"And who are you looking for?" Yan Tang asked.

"Her maid."

"What maid?"

"Before Rong Ji entered the royal court, she was the daughter of a large family in the south of the Yangtze River, and somehow went to the northwest at that time, but was brought back to the royal court by my father Khan. Her mother-in-law gave birth to two daughters, one was eleven or twelve years old at the time, and the other was just over a year old. ”

He Chu raised his head and condensed his eyebrows and said, "These two sisters didn't look much at first, but they became more and more beautiful later.

"The people in the royal court say that they are the demons trained by Rong Ji, and they want to cause trouble in the palace together, so while putting a wolf head jade ring on Rong Ji, they also put one on each of their sisters."

Yan Tang retracted his gaze and sat down again: "What kind of family is it, do you know?" ”

"I only know the surname Rong, and I don't know anything else." The corners of He Chu's lips were a little sunny, "That Rong Ji refuses to say, my father Khan naturally doesn't want to investigate in order to avoid trouble."

"She is indeed beautiful, which fascinates my father Khan, his harem concubines are like clouds, and no one has ever received so much attention as her, and even others are easily not allowed to see her, and the real people in the deep palace do not know.

"At least I hadn't seen her once before I went to the northern grasslands at the age of thirteen."

Yan Tang took the tea from the soldier, waited for him to retreat, and asked, "So, you have never seen such a person from beginning to end?" ”

"Not really." He Chu frowned and shook his head, "That year, my father Khan had a birthday, and I saw her. Originally, we didn't have any custom of longevity, but my father Khan did it for the sake of excitement.

"I happened to be eighteen years old, and I also went, and I saw Rong Ji at the banquet.

"She was indeed stunning, but she was sick and did not smile much, and I could not get used to seeing my father Khan's obedience to her, so I left the table and went to the outer court.

"At that time, I was already planning to take the throne, and I was looking for Dekhan Timur. But I didn't expect to meet her unexpectedly. ”

"Who?"

"Her maid who changed her name to Saya in Ura."

Yan Tang held the teacup, his back against the back of the chair, and he didn't know if he was listening.

He Chu's words could not be stopped, this man who was over forty years old was unhurried, and then continued: "She should be thirteen or fourteen years old, her skin is so white that everyone is lined with mud, sitting in the corner with a copper basin, smiling at a goshawk flying in the sky.

At that time, she was not as beautiful as Rong Ji, but when she laughed, she was so beautiful. I guessed who she was right then.

"But I'm surprised that you Central Plains people are so good-looking, maybe at that time, I had a strange longing for the land of the Central Plains."

Yan Tang squinted at him with a flat expression and did not interrupt.

"When I saw such a girl, I couldn't go away inexplicably, and I hid in the corner to look at her, inexplicably shy.

"Although she is a maid, her posture and demeanor are not at all different from ordinary people.

"I saw her suddenly put down the brass basin, cling to the window, and standing on tiptoe on the big rock to pick up a bird feather at the top of the wall.

"On that side alone, I started to worry about whether she would fall down, what would she do if she fell on her leg? I can't go to the harem and deliver her medicine. ”

Speaking of this, there was a faint wry smile on the corner of his lips, and he looked over: "Young man, have you ever felt like this?"

"Because of a completely casual look or gesture from a beloved, she can't help but think far away, even if she doesn't know you at all, and she doesn't know that you secretly like her."

Yan Tang didn't speak, and his eyes drifted far away.

In the trance, there were times when he had dreamed of the future because of her.

He Chu didn't wait for him to answer, and said, "But I didn't even have time to let her know of my existence, and she fled in panic after hearing footsteps outside.

"Later, I came to the royal court more often, and began to flatter my father Khan, not only to gain his trust, but also to stay in the royal court for a little longer, so that I could meet her.

"But I've seen her only three or four times. She never showed a smile in front of people, and she always kept her head down, perhaps because there were too many people who coveted their sisters.

Not only her, but her sister was also targeted by many people when she was seven or eight years old, after all, among the Tatars, intermarriage at a young age is everywhere.

"What's more, they seem to have been born to be some outstanding people, and their actions and behaviors make the people around them very vulgar.

"If a person is born too conspicuously, he will always attract a lot of things.

"So Rong Ji disappeared on the night of the rebellion in the royal court, and it was rumored that they were killed, and many people believe it.

"Because the women of the royal court are very afraid that a few of them will harm their men in the future, they have long wanted to get rid of them, but they have no chance."

Yan Tang looked over: "You also believe it?" ”

He Chu was silent for a while and said, "I don't want to believe it. ”

Yan Tang looked out of the court with a face: "So you have been looking for so many years, are there any results?" ”

"Nope." He Chu said quietly, "I just got a silver wolf head bracelet from my father Khan's relics, the bracelet was broken, and it is said that he found it in the palace where they lived after they disappeared.

"But the funny thing is that I've been thinking about her for so many years, and I don't even know if the bracelet belongs to her."

The autumn wind poured into the house, and when the wind stopped, only a room was silent.

He Chu, who became a prisoner at this moment, the emotion in his eyes was not humiliation, not resentment, nor hatred, but just an old depression marinated with regret.

……

After walking out of the yamen, Yan Tang looked up at the sky, the sunlight had begun to slant westward, the sky was very blue, and there were no clouds.

He didn't feel much about He Chu's story.

Maybe Qi Miaoi is right, Rong Ji is not his biological mother. And the person He Chu is looking for has no whereabouts, maybe there is an internal reason behind this.

But it also made sense for her to torture him, what if his birth mother really needed to survive in some way?

Let him think clearly, this is what she really meant by asking that question, right?

He may easily have an answer to someone he has never met, and it is not so difficult to say that the supremacy of honor is not so difficult.

But if things were settled in her, which was already carved into his bones, this feeling and ambivalence suddenly became real.

I don't say if he can give an answer now, just that when he thinks about what kind of scene she is going to face, his heart is like a knife.

And when this person is the mother who gave birth to him and gave him life, can he be disgusted with her? Can you not tolerate her?

If it weren't for her, at least he wouldn't have had the experience of these twenty years.

Isn't his lofty and his so-called noble personality all based on her October pregnancy?

So even if everything is true, what right does he have to dislike her?