Li Yan was crazy, as if he was on the verge of collapse, and if he took a step forward, he would be crushed.

Ning Juan is Yan Chengcheng, this fact has had too much impact on him, and he can't accept it for a while.

No, not for a while, it's forever, never to be accepted.

"You're a liar!" Li Yan roared at the top of his throat, he held Ning Juan's shoulder and said, "You are not Ning Juan, you obviously look different from her, completely different!" You're two people, you're two people. ”

Ning Juan was stunned because of Li Yan's sudden loss of control.

After reacting, Li Yan lost control of something.

The astonishment on her face turned to calm.

It's a little scary, it's calm.

She slowly tore off the thin face on her face, and smiled at Li Yan's frightened gaze.

She asked, "Am I Ning Juan or Yan Chengcheng, does it matter?" ”

The sound is gentle, without a hint of undulation.

She is indeed calm.

Only slightly puzzled, a little dazed.

She didn't understand why Li Yan's reaction was so big.

Whether it was Ning Juan or Yan Chengcheng, when she was by his side, she poured her whole heart into it.

Oh.

Something like this.

"Yan Chengcheng is your friend, innocent, everything is good, so she can be treated with your sincerity. And Ning Juan, she is someone else's woman, she has to accept the imprisonment and bondage of others, and even, she is not so innocent, so, do you mind? ”

When Ning Juan said these words, her heart seemed to have been torn into two petals, the blood flowed like an infusion, and the pain was unbearable.

She hadn't thought she would ask such a question.

Really, she never wanted to embarrass Li Yan.

Whether Li Yan is pretending to be or unwilling to get close to her because she doesn't mind her identity, she can accept it silently.

She thought, it doesn't matter, if it's wrong, it's wrong, if something happens, it will happen, as long as she can protect him, remember his goodness, and remember the softness he was when he treated Doctor Yan, it would be fine.

But it turned out that my heart was not at peace for a long time.

She was surprised that she cared so much about it, so much about Li Yan's team Ning Xuan's completely different attitude towards Doctor Yan.

Ning Juan didn't expect that every time she said one more word, Li Yan's face would turn pale.

Unexpectedly, when she said to the end, Li Yan's body trembled fiercely.

That look didn't seem to be his embarrassment and embarrassment after she told the truth, but more like a dream that she was holding carefully and suddenly shattered.

The incident happened suddenly, and I was at a loss.

There is nowhere to hide.

Ning Juan chuckled, and sure enough, the last bit of beauty in Li Yan's heart no longer existed.

After being open and honest, there was not only one Ning Juan who stayed away, but also Doctor Yan.

These two people must completely disappear from his eyes.

"It's really ruthless." Ning Juan smiled bitterly.

Li Huan was really ruthless, so ruthless that he pierced the last layer of window paper between her and Li Yan.

From now on, do you want both of you to forget this scene and talk about it without any guilt like before?

Can she?

She could.

Can Li Yan?

Li Yan couldn't do it.

Ning Juan's accusation against Li Huan made Li Yan's face suddenly disappear.

He staggered back and clutched his cuffs with both hands.

He seemed to hear it, and the undisguised resentment in Ning Wan's words against him was not resentment, at most it was just complaining.

Ning Juan wouldn't hate him, even if he pushed her into the quagmire, she wouldn't be willing to hate him.

It's really ruthless.

He also thinks he is really ruthless.

But why, why didn't you tell him earlier that Ning Juan was Doctor Yan?

If he had known earlier that this was the same person, would he have relented and not forced Ning Juan to a dead end.

Now, Ning Juan has no way to retreat, Li Huan has no way to retreat, and he has no way to retreat.

He still remembered that in Los Angeles, at the gate of the Wenguo Mansion, he looked around for the figure of Doctor Yan.

Li Huan asked him, "Ruyu, what are you thinking?" ”

What was he thinking?

He forgot what he was thinking.

At this moment, I don't want to dwell on what he was thinking at that time.

It's a foregone conclusion, isn't it?

"Can we still be friends?" Li Yansha asked Ning Wan in a hoarse voice.

Ning Wan raised her eyes in surprise.

It seems that he didn't believe that Li Yan would say such a thing.

But in the blink of an eye, Li Yan changed his words.

"Friend, don't do it." "We're not all the way, there's no reason to go back and forth anymore," he said. The silver taels you gave out when you opened the bank before have already been proposed, and I originally wanted to find an opportunity to send them to you. ”

I knew that it would be like this.

I mind, in the end.

If you don't leave anything, I won't forsake it.

It's just to see her pitiful and unintentional comfort.

In his eyes, how could he have had her.

Not in this life.

In the previous life, there was no one.

The dream she carefully held in the palm of her hand, with a clang, was also shattered, unrecognizable, and could no longer be pieced back to its original appearance.

What if she lived again, she thought she had avoided the embarrassment, but came to her in a different way.

Dream, woke up.

Woke up completely.

Half of the trance of self-deception is gone.

"Ruyu......" she smiled, calling his name in the gentlest tone, and she asked him, "Why did you hurt Yun Sheng?" ”

If she just found out her reality, if she was just short of money or chess pieces, she didn't have to bother, as long as he said a word, there was always a raging fire in front of her, and she would not hesitate to pounce.

"Actually, you want this prosperous world of rivers and mountains, don't you?" She asked again.

Since you like it, why hide it and let her guess everything.

Because of the relationship between her and Li Huan, where blood is thicker than water, she can still help Li Huan fight for it without hesitation, let alone him?

"I promise you, I will do it well, I promise, I will hold everything you want in front of you." She said.

Fulfilling him is also fulfilling herself.

Since she is not what he wants, then give him what he wants, which can be regarded as repaying his kindness in his previous life, repaying him for his willingness to give her a name and give her a moment of warm kindness.

Li Yan looked at Ning Juan, her lips pale.

He still couldn't understand Ning Juan.

Ning Juan is still so difficult to understand.

He didn't know where Ning Juan's paranoia and desperate protection of him came from.

Seeing the smile and determination in Ning Xuan's clear eyes, he was a little scared.

He seemed to have crushed something with his own hands.

But he didn't know what he had lost.

Ning Juan told him so solemnly that he would help him as always, or even help him more desperately, he should rest assured and should be satisfied.

But I can't be happy.

It was as if something was choking his throat and making it difficult for him to breathe.

He didn't like it.

He wanted to suppress such an inexplicable feeling.

So, he said, "My brother doesn't want to help me, I can't succeed without my brother, but I'm afraid that my brother will take everything away from me when he is angry." ”

Li Yan has never been so honest in front of others.

Including in front of Li Huan.

He had never been so straightforward.

The emotions he hid in his heart were all exposed in front of Ning Juan.

He said that he needed Li Huan's help.

He said that he was afraid that Li Huan would snatch what he wanted.

He said that he wanted Ning Juan to use all his resources to solve his difficulties and uneasiness.

The hero is sad to pass the beauty level.

Since Li Huan is interested in Ning Huan, then Ning Huan has a way to control Li Huan.

The beauty plan, a strategy that everyone knows, but it is also a strategy that can only be deeply trapped in powerless.

"I see." Ning Juan smiled, her eyes full of mist.

Since this body is given to Li Huan, it is good to be able to make the best use of it.

Anyway, it's just a body, and no one cares about it except her.

"It's all fake, isn't it?" She asked Li Yan with a smile, "You said you like me, you said you would wait for you, and you said you would go away with me, are they all fake?" ”

She was counting on such a little hope to live, and in the end, this spark was also fake.

She regarded all her love and warmth as nothing more than a mirage, just a vague illusion of her wishful thinking.

Li Yan didn't speak, and his eyes didn't want to fall on Ning Juan for a moment.

If you don't speak, you are acquiescing.

He had never liked her, and he wanted to go away with her.

"Lord Yun said, you will never like me......" Ning Juan laughed as she spoke, laughed and cried, she could no longer hide her embarrassment, and her eyes were full of fragmentation.

She asked Li Yan in a trembling voice, "Ruyu, who do you love?" ”

Even if it's a thousand cuts, give her an understanding.

Who does he love?

I thought that Li Huan was a person who couldn't see through, but now it suddenly dawned that what she really couldn't see through was the person in front of her who she wanted to entrust to everyone.

She said that she loved him, and she was willing to protect him, but she didn't even know who he loved.

Of course, he took a stand.

He said, "I don't love anyone, all the world, all living beings, I have always loved only myself." ”

In an instant, Ning Juan burst into tears.

Crying and crying, she laughed again.

The embarrassment of not changing the way is still embarrassed, and in the embarrassment, it is still fragmented.

She smoothed the skin in her hand and covered her face in Li Yan's complicated gaze.

His hands were trembling, but he was still calm.

"I'm leaving." She said.

With a smile, she waved her sleeves and left.

Clearly, she doesn't have to try to deceive herself anymore.

Ning Juan walked calmly and resolutely, looking at the back, as if she had not experienced anything.

If she hadn't seen those tears with her own eyes, Li Yan would have even felt that she was not as calm as a person.

He bent down, picked up the folding fan that had been thrown aside on the ground, and held it tightly in his hand.

He repeated Ning Juan's question and asked himself sadly, "Ruyu, who is the person you love?" ”

After a moment, he replied with a smile, "I love you, but I don't love you." ”

Perhaps, he really only loves himself.

In the past, now, and in the future, it is enough to love yourself.

He can only love himself, he has no spare energy to love others.

Love yourself, as long as you can love yourself.

On the side, he never had the luxury of asking for it.

It's really lucky that there is a woman in this world who can love him, although he uses a moth to fight the fire.

Ning Juan stumbled all the way, and finally walked to the back door of the Jade King's Mansion step by step.

Seeing the back door getting closer and closer, her hasty pace quickened again.

Around the corner, I bumped into someone.

The man was wearing a bright red robe, the color of blood, so bewitching that people couldn't take their eyes off it.

Ning Juan forgot that she was not Ning Juan at this moment.

He just squinted his eyes slightly, and shouted with a smile, "Big cousin." ”

Yao Xi's slightly frowning brows instantly furrowed.

The three words "Yan Shen Doctor" were swallowed alive in the stomach.

Blatantly, with a horror and horror of disbelief.

"Juan?" Yao Xi asked.

His eyes roamed over Ning Juan's face, as if he wanted to see through every inch of Ning Juan's skin.

Ning Juan smiled desperately, but the tears were still not angry, they just fell.

She wiped her tears, not knowing what to say.

Catching a glimpse of the sachet on Yao Xi's belt, he couldn't help laughing, "I can't complain that my aunt always mentions it, it turns out that the eldest cousin and Fleur are really happy, and the love tokens have been sent." How is it, does my cousin want my help? Do you want to be a matchmaker and draw a red line for you? ”

Yao Xi's eyes were stunned.

After a long time, when Ning Wan was so embarrassed that he was about to lose his self-esteem, he pinched the sachet and replied with a smile,

"Okay, then...... Thank you, cousin, for making it happen. ”

The speech is stiff, cold and obscure.

Ning Juan waved his little hand and fled.

At this time, she just wanted to find a quiet corner to stay, no one to see, no one to ignore, no one to care, just stay quietly in that corner, let herself cry into tears.

If you cry enough, you won't be sad.

If you're sad, you'll be able to let go of your hand.

Li Huan watched Ning Juan go out of the Jade King's Mansion and go in to Chaoyan Ji, but he didn't come out for a long time.

Li Huan stood upstairs opposite Chao Yan Ji, staring intently at the door of Chao Yan Ji.

The bustling crowd and the endless laughter and laughter covered up the suppressed emotions.

He knew she must be crying.

He knew she must be sad.

He knew that she must hate him.

But he didn't regret his choice.

Whether he is selfish or cold-blooded, he just wants to use this way to protect the people he cares about better.

If damage is inevitable, then make it less harmful.

If tears are inevitable, then more are shed today, and less will be shed in the future.

He just wants to use this way to let them see each other clearly, see themselves clearly, sad or desperate, as long as they die, the pain will be gone.

Li Huan poured himself a cup of tea.

Looking at the curling smoke rising from the cup, he struggled to pull out a faint smile.

"Siguan ......," he asked, "who do you love?" ”

Is it the real Li Yan who loves him?

What love is the illusion in the mind, the root and sprout, and the bubble that I can't give up and am unwilling to give up?

He was also at a loss.

In these inexplicable and intricate feelings, he also lost his foothold.

I can't tell who is true and who is false, and I can't tell whether affection is one point or ten.

"Let's all be fine." "As long as we're all right, that's the best thing," he said. ”

Singleness is just a dream, just an expectation.

If everybody can get right, that's great.

If you can't do it all, then whether it's a dilemma, whether it's a Jedi life, whether it's a deep love or a long life, if you want to live or die, let's all be together.