Chapter 142: Desperate Situation

"Congratulations to the future Seventeen Fujin!"

"Thank you!" I forced myself to pull out a smile.

All the way back, the road was full of people who were busy congratulating me and scolding me—I wonder what I deserve to congratulate them about being like this?

A child who is only fourteen years old, is the way I look happy in their eyes? Or are they collectively laughing at me in this way – laughing at me for all the effort I have taken to do my best or if I can only go this way?

"Qiyun, congratulations!" When the guest saw me coming back, he saluted me and congratulated me on my arrival.

"Ke'er, I can pretend that I didn't hear what others said, I can still smile, but you ......" I looked at her sadly: "My good sister, do you really think I have anything to congratulate?" ”

"Qiyun—"

"If you tell me to mourn, then I'll accept it!"

"Qiyun, do you want to open up, how many palace people like us don't want to die in the palace and can't get out for the rest of their lives?" Ke'er grabbed me who wanted to walk away: "But you have a chance to go out - yes, I know that Brother Seventeen is a little younger, but what he says to you, I think you should know better than us!" ”

Ke'er saw that I was shocked, and continued to persuade: "That day, when he heard that you were taken away by the prince, his anxious look even moved us when we saw it, are you unconscious?" ”

"But-" This is not love, I have always thought that the seventeenth elder brother is a little brother!

"What's so good! In this Forbidden City, isn't the marriage match of Brother and Gege decided by the emperor in one bite? Who can get their wish and have a lover to become a family member? ”

My sister is, I am, and so will our children and grandchildren......

"You're already very good, you're a good fortune, even if - even if you fall out of favor in the future, you still have this position!" Ke'er hugged me, who was said to be the six gods and no masters: "My poor Qiyun, I have always seen your affairs, but things are often unsatisfactory in the world, even if you really marry the fourteenth elder brother?" Can you guarantee that in a few years, there will not be another Qiyun, and there really will not be another one younger and more infatuated than you to take your place in the heart of the Fourteenth Elder Brother? ”

Yes, I can snatch the fourteenth elder brother from the fourteenth Fujin, the fourteenth is still so young, will history repeat itself in the future? "No, the fourteenth elder brother won't be so kind to me...... "Impossible, we have faced life and death together, he said that he will never leave me, there will be no day, no!"

"Qiyun, in fact, are you not so sure yourself?"

I remembered the scene when I was standing alone in Shufangzhai - Fourteen should have been in his Fujin room at that time, right? What are they doing? I can't even bear this time, if I really marry the fourteenth elder brother, how many nights will I have to endure like this?

"Qiyun, I just want you to understand that in this kind of world, with our identity, it may not be happy to be able to marry the love of our own people, think about the situation of that Beatitude! She married the eighth elder brother as she wished, but look at her, is she happy? ”

Is Guo Luo Luo happy? She has spent her whole life competing with other women for the favor of the eighth elder brother, is she happy? Am I going to be as crazy as she is, and become too much for me to accept myself? "I don't want to be her, I love him again, I'd rather look at him from afar, and I don't want to be like Guo Luoluo!"

"That's right, although you don't love Brother Seventeen, I can see that you feel very sorry for him......"

I was guilty......

"That's good, you care about him, but you don't feel sad for him; He will also be good to you for the rest of his life! ”

Is it true that "Ke'er ......"? Is this a type of happiness? Is it really happier to marry someone you don't love than to be with someone you love?

"Don't be too greedy, there is nothing perfect in this world! Qiyun, let go of the fourteenth elder brother, it is impossible for you to do this, you also know, this can be regarded as letting yourself go! ”

"I've resigned myself to my fate, I'm just ......" sentimental, and I was married off like this.

"Qiyun, my poor Qiyun!"

"I'm not pitiful—I'm not pitiful compared to the thousands of poor women in the Forbidden City!" I hugged the guest with my backhand - isn't the guest pitiful? Isn't the young lady pitiful? We are all women who can't help ourselves, and what do I have to complain about to them: "Maybe you're right, I just want too much, that's why I become pitiful, and I make myself pitiful!" ”

I want to no longer be controlled by others, I want to realize my ambitions, I want to compete with others, I want to say no to fate...... I've fought, I've fought, my hands are bloody, and I've been thorny all the way, and I'm still fantasizing about love at this moment when I'm surrounded by strong enemies - I should have known that love has long been out of the way for me......

My love has already been ruined by my own hands! "He" said it well back then - a woman like me doesn't know love, she doesn't deserve to talk about love, and she doesn't deserve love!

"Qiyun Gege, the Ninth Master is invited!"

Brother Jiu, I already knew that you would come to me-I'm sorry, the emperor pointed me out to Brother Seventeen, I have nothing to use in the future! You're going to be jumping in anger right now, aren't you? Hmph, then I can't help it, you have the ability to let your emperor Ama take back his will?

Or did you decide to destroy me with your own hands?

If that's the case, please do it as soon as possible - the battle in this world really makes me so tired and tired, if you really want to kill me, please do it before I get married! Please do well, don't let me just watch me marry a little child, what ridiculous seventeen blessings......

"Please lead the way!"

Brother Nine dared to come to me openly, which means that he is no longer afraid to expose the relationship between the two of us in public - he has really decided to give up on me, for a useless chess piece, I don't know what that poisonous snake will do with me?

"Brother Nine is auspicious!" I looked up at the palace walls and gates of Yanxi Palace, and I laughed in my heart - you don't need to do it so badly, do you? Actually received me directly at your mother's place, do you really want to put me to death to be so bold as to be so bold?

"Get up, future seventeen brothers and sisters." Brother Jiu helped me up without smiling, and shouted to the little palace maid beside him: "Don't go to serve tea yet!" ”

Serving tea? Hehe, I've met Brother Jiu so many times, and it's the first time I've enjoyed such a courtesy! There must be something wrong with this tea, right? So this poisonous snake will be a little polite to me for the sake of my death? This respect of mine is really hard to come by!

"Gege, please use tea!" The little palace maid knelt on one knee, bent her knees and waited for me to pick her up.

To pick up or not to answer?

I looked at the little palace maid holding the tea and looked at me in fear - I'm afraid she also knew that there was something wrong with this cup of tea, right? Poor boy, don't be afraid of me, I won't hurt you! However, Brother Jiu, if I really die in this Yanxi Palace today, you will be the first to be killed!

"Please use tea!"

It's a pity I can't save you - no matter how much I don't want to die, I can't drink this cup of tea.

If I don't drink it, Brother Jiu will definitely shake out all the unspeakable things I did back then; If I don't drink it, I will be ruined and blamed by thousands of people!

I'm not afraid of what others will think of me, but I'm afraid of what the fourteenth elder brother will think of me! Would he regret letting him know that his loved ones were like this? Would he be willing to never see me?

Fourteenth Elder Brother, I'd rather you think that I was going to commit suicide in martyrdom - even if this is exactly what Ninth Elder Brother wants, even if it will completely cheapen him!

"Gege ......"

"Qiyun Gege, you're a smart person, I don't think you're going to embarrass me or embarrass yourself, right?"

You say it like this, is it possible for me to refuse? "Brother Xie Jiu gives tea!"

"Well, after all, we are masters and servants."

"Yes, then please ask Brother Jiu to help you a lot in Qiyun, let me retire first!"

Even if Brother Jiu wants to poison me, he won't dare to use strong poison, and he will definitely use chronic poison that even the imperial doctor can't see - so that even if I die, I won't be able to find out on his head.

I can't die for the time being, I can go and fulfill my last wish—I want to know, why didn't Brother Fourteen want to see me that night, he could have saved me, why didn't he see me?

It turns out that it wasn't until this moment that I didn't know that what I couldn't let go of in my heart, no matter how hard you tried, I couldn't let go of it after all......