When she was able to go in to visit again, Chen Yan's face turned even paler, and the person curled up on the hospital bed could still vaguely see a pretty face.

However, these eyebrows, which were once full of vitality and hope, have lost their minds.

Wang Hao's eyes turned red, and the pain was terrible, and the light of the ceiling lamp shone on his face, which was dazzling and hot.

Is that still a normal person? Is that still the lively and lovely girl in the past? That was the most sincere care he had ever given...... Chen Yan?

Chen Yan tried to sit up, but he staggered over, grabbed the other party, hugged him with both hands, and hugged the thin man in his arms.

Wang Hao's knuckles clutched the corners of his clothes in a surprisingly pale state, and pressed Chen Yan's head against his chest, where there was a thumping heartbeat, a hot heat, and ...... Intense pain.

Chen Yan was like a rag doll, let Wang Hao hold her, just like the heaven and earth that had lost their vitality in the middle of winter, and she couldn't see any life.

Wang Hao was so distressed that suddenly, he put his face on the ground.

The lips were close together, and the eyes of the two men were in one place.

When the lips touch together, it's like a candy, as if spring is coming.

His heart suddenly didn't hurt so much.

At this moment, Chen Yan's eyes had a bright color, but it was fleeting.

The slightly cold tongue slipped into the other party's mouth, greedily grabbing the breath that belonged to her, and vigorously explored every corner, this momentary throbbing made him forget everything around him.

The tip of her nose wafted through her unique fragrance, and Wang Hao only felt that he had always been strong and self-controlled, as if he might collapse at any time.

He grew up in the countryside with good customs, and he also thought that there would be nothing in this life to cause him to be angry again, he thought that he was carefree, no joy or sorrow, and that everything could be accepted calmly, and he only thought about treating the world with a gentle conscience, and the world would smile in return.

But at the moment of Chen Yan's accident, Wang Hao suddenly cooled his mind, as if he felt the most merciless ridicule from this red and mortal world, like a slap on the face, crushing all his hopes and illusions, and powdering his most authentic view of the entire world.

In a matter of seconds, the sky collapsed.

I'd rather bear the people of the world than teach the people of the world to bear you!

It hurts the person I love the most, so I will pay for it, and I will pay for it!

With a smile in his eyes, he looked at the figure in front of him, and the knife stabbed into his chest, as if he had taken away his heart.

His eyes were red, and he was helpless, and he couldn't help himself.

It turned out that this was the feeling of heartache, the pain that there was never even a trace of wounds, the pain of despair to the end.

Chen Yan......

He grabbed every scene from the past in front of his eyes, gritted his teeth again, and wanted to completely shatter that evil place.

He whispered her name in his mouth, from the admiration of the first time he saw her to the present, he unconsciously hurt her to the bone.

He let go of her and fell to his knees, his fingers digging at the ground, scratching the blood, but eventually, he fell to the ground and cried bitterly.

That thing, no matter how much you hide and don't touch it, it will attack mercilessly.

All along, do you think I'm afraid of you and let you?

Hehe, so now, let me tell you, all along, I didn't take you seriously at all!

On behalf of God, I pronounce that no matter how terrible you have been, at this moment, you have been sentenced to death, and your sins are unforgivable.

You're done.

When he sat back on the hospital bed, Wang Hao wanted to say something, but he was too tired, and the two looked at each other speechlessly, and did not speak for the first few minutes.

After a long time, Wang Hao asked, "Are you tired?" ”

Chen Yan said in a low voice, "A little." ”

"Sleep."

"Can't sleep."

Wang Hao snorted and asked, "Is it uncomfortable?" ”

"It's a little bit, too."

Wang Hao nodded.

There was silence again, he just clenched her hand, and in a quiet interval, Chen Yan suddenly said, "I'm sorry, this time, I can't accompany you." ”

"Nonsense, this time it doesn't count." Wang Hao said, "Everything will be fine, when you get better, you will have to accompany me ten times." ”

"Wang Hao."

"Huh?"

"You don't have to revolve around me all the time, these are my fates, and they are destined to die."

Wang Hao stared at her.

"You go and do your business, leave me alone."

Wang Hao was still staring at him.

"Obedient, go back, your eyes are red."

Wang Hao asked rhetorically: "What about you?" ”

The figure of the doctor flashed outside, and the conversation ended without a hitch.

Wang Hao sat in the corridor and looked out the window at the blizzard, and it didn't stop.

He Muzi appeared in his sight, still looking sick.

"Why are you here?"

"Come and see you...... and Chen Yan. As soon as He Muzi saw Wang Hao's haggard appearance, tears fell.

Wang Hao scolded: "What are you crying about? Chen Yan isn't dead! ”

"Wang Hao—"

"I'm fine." Wang Hao said strongly, "You go back to ......"

As he was talking, the lights in the ICU operating room went out again, and Wang Hao's eyes immediately turned to him and froze.

The doctor still said the same as before, Chen Yan survived again, but it did not improve, and she had to be transferred to the hospital.

The nurse sent the person back to the ward, Wang Hao didn't even get up, he looked at the girl who was as pale as a dead man on the bed from a distance, the door was closed, he didn't care about He Muzi, got up and left.

He walked slowly on his way back. It was already completely dark, and the street lights on the side of the street were lit up one after another. His figure was lengthened and shortened again and again.

Looking ahead, the sky was so low that it seemed to be about to fall, and the road seemed to lead to the edge of the dark clouds, and when I looked back, the hospital building not far away was completely shrouded in a thick fog, and no matter how hard I tried to distinguish it, the sporadic lights were no longer visible.

Wang Hao walked faster and faster, and finally ran with all his might, and passers-by cast surprised glances at this inexplicable boy.

He ran through brightly lit streets, through dark, damp alleys, through crowded cities, through deserted wastelands, until his throat was sweet until he was exhausted.

As he ran, he burst into uncontrollable tears.

Wang Hao went back to wash his hair and take a bath, changed the handsome blue clover that Chen Yan gave him, and stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror, still unable to hide his shape.

When I came out, the road surface had accumulated a thick layer of water, and the smooth road was glowing with a cold light, and under the light of the street lamps, the damp road surface bloomed with mottled golden flowers, which looked flawless.

He hesitated for a long time, but he couldn't bear to step on it.

Finally took the first step, there was a slight wind, and from time to time small snowflakes fell on the hot face, and it dried in an instant, slowly flowing down the cheeks, from cold to lukewarm.

He raised his head, there was a faint light in the sky that should have been pitch black, and the snowflakes were boundless, falling in every corner, should he sigh and leave the sky, or should he be happy to return to the earth?

Passing through the original road, the brilliant lights in the city were faintly discerning, and the thick fog that had just connected the heavens and the earth turned into a dull and dull gray, and it was heavily shrouded in the same gray city, looking like a large iron pot falling from the sky.

Rainy nights, lone wolves, breezes.

Please give her a little more time.

Please give me a little more hope.

Wang Hao didn't make a sound when she entered, but as if she knew he was coming, she opened her eyes and didn't let go of her gaze when she fell on him.

Wang Hao got up and opened the curtains, the snowflakes hit the glass, and the night view of the entire city was in full view.

Outside the window, the city has not yet slept, the neon signs are still dazzling, the streets are still bustling and noisy, and the men and women dressed in fashion are walking together, or in a hurry, or smiling, or silent.

A hawker pushes an iron cart all the way to sell, and the roasted sweet potatoes on the cart are steaming.

A man and a woman hug each other affectionately on a street corner.

A child salivates as he looks at the brightly colored rock sugar gourd.

A young girl lingers in front of a bright shop window.

An ordinary day.

Looking at the brightly lit high-rise buildings in the distance and the swaying traffic under his feet, he said: "He Muzi and your parents have discussed that they will send you to the United States tomorrow." ”

Chen Yan looked at him for a long time.

"See what?"

"I want to see it."

"Why did your skin become so thick-skinned when you were sick?" He came back and sat down.

Chen Yan said: "When my body is better, I will come back to see you." ”

Wang Hao said: "Okay. ”

"What if... It's not good, you have to be good yourself. ”

“……”

Wang Hao was silent.

In the interval of his wordless silence, she churned inwardly, and her heart seemed to be dug out and rolled in the snow.

She looked at him: "Wang Hao? ”

He was still silent, and finally, pursing his dry lips, his tone seemed to be rooted: "Okay." ”

A good word, the two of them were relatively speechless, and the instruments in the ward ticked and ticked.

Wang Hao said half-jokingly: "What about anything else, just say what you want to explain." ”

"Nope." She smiled at him with a pale face.

Wang Hao stared at her, his eyes were covered with a layer of mist, it was nothing more than that, if he couldn't come back one day, don't be sad, and be good.

When he looked up again, the person was faint again, and said, "If you can't come back, I'll find someone else in the future." ”

Her eyes were moist for a moment, as if a barrier had collapsed, she didn't know whether to cry or laugh at herself, she was sour by a big boy's light words, and her heart thrown on the snow was picked up and left in warm water to soak, about to melt.

Chen Yan looked at him, covering the wet mist on her eyelashes, and suddenly smiled, as if she had seen such a scene under the clear blue sky.

The next day, Chen Yan was sent to the ambulance at the airport, and I don't know where He Muzi got a private jet from to fly directly to the United States.

Wang Hao got into the car and guarded her by the bedside, her eyelids drooping slightly, trying her best to be awake.

He carefully removed her respirator, not far from her cheek, he leaned over and kissed her on the lips, the breath of the two blended slightly, he gently hugged her again, and put her on the respirator again.

Chen Yan pursed her lips tightly, and her throat rolled very lightly, forbearing.

This hug has nothing to do with love, or even friendship, just to never forget each other.

For a long time, there was a soft whisper in my ear: "You have to take care, you must take care." ”

"The drizzle and the wind damp the streets at dusk, erasing the rain and looking up for no reason, looking at the lonely evening light, is the sad memory ......"

The wind was not strong, the snow was still falling, the thunder and lightning had disappeared, Wang Hao looked at the street tree that had fallen out from the car window, and saw the tarmac not far away.

"Countless thoughts in my heart again, the laughter of the past moment is still on my face, I hope you can know at this moment, it is my heartfelt ......"

He withdrew his gaze to look at Chen Yan, she had been looking at him, her eyes were deep, like a well, and then a relieved smile appeared on her pale face, and finally closed her eyes peacefully.

The medical staff carried her down, Wang Hao followed and gradually approached the plane, her face was pale in the cold wind, she was too tired and needed to rest, he didn't want to disturb her, so he let go of her hand.

Before leaving, she hooked his fingers, and the snowflakes fell on the back of her hand: "Fool." ”

Wang Hao stared at Chen Yan for a long time, the wind blew away the snowflakes, her hair was flying, and he finally smiled faintly: "Hey! ”

I'll wait for you to come back and call me a fool again. Chen Yan.

Wang Hao's eyes were wet with tears for a moment, and the wind and rain quietly stopped in an instant.

She seemed to fall asleep and didn't react at all.

Wang Hao straightened up, looked at her for a long time, turned his head first, and then his body, the plane took off with violent wind and rain, and he walked back quietly, without looking back once.

Everything blurs into the background, like sinking into warm water.

The plane rose to the clear blue sky, the wind and snow splashed, Wang Hao walked farther and farther, but just when he was separated, he thought of her, and he burst into tears.

"In case I can't come back, you have to be well."

"If you're gone, I won't miss you a cent."

"Maybe I can come back, who knows what the future holds?"

"I think, the day you came back, the sun was just right, and the spring flowers were blooming."

Facing the sword against his throat, the Supreme Treasure told a true lie: "If Heaven could give me another chance, I would tell her that I love her, and if I had to add a time limit to this love, I would like it to be ten thousand years." ”

If Heaven could give him another chance, he would have wished that nothing had happened, even that he would have known her.

Let's go. Let's go.

In the airport radio station, a slightly crying male voice gently hummed the unfinished song:

Walk alone every night

Swinging everywhere, how cold it is

In the past, I struggled with myself

Never knew her pain

Wang Hao applauded softly and sang in a low voice, but he couldn't sing because he couldn't stop choking.

Like you, those eyes are beautiful

The laughter is even more charming

May I caress you again

That lovely face

Hold hands and talk in your dreams

Like yesterday, you and me