The seventh day of the first month of the third year of Long

The howling of the north wind shows the most memorable feature of this season, and the boundless cold surrounds me - this is the season I hate the most, because every season, poor Seventeenth Elder Brother will be tormented by injuries, and every season, there will be important people who will leave me......

I stood outside the gate of the Water Pavilion of the Old Summer Palace, although the New Year has passed, but the smell of the New Year in the streets and alleys outside the palace is still very strong, and there are lights everywhere.

If you don't explore the unknown sadness hidden behind the glitz, now is a time for festivities.

But this place is different – the wind-swept snow makes what should have been a cold season even colder, and the lake is covered with thick ice that makes the waterfront pavilion seem to freeze. And all this brings me an extremely sad feeling - sister, even if she has had ups and downs and crises in her life, her life has at least been pampered in the deep palace, and today, she has actually fallen to this point......

I should be happy, this is what happened to her calculating the seventeenth elder brother - but I can't deceive my heart, I'm sad, sad just like when she looked at me who was forced to leave Beijing, such a sad look in her eyes, and even has always been my constant motivation to deal with Nian Qianyao.

"Sister, I'm coming......" Although I tried to control my tone, there was still an unstoppable sourness in my voice—I didn't want to be so weak, and I had already made up my mind. However, when I saw my sister, who was originally beautiful and elegant, like a white camellia stained with dew, wrapped in a blanket, leaning on the soft couch on the edge of the windowsill and shivering—sourness, it was actually an instinctive reaction that could not be stopped......

Counting nine cold winters, such cold weather, and this water pavilion was originally used to escape the heat, the doors and windows are made of colored paper - and now, these carefully cut colorful paper as bright as the sunshine has become a nightmare for everyone here, these beautiful garbage can not stop the slightest cold, but make the house even more cold and lifeless......

"Qiyun, are you really here? I thought you'd never come to see my sister again! My sister struggled to get up: "I know that the matter of the seventeenth elder brother is that my sister is wrong, forgive my sister, my sister is really unacceptable!" ”

Many, many are possible, we all make mistakes, and we will explain to others afterwards that this is not possible, but how many things in this world can be chosen? A last resort can't offset the previous grievances and grievances, which is also when others tell me that they have to do it, I can really show the sourness in this.

As a last resort, it can't offset the sins that Seventeen Elder Brother has suffered in the past ten years, and it can't offset the pain that tortured him day and night—not to mention, compared to the cold in this room, he is even more difficult to endure every winter!

"Sister. You answered me with the truth. You- really because I was your sister. Is that what that happens to me? I tilted my head. Looking at her pale, slender, thin face glowing with joy at my arrival—she's lost a lot of weight these days. People have also aged a lot. With the scenery of the past, it is particularly distressing: "Zhanpeng is also your brother." Since he was sent to Heilongjiang, you haven't even asked whether he is alive or dead......"

For so many years. Because we are all silent and reserved people. So we never talked about anything openly and honestly. We're all too smart. are ashamed to explain. They are also clever and constantly trying to figure out each other's thoughts. But he didn't want to ask.

Today. Probably the only and last time we had a candid conversation......

In fact, many people have reminded me that my sister is using me, the fourth elder brother. Nine Elder Brothers. Fourteenth elder brother. Seventeen elder brothers. It's not that I don't know. It's that I don't want to think about it. Sister, the gentleness in your eyes is too seductive. I came to this dynasty alone. Eyes are ruthless. The tenderness in your eyes is the affection I long for but can't reach. That's because of this. I lied to myself. I choose to ignore what is behind you. As always, I'm here to help.

No matter how much you deceive me. So many times over the years, as long as it is about you, I choose to close my eyes. I'm not stupid. But I'm an idiot - in fact, I hate you when I have land. Why is the world so big. But you want to hurt the seventeenth elder brother alone? You know that he is the only bottom line in my heart that you can't move. You know that something happened to him, and we don't have face to speak of. Why so many people. Do you choose Brother Seventeen?

He gave me a faint look. My sister didn't answer, but asked again, "That's a good question." I've wanted to ask you this for a long time. You've been helping me all along. Is it just because I'm your sister? ”

"......" I opened my mouth, but I couldn't answer.

Yes, I really can't answer, I have always hated you for using me, but I forgot one thing, the purpose of my approach to you was not simple - I approached you because I knew history well and I knew that you would be the mother of Emperor Qianlong, the queen mother of the world.

Ask yourself, if I didn't know your identity at the beginning, if you were useless in the first place, would I pity you?

No, no, I know myself as well as I know you - neither of us will do anything that doesn't benefit us!

I'll admit that the first time I saw you, I thought your eyes weren't supposed to be a girl's. It's too sharp, too aggressive, and the ** in it is like a whirlpool that will never fill up, and it will suck my whole body in. With a faint smile, my sister recalled that year: "At that time, the fourteenth elder brother abandoned me, and there was almost no place for me to stand in the huge Sibeile Mansion, I wanted to die all the time, if it weren't for my poor mother, I would have died a long time ago!" ”

The memory goes back to that day, the maple leaf is red, the day that determines our fate: "I saw you that day, and I believed at a glance that only you could save me, and I tried my best to catch you driftwood."

In order to catch you, I even deliberately said at the banquet that you were going to enter the Babel Mansion as the hostess, and I forced Bafujin to do it to you. Because I know that you are not a person who is willing to trust others easily, I must help me with all your heart! ”

"I hurt you, and then immediately rushed to the Niu Mansion to save you. On that day, the poison made me die of pain, but the more painful I was, the happier I became. Because the more pain I have, the more chance I have to win your trust, and I know that sooner or later, my pain that day will be rewarded! ”

Looking at me, seeing that I didn't seem to be very interested in her narratives, she was a little curious - in fact, it was very simple, I didn't care about these deceptions, if it wasn't for the seventeenth elder brother, even if it was used by such a woman, what matter?

Sister, it's not a shame that your foresight can be used by you.

"In order to be able to grasp you more firmly, I don't hesitate to match you with the fourteenth elder brother, Qiyun, do you know, when I saw you and the fourteenth elder brother frolicking on the street, my heart ......"

"Enough!" If you really had the heart, you wouldn't do it - you deliberately plunged me into an emotional quagmire, and you not only hurt me, but also hurt the fourteenth elder brother for the rest of his life!

I actually don't have the right to scold you, so I choose restraint - the two of us have neither pure motives, and our relationship for so many years turned out to be a tug-of-war between using and being used......

"It's not enough!" My sister suddenly became excited: "That's right, at first I only planned to use you simply, but then everything was different, and slowly I couldn't control myself." That day I fainted in your arms, I listened to you crying and shouting to avenge me - you did it, in order to give me justice, you actually ran to the West Mountain to rain for a day and a night, I can obviously not save you, you must know that if something happens to you, it will be even more difficult to escape the blame, but I am desperate to find someone everywhere to save you, and I do not hesitate to run to ask for help for the fourteenth elder brother......"

"If you tell too many lies, it will slowly become true, I have told you more than once that you are my only relative in this world, but I lied to you, I want to move you with this sentence!" The gaze slowly became distant and empty, wise as a sister, there is still something that cannot be shaken: "But, as I spoke, I first believed this sentence, and I really began to believe that you are the dearest person in the world......"

In fact, I myself am the same, I guess my sister has a good grasp of my heart so that she doesn't have to ask me for the answer - I also want to use her, just to use. But when she swallowed the poison desperately, when she held my hand every time I was most vulnerable, when she was most dangerous she thought of me first......

Everything slowly became different, and as she had expected, her hypnosis of me gradually became a reality, and even without blood, we could be like real sisters, but-

The only thing that is uncontrollable is that this lie is really tempting, and she herself can't help but believe it......

"Sister, I want to ask you, I killed the fourth elder brother, do you hate me?"

Hate me? I've long wanted to ask, I want to ask—hate me? I killed him against your will, the love of your life, and I make your love an eternal and endless wait, because he will never again be able to respond to you......

"I want to hate too, I hate so much, why doesn't he love anyone, but he falls in love with you?" Touching my face with his hand, he gently wiped the tears from my cheeks: "He is in love with you, a woman I can't hate, complain, or even jealousy." I waited and waited until his sideburns turned gray, and I thought that if he didn't change his mind for a year, I would wait for a year; If he doesn't change his mind for the rest of his life, I'll wait for it all my life—one day, even if I accompany him down to the Yellow Spring, he will always see me. Even if I don't, I can look at him like this for the rest of my life......"

"But I've been deprived of the right to wait, for the same reason, for someone I can't resent......"

I'm sorry it's me who made even waiting for you delusional......

Actually, you don't care that I killed the fourth elder brother and ruined your lifelong dream, compare my heart to my heart, I shouldn't have persecuted you for the matter of the seventeenth elder brother, but-

is still the same sentence, why is it not me who pays for my life, but it is the seventeenth elder brother?