Chapter 167: Introspection
Yin was very angry, in fact, he was in a good mood last night, no matter what the old eight thoughts, in general, he was showing weakness to himself, and being willing to show weakness meant that he had enough energy to compete with the so-called princelings, the Eight Princes, he began to feel that in the forty-seventh year, Su Li's determined smile gave him a lot of courage, yes, from the fifteenth day of the first month of the forty-seventh year to the present, Su Lier has been with her for ten years, she has been supporting herself with a firm smile, and she has never wavered, Is it possible to fail? This made him very excited, he wanted to ride a horse, wanted to go to Su Li's comfortable pool to take a dip, and hugged Su Li's flexible body to reward himself for his efforts in the past ten years, and also grateful for everything she had done. In his opinion, it will be a wonderful night.
But why is this happening? She clearly told herself that she was dead, to herself, she was no longer Su Li who wanted to grow old with her, but just a staff member Su Li, a chef Su Li, and a nanny Su Li, her eyes were full of indifference, was it really like people said that grief is greater than heart death? Is it possible that everything I have done in the past ten years has been in vain? He felt angry, couldn't this heartless woman not see what she was doing? Up and down the house, even for Fujin, she has never used so much thought and love, why does she refuse to experience it with her heart, but she is becoming more and more like those ordinary women, blindly asking for it, never asking if these are what she can give? But after being angry, he thought more about it, did he really hurt her Fu Jin thought that Yin would stay in Su Li's house at night, but he never thought that Su Li would be like a fire in the morning, and ran into the palace with the child in her arms, so she didn't have time to ask where the master was, and then inquired, and the master stayed in the outer study. The Ulanala clan understood seven or eight points, and it was just right to be on duty, so he sighed bitterly and said softly, "It seems that your master is in trouble with your master again." Let's go! Look at it. ”
"Slaves can't get into that yard." He smiled comfortably, pulled Fu Jin's clothes, and thought about it, "Why don't you go yet, what if it's okay?" It saves both the future master and Master Su from feeling embarrassed. ”
The Ulanara clan thinks about it, too, they play with spears. I was afraid that I would make Yin suspicious, so I nodded with a smile and glanced at me with ease, "You, you didn't follow Master Su in vain, how can you still chatter?" ”
"Isn't it the master's favorite? Master Su doesn't let us do anything, she doesn't talk much, she is busy every day, sometimes like a little sister. It hurts; Sometimes like my sister, I take an idea for us everywhere, and we follow you to learn the rules with all our hearts. Favored by you, on the one hand, follow Master Su to learn some skills, each is different, in fact, it is quick to do things smoothly, Master Su has always praised her as a female general in the house, and she has a very set of management and work. ”
"Well, she's actually a simple person, just getting older. The days went by, and gradually everything changed. Start cautious, now what? It's not good to say, I always feel that I'm not as happy as before, but I'm also the mother of two children, how can I always be as happy as my children. Wulanala shook his head gently, thinking that when Su Li first entered the mansion, he followed him like a little tail, often flashing his big eyes and mischievously luring himself to do this and that. She couldn't bear it when she was able to save it. At that time, I often had the illusion that I had raised an old girl, taking care of this and there, and she would also make trouble with her grandfather, but the way of making trouble was different, and now it seems that she can't control it.
Master Su taught the slave a method, she said, every morning when she got up, she told herself. I was lucky. I am surrounded by good people, and Lord and Fujin treat me well. The men around me are also good, the children are obedient, and I don't have to worry about eating or drinking, and I am very happy. She said that she said this every day, and said that she believed it, so she could really be very happy, the slave and maid tried, but it was such a reason, the slave and the maid thought about it, but I was afraid that the master was also like this, and told herself every day that she had a good life, she was living well, but she was smarter than the slave and maid, and she was not easy to be deceived by herself. ”
"Haha!" The Ulanara clan laughed so loudly that they burst into tears after laughing, and Shu Xin didn't say anything, but turned around to pack up his things, and when he didn't see it.
At lunchtime, the scholar in the front yard came to report that the master had been lying down all morning, and he hadn't eaten breakfast.
Fu Jin glanced at Shu Xin, Shu Xin beat the scholar, asked him to make a bowl of three-color mixed noodles, carefully put it in the food box, and accompanied the Wulanala clan to the second gate before handing the food box to Fu Jin. Fu Jin sighed, Shu Xin really didn't follow Su Li in vain, but he really learned seven or eighty percent of the meticulousness.
Shu Xin was very worried, he didn't let Fujin be lively in the morning, because he was afraid that it would not be a big deal, and Fujin would be self-defeating if he went by himself; The second is that I am afraid that things will be really big. In fact, she has been with Su Li for so long, she is really clear about Su Li's words and deeds, she seems to be calm in the morning, her hands tremble slightly, she is afraid, combined with Su Li's performance over the years, the conflict between her and the master this time should not be small, if you let Fujin go to see the master in the morning, I am afraid that it will add fuel to the fire, and if the master can't come to the stage, Su Li won't be able to come back. Thinking of the last time Nian's trouble, Su Li went back to his house and ran to his house to cry, they were all with Su Li, seeing Su Li suffering, in fact, it was no different from his own suffering. She didn't say it just now, although Sixin was born with Fujin, but what Sixin understood in her heart but never broke was that Fujin treated them well, but it was good for the minions; And Su Li seems to be cold, but she has been treated as an equal for ten years. Think about it, invite the little girl to let her go out and please come in.
Fu Jin took out the noodles and put them on the kang table. Yin leaned and didn't move. Don't look at it. The Ulanala clan was silent. Pat the embroidered pier. Took off his shoes. Rely on yourself. Smoke a book. The two lay side by side across the kang table. She made up her mind. Yin didn't speak, and she didn't speak. Let's see who can carry whom.
"Why didn't she come?" Yin couldn't help it.
"She?" Fujin looked left and right. I don't seem to know who Yin is talking about. Yin's eye knife flew by. She laughed. He sighed faintly. "Alas. It looks really old. I really didn't have much to think about in my heart. ”
Another hit!
"Got it. People took the children into the palace early in the morning to accompany the mother. "Fujin begged for mercy. As I wished, I saw the color of Yin change suddenly. I thought about it but didn't go any further.
"Don't ask why?" Yin sat up. Look at the bowl of noodles. It turned out that he didn't eat for nothing. The man didn't know at all. Gasped and took a big bite. The noodles weren't as good as she did. Spit it out and slapped the chopsticks. Said to Fu Jin like a child.
"Don't ask, I'm jealous, I can't let my master always rely on me to be virtuous. I like Li'er, so when I don't exist, right? I'm also my grandfather's wife, so I would. Fu Jin said slowly.
Yin was stunned, if it was usual, he would laugh, he wouldn't go to his heart, and he would be joking as Fu Jin, but after last night, he suddenly realized that maybe what Fu Jin said was true. She is also a woman, she is also a wife, but she always treats her as an ally, and whether it is also a harm to her to talk about her. So Su Li also felt hurt, because she felt that because she spoiled her, she didn't shy away from anything, which made Su Li feel hurt?
"Will you live or die with me?" Yin didn't answer positively, but looked at Fu Jin tentatively and asked. When he asked this, Yin was a little unsure, and he felt a little cautious.
Fu Jin laughed again, it turned out that she was angry for this, she felt that when she and Yin were in the palace, Yin would often ask herself so carefully if she could do this. That's not okay, it's just that it's been almost thirty years, and they're all forty years old.
"Yes!" Ulanara gently reassured.
Yin breathed a sigh of relief, but immediately became annoyed, "Li'er said, only you can in this mansion." She won't, she said she envied the old eight family, because she was envious that she could say this. ”
"So you're not happy?" Fu Jin sighed softly, just because Su Li would not live and die like himself. So this lord's self-esteem can't stand it?
"Could it be that the master should be happy? She said that since the day she came back from Kexin's house, her heart had been dead, and she felt tired. Who doesn't get tired? You say, whoever is not tired alive is tired of her? Yin was furious again, as if he had found an ally.
"Lao Bajiadi can say this because she said that she plans to go with the eighth master anyway, so she doesn't bother to please anyone. Except for the eighth master, she had nothing to rely on, and followed the eighth master. Instead, they have each other's company on the road. Even if it's noisy, you're not afraid, are you? If Honghui is still there, I won't follow him. I still want to accompany my son and grandson! Fu Jin said deliberately, she confused the original intention of Ba Fu Jin.
"Does that mean that those childless lands will be willing to follow him?" Yindi's expression was like eating a fly, it turned out that Fujin followed him not because of attachment, but because she didn't have a son, so she pulled herself as a companion.
"Why do people? You didn't pamper them, why did they go with their master? Master, you can't get a bunch of people to bury you like Qin Shi Huang, right? Fu Jin was really made to cry and laugh by Yin, and couldn't help but twist Yin's thin face.
Yin didn't mind, in this house, Fu Jin didn't get angry no matter what he did in private, and he rubbed his face and breathed a sigh of relief. Think about it, "Therefore, she envies the old eight, because the eighth child treats Fujin sincerely, so Fujin is willing to live and die." And Fujin has no children, so he will go without worry. ”
"Maybe Li'er didn't think so when she said that, right? I've learned a little about her over the years, but she actually just suddenly felt envious, but why envy, I'm afraid she hasn't figured it out yet. In fact, when the master said this, I was envious, although the eighth child has two concubines over the years, but the discerning people can also see what he is like to his daughter-in-law, if he is not good to Guo Luoluo's family, she will not say that she wants to follow the eighth child. Because it was so good, I was reluctant to stay away from him. How wonderful! Fu Jin sighed softly, and he was really envious when he heard it.
"Master is not good to you?" Yin was not happy anymore, and muttered while eating noodles. He didn't notice that he picked up the chopsticks and ate them again. The Ulanara clan didn't say anything, thought for a moment, and shook his head.
"Ye can't think like that, but think about what Li'er is thinking."
"What do you mean?" Yin didn't understand.
"Meaning, if two people go horseback riding, how can there be nothing to do? And how could you mention this? The reason should be that Li'er was angry, so he angered the master, so the master should now think about why Li'er was angry. "Doesn't this master usually understand the affairs of the court? Why can't you use it on Su Li?
"You should ask why you are angry!" Yin roared, the noodles almost squirted out of his nose, Fu Jin wiped his face with a handkerchief, cleaned the kang table with his hands, and then turned around and sat down.
"I know I'm angry, so I don't need to ask, now I want to know why Li'er is angry, and then I want to think about it, or, let her live in the palace for a few days, anyway, at this time of year, she will stay with her mother for a few days, and it won't attract much attention, but it's been a long time, if you don't go to see it, I'm afraid that my mother will be suspicious." The Ulanala clan still politely asked Yin to take the mother back, Yin went to pick it up, and took a few soft words, this matter is over, and now I can see that Yin is still reluctant to Su Li, it is better to be a favor.
"You're going to let me pick it up again?" Yin, that's angry.
"There's no shame in going to the palace to pick it up, and no one knows that Li'er and Ye have a temper, every time she enters the palace, isn't it Ye or I who pick it up? And it's already a lot of masters, can't it be said that it's by the way? "The Ulanala clan is still coaxing.
"I don't go this time, why is it soft every time? It's her fault this time, if she gets used to it, she really wants to go to heaven, is he so good-tempered? Why let her breathe and drink? Yin gritted his teeth and twisted.
"Oh, it turns out that every time the master is soft!" Fu Jin pretended to sigh, and Yin glared at her angrily.
Fu Jin laughed and looked at him deeply, "Do you really like Li'er so much?" ”
"Don't say, aren't you jealous?" Yin lay down straight like a child, turned his back and ignored her.
Although Yin didn't admit it, what is the difference between this and admitting it? I don't say it because I like it! Ulanala was stunned, pushed away the kang table, and squeezed to Yin's side, she didn't speak, just silently hugged him from behind. She has never been like this, even when she first shared a room, she never did, and sometimes she secretly kissed herself at night, which would make her hurriedly push away, for fear that the girls outside the room would hear. Gradually, Yin was no longer like this, and now she suddenly wanted to learn from Su Li to hug Yin and let him feel herself.
Yin gently held the hand stretched out from behind, he was already an old husband and wife, maybe he didn't have the urge to be with other people, but the comfort and peace when he was with the Ulanala clan was something that no one could get.
The two couples just lay down like that, Yin gradually calmed down, and sighed softly, "What other people say, I won't be angry, but you and Li'er can't say it!" ”