11. The past is like smoke
When I came back, my lord handed me a bag of things, saying that my mother had asked him to transfer them to me before going to the yamen. When I opened it, I saw a piece of coarse cloth about my size and a wooden box. I was both moved and sad - Mother Wang, she was still thinking about helping me make clothes before she died. Thinking that if she wore this dress to see Wang Ma, she would definitely be very happy. So I hurriedly put on my clothes and prepared to go out, the clothes fit well, but my waist was a little uncomfortable, I touched it casually, and I actually felt that the clothes had a compartment. What is it that makes Wang Ma hide so secretly? This should have been specially left to me by Wang Ma, because Wang Ma knew very well that no one in the palace would be interested in the rag clothes she made except me, let alone try them on. I carefully unpacked my clothes and found that it was a letter, and I opened it:"
Miss:
Please forgive me for daring to call you that in my heart for the sake of protecting you. When you read this letter, I'm afraid that Mother Wang will no longer be able to take care of you, so Miss Qiu must take good care of herself in the future.
I was also born in a scholarly family, gentle and virtuous. However, I met someone unladylike, and my husband not only ate, drank, prostituted and gambled, but also entangled with a widow. I tried to persuade me, but he unscrupulously framed me for my infidelity and swept me out of the house. My in-laws didn't believe me, my parents were ashamed of me, I was desperate, I almost found a short-sighted, but fortunately I met your mother at that time.
Your mother is also a poor woman, and it is not her wish to be reduced to dust, nor is it her desire to laugh at the door. But she never complained about herself because she was a prostitute. She took me in, told me that I could support myself without a man, and she accompanied me when I was at my most vulnerable, comforted me, and gave me the courage to live anew. Later, I learned that she also had a man in love at that time, and it was also the most distressing time for her, but she still cheered up to comfort me. This kindness and virtue, Wang Ma, I can't repay it in this life. Later, your mother finally married your father hastily for the sake of that man's future, for him to be an official with peace of mind, and for the sake of her own death. As a result, less than a year later, she was born prematurely due to excessive depression, and she died after giving birth to you.
When your mother died, you were not yet a month, and I was afraid that you would have no one to take care of you, so I took the initiative to come to the Wang family as a slave so that I could protect you at any time. But it's useless for Mama Wang - let Miss you haven't even had a good day, all I can do for Miss is to fight for my life. So Miss, you don't have to be sad, Wang Ma and I die without regrets!
Sealed in the wooden box is your mother's relics, please Miss herself. ”
Tears welled up uncontrollably, and since I came to ancient times, I became more and more sentimental. Wang Ma, Wang Ma, do you know? You are my only relative in ancient times!
Open the wooden box, inside is a very old fan, the texture of the fan bone and silk surface is very ordinary, and the jade pendant under the fan is even more ordinary. A few crooked words written on it are comparable to my calligraphy. It reads: "Once the sea was difficult to water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud." The signature is "Liu Xueyan". I don't feel a little stupid - Liu Xueyan, my current mother, this respectable, lamentable, pathetic, and pitiful woman, I don't know if your former and current lover still remembers you?