"I'm broken."

Seeing that I didn't say anything and fiddled with the crystal ball for a long time, Han Lin smiled comfortingly at me instead, "I'm also very touched that you can go out of your way to buy a new one." ”

"Forehead ......"

I was a little embarrassed, and raised my hand to put the crystal ball back on the desk, "That, I ......"

"It's okay, it's broken, it's broken, this thing is already fragile."

He grinned, "Are you a little frightened to see what I wrote?" ”

I lowered my eyes and scratched my head, embarrassed to ask what you wrote, I didn't know anything.

"Maybe, I was too sudden, I know, you can't accept it so quickly......"

Han Lin inexplicably turned on the self-talk mode, "Last winter, I ordered you a song, but I thought about it later, and I always felt that it was not suitable, and then Pang told me that you dropped out of school, and the number was no longer needed, and I was still wondering, is it because I ......"

"It's not!"

I interrupted him directly, "It has nothing to do with you that I quit school, I just don't miss it." ”

Han Lin nodded, and pursed the corners of his lower lip with a shy tangled face, "I know, you are young, we have known each other since childhood, and some words are quite embarrassing to say, but what I write under the crystal ball is true, I, that ......"

He glanced back at the window, and saw that my second aunt and second uncle were in the courtyard and seemed to have the courage to talk to Pang Panla, "There are some things I still want to tell you in person, I want you to know...... I like you, but I'm not going to force you to accept me, I can, give you time...... You can take as long as you want. ”

OMG.

The scalp immediately went numb, and secretly scolded himself for being so indebted, everyone was nagging in the yard and I went to the yard, why did I see him fiddling with my crystal ball and leaning aside!

"The ......"

Han Lin suddenly laughed, raised his hand to interrupt me, "I know what you think, Pang Bian told me, she said that you don't count these things now, I also know that it's still early, I haven't worked yet, from your point of view, I must feel that I am not reliable, time is there, you can wait for my work and life to be stable in the future and then give me an answer, I am telling you this now, I just want you to know, that's all." ”

"I ......"

"Let's go to the courtyard and talk to your second uncle and them."

Han Lin didn't want me to express his opinion, so he came to pull my arm, "In the afternoon, we can go to the river to fish, I was very good at it when I was a child...... Let's go. ”

I stood still, and pulled off his arm that pulled me with my upper hand, "Han Lin, I don't like to be in the clouds, if I don't explain it, I will be uncomfortable." ”

Han Lin smiled, "I know what you mean, so, I'll give you time, we haven't ...... yet."

"I know what you mean!"

I interrupted him seriously, "But if you just give me more time, it's useless, I'll tell you the truth, I have someone I like, he can't get out, others can't come in, it's as simple as that, do you know what I mean." ”

The smile on Han Lin's face stiffened a little, "Someone you like?" Who, who. ”

I exhaled helplessly, "You don't need to know his name, that's a bastard, we've broken up, but there's no way, I'm just proud of him, like you said, I was very stupid when I was a child, a tendon, I can't forget it when I like someone, so you give up the darkness as soon as possible, let's still be friends, otherwise we won't even have to be friends." ”

Han Lin took a deep breath, "What do you mean...... You two broke up, didn't you. ”

I didn't think I needed to hide anything, so I nodded generously, "It's divided." ”

Han Lin's eyes were a little incredulous, "That's ...... When did you get together, why didn't I listen to Pang ......?"

"I haven't told anyone about it."

I raised my eyes to look at him, "This matter, my family doesn't know, I have a young love, it's not a good thing, but I think I have to tell you, otherwise your contribution is meaningless, falling in love is a particularly beautiful thing, really, I think, two people have to like each other to be equal, you said I was right." ”

Han Lin's drooping eyelids completely covered the light in his eyes, I always thought he was a very sunny boy, and his smile was particularly energetic and warm, but I was afraid of heat, and his taste was probably different from others, what I liked was moonlight.

patted his arm, "Han Lin, as a smart person, you have to know, never be anyone's spare tire, otherwise, you will hurt yourself in the end, everyone must be kind to themselves, right?" ”

He didn't raise his eyes, but a self-deprecating smile came out of his mouth, "Bao Si, you are really different from other girls, I thought that you would say something inappropriate, or a personality that is not suitable or something, but I didn't expect you to comfort me so much...... Weird. ”

Strange, I don't think it's weird.

I feel very tired every day when I watch Xiao Liu catch up with someone who doesn't like him, this kind of thing is clear to bystanders, so, according to the experience I got from Xiao Liu, I think he is running to the spare tire like this, and I don't need a spare tire.

Emotional matters, I care a lot, and I also feel that I can't do it, either I'm single, or I like that, otherwise it's so unfair, I torture myself, and I delay others.

"Han Lin, you ......"

"I see."

Standing there for a long time, Han Lin, who was raising his head, looked at me with a forced smile, "Thank you for your honesty, really." ”

I smiled, "Just figure it out, I think the stupidest thing is ......"

"I'll wait for you."

"Huh?!"

I'm hallucinating!

Han Lin smiled again, "Didn't they all break up, it doesn't matter, I can wait, just like you said, be kind to yourself, so I have the right to pursue my own happiness, right." ”

I was confused, this kid took the wrong medicine.

"You're doing this so that we don't even have to be friends!"

Han Lin, who walked to the door, glanced back at me, "I don't want to lie and I just want to be friends with you, I have a lot of time, I can wait, and when you think the person in your heart comes out, even if I can't get in, I'm willing to be a doorman." ”

I'll go!

I opened my mouth for a long time, until I saw Han Lin enter the yard through the window, I didn't come up with this breath, and there is such a person, as a doorman? Don't hold back your grievances!

In a blink of an eye, Xiao Liu's head poked in from the door frame, "Fourth sister, I heard ......"

I didn't want to look at his frowning face, so I pulled out a chair and sat directly next to the desk, my eyes looking at the crystal ball straight, "Get out of the way." ”

Xiao Liu didn't think it was a big deal, hehehe, he couldn't stop laughing, and walked up to me with a half-eaten apple in his hand, "Hey, the third brother-in-law." ”

I gave him a blank look, word by word, "Brother, house, well, get out." ”

Xiaoliu smiled and ate apples, but his eyes looked towards the courtyard from time to time, "I just said that this Da Lin brother is so dignified that he has to come back to visit some relatives, and the feelings of this family are in my Xue family, my fourth sister, the village flower, everyone wants to pinch it...... Oh oh oh, fourth sister, fourth sister ......"

I glared at him with a white face, "I'm not yin or yang, believe it or not, I'll strangle you first." ”

Xiao Liu's facial features are distorted, "I was wrong, I was wrong, don't I just want to see who can be my brother-in-law, I like the eldest brother-in-law the most, hey, it hurts, ......"

"Bao Si! Let's go! Han Lin said to go to the river to touch the fish!! ”

I let go of my hand viciously, looked at Pang and smiled, "Okay, let's go." ”

Pang looked at Xiao Liu's appearance with some doubts, "What's wrong with your brother, it hurts." ”

I snorted and grabbed Pang Bei's arm, "Don't worry about him, it's been hot lately, and he's had hemorrhoids." ”

"What, hemorrhoids? Your brother has hemorrhoids at such a young age. ”

Ignoring Xiao Liu's stare from behind, I pursed the corner of my mouth and pulled Pang Bian's hand and walked out, "He, it's a mixture of internal and external hemorrhoids, it's heavy." ”

……

Pang Pan stayed at my house for a week, during which several times I wanted to go to the mountains to see where I lived, but I refused, not that I was stingy and didn't tell her, but I didn't think there was anything to see, and besides, we played and made jokes together, and there were no taboos in jokes, and I was fine at home, but I didn't feel good at my uncle's house.

At first, Pang Pang was still very persistent, and I put forward a quid pro quo as soon as I had an idea, I said you tell me who the person you like is, and I will consider taking you up, but the sisters immediately ran out of power, and they no longer want to go to see it, this little secret, it is not ordinary to hide it from me.

When she left, she still had tears in her eyes, saying that she might have to help the family with business when she went to college and then on vacation, and she didn't have so much time to come to see me again, and she had to call often, I kept nodding my head, and I didn't want her to toss so much, the main thing is that we can all be good, it's better than anything else.

"Bao Si, you must come back quickly, when you come to Bincheng, we can say that we will meet when we meet."

I answered in my mouth, but I didn't know how long I would have to wait, and waved my hand until the bus she was sitting in was no longer visible, and then I followed her second aunt Xiaoliu to slowly walk in the direction of home along the dirt road in the village.

The sun was very big, but I felt a little lonely in my heart.

Comforting myself silently, life is like this, there is a reunion, there is a parting, it's not a big deal, and when we meet again, we will definitely become what we want.

Han Lin didn't go with Pang Pang, he stayed at my house for two days and then went to visit his aunt's house and his relatives in the neighboring village, and when he came back, Pang Pan had been back to Bincheng for several days, to be honest, he suddenly made a confession that day, which really embarrassed me.

But then he looked at me or got along with me as if nothing had happened, and it was natural.

As for me, I didn't give people a face or pull him aside to tell him that we are not suitable, I don't think it's necessary, sometimes, the more you say it's inappropriate, the more people don't give up, so I simply return to my true self, love whoever I want, if I always care about other people's ideas, I don't need to live.

Han Lin really spared no effort, he has been helping to work in my house for a few days, whether it is chopping firewood, or repairing the warehouse, anyway, he is not idle, the people in the village must be strange, what kind of work does this Han Lin do in my house, my second aunt directly blocked the mouth of Youyou with a sentence, what do you have to talk about, Xiaolinzi is my godson!!

I know the intentions of the second aunt, there are so many pairs of eyes in the village, who wouldn't be curious about why Han Lin is working so much for my family, but from the perspective of the second aunt, she can't stop Han Lin, and it's even more difficult to show face with others, so she came up with such a thing, mainly for me.

It's like she told me behind her back, she said that I'm still young and not good at making some gossip, and once someone misunderstands that Han Lin is my object, it will be troublesome.

At the end, the second aunt also looked like a person who came over and spoke, "Bao Si, I can see at a glance that Han Lin is interesting to you, but we can't play blindly with a good hand, Xiaolinzi is a good child, but it's still early to talk about those, I have to observe and observe, to Xiaoliu, I will leave when I see the benefits, people can take a fancy to him, I will burn high incense, you are different, the girl must be cautious when looking for others, this matter, I can't be in a hurry." ”

I held the corners of my mouth, just listened, I didn't want to say, I was really grateful to my second aunt.

Until Han Lin left, the second aunt was a godson, and whatever delicious food at home came to Han Lin, which made him very embarrassed, and when he got in the car, he looked at me and smiled softly, "Baosi, take care of yourself." ”

The second aunt put her arm around my shoulders and looked at him with a big grin, "What does Bao Si have to worry about in her own family, her second uncle protects her like protecting her eyes, but you have to take care of yourself, study hard, and come back often to see if you have nothing to do." ”

"Hey, okay."

Han Lin has always been a little flattered by the 'love' of the second aunt, he is not too embarrassed to call that Mingyue's godmother, listening to her words, he just nodded in response, until the car drove far away, he still stuck his head out of the window to watch me wave, I shook my hand perfunctorily, and exhaled in my heart, God, there are really a lot of people with a tendon,

Xiaoliu pinched his throat and waved his hand, "Third brother-in-law~ Have a good trip~~"

The voice was thin and small, but Na Mingyue still heard it, "Third brother-in-law, who is your third sister." ”

Xiaoliu sighed for a while, looked at the bus that turned out of sight and sighed, "Oh, Mom, you don't understand, it's not easy for my third brother-in-law, it's the other me......"

That Mingyue frowned and looked at me, "Bao Si, what is he talking about, how do I think this kid is getting more and more lacking." ”

I can only be helpless, my hands really hurt when I pinched him.

……

Pang Pang's arrival brought me a hint of surprise, but the days were still my own days, and nothing changed.

I'm like a devout practitioner who does the same thing every day.

Occasionally, I will be a little interested, fold a wooden stick and draw a big gossip map in the yard, point the sand cloth array, and enjoy myself.

Xiaoliu will come to stay with me for a few days every month, according to my requirements to bring some rice noodles and the latest news and current affairs, I know that this life will be a little slower, but I try not to be out of touch with the times, no way, my uncle's book can't be finished, I won't go down the mountain.

After a long time, Xiaoliu couldn't wait for me to find a job in the town, network administrator, he licked his face and told me that it was the IT industry, in my opinion, it was completely to satisfy his own selfish desire to play games.

Mom still only came back during the Chinese New Year and stayed in a hurry for two days, not getting along for a long time, and it was inevitable that she would be strange when she met again, she knew that I was in the mountains to read a book, and the opening remarks gradually became, Bao Si, how did the book read.

I'm almost done.

She said, your grandmother must be relieved that you are like this, it is not easy.

I don't know what to say, I was cold for a long time, until my second aunt came to collect it, year after year, until I was numb.

…… When I groped for the last book on the shelf, I didn't have the sense of surprise I had at first, so I calmly continued to read it.

It's been a few years.

I couldn't remember for a while, until I remembered the phone call with Pang Bi when I went down the mountain last month, she complained to me that the work of the magazine was too boring, the sales were not good, and the leaders made fun of her every day, and she had decided to become a freelance writer.

"Bao Si, you don't know, my parents have been urging me to go home, but I don't want to, while there is no shortage of money to spend, I will be in the mix for two years, when will you come back, come to me, my father bought me a very big house, I live alone and suffocate to death......"

She's graduated from junior college in three years, and that's, oh, four years.

Yes, it's been four years, Han Lin has passed the recruitment examination to become a police officer, he also came back for this last year, invited us to dinner to celebrate, once the iconic greenness on his face has completely faded, his skin has become wheat-colored, he raised a glass to the bright moon generously, and said to her with a smile, godmother, thank you for not treating me as an outsider, godson toasts you.

I got along with him naturally, and it seemed like we had both forgotten about what he had confessed to me.

The long time seemed to polish my mind, and I felt that I should become indifferent, but it was like nothing had changed.

I was in a trance, I felt like I was still living yesterday, living in that unusually cold winter, cleaning the house, burning the fire and chopping wood, I was still me, laughing, making trouble, but I was no longer nineteen years old.

I didn't tell Xiaoliu that I had finished reading the book, and when he came, I asked him to repair my old and faulty second-hand notebook as usual, and I was really at a loss, and I was always looking forward to going out of the mountain, but when it came to this time, I didn't know what to do.

The people in the village didn't believe me very much, and I stayed here for four years without receiving a single job from the villagers.

Li Ermao's father did help me promote it in the village at first, but the response was mediocre.

I've heard some ugly words, it's nothing more than that I'm just a fledgling yellow-haired girl, and my grandma has the ability to do it, it's also my grandma's business, and I haven't arranged a hall for anyone, looking for me doesn't mean that I want to practice, and there is no one else in the village, so I can't bet on me.

The second aunt got angry after hearing this, and competed with the people in the village, saying that the prestige of the black mother is still there, what is a bet, it is not necessarily great to see too much, Bao Si has real skills!

The people in the village scoffed, "What kind of ability, if I have an ancestor who leads the hall, I can also take over the hall, if you want me to say, this black mother's hall might as well be taken over by Xu Banxian back then, at least it can be carried forward, what is this Bao Si doing, she is on the mountain every day, she shows some skills for us to see!" ”

This can be regarded as the atmosphere of our village all along, Baishan Village, there is really no shortage of fiddling things.

In the past few years, the most popular thing is that Xu Banxian'er, you can find her if there is a big matter, she has earned the money since there are no taboos, and the family has now pulled up a two-story small building, look for her, the opening is eight hundred bottoms, and the difficulty will be increased halfway.

The second aunt scolded her behind her back, saying that the people in her village were looking for her to look for a beam for 800, which was really in the eyes of money.

But the second aunt didn't dare to say deeply, knowing that I was listening to it, she didn't worry about my affairs, who in the village wanted to build a house and move the grave or something, she was allowed to help me Mao Sui recommend herself, saying that looking for me, free to count the hour, the host is okay, but unfortunately I was slapped in the face every time.

Those who are not bad for money are willing to go to Xu Banxian'er, and if they are poor, they are willing to go to Grandpa Chen or Grandpa Li, anyway, no matter how much you pull it, you can't find me here, there is no shortage in the village.

I don't care, I've heard ugly words since I was a child, and I have to get used to it.

Occasionally, I have met Xu Banxian'er when I go down the mountain a few times, wearing gold and silver sitting in a car, and when I saw that I deliberately asked the driver to slow down and lower the window to greet me, "Isn't this Baosi, where are you going, do you want me to take you for a while." ”

I smirked at her, "No need Grandma Xu, you're going out to show people." ”

She waved her hand with a big gold ring a little tiredly, "I'm busy, I haven't been idle for a day, and the lord is lining up to send a car to pick me up......

Let's talk about her and she is quite emotional, "You said that your grandmother couldn't think about it back then, and she had to pass on the black mother to you, isn't it difficult for you, how can you invite immortals if the yin and yang are uneven, alas, if this black mother had given me back then, I don't know how many soldiers and horses I overcharged, where would I be aggrieved with you......"

I smiled very flatteringly and leaned in front of her face, "Grandma Xu, you have a lot of money, don't you have to pay tens of thousands of dollars a month." ”

She raised her eyebrows and snorted, "What's the matter, your eyes are red?" ”

I smiled hesitantly, and my voice was very low, "It's not that my eyes are red, it's that I heard that if the disciples of the horse use the old fairy to earn money, and they will not be able to be human beings for the rest of their lives......"

I deliberately exhaled and blew on her face and said, looking at Xu Pozi's face changed, her eyes were frightened, and she viciously ripped me out of the car and said bad luck and went to the car window.

I stood there and hooked my lips and sneered, am I unlucky?

It is taboo for Banxian to make money by going out of the horse, if I let it go, within three years, I will be able to see the retribution of your Xu Pozi.