Chapter 199: I can't help myself

"Qian Leyu, you are not stupid at all, at least you know how to love." I looked at the fire in front of me and said faintly, "You're done, so please listen to me tell a story!" ”

"Oh." She carefully peeled off the burnt skin of the toad's exterior and handed it to me when it was ready.

"My current name is Niu Co Lu. Qiyun is the stepdaughter of Lord Alinga. I narrated numbly, as if what I was talking about was someone else's story: "But in fact, I have a real identity, I am the evil seed born of the affair between the Yangzhou businessman Jia Wang and the Qinglou prostitute Liu Xueyan......"

"Huh?" The silly eldest sister covered her mouth, and her originally adoring eyes became surprised.

"Yes, that's it, my original background is much lower than yours." I closed my eyes and thought back to the unbearable past I had just crossed over: "Look at my ......"

I rolled up my sleeves and asked her to take a look at the scars that Mrs. Wang left on Liu Yun's body back then: "Not only that, Mrs. Wang also framed me for stealing things from the house, and bribed the county officials to beat me to death!" ”

"Ahh The silly eldest sister exclaimed again, her eyes full of sympathy.

I closed my eyes, I didn't want to look at her like this - I Zhang Xiaoying didn't need sympathy, I have suffered it all on my own to this day, and when you listen to what I am going to say next, you will no longer sympathize with me: "I am unwilling, so I pretended to be someone else's child, I was afraid of being exposed, so I killed the Wang family, and I have been tearing down the east wall and making up the west wall for this lie - because of it, I am subject to others and become someone else's pawn; Because of this lie, I was drawn into a larger conspiracy, almost step by step......"

"Xiaoying, are you in pain?" The stupid eldest sister suddenly interjected.

"Huh?" I was caught up in painful memories of the past, and I didn't react for a moment.

"You're going to be miserable, it's proving that you're not willing to do it, you're not willing to do it, you're still a good person." Big Sister Silly summed up my words.

"No, you don't understand." The more she said this, the more despicable I felt: "Do you know what happened that day? You don't know that I told you that I personally drugged the fourth elder brother's wine that day, and it was I who led him out that it hurt you...... It's me, you're like this because of me! ”

"What do you say? I don't understand? The stupid big sister's eyes began to wander - the stimulation of what I said was so great that she would think she had misheard.

"I said, 'I'm the one who made you like this.'" I didn't dare to look at her face, so I had to look up at the bright moon on the top of the broken temple: "The chasing soldiers will arrive immediately, I can stop for a while, you go quickly, I don't deserve you to stay and accompany me to die." ”

"You-" The silly elder sister pointed at me, not knowing whether to believe that I was trying to save her and lying to her, or if I was telling the truth.

Seeing that she still refused to leave, I had to throw another bombshell: "Your daddy is not gone, he has left you forever, and the murderer of him is none other than my current sister...... "Let's go, let's go!" With your longing for love, with your innocence, leave this filthy place, leave such a filthy me.

"Xiaoying, what you said is true?" The silly eldest sister also found in my eyes that what I said didn't seem to be a lie, but she had always been kind and innocent, and she really couldn't imagine that someone would ruin her family's family because of a small purpose: "Xiaoying, I hate you, I treat you as your only friend, how can this be?" I hate you! I hate you! The stupid eldest sister left the broken temple without looking back.

Hate, hate! I sat on my knees, my hands on the ground, and the wound on my wrist began to bleed again—there was little medical care here, and I was already on the verge of death by having lost so much blood.

Silly sister, do you know why I don't hide anything from you and tell you everything about me? For after tonight it is no longer important to me, what is important—that I can finally do a good deed before I die; I can tell everything about me without reservation; It is possible to repent in the presence of an angel......

I've always been afraid of death, I've done too many wrong things to save this life, and now, I can finally stop pitying my life......

"Xiaoying ......" When I felt dizzy and even my ears began to ring, I seemed to hear the voice of the silly eldest sister.

"Let's go! What are you doing back? I don't need you to be pitiful! "I, Zhang Xiaoying, am proud all my life, and I would rather die than the sympathy of others!

"Xiaoying, tell me honestly, what you do, does the fourth elder brother know?" The silly eldest sister said timidly.

"What? Do you want to file a lawsuit, do you want to ask for credit? I tried to condense my gaze, but my eyes were still blurry: "You don't have to waste your efforts, the fourth elder brother already knows." You better find a place where no one knows you, live a good life, and raise your children well! "You can't go back, you don't know the fourth child, he could let you go with a little compassion back then, and now you go, just to die.

I finally saved you, you can't die, let alone die at the hands of the people you love - you can't die so sadly, don't be a guest, don't ......

"Does he really know?" I felt a pair of strong hands lift me up from the ground: "Xiaoying, you have to cheer up, let's go together, you can't die, I won't let you die!" ”

"You're crazy, so we can't leave!" I want to glare at her—silly girl, am I worth saving me?" Do you really think of yourself as a bodhisattva? But my eyes had already lost focus, and I could only persuade weakly: "Don't you want your child?" That's his flesh and blood! ”

"I know." Seeing that I didn't cooperate at all, the stupid eldest sister was also anxious to cry: "But you can't die, he doesn't want to blame you when he knows, he must love you very much, right?" Love more than love this child, love much more, you can't die! If you die because of me, he'll hate me! He loves you so much, you must not be a bad person, I want to save you, I must save you! ”

"Qian Leyu?" Why did I meet you when I wanted to leave this world? Such a simple and strong love moves the world! "You don't hate me for hurting him?"

"He doesn't hate, I don't hate." The stupid eldest sister leaned down in front of me: "Don't talk nonsense anymore, I'll carry you away." ”

"Wait—wait a minute." I unbuttoned my shirt, tore off a piece of white fabric, spread it on the ground, and then untied the wounded cloth on my wrist, and carefully wrote with my other uninjured hand stained with my own blood.

"Qian Leyu, don't you want to see what your name looks like? Come! I beckoned to her, my eyes that couldn't find focus looked in the wrong direction, and my hand pointed in the void: "Money-music-language——, do you see?" ”

"I originally wanted to give you a beautiful pair after I practiced calligraphy, but it seemed to ......, "Why did we finally make a true friend, and our situation is so embarrassing, so helpless?" I'm afraid I won't have a chance to write it to you again in the future......"

"Xiaoying...... No, we'll get out! "The silly eldest sister was also infected by my sad emotions, but she did not forget to encourage me.

"Heh......" I sneered: "Qian Leyu, you don't understand me, you don't understand!" Do you know? If you fall into the hands of those people, you won't die, because they want the baby in your womb—but if you take me with you, if you can't escape, you'll definitely die!" ”

Because, for the sake of my sister, I will never allow you to fall into the hands of Sifujin. I'll kill you if I have to!

In order not to let things happen like this, in order to give you more life, I have chosen to give up on myself and choose to be one step ahead of you.

But why did you run back? And to send to death, why?

"Xiaoying? Are you going to kill me after all? The silly eldest sister paused my back and turned around and asked.

"If the situation is necessary, please forgive me for not being able to help myself......" I have resisted a hundred times, but I still have to walk on this path, but I still have to constantly challenge my conscience, why? Is this the kind of purgatory on earth that makes people involuntarily?

"Xiaoying, I still don't regret saving you, but can you help me keep my child? Please send him to his father, and I will die willingly......" The silly eldest sister thought about it and resolutely left the ruined temple with me on her back.

Children, it's all because of the child, this damn child, how many more people will be willing to die?

"Promise me, for the sake of friends, promise me!"

"I promise you." As long as there is a glimmer of hope, this child will definitely be kept from dying.