Chapter 265: Jun is gone

In the dim tent, only a ghostly lamp flickered there.

I walked forward slowly, tremblingly stretched out my hand to turn on the wick, Dong'er, who was napping on the table, saw that it was me, startled, and was about to shout, I quickly covered her mouth: "Go down!" I've worked hard for you these days. ”

Dong'er retreated, and thoughtfully covered the door of the tent, and then I sat quietly on the edge of his bed, and began to look at him carefully by the light.

Fourteenth elder brother, I still think that our encounter was a mistake from beginning to end - destined to have no ending of love, destined to be able to look at each other quietly in the dark like this, destined to never be able to say the feelings of the two of us for the rest of our lives......

But now look at your pale face, look at your bloodless lips, look at you frowning—I know it's definitely not because of fear of your own injury. All of this made me realize that I would never be able to refuse this mistake, even if, because of you, I would die soon......

Never resentful of our encounter—even that year, you jumped into the lake without hesitation, just because you owed it to my sister. But you are really in love with me now, so much so that I love like Brother Seventeen had to give Chenxi an explanation, and I also had to stay by your side until you woke up......

"Yinli ......" I turned my head and looked at the seventeenth elder brother who was trying to escape, and I could feel his hand holding me trembling slightly - he was afraid, to be precise, he had been scared, and he had always known the existence of the fourteenth elder brother since he fell in love with me: "Look at me, look at my eyes, I have to look into your eyes to say this sentence." ”

The bleak night reminded me of the despair I had when I wielded a knife to kill myself. I met his eyes, and let him see the love in my eyes, the desperate, the fiery obsession that could almost destroy him and my own—our eyes were entangled in this miserable night—this love that was forever in the mirror, forever looking far away, never being able to fulfill one's wishes......

"Yinli, go back!" closed his eyes and shut all his feelings and grievances out of his heart, "If I go back with you, Dawn will not be able to stand it, and now I can't leave this situation!" "I'm just a woman, a very small woman, why do I have to choose to be a great person every time?

I don't want to care if Chenxi is crippled or not, I don't want to know what happened to the fourteenth elder brother! But I know, I'm already in it, what can I do!

"Don't talk to me about Dawn again!" His jaw was pinched, and Seventeen Elder Brother's face was terrifyingly pale, and the pain was that I had to look into his eyes again.

Just one glance, the pain in his eyes made me unbearable to look at it anymore - this was the first time he had been rough with me, he used to be gentle no matter what I did, but now I have no anger in my heart - is it because of his sadness that I can't care about?

"Qiyun, I've been coming here from the capital non-stop, I don't want you to sympathize with me, I just want to say that I've already figured it out, and I can ignore anything except you." The hand that pinched my chin was trembling, but he insisted on not lightening his strength: "But why, you choose to run away from your own feelings? Is it because I'm not good enough? So you're cowardly, what the hell are you worried about? ”

I must not tell you my worries - Seventeenth Elder Brother, can I tell you now that I am calculating your Emperor Ama? Can I tell you that only one of us will survive in the end? Can I tell you, whether it's possible or not, I'm going to fight for myself, even if he's the greatest emperor in history, I'm going to try to move him?

"Seventeen, please respect my decision and go back." Ignoring the pain of my jaw that was almost dislocated, I turned my head violently - because I couldn't say the next sentence, facing him: "Brother Fourteen became like this to save me, Brother Seventeen, you can not take Dawn to heart, but I must not be so ungrateful!" ”

No, if we could really be together, I'd be willing to give it all up. However, even if I give up everything, we still can't be together, unless ......

Unless Kangxi dies - this is simply an impossible task for me, and I kill your own father, how should I face you, and how should I continue to be happy with you?

"Qiyun, do you really think it's an act of ingratitude for me to do this?" Even if I didn't face him, I could still feel the shock, the pain......

Brother Seventeen, I think that's ungrateful, but I hope you can forget it once for me......

"Yes."

"I understand, I'll go back and be a good person in your heart."

……

Fourteenth elder brother, I stared at the handsome and even pale face: "You know what? I just lied to someone, I deceived the person I love most in this life. And you, the person who loves me so much in this world, I actually use you as an excuse - you say, am I a very bad woman? ”

"Fourteenth elder brother, I keep saying that I am doing everything for him, but in fact, I am lying, I am timid, you know? I've been proud all my life, but I'm really timid now. I wasn't afraid when I killed the wolf king, but I'm really scared now! "The enemy I faced was terrible, I had little chance of winning, and I didn't want to face a doomed end......

"Hehe, you must be laughing at me in your heart, right? Laugh at me for only daring to say these things to you when you are unconscious, and laugh at me for using you as an excuse to hide from you when things are about to happen......"

With a light hand brushing the messy hair on his forehead behind his ear, I looked at him like this—there had always been swords and swords between us, conspiracy and traps, and it was difficult to be at peace with each other. And now, the bleak future, the fate that cannot be parted, but we need to solve it in this calm way.

"Fourteenth elder brother, I'm actually not suitable here, I'm getting weaker and weaker, when I see Seventeen's eyes today, I almost ......" to dispel his determination to attack his father and Kangxi - it was not my wish to travel to the Qing Dynasty, in order to survive I became Dorogge, and I was caught up in this turmoil. I once thought that I wanted to be ruthless and resolute without worry, but God did not follow people's wishes.

I was alone, and I was born as a daughter......

"Qiyun!" In the firelight, the door of the tent was opened, and Brother Seventeen suddenly stood in front of me—his face full of stubble, his blood-red eyes, his dirty and tattered clothes, so haggard, and indeed so real......

Blood-red eyes, like a fire, looked at me, and my whole being seemed to be burned to ashes...... is so persistent, that even after the vicissitudes of life, it seems to be a deep affection that will not change, just looking at me like that, as if with just one glance, you can be desolate......

"Seventeen ......" I don't want you to be sad - tears are dripping, drop by drop on the hands of the fourteenth elder brother......

If you saw my sadness now, would you feel better?

If you knew that you weren't the only one suffering, would you hurt less?

It's a pity that you can't see it, it's a pity that I can't tell you, but it's a pity that the real thoughts are often never known......

You don't see, on the back of the purple and red, there are too many smiles with tears and blood. The heart is tacit, pierced into the heart from the eyes, There is too deep and too deep to look at the love through the autumn water. Every day when it's dark and dawning,

Every moment when the heart rises and the heart dies. You don't see, the love of the Forbidden City inside and outside the red wall. Swords and swords divide destined people on both sides of the world. Unspoken, who subverts the fickle oath. After the fight, I miss the beautiful and flashy face.

You don't see, the top of the Forbidden City inside and outside the red wall. Swords and swords divide destined people on both sides of the world. Unspoken, who subverts the fickle oath. After the fight, I miss the beautiful and flashy face.