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From that day on, my mental state got worse and worse.

I would always be depressed and huddled in the sofa, staring at the TV in a daze, but I didn't know what was playing on the TV.

Shen Mo was very worried, and wanted to take me to the hospital for a check-up many times.

I really didn't know what to say to her except to smile helplessly at her.

Going to the hospital?

What to check? Mentally ill?

Although "Chisha" is not a soul, it is at least a spirit with great power, and I am afraid that if I tell the doctor like this, they will give me a schizophrenic appraisal report directly.

I'm always thinking, what should I do? What should I do? Who the hell am I? What is my responsibility? What is the purpose of my existence?

But there is never a question that has a standard answer that convinces me.

Confused, confused, as if lost in oneself.

What made me most helpless was that Shen Mo actually found the so-called "Great Immortal" to treat me! Watching those two people standing in front of me singing and dancing like treasures, I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

Every day I sit in front of a computer, staring at an empty screen, and I can't write a word. Isn't it funny? But it's really true.

I can't even find myself, so why should I tell a story to someone else?

Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing?

It was the question that constantly surrounded me and puzzled me during that time, and it almost broke me down at one point!

That lasted for about a month, and every day I just mechanically repeated the infinite cycle of eating, drinking, and lazing.

More than once I found a person hiding in the bathroom crying, but I didn't know how to comfort her, did I just go over and say "I'm fine"?

For more than a month, I couldn't even remember what I had done other than eat and drink Lazar, and I knew that I had received that message.

That afternoon, I was still sitting in front of the computer as usual, and QQ suddenly rang, I never thought that the voice could be so pleasant, like a fairy sound echoing in my mind.

It took me a while before I reacted, and I couldn't wait to click on the message, and my hand holding the mouse was a little shaky.

Not because of fear, but because of excitement.

"We've got a weird place here, do you dare to try it?"

I looked at this sentence in confusion, twitched my head, and replied with a line of words:

"Are you a human or a ghost?"

The other party replied in seconds:

"Are you sick? I see you like a ghost! ”

I've been in good spirits for so long, and I've finally received a message from a human that has really fucking awakened my sleeping soul!

Hurry up and reply to the other party:

"Where?"

The other party left the address, and there was no follow-up.

When I was hesitating whether to take a look, QQ rang again:

"You write ghost stories, so have you ever read a ghost story?"

I laughed and replied:

"If I tell you I'm a ghost, will you believe it?"

To be honest, at that time, I couldn't tell what I was, and those abilities and powers that didn't belong to humans made me classify myself as monsters for a while.

It is precisely for this reason that I feel lost.

"I'm not joking with you, my classmates are all scared silly because they read the stories written by ghosts, and they run around all day long, shouting that there are ghosts."

I replied with some curiosity:

"What story? Where did you see it? ”

The other party sent me an address, the same as the one just sent to me!

It makes me feel even more strange.

Stood on the balcony, opened the window, lit a cigarette.

I haven't smoked for more than a month, and after a few puffs of cigarettes, my head was confused, and I was a little "floating" at that time.

With my hands on the windowsill, the sun shining on my face and shining into my heart.

Nothing in this world can stand up to argumentation and scrutiny, so there is no such thing as what is right and what is wrong.

In that instant, I seemed to understand something.

All the negativity is swept away.

When Shen Mo came back, I was cooking in the kitchen. She looked at me with a look of surprise and tears in her eyes. Suddenly rushed over and hugged me tightly, and I was a little dizzy from the raindrops of kisses. However, after a while, I reacted and picked her up...

When I woke up the next morning, I felt a little sore back, I don't know if it was because of overwork or the recent lack of exercise.

Shen Mo still has to go to work, so I decided to go to that place by myself.

After a day and a night of jolting on the bus, I finally got to that damn place. The ravine inside the real ravine, I got out of the car and inquired about the mountain road for dozens of miles, and finally found the village.

According to the netizen, that place was a cave, in the belly of the mountain behind the village.

I searched around the village for a long time, but no one could tell me exactly where the place was.

When he was about to reach the entrance of the village at the other end, a naked girl suddenly ran in the distance, looking back as she ran, as if she was worried that someone was following her, and she seemed to be shouting something.

As I got closer, I could see that it was a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl, and judging by the way the two glands wrapped under her skin were beating up and down between her movements, she must have given birth.

Well, I'll admit, I saw the white liquid oozing out of those two blushes.

But it was a bit of a surprise to me that such a young girl had given birth, especially when she looked clearly out of shape.

As she passed me, I heard her clearly.

"I don't look at it. Don't look ... I don't look at it. Yes!!! ”

I rang out what the guy in QQ said, but I always thought he was talking about a male classmate. I wanted to stop this girl and see what was going on, but I didn't feel the slightest hint of a ghost as she passed me.

At this time, a man chased after me scoldingly, and when he saw that I was looking at the girl, he glared at me fiercely, and said angrily:

"See what? You fool, that's Lao Tzu's mother-in-law! ”

The man was a little lame on one leg and limped when he ran. As I spoke, a foul smell came out of my mouth, mixed with the smell of cheap liquor, and I covered my nose with a frown.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he didn't dwell on me, and chased after the girl.

I decided to give up the idea of looking for someone to ask for directions, and go to the mountains to find it myself, whether I can find it or not, whether there will be any danger, that is the meaning of my life!

Perhaps, when that QQ sounded for the first time, I should have understood that my fate was like this, and there was nothing to be confused about!