The most terrible thing in this world is the passage of time, watching myself grow old day by day, watching my beloved become worldly day by day, and watching the once beautiful girls become bloated one by one.

Regret that time is wasted, the four seasons are reincarnated, and the fantasy of life is against the current.

However, this year's holiday should be meaningful, because it leaves something tangible to touch.

My first novel, the first time I wrote a book online, felt very rewarding.

Counting the part that was deleted before in three months, it adds up to almost 50w words, which can be regarded as a small "achievement" that can be used for self-intoxication.

When I was in elementary school, my teacher would ask every student, "What is your ideal?" I said categorically, I wanted to be a writer. At that time, there were scientists, teachers, and officials, but I was the only one in the entire class of writers. The teacher said to me kindly. "Yes! If you have an ideal, you have to work hard and study hard. "But it always backfired, and I didn't seem to have worked hard for my childish ideals, but rather drifted away from them.

So much so that in the end, when I started to choose a major in college, I didn't even think about becoming a writer for a second, I took the initiative to choose a major that couldn't compete with literature, just because this major was more sought-after at that time, and the salary was high after graduation. That's when I realized that dreams are so cheap, and 90% of dreams are really just talking.

Last year, I chatted with my grandfather, who is a simple people's teacher, a Chinese teacher to be precise. I inadvertently mentioned my unrealistic thoughts, laughing at myself for being really ignorant when I was a child. But my grandfather said to me. "You take ideals too seriously, do you know what it means to be a writer? The children of your time live and work in peace and contentment, and it is impossible for such an environment to produce writers. And at your current age, you don't have time to supplement those accumulations, and it's unrealistic to want to be a writer again. But it's not right for you to come all of a sudden, and it's not right to never write anything again, and if you can't achieve your ideals, you can cultivate it as a hobby, if you really like it, why can't you use it as a kind of leisure and relaxation? It's better than playing games and surfing the Internet. ”

Maybe the older generation saw a writer as different from what we define as a writer now, but that doesn't seem to matter anymore, and I don't expect to be a writer anymore. But grandpa said that he loved this thing, but it made me think for a long time, yes, why can't I write something in my spare time? After all, I used to love this thing so much.

So I wrote this novel at the beginning of this holiday season.

I haven't written for too long, and I already feel that my thinking has become slow, and I need to think for a long time when I used to be able to write a sentence smoothly. I know there are so many problems with this novel, and there are places where I wrote it a day ago and read it a day later and find it childish and ridiculous.

Although it was clumsy, the process was very enjoyable, I didn't feel this kind of addiction for a long time, and I found it back at the starting point in these three months. Listening to the rhythmic sound of the keyboard, it seems that for a moment I am a performer in this vast world, a symphony of the player's life.

And at the starting point, I also gained a lot of things other than writing, I have seen a lot of wonderful works, in the online literature factory-style model, there will still be those brilliant works, which is really admirable. I also know a lot of writers with dreams, they have their own jobs all over the world, but they are still working hard for their dreams about literature, and I also know a lot of excellent single masters who take book promotion as their mission day after day, and reading books has long become the most gorgeous part of their lives.

These are more meaningful than the meager remuneration.

There is always more positive energy than negative energy in this world.

Okay, with all that going out of the way, let's get back to business, my book is on the shelves this week. I'm going to polish the book again before the end of the week.

If you have spare time, help me rush the first order when the time comes.

In the future, I will finish this book anyway, because it is a hobby, not a job. You can be lazy at work, but you don't have to be sorry for your hobbies.