see how it jumped out of the fire! So old high! Whether I have read Journey to the West or not, I remembered that the stone monkey was born!! ”

The second aunt was quite happy at first, but when she heard the word "monkey", I was a little unhappy, "What a thing!" My family is not for you! Can't speak!! ”

No one dared to complain about the bad attitude of the second aunt, and it was inevitable that she would touch the minefield again, but she kept saying that I was awesome, and I was poor in cattle spirit, but I could only think of words at that time.

I didn't react too much, looking at the charred black land burning by the river, there was no sadness or joy in my heart, only complexity.

Naturally, the corpses of lice tails could not be found, and during the burning process, some of the big ones that did not have time to become smaller made a crisp sound, and after that, they were like ants and could not find a trace.

Although my injuries were severe, I also belonged to the control of the injuries at the right time, there was no time to let the wound swell, nor did I have time to let the wound rot, the poison went directly with the sweat, except for some shallow, faint needle eyes, the onlookers could not imagine the ferocity of the bite I was at that time.

Therefore, I don't need to apply some follow-up herbs to the wounds that have become swollen and smaller like my second uncle and Grandpa Chen Li, all I have to do is to rest.

On the way home, there are many villagers who send each other enthusiastically, the village chief nodded, and the loudspeaker has never left his mouth, "Bao Si, you must have a good rest tonight, tomorrow afternoon, the village will open a commendation meeting for you, I personally pay for it, I must reward you well, this matter, you have made a great contribution!" ”

I lowered my eyes and didn't speak, and the village chief patted my arm when he saw this, "Look, how low-key Bao Si is, young man, it's not easy to do such a big thing and be so calm, Bao Si is the pride of our Baishan Village!" Everyone said yes or no!! ”

"Yes! Bao Si is going to have a big future! ”

"It's a pity, her grandmother left early, otherwise Aunt Xue would have a light on her face! Bao Si is capable!! ”

My face was plastered with layers of gold edges for no reason, and the past that I didn't want to look back at was so carelessly buried by the brilliance.

Everyone praised me without hesitation, even the thing I stabbed the chicken coop when I was a child became innocent, and even the fact that I said that people marrying their daughters-in-law is raw rice and have already cooked mature rice has become a true temperament, and I seem to have finally pursued what I wanted to achieve before.

Grandma may want to see the most thing, if I am a little addicted, perhaps, I will forget, in order to get out of the mountain in the village to stand in the dirty way.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I seem to know very well that I've been taking shortcuts, and just now, I'm almost going to die......

In life, there are so many lucks.

I can't talk about whether I'm disappointed in myself, but in my heart, I'm really happy.

My body and head were tired and close to overdraft, just waiting for my second aunt to send away the village chief and some villagers, staggering, and went back to my own house, I didn't say anything to my second uncle, I was too tired, and I fell asleep as soon as I hit the pillow on the kang.

Naturally, I dreamed, I seemed to go back to my childhood, dreaming of the night when I hit a ghost with Lu Pei, Uncle Shen went crazy, he was going out to meet his girlfriend, and then, I saw the woman holding the child at the door and crying at us......

At that time, I thought she was Meng Yi, Uncle Shen's girlfriend, and I found her tears on the glass in the back room of my second aunt that night.

Everything is so clear, these long-lost memories are like repeating themselves in a dream, I told my grandma that I had a dream, I walked in the dream for a long time, there was grass everywhere, I heard a woman crying, she asked me, how could I forget her!

Then, grandma led me to the grave, I reluctantly followed behind grandma, and my mouth was stuffed with biscuits, I seemed to look at a miniature version of myself, and said to grandma very inexplicably, why do you want me to go to the grave, do you want me to apologize to this second aunt who has never met, saying that I didn't deliberately kill her and her child?

It doesn't matter to me what you think.

On the grave, I also played tricks, I looked at the paper that couldn't be burned and said to my grandmother, this second aunt is not trying to harm Uncle Shen, she is actually here to help us!

I didn't understand why she came to help us, I just thought at the time, this second aunt might be a good person.

Why did she cry, because she was wronged, because her second uncle had married a new wife.

I listened to my grandmother talk about the stele fairy on the grave, and I didn't understand why my grandmother wanted to talk about it on that occasion, but I still listened, that is, since then, I have never dreamed of this No. 1 and second aunt......

His eyes were wide open, but his cheeks were still wet.

A lot of things are clear.

Why did she hold that child to help Uncle Shen back then......

The tears that flowed down the window......

and her eyes in my dreams, those indescribable grievances, and sourness, not only, just because the second uncle married another.

It was because of me that she saved Uncle Shen.

It was because of me that she left tears in the window.

However, what she was most aggrieved about should be that I only gave her a code name, No. 1 and Second Aunt.

Even when I went to the grave, I never stopped in front of her grave, and apart from a little sympathy, I was so strange and alienated from her before.

The sun was full of sunshine in the house, I looked at the time on my phone, at one o'clock in the afternoon, I got up from the kang, I didn't see Xiaoliu and the second aunt, they should be in the back room, I sniffed, I went directly to the simple bathroom separated from the kitchen of my house to take a bath.

The coat has been taken off, it must have been taken off by my second aunt last night, my face in the mirror is still very dirty, my hair is dry and dry, and my eyes are a little swollen.

The wound is not very visible, just the skin is too white and there will be some small red spots, but when you think about the consequences that should have been caused, it is hardly worth mentioning.

After taking a shower, I rummaged through my wardrobe to find a more formal dress, dressed up seriously, each process, even a little too careful, when combing my hair, I looked at my face in the mirror, and the action stopped, I was said to look like my second uncle since I was a child, like my current mother......

So where is it that looks like her?

Thinking carefully about the face in her dream, her face is round, and her facial features are indeed plain, but my face is like hers, even if the facial features can't be searched, at least, my face shape that always makes people feel young is somewhat similar to her.

I don't know what I'm excited about, looking at myself in the mirror, inexplicably smirking, as if I suddenly discovered some surprise, but I laughed and laughed, but I couldn't cry.

Neuropathy in general.

I looked at my facial features twitching in the mirror, and kept saying to myself, don't be like this, don't be so ugly, no one likes to see you so ugly.

When I was ready, I went out directly with a big bag, and as soon as I walked into the yard, I heard the surprised voice of Xiaoliu behind me, "Mom, fourth sister!" You're awake! ”

Turning around, Xiao Liu ran over with a smile, "Where do you want to go if you are dressed like a white-collar worker, the commendation meeting has to be three o'clock in the afternoon!" The village chief is calling you to find you! ”

Saying that, he also looked me up and down, "Didn't I say it, Fourth Sister, let's go to the commendation conference to wear this outfit, white shirt, black pants, clean and neat, but no matter how you look at it, it is not suitable for a more festive ......"

"You're not bothered."

I didn't have much patience to interrupt him, "How is the second uncle?" ”

"My dad is fine, his feet don't hurt anymore, my mom is still chatting with him, don't you go and take a look."

I glanced in the direction of the backyard. "I'm not going to go first, go out and do some errands, and I'll come back later." After saying that, I added, "Don't follow me." ”

Xiaoliu stood in place puzzled, "No, fourth sister, what are you going to do, what's the matter!" Fourth sister! ”

I didn't have time to talk to him about this, and I didn't want to say it, all the way straight to my grandmother's tomb, it should be said that it was due to the fact that my second aunt opened a small store, and there was everything in the warehouse at home, I took liquor, as well as incense candles and burning paper, just other sacrifices, I brought apples, vaguely remembering, grandma said that she loves to eat apples......

For the first time, I was a little nervous, as if I was going to meet an elder I had never met, I was afraid that my hair would be messy, my clothes would be dirty, and I was afraid that there would be a slight inappropriateness that would make her aware of the impoliteness.

I want her to see the best of me and thank her for respecting her.

In the distance, I saw my grandmother's grave, the wind swept gently, and my heart was inexplicably a little bit, I used to go to the grave, I went straight to my grandmother, but this time, I put the bag in front of the short earthen bag of 'No. 1 and Second Aunt'.

There are still necessary steps, to whom to go to the grave, you have to burn a few pieces of paper for the elders, I burned all the way down from my grandmother, I didn't talk much, I don't want to say anything, the ancestors have passed away, what is the use of asking more.

When I burned paper for my grandmother, my tongue was a little big, and I pulled the corners of my mouth, "Grandma, I just want to come to see her today, your original intention, although I can't fully understand, but I know that you all treat me well, I won't bother with anything, don't worry." ”

It's just three pieces of paper, and it burns quickly.

I didn't want to add it up, so I squatted down in front of the low grave bag in a few steps, first put the contents of the bag near the mouth of the picture, and then set candles, incense, and burned paper......

The smoke was filling, I knelt in front of the grave with burning paper, and my mouth opened slightly, "The first time I came to see you, I don't know what to bring you, I heard that you love to eat apples, so I brought you some, and I don't know anything else, send some money, what you like, just buy something......"

The wind is a little louder, whining......

Is it crying?

My nose also began to sour, but on my face, I looked at the low grave bag through the smoke with a smile, "I'm sorry, for so many years, I haven't come to give you a grave, which time, it's all by the way, don't be angry with me, because I didn't know at that time, I didn't know that you were my ......"

I couldn't hold back, but the tears still came out.

I pulled the corners of my mouth, but a laugh sounded in my mouth, "I understand my family very well, I know, grandma must have a hard time, I don't get angry, because I am not qualified, I have been very happy since I was a child, you don't have to be angry with grandma, they are really good to me, I never know, I actually, in fact...... I have never received less love than others, but I have wronged you...... I've wronged you......"

Kowtowed, I seemed to hear the cry of a whining woman again, holding my arms and raising my face, vaguely, through the firelight, I seemed to see a person, a person standing behind the dirt bag, I tasted the saltiness in my mouth, I don't know if it was my own hallucination, because it was too vague, but my heart surged, and in an instant, I only collapsed.

I looked at the figure and my heart twitched, "Thank you, thank you...... Mom......"

She was still standing there, I couldn't see her face clearly, it seemed like they were looking at each other, but I was left with tears in my eyes, "I'm sorry, I really didn't know before, I really didn't know...... Mom......"

"Bao Si, ......"

Through the smoke that seemed to stretch out a hand, I closed my eyes, crying uncontrollably, "It's me, Mom, I'm here to see you......"

"Bao Si, ......"

She called my name one after another, obviously very close to burning paper, but the coldness on her cheeks was like the same number of cold winters.

"Mom...... Mom......"

She cried, and I answered, feeling her hand move away from my face, and I tried in vain to reach out and grab her, "Don't go!" ”

When I opened my eyes, it was like I was in a dream.

Looking at it suspiciously, the door in front of me is extremely familiar, it is the gate of my house, but the paint color of the year is still different from now, and even the door god and the pair are full of a strong atmosphere of the age.

Like my home, but not what my home is now, where is this?

Raising my face, the sky was overcast, it was raining lightly, there was a damp smell everywhere in the air, there were raindrops falling on my shoulders, but there was no trace left, I stretched out my hand, the raindrops were thin, directly through my palms, and dissolved into the wet soil.

Blindfolding?

Suddenly I reacted, she was covering my eyes, but what did she want me to see?

I looked around in a daze, the location of Li Xue's house, whether it was the gate or the house, had changed, it was a very simple feeling, I only listened to the 'squeak', the door opened, and the person who came out surprised me even more, he was ...... Old Cui?

This person died when I was seven or eight years old, drinking and dying, and then he died before the house was bought by Li Xue's family, how can he still carry a wine bottle out of the door now!

"Grandpa Cui!"

I had the audacity to cry out, and it was no less than when you suddenly saw a dead man pop out of the grave!

He ignored me, and staggered down the dirt road alone.

I looked at his back and was still startled, yes, cover my eyes, he wouldn't know I was there.

The pattern of the village has not changed, but many of the houses here are very different from what they remember, everywhere is quiet, only the sound of rustling rain, looking around inexplicably, suddenly heard a woman's voice coming from the door in front of me, "Ah......!" ”

There was another slap on his body, and he screamed very miserably.

Do you want to go in, just raised your feet, turned your face, and actually saw two more acquaintances, "Grandpa Chen, Grandpa Li!" ”

I knew that they couldn't hear it, but I still couldn't control it, the two of them didn't hold an umbrella, they helped each other to the door of my house, their shoulders and hair were slightly wet by the light rain, I thought they would pass by me, but I didn't expect that the footsteps of the two actually stopped outside my door.

"Lao Li, did you hear it, and I don't know whose child came out first, and delivered two at the same time, which is enough for Feng Nian to drink a pot."

Grandpa Chen's face turned sideways, and he suddenly opened his mouth at Grandpa Li, but the corners of Grandpa Li's mouth raised a smile, "Feng Nian is a famous midwife in ten miles and eight villages, and she can't be ......."

I looked at these two grandfathers, but I was inexplicably shocked, I have heard this story, Grandpa Chen told me several times when I was a child!

Mu Mu turned his face, almost without hesitation, he ran in with the gate, it was very smooth, and the gate seemed to me to be nothing!

My house has not changed, the front yard is still vaguely the same as when I was a child, but there is no King Kong, I heard a voice sounding, I followed the sound and quickly ran to the backyard, there was a second uncle standing at the door of the room, it was a very young and spiritual second uncle in my memory, at this moment, he was rubbing his hands, and the six gods were pacing back and forth.

"Ah...... Yes!! ”

The cries of women in the room were still heard from time to time, and I didn't have time to think too much, so I bowed and rushed in.

"Jun'er...... Jun'er ......"

The house in the backyard is two big houses, the room on the left is the voice of the grandmother, I went in ignorantly, and saw the grandmother kept calling the young woman lying on the kang with her eyes closed, and on the ground, there was a red basin that I didn't know if it was blood or what kind of water.

That woman, of course I knew, was my mother whom I would call for more than 20 years.

"Jun'er, don't scare your little aunt, open your eyes, open your eyes...... Damn...... Feng Nian, why didn't you react to this......"

Grandma kept patting Xue Ruojun's face, "Wake up, wake up, wake up......"

"She's fine."

I followed my grandmother's eyes to look at the grandma on the side, she was still slightly chubby back then, holding a child with a serious face, "Ruojun will be fine, it's just that this child is a stillborn ......"

"What?!!"

Grandma's eyes widened, and she took a breath of cool air. "Didn't you say it was okay when you saw it before!"

The muscles on Grandma's face stiffened, and she casually took a list and wrapped the child, "If you want this child so much, you don't know, if I tell her that the child is dead in the belly, then she will have to hang herself, and you want to collect her body." ”

Grandma sat there tremblingly, obviously having no idea, "What's the matter, now Ruojun is fainting in pain, if you wake up and know that the child is gone, you should hang yourself, your eldest brother has said it, Ruojun has only one son in her life, she will die early without children, Xue Fengnian!" You have to think of a way! ”

"Take one step at a time, and when the time comes, you can't ...... it"

"Ah...... Yes!! ”

A woman's cry came from the next room, and the grandmother got up from the kang without saying much, and ran to another room in a few steps, "Cui'er! Cui'er ...... Year of the Phoenix! Come on! Cui'er is about to give birth!! ”