Chapter 159: The Promise

Chinese New Year's Eve of the forty-ninth year of Kangxi

At the snap of my fingers, it's been almost three years since I've been here in the Qing Dynasty – I remember back in those days, we would get together for a family dinner during the Chinese New Year, and there would be a New Year's party on TV, and then at twelve o'clock, I would take my cousins out for fireworks.

Looking back now, it's so far away! Those happy memories are getting farther and farther away from me, so far away that I almost have the illusion that I was born in the Qing Dynasty - if I can really treat the past as a dream, and really abandon the ideas that I have been indoctrinated in the 21st century, then will I live a little happier?

However, I have nothing, and if I give up even the last bit of perseverance, will I still be me?

"Qiyun, Qiyun, can I set off fireworks for you?" Brother Seventeen sensitively noticed that I was starting to wander again, so he had to find a way to divert my attention.

"yes, okay." I came back to my senses and looked at the seventeenth elder brother who was playing with the little eunuch in the courtyard outside—after all, he was still a child, what a playful man! It would be nice if she had such a good nature as him, but unfortunately, the court, the palace, the ninth elder brother, and the elder sister, she really can't save that heart!

"Qiyun, this is dangerous, you play that!" Brother Seventeen smiled and handed a firework to my hand, "Be careful, don't face yourself, it's not good if it burns!" ”

Seventeenth brother, do you also treat me as a child? How could I even play a firework that others have to worry about? "What's so fun about this?" I looked at the little fireworks in my hand – the kind of stuff I didn't seem to play with since I was in school. I can't figure out what is there to be excited about with such a small thing.

"It's fun, it's the most fun!" Brother Seventeen stared at my face for a long time before he said, "I like to play the most, especially watching you play - Qiyun, do you know?" This fireworks shine on your face, it's really beautiful and beautiful! ”

"......" I blushed for the first time in front of the seventeenth elder brother - this dead child, who doesn't know how to beat around the bush at all, actually praised me like this in front of so many maids and slaves.

I was so embarrassed that I didn't know what to say. Brother Seventeen is my husband, I can't beat or scold, and I can't refute his face in front of so many minions - but if I want to flirt with a little boy in front of so many people, even if I, Zhang Xiaoying, have been extremely thick-skinned since I was a child, I still can't do it.

I thought about it for a long time, and finally sighed at the fireworks that were about to go out, and said, "No matter how beautiful it is, it will be gone again in just a moment, it is better to never exist!" "I don't like the beauty of the unreal – I can't control what is too dreamy, what is too empty for me to pursue, and if I had to choose, I'd rather choose what I can grasp if I try my best.

It's like me and him - I've looked at it, I've tried, I've abandoned almost everything, I've abandoned even the last bit of my faith for him, and what happened? It's still fruitless, it's still an illusion, that's what happens to my love of dreaming - I'll remember it, and then never dream again for the rest of my life!

"How come it didn't exist? You've all seen it just now, huh? Everyone was happy just now, huh? Even if it's gone, will there still be a memory? The seventeenth elder brother lit a firework again and raised it to illuminate my face: "It won't disappear, I will remember it for the rest of my life!" Qiyun, it's nothing if it's gone, I'll always order it for you, knowing that you're tired of it, you don't need it anymore - I'm not afraid of nothing in the end, I'm enough to have this moment! ”

"That's what you really think?" I looked at the boy in front of me, who was about to turn fifteen—is there really anyone in this world who does not pursue results at all? In this way, guarding a person who wants to live a life?

"Qiyun, I won't tell you this answer now!" Fifteen-year-old Xiao Xiaoxiao stroked my shoulder: "Later, you will naturally know." "He will use my whole life to prove his promise today, and time to tell everything......

"Why?" Is it because you're not sure yourself?

I know I'm being selfish to ask like this, and what right do I have to ask for Brother Seventeen's promise—I owe him enough, and he doesn't feel sorry for me in the slightest. However, I am at a loss now, everything about me is forged by intrigue - my identity, my status, my love...... I don't even have a real thing in my life until now!

And now, Brother Seventeen, he may become the only possible real existence in my life - without any deception, no interests, no calculations, he is the one who is likely to be really willing to serve me for the rest of his life! Why don't I hold on to him, trap him, and let him stay with me forever through the loneliness of this life?

"A lot of things don't need to be explained in words."

"Yinli!" I suddenly pounced, and in a panic, Brother Seventeen hurriedly threw away the fireworks in his hand to prevent me from burning me.

"Qiyun, what are you doing here?" The seventeenth elder brother was a little slow to react to the situation of being suddenly hugged by me like an octopus, and it took a long time to remember to give his subordinates a look, so as not to let them see the master's joke: "Qiyun, are you taking revenge on me for lying to you last time?" So, you're going to strangle me? ”

"Yinli!"

"Qiyun?" Brother Seventeen found that I didn't respond to his call, "Forget it, if you want to strangle, just strangle!" "Brother Seventeen gave up the struggle and hugged me with his backhand instead.

"Yinli, promise me, don't leave me no matter what!" I hugged him tightly, like the last driftwood in my life, like he was the sustenance of my whole life: "Promise me, even if you hate me in the future, even if I do something you can't forgive, even if I want to be the enemy of the whole world...... Promise me that you will definitely be by my side, promise me! ”

"Why are you?" Seventeenth elder brother held my hand harder and harder: "Do you want to say that?" ”

"Promise me, don't ask, just promise me, please!" I know it's selfish and shameless to do so, but I can't control myself - I've chosen this path, and my future will be bloody. I don't regret it, but I'm also afraid of loneliness - Brother Seventeen, I know I shouldn't have dragged you into the water, but I can't help it, the way you look at me tonight tempted me......

"Promise me, promise me not to leave me!" My tears dripped down and stayed on the new clothes that Seventeen Elder Brother had changed today: "If you really hate me in the future, kill me!" I only beg you not to leave me until the last moment of my death, will you agree? ”

Sometimes, even I will be disgusted with myself, and I believe that I will be even more disgusting in the future, right? If I really deserve to die, then please let me die at your hands! In this way, at least I will die willingly - I Zhang Xiaoying owes you too much, and I am already unable to repay it in this life, all I can do for you is this one promise - I, Zhang Xiaoying, am willing to die in the hands of your Yinli at any time!

"I promise you!" Qiyun, I won't kill you, no matter what you do, I won't—even if I really can't stand what you do in the future, even if you want to be the enemy of the whole world, I won't!

Because, I'm going to kill the guy who wants to kill you first......

Qiyun, if you really want to subvert the world in the future, I will always be by your side - because, there is a man, he will also be willing to be the enemy of the whole world for you......