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This sleep, so long, I always can't open my eyes, in a trance, I seem to be still the pregnant woman, walking hand in hand with Lu Pei holding my stomach, but in the next second, the picture will change, I seem to be flying, the soul is withdrawn from the body, I open my arms, like a bird under the clouds free and free, the laughter is crisp and crisp, but it didn't take long for me to enter the water again, very happy swim-

I don't think it's right, where can I swim, and as soon as this idea came out, I wondered how I could fly.

What about the baby, I closed my eyes and questioned myself, why is Lu Pei not here, where has he gone?

No one answered my questions, my mind was ethereal, I was always half asleep, I didn't even know how much time had passed, I would always hear human voices in my ears one after another, I opened my eyes vaguely, and saw Uncle Lei leaning over and standing next to my hospital bed, "Girl, are you okay......"

His voice was soothing, and it seemed to come to my ears from a long distance, and I opened my mouth woodenly, "It's okay, I'm okay......"

Uncle Lei sighed, "Don't worry about the second boy, he is recuperating abroad, Mingya, I want to take the child abroad to accompany the second boy, I have to ask your opinion, do you agree......"

Lu Er...... Lu Er......"

I'm like a machine with a messed up system, I can't figure out if this is a reality or a dream, Uncle Lei's voice continued to sound, "The doctor said that there is nothing wrong with you, but I don't know why you are drowsy, and they don't understand, I think you are too worried about the second boy, girl, he is fine, Xia Wendong and they are all taking care of him...... Yes. ”

Lu Er...... Lu Er......"

I'm still repeating mechanically, Uncle Lei seems to have been asking about my child, he said that Lu Pei can't come back, Shen Mingya wants to take the child to accompany him, "If you don't agree, then I'll go to this matter, but you also need someone to take care of it now, and it's not convenient to take the child around, I mean to leave one to accompany you, and one to accompany Lu Er, Mingya still disagreed, saying that she wanted to take them all away, and wanted the second boy to see, he ......"

"Let Daddy see...... Daddy gotta see ......"

I responded in a daze, feeling that my hand was clenched by Uncle Lei, and a sigh smashed into my palm, "I won't say anything if you agree, and when you are completely recovered, let's go to Lu Er again, do you have any ideas, what name do you want to give the child?" ”

Lu ...... Star...... Month ......"

The wandering thinking made me float away again after saying these two words, and I would always see a lot of people vaguely, the second uncle, the second aunt, and the eldest brother and sister-in-law, Qin Sen, they were all nervously talking to me, but I was like a real outsider.

No, to be exact, I'm dreaming all the time.

This dream is too long, the heavens and the earth, always tossing, there is a sound of turning books, I even flew to the uncle's house on the mountain, the book with the atmosphere of the age slowly opened in front of my eyes, those words, as if they would move, they walked around the yellowed pages like ants, I looked at them with a smile, and watched them climb quickly but disappeared-

There was only a single word left in front of me, I hurriedly flipped around, and when I thought about it, these little elf-like ants would come out, and I felt pleasantly surprised, turning a page, thinking about a page, and the moving font would come out by itself, as if I would write it with my heart.

I never had the satisfaction, I could do anything in my dreams, but occasionally I would return to reality, I opened my eyes, my mind was always unclear, I was wearing a white coat, it seemed to be a doctor, she asked me kindly, "What's your name?" ”

Why did you ask me such a simple question, I was a little unhappy, but I still replied, "Xue Baosi." ”

She seemed to sigh with relief, "Do you know where this is?" ”

I hated her for asking me, so I kept my face shut and talked, as if it was a very tiring thing.

"Doctor, what's wrong with my family......

"The preliminary judgment is postpartum depression, although Mrs. Lu's situation is uncommon, but it can also be classified as a type of postpartum depression, that is, mental disorders......"

"What should I do then?"

My shoulders seemed to be hugged, "It's been two months and I'm still groggy, when will it be okay!" ”

"We can't be sure of this, mainly relying on the guidance of the family, Mrs. Lu's body is not abnormal, and we don't recommend medication, because many patients with postpartum depression are mostly pessimistic, depressed, sensitive thinking, tears, and will have suicidal desires, but Mrs. Lu's symptoms are different from other patients, she is just sleepy, so she does not need antidepressant drugs."

It's always dark in front of my eyes, but I can distinguish a lot of voices, and I feel my second aunt hugging me and crying softly, "Baosi, why are you good in front of this, don't scare us......"

"What about Lu Er?"

Catching this, I'm always used to asking this one question, even if I can't see anything.

Fortunately, there will be an answer, and I can hear the second aunt's sniffing voice, "He's abroad, Ruojun and Xia Wendong are there to take care of it, don't worry, I heard that his eyes opened as soon as the child passed, it's okay, ah......"

Open?

Why did the child go and he didn't open his eyes, I remember, didn't Uncle Lei say that it was okay.

I have a lot of questions, but I can't always gather the spirit to finish asking or listening, the second aunt is still whispering, "Bao Si, a lot of things have happened in the past few months, that old woman Gui is dead, and she took poison by herself when she was caught by the police, the old lady of the Shen family was very angry about this matter, and almost passed, and he came to see you, saying that these things are over, and no one will delay your life in the future......"

"It's over...... It's been ......"

I'm still a mechanical repetition, has it really passed-

The second aunt's cry was intermittent, "Shen Mingya also came before taking the child away, she said it, she is content when she has a child, so many things have happened, she is tired, she won't care anymore, to Ruojun...... She put down her ......"

Laid down......

My mind was empty, so I put it down, knowing what I was going to do today.

I couldn't think about things clearly, and I didn't have the strength to think about it, as if I didn't wake up, I felt that I was being carried on a stretcher and sent to the car, and then I continued to walk away, where to go? I don't know, the second uncle's voice seemed to make me feel at ease, he said, go home, Sibao, I'll take you home.

Family?

I opened my mouth muttering, wanting to tell him that the place where there is Lu Er is my home, and now it's a few months, and the Longsha gem is about to open, and Lu Er told me that when I am confined, it will open all over the courtyard wall.

But I can't make a sound, I'm always dizzy, my body is sometimes cold and hot, and my clothes always feel sticky to my body, this day is dark, I can't tell whether I am dead or alive, but the dream is very beautiful, but it is so unreal, when it is cold, I will feel that my second aunt covers me with a quilt, and when it is hot, I will feel a cool towel rubbing my body-

Why is the second aunt always crying, I hear her voice from time to time, Bao Si, wake up, wake up, what is wrong with this.

I want to say a lot, I want to say that I am awake, I can hear everything, what about my child, Lu Er, but I tried a lot of strength, and I couldn't squeeze out the voice.

Occasionally, I will open my eyes ignorantly, and I want to make sure that I am lying there for a long time, and the kang cabinet that enters my eyes is very familiar, it is my home, and I have returned to my hometown?

But which time, before the question was issued, it would sink out again, and I heard the second aunt shouting on the phone to let someone come back, it should be Xiaoliu, and then she said, where to find it! Where are you looking! What the hell is going on over there! Feed! Feed!!

I started to get anxious, I wanted to wake up, I had a lot of things to do, but my body was disobedient, my limbs were always soft, except for the hot and cold, or a lot of sweat, all that brought me was everything from dreams.

"Four Treasures ......"

The familiar male voice sounded, and I struggled to open my eyes, watching a man enter the door with a bright smile on his lips, and he sat down next to me, his fingertips lightly running his fingertips across his forehead, "How long are you going to be lazy, huh?" ”

I looked at him and smiled stupidly, "Lu Er, you're back......"

He smiled softly, "You have to be fine, wait for me to come back, you know." ”

"How long will it take?"

I was a little nervous, "Didn't you say it early......"

My hand touched my stomach, so flat, I sat up, "No, the child has been born!" Lu Er, have you seen the child, our child! Brother and sister's! ”

Lu Pei smiled very gently, nodded, but got up and walked to the door, "I saw it, so you have to wait for me, you know." ”

"Where are you going!!"

I wanted to chase him down, but he still repeated the words that asked me to wait for him, just like that day at the airport, I was so scared that I desperately wanted to move to catch him, telling him not to go, there seemed to be a barrier in front of me, and I broke through hard, "Lu Er...... Lu Er!! ”

My eyes widened suddenly, my whole person seemed to be soaked in water, I breathed heavily, in front of me was the familiar roof of my hometown, my eyes were rolling, I saw the cabinet on the kang, the light was on in the house, it was night, and my body was still covered with a thin quilt, what was going on?

"Bao Si?"

There was a rumor of the second aunt's business behind me, and I turned my head keenly, maybe my eyes were too big, but the second aunt was obviously startled by me with a basin of water, "Are you awake?" Or asleep? ”

"Something happened."

I lifted my quilt and was unusually clear in my mind, "How did I go home, what about my child, what about Lu Er, ah?" ”

"Bao Si, !!"

The second aunt saw me like this, but she threw the basin of water in her hand to the ground with a 'poof', and rushed up to hug me a few times, "You scared me to death!" You're awake! It's been almost half a year since I was born! I thought you'd have to keep it in the daze! ”