I talked for a long time, I couldn't tell what kind of mood I was, I was full of hatred for my dad during the time I was hurt, but the moment I just came in, I saw this man who was pressed on the table and almost pierced the back of his hand.

In his bones, he will keep reminding me and telling me that it is my father, even if he has a shallow relationship with me, even if he did not appear too many times in my upbringing, but he has always been the only person I am, called Dad.

Helped me too.

He also took care of me carefully, and he also warmed me coldly.

I never seem to like to care about the consequences, I can do anything when the blood gushes, just like what I wanted to do to Su Xiaoyu at the beginning, I don't care, as long as I get angry, I feel that those consequences are all thought by mediocre people, why should I be so forward-looking and backward in life!

Because I don't know the depth of fear when I am small, so I will almost get into a big disaster, because my personality is too impulsive, so I am always on a rampage in life and doing things, I am like a cow with only one tendon, whoever wants to provoke me I will go to kill him, as long as the process is angry, I will go to make up for it, no matter who he is, what I want is to relieve my anger!

To put it bluntly, it's human touch, isn't it?

My character, after all, is too impersonal, when I was a child, I was not sensible, I was called stupid, and I would not care about the elders and children to bully me, I will be repaid, my mouth is immoral, my subordinates are ruthless, even to my grandmother, I have not said anything particularly intimate, until I cry......

Despair has taught me to cherish it, and I don't want to lose it again.

forced myself to be sensible, and forced myself to be what my family wanted to see, but externally, I was actually still a stunned young man.

I will scold my mother's cousin, I will throw out a sickle regardless of the consequences, and turn around and tell my family that I actually have a score in my heart, in fact, where is the score, I didn't hit my aunt, that is she hiding fast!

At that time, where would I care about that!

The original idea, I just want to become a big man, prove that I can, prove that I Xue Baosi is no one, as for the process is not important, how to become a big gentleman is not important, even if the road is dirty, it doesn't matter, I just want many people to know me, many people believe in me, I want to be a cow than a flash, I want to kill a dawn!

It's like holding my breath, and I'm stuck with God, isn't it for me to be less, isn't it for me to be emotionally crippled when I was born, I'll show you, my character is that I can enter the Tao, what's the lack of opportunities, I won't let it go if I get caught, I even brainwash myself, whether it's right or wrong, just look at the result!

And then what.

I'm growing up little by little, desperately trying to grasp something while also constantly losing, I understand more and more emotions, people have become gradually softer, I hate to be sentimental, I hate to entangle, I hate to torture myself, I hate to realize!

During my four years in the mountains, I read all the books of my uncle and grandfather, Buddhism, Confucianism and Taoism, all kinds of magic, self-cultivation, and mind cultivation......

It's like I've been learning to memorize hard, I don't know how much I remember, I was pushed forward by time, but I realized a little bit, until the moment when Su Xiaoyu played face-to-face, I understood the bottom line, and that was the reason why my uncle asked me to read feelings......

Those who fight monsters should be careful of the monsters in their hearts.

While you are staring into the abyss from afar, the abyss is staring at you.

Regarding good and evil, my uncle has been talking about it for a long time, but I have always been ignorant.

I have long understood the truth that being a gentleman is taboo and timid, but I didn't expect that I was too open, the bottom line was blurred, I rushed too fiercely, and my personality was bruised, I never understood, and I naturally couldn't see through, my uncle never broke it, he just let me experience it myself-

It wasn't until I turned around that I didn't know when there was an extra rope behind me, a rope that dragged me all the time, so that I could know people's feelings and drink sorrow, think about what people think, identify the severity, and distinguish between good and evil.

If you don't know how to control yourself, what is the difference between that and a butcher who only knows how to kill?!

Talking about the right path in his mouth, but stepping on the cliff under his feet, who can know if the next step is a breath surging up the wrong way?!

You punch me, and I return a palm, which seems to be decisive and happy.

But when is the retribution?

The most important thing is that this enemy is not my real enemy, but my biological father, the person I call Dad, if I was still me a few years ago, did I really break off with him after being hurt like this?!

For the uncle's intentions.

I was really having a little bit of an epiphany.

Sitting on the sofa in a daze, but thinking a lot in my head, Lu Pei didn't say much, just silently wiped the tears from my eyes with a tissue, my eyes rolled, I looked at Lu Pei's face, "Lu Er...... The hatred of my dad, let's let go of it......"

As soon as the words came out, my heart was actually a little lighter.

The light in Lu Pei's eyes flickered slightly, a little complicated, and after a while, he bowed slightly, "Okay." ”

His voice was a little hoarse, and he raised his hand to wrap his hand around my shoulder and let me lean against his chest, "My little rabbit, have you understood something?" ”

I opened my mouth, "I don't understand what my parents are obsessed with, and I can't put myself in their shoes and think about their plans...... I don't understand them, but I don't want to hate them...... I don't want to use hatred to eat away at my family affection, what I can do is to let myself go, don't hate, there will be no entanglement, and there will be no pain...... Lu Er, we don't hate it, okay......"

He spoke very slowly, just softly spitting out a sentence, "I'll be fine if you're good." ”

I closed my eyes, there are too many words, but I don't know how to say, since I was a child, I grew up in everyone's condemnation, the first thing I learned was to take an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, but now I suddenly understand, my uncle let me know the intention, people should set aside good and evil to know right and wrong, don't be affectionate.

The heart should be strong, and the eyes should be bright.

Although this world is hard, I must know how to be kind to it at all times.

In this way, you can be a righteous gentleman.

Got it.

Uncle, Bao Si really understands a little bit.

……

'Knock Knock~'

There was a knock on the door, Lu Peidao came in, and I sniffed and saw Assistant Yang standing at the door in an orderly manner, "Mr. Lu, Dr. Xia has entered the operating room." ”

Lu Pei nodded, "Is there a problem?" ”

Assistant Yang opened his mouth in response, "In addition to some external injuries, the more difficult ones are liver damage, and some signs of heavy bleeding......

Lu Pei's voice still couldn't hear any emotion, interrupting Assistant Yang's words to emphasize the general inquiry, "Is there any danger to life?" ”

"Should ......"

Glancing at me, Assistant Yang cleared his throat and straightened his back, "There will be no problem." ”

"Okay."

Seeing Lu Pei nodding, Assistant Yang retreated again, and Lu Pei immediately lowered his voice with a calm breath, "Did you hear that?" Dr. Xia will be fine, don't worry. ”

Seeing that I didn't react, Lu Pei followed up and said again, "Will you blame me?" ”

I let out a long exhale and put my palm on the back of his hand, "Where are there so many weird things, the past...... I won't mention it...... I know you're for me, that's enough, it's just ...... later"

Lu Pei seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and a warm breath brushed my forehead, "I understand, my husband has tempered me, and I have to let go...... I'll talk to Dr. Xia about it, and that's all for it, as long as you don't get angry with me, that's fine. ”

As he spoke, he grabbed my hand and looked up, "How did you get it, it hurt?" ”

The eyes are good enough.

I pulled the corners of my mouth, "I just climbed a tree yesterday afternoon, and I rubbed it when I came down, it's okay......"

"Climbing trees?"

Lu Pei's tone was a little ridiculous, "Yo, it's the first time I know that rabbits can climb trees, do you still need this skill to be a gentleman?" ”

The atmosphere instantly relaxed.

I laughed softly, "I was picked up by a dog, and I went up the tree with Xiaoliu in a hurry......"

"Doggy?"

Lu Pei let go of his arm and came to rub my face, "Did Lao Tzu tell you those two for nothing!" ”

I opened his hand and looked at him with a snort that was still grunting, "It's okay, just go up the tree, how old will I be, safe, safe!" ”

I can't say anything about the details, but I feel ashamed to think about it hanging on a tree now.

Lu Pei stared at my face full of meaning, "Mr. Xue, can we not take on any job, can't we just be a feng shui gentleman like Qin Sen." ”

I pursed the corners of my mouth to look at him, and after a while, I opened my mouth gently, "Lu Er, I like to do this business, and you will always support me, right." ”

Lu Pei held his forehead, and his whole body exuded a kind of helplessness, "Lao Tzu is digging a pit for himself......"

"I'll fill it in."

I put my hand on his shoulder and smiled softly, "Don't worry, I won't let myself have trouble, I promise, didn't you say that you also want to see your wife become a big gentleman step by step." ”

Lu Pei turned his face and raised his eyebrows childishly, "But I don't ......"

'Bell bell bell ~~ bell bell ~~'

I held the corners of my mouth to look at him but I was a little helpless, this mobile phone ringtone always comes at such a good time.

Lu Pei could only suppress the words in his throat and took out the mobile phone in his pocket, and after glancing at the caller, his brows were directly abrupt, and his facial features suddenly became serious.

I didn't see who it was, I watched Lu Pei get up with some confusion, and then walked out a few steps and stood by the window to pick up the phone, "Hey, it's so late, why haven't you slept yet." ”

There was a hint of respect in the voice, but I didn't understand, noon, didn't sleep?

Quietly looking at Lu Pei's back, he only felt that his back was getting straighter and straighter, and after a hum, he continued, "Don't worry, I won't be without weight, well, how long have you not stayed up late, I know, okay, then what you say, I listen to what is on your mind......"

I didn't guess who it was over there, I felt that it should be some elder of the Lu family, looking at him, and I intuitively felt that his body suddenly tightened, standing there motionless.

It was like listening carefully, but there was no response for a long time.

I was sensitive enough to catch the stagnation in the air around him, staring blankly, for a minute, for a minute, for two minutes......

Inexplicably felt a trace of nervousness, and got up a little hesitantly not knowing whether to step forward, "Lu ......"

"Are you sure?"

Lu Pei's hoarse voice suddenly sounded, and my footsteps followed, and a minute later, he replied in a very hoarse voice, "Okay." ”

It's just one word, but it makes me feel indescribably complicated.

I don't know who was on the other side of the phone, what was said to him, I watched his breath get colder and colder, and time passed minute by minute, Lu Pei stood there with his back to me, the phone was still in his ear, but his body was motionless like a sculpture.

After thinking about it, he walked behind him in a few steps, "Lu Er?" ”

His body seemed to shake, as if he had come back to his senses in a trance, and he suddenly looked back at me, with a faint red in his deep eyes.

didn't speak, just looked at me, and I felt a little hairy in my heart.

"Lu Er, what's wrong with you."

I was nervous, and my face was naturally puzzled, "Who called you?" Is it in your family? ”

He was rarely on the same channel as me, looking at my face very seriously, but his thinking came back very slowly, and he answered indiscriminately, and the phone was also put in his pocket, "It's okay, it's okay." ”

As if he was speaking to me, but to himself.

This must not be right, I walked in and looked up at him with a half-face, "Did your family tell you something?" ”

Lu Pei exhaled lightly, and after a moment of trance, he looked at me and smiled like no one else, "It's my grandfather, this old man has insomnia, give me a phone call." ”

"Abroad."

Lu Pei nodded, a black net opened at the bottom of his eyes, covering all his emotions, and when he faced me, there was only a bright smile, "It's okay, he just asked me to chat a few words, I haven't been mentioned by the elders for a long time, and I am a little uncomfortable." ”

Obviously no, his smile is just to reassure me.

Lu Pei's grandfather, that is the teacher that my dad once said, combined with his reaction......

instinctively told me that this call was related to my dad, and carefully interpreted the two sentences that Lu Pei responded to when he answered the phone, and took a breath in his heart, could it be that it was my dad and his mother!

"Lu Er, is this call related to my dad......

Lu Pei looked at my eyes, didn't say much, drank out and stretched out his arm to hug me, his voice was still very low, "It doesn't matter if it's not, nothing can hinder us from being together." ”

That's it.

Do you want to get a certificate?

I was nervous, "What if it ......"

"Don't worry."

He stroked my back and whispered comfortingly, "Remember what I said, all you have to do is one thing, just firmly believe that we will be together, and the rest, it doesn't matter." ”

I know that this phone call is not simple, although my mind is a little heavy, what I may do is to put my arm around Lu Pei's waist and nod gently.

……