As soon as I stepped out of the hotel, the cold wind hit me with a stir.

It seems that you have to wake up, your fingers are still tightly picking at the bag, as if it can give me any strength to support it, looking at the traffic on the street that is still shuttling endlessly, the colorful neon, suddenly a little dazed, as if you have just crawled out of hell, looking at the world from afar, so illusory.

"Miss, do I need to call you a taxi?"

The doorman saw me standing still and reminded me very intimately.

I didn't speak, I raised my feet and left the range of the main entrance of the hotel, there was a garbage can on the side of the street, it was really cold, my hands were frozen and stiff before anything, I took it in my bag for a while, and threw the box of Durex that Pang next to me like a thief into it, 'Bang Dang'! It's a shame to have a bang!

My fingertips touched a hard package in the bag, pulled it out and looked at it, and threw it into the trash can together, inhaled a big breath of cold air, my cheeks were blown astringently, I walked a few steps with my feet up, and when I turned around, I looked at the trash can again.

Nervously turned back, took out the hard packaging box from the trash can, blew it carefully, wiped it carefully with his numb hand, and then put it in the bag, and looked back at the golden face of the hotel, but his feet were rooted and did not move.

Even if I feel that I am already in the dark, in hope, there is always a trace of faint, oil lamp-like, flickering, and I don't want to extinguish the fire.

'Di Di~'

"Bao, Bao Four ?!!"

The sound of the horn sounded twice in the back, followed by Pang Bei's surprised tone, "It's you, Baosi!" ”

Standing still, stupid.

"Oh my God! Why did you get out! ”

After the door closed, I heard the sound of hurried footsteps running behind me, and my frozen hand was finally held into a warm palm, "What's wrong, Baosi?" ”

The eyeballs were frozen a little hard, and Mu Nene looked at Pang Bian, and at the snort, he could still smell the spicy smell on her body, and the smell of fireworks was very kind.

I want to laugh, but I can't laugh no matter how hard I try, "I, I ......"

"What's wrong with you, Lu Er, he's not here......"

Pang Bi held my hand and rubbed it vigorously, "Why is it so cold, let's go, get in the car, get in the car." ”

I was pulled into the car by her in a flash, and after sitting in the co-pilot, my eyes were still looking at the main entrance of the hotel not far away, and Pang asked in my ear one after another, "Lu Er is not in the hotel?" ”

"Have you released your pigeons?"

"Quarrelsome?"

"Bao Si, don't scare me!"

Pang looked like he was about to cry, "I just went to eat something nearby, what happened to you." ”

"I ......"

The body is much warmer, and it is good to have an air-conditioned place.

Pang Bi sniffed, "You don't know, I was going to leave after eating at the place I was looking for in the mall across the street, who knew and saw you, I didn't dare to recognize it at first, but the more I turned around and opened it, the more I was sure it was you, and the back looked at it and worried about it, Bao Si, what happened." ”

The nerves are finally activated, I should be grateful for the cold wind of winter, at least I can quickly dry the tears, I don't want to cry like a stupid fork in his realm, making people laugh.

"It's ......"

looked at Pang Bian's eyes with a side face, his expression could finally be controlled by himself, and he pulled the corners of his mouth, "Don't you love, you can guess, it's a very bloody and cliché kind of plot......"

"Love, plot ......"

Pang was close to me, and his warm and soft hands were still rubbing me to keep warm, "How can I have the leisure to think about the plot now, your state is enough to make me afraid, do you see Lu Er or not." ”

"See."

My voice was very soft, and I lowered my eyelids and didn't look at Pang Bian, for fear of seeing pity in her eyes, "There is also a nineteen-year-old girl......"

"Who ?!!"

"A girl."

I sent two self-deprecating laughs, "Nineteen years old, the surname Lu is probably proud, tender, looking innocent, white, when I went, both of them took a shower, don't you think it's very cliché......"

The scent of the shower gel choked my nose.

Pang next to the cold breath gasped, "There is a woman?" Nineteen? Such blood!! ”

Not only is it bloody, but it's also very cliché!

I thought of the girl's face, "Nineteen, very tender ......"

"I'll rub!!"

Pang Bi was actually rude, and slammed the steering wheel viciously to get out of the car, "Which room!" I'll go to him and ask for an explanation, isn't this an insult and a bad thing, you wait, I'm not done with him!! ”

"Say, room number!!"

I looked at Pang and softened my tone, "How do you want to talk to Lu Er......

"I ......"

Pang Pan paused for a moment, "I have to ask him, what is his plan for this!" Why did I think Lu Er was like a god at the beginning, but also because I saw that Lu Er never messed around! Wen Qi also said, Lu Er is thinking of you, and he is desperate, otherwise I could have promised to trick you out and let Lu Er surprise you! ”

I took out my phone and called him again, "It's off!" I'm really, I'm going to be! Lu Er...... He, he's not right!! ”

Pang Bei's reaction was extremely excited, but on the other hand, I, the client, was quiet, I also wanted to roar, I wanted to vent, but I didn't have the strength to toss.

Yesterday's things are still circling in my head, the chickens and dogs that my mother said, and my dad's style of play, none of them are forced on me anymore.

Coming to Lu Pei, I just want to seek some courage, or rather, to find a place to belong and comfort, at least I am willing to face it, even if it is struggling, even if it is hard, even if my parents are pressing, I am willing, but......

I feel dirty.

More than ten years of feelings, people who can't be erased and can't be forgotten, have soiled the last support I want in my heart.

"Bao Si, then you saw that the woman didn't slap her!"

I shook my mushy head, "What are you doing dumping people, the ...... of mutual affection"

"!"

Pang Bian said viciously, "Even if Lu Er changes his mind, he can't like someone else so quickly, that woman is a stupid hat that is being used!" I'll tell you about Bao Si, Lu Er is angry with you, he is jealous, really! ”

I'm angry, I'm okay, I'm angry, I'm mad.

"They went to bed."

I said sneeringly, "It's going to bed, that girl keeps saying that her legs are weak and hurt ......."

"Holy!!"

Pang Bi's punch smashed the car whistle and snorted, "I can't do it, I'm going to explode in this anger, calm down first, let me calm down first......"

Calm down.

I need this too.

After sitting for a long time, my eyes were still unconsciously looking at the door of the hotel, silently waiting-

"That, Bao Si, I have something in mind."

Pang looked at me again after a long time, "Don't you think this happened, it's quite familiar." ”

"What do you mean?"

Pang Bi cleared his throat, "I heard, these two people have been together for a long time, and they are infectious to each other, do you remember you four years ago, when you went to a nightclub, Lu Er, who was also deliberately angry, also found a man, and then ......"

"I don't have any relatives, and I don't sleep with anyone."

Like, it's naïve to say that.

Doesn't he know everything, and the head of the fiddling with me when something happens is the way, but this kind of thing, he is angry when he says it?

I don't understand.

"Yes, you didn't do anything, but Lu Er's matter today is really no different from the one you did four years ago......"

Pang Bi looked at me cautiously and said, "Do you think, did you make an appointment with Lu Er in advance to come to see him, if he really wants to do something, why let you see it, isn't this intentional." ”

"Then what is his purpose?"

I repeated empty-heartedly, "What is he doing this?" ”

"This ......"

Pang Bi scratched his head, "It's just angry, is it that your parents are still blocking Lu Er?" ”

Perhaps, but I don't want to think about it, I have a headache.

"Bao Si, why don't we go home first, let's calm down when we go back, this matter is ......"

"Don't go back yet."

Pang was stunned, "What are you going to do if you don't go back." ”

"Just stay here and stay for a while......"

Pang next to the half-understood oh, seeing that I just kept looking outside the windshield, for a long time, he opened his mouth, "Bao Si, then you saw that woman, you didn't think to explain." ”

Explanation, from the time I was going to the hotel, I didn't seem to think it could be explained.

I just want to quickly coax him and snuggle up in his arms to keep warm, that's all.

I wanted to say a lot of things, but I found that I really couldn't say it, I wanted to say that my dad hurt me, find a man, get a stand-in, make a list, my mom was an accomplice, take photos, pose, they did this, they just didn't want me to be with you, by the way, my dad is going to marry your mom, and we are about to become brothers and sisters with different surnames......

It seems that the things in my hand still have this kind of explanation to wash themselves, but on my body, how can I feel so disgusting as if I have been stripped of a layer of skin!

"Forget it, I don't think you're in the mood to explain that situation, so what did you say to Lu Er......"

"Didn't say anything, hurt each other."

This time they really hurt each other.

I smiled bitterly in my heart, only listening to Pang Bi sighing one after another, and saying a lot, but I didn't have much energy to answer, my body was about to drain, and I just looked at it very numbly.

Time passed minute by minute, Pang next to the stunned sleep, I was sober to death, watching this pedestrian gradually sparse, passing vehicles are also looking for their own way home, except for the still shining neon, accompanied by me, only their own more and more clenched fists.

Three o'clock in the morning.

The heart is dry, and the trunk of the tree by the roadside is steep.

will eventually be disappointed.

is so unwilling, but it must be put down.

Lu Pei.

You're playing big, and you're playing bad.

I took out my mobile phone, my eyes were sour, there were no tears, I numbly found Qin Sen's name, and pressed a message to him, "Please help me tell Lu Pei, I thank him for his help all the time, from now on, go your own way, it doesn't matter." ’

Send.

Wake up Pang Bei, "Let's go home." ”