Fanwai Yiyi Ming Wan Wan Fanwai "Love but I can't live as you"

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I don't know where this is. There was no wind, no light, no sound or color. As far as the eye can see, there is no other scenery except the vast nothingness.

I don't know if time is still ticking. Everything here seems to be frozen.

I don't have anything to do but be in a daze.

Many, many years ago, I was in a daze for a long time thinking about nothing. When I first arrived in Bianjing that day, the poplar catkins in late spring flew lightly in the sky.

A drawer of cloud cakes was made at the dim sum stall on the street. The sweet taste appealed to my whole mind. I bought a big pack and was about to eat it. As soon as I unintentionally raised my eyes, I saw the man in a sparse green shirt and a handsome man.

He rode across the long street, and his expression was not at all like the smug demeanor of his companions. It's the wooden wine jug around his waist that has a spacious aura, so different.

It was a completely different man from my uncle, completely different from all the men I'd ever met before.

At that moment, there was only one sentence left in my mind: the so-called man should be like this.

Then my mind stopped, and I just stayed in the streets of Kyoto. The prosperity of the long street and the sweetness of the cloud cake can't attract half of my attention.

It was the longest time I can remember.

I found out that the sparse and handsome man was the chief catcher of Tianmen, named Zhan Xiaofeng.

I excitedly told my uncle that I wanted to stay in Kyoto, and I wanted to enter the Gate of Heaven. My uncle has always been obedient to my wishes, and this time was no exception. He gave me the moon knife, and only told me not to work too hard, and remember to run faster when it is time to apply oil to the soles of my feet.

This is my uncle. Many times, I wonder if Ming Ershao in that long song is him.

My uncle I remember didn't look like a chivalrous warrior, but he was very affectionate. So after I was admitted to Tianmen and sent my uncle out of Kyoto, I found an opportunity to personally go to Qiwu Island to withdraw my marriage contract with Feng Han.

I know we owe it to Qiwu Island. This divorce, the love is even greater.

I responded to Feng Han's matter, and I will do my best to do whatever he asks in the future.

Later, my uncle found out about this, but he did not reproach me. He just stood alone under the tree and was silent. It was the first time I had seen my uncle so silent, standing like that all night without eating or resting.

On the second day, my uncle told me that he would pay back the debt he owed to Qiwu Island. It gives me peace of mind to do what I want to do.

Now that I think about it, I was really distracted. I have betrayed my faith and embarrassed my only relative. But at that time, I only had the sparse and handsome man in green shirt in my heart, and I couldn't hold anything except him.

I won't solve the case and investigate, all I can do is knife skills. I will grab what kind of case is the most dangerous and difficult to handle, and what kind of person is the most vicious and difficult to catch. I slashed at him step by step with the knife in my hand.

He was sparse and heroic, and even chivalrous, but he was not as rough as I expected, but very gentle and careful. When he called me "Ah Wan", the smile on his face was like the sun in the afternoon, warm and clean.

He remembers my birthday, remembers what I like to eat, his eyes are full of remorse for my injury, and he gives me hope for the last of my life......

I thought he liked me too.

But I showed my love again and again, but he turned a blind eye and didn't hear it. Dullness is like a piece of rotten wood. But I know that he is not a dull man.

It's because he doesn't like me.

So I paid more and more attention to his words. I like whatever he likes, and I do whatever he says as God wills. I thought that when I lived the way he liked, he would like me.

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It was raining heavily in Kyoto that day, so I brought an umbrella that I had prepared and waited in front of the nameless building. I waited from the beginning of twilight to the middle of the night. The rain stopped and fell, and it became lighter and heavier, until the limbs I waited for were cold and he did not come out.

Sure enough, he didn't bring an umbrella.

I lied that I happened to remember something and didn't do it, and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to go back first, so I gave him an umbrella to use. He smiled and didn't say anything, took the umbrella and walked into the stormy night.

Looking at his back, I felt a little panicked. He didn't seem to see the white thatch grass painted on the umbrella. But when he gets back, he'll be able to see it.

I spent half the night in the nameless building, fidgeting, guessing a thousand outcomes.

The next day he came back to work and returned the umbrella to me. The umbrella was very dry and there were no traces of water, apparently it had been dried. I handed him the umbrella and told him that it was for him. He said "but disrespectfully" and accepted the umbrella. Then he flipped through the file as usual, and his face did not look strange in the slightest.

I endured it for a long time, but I couldn't hold it back. I asked him if he had ever seen the white thatch grass painted on the umbrella. He was stunned and said, "What Ah Wan likes is really different from others. The first time I saw someone painting thatch on an umbrella. ”

It's not once or twice that he's rejected me. By that time, I was used to it. But I didn't expect him to leave Kyoto a few days later. Without warning, it was transferred so suddenly.

He was asked for a transfer. But no one was informed in advance.

He didn't take the umbrella, but left it in the corner of the nameless building. It made me think he was hiding from something. Maybe he's hiding from me.

I wanted to burn the umbrella, but I felt reluctant. After all, he used it.

I bought the yard where he lived, and everything in the yard remained the same. Even the servant woman, I invited the one he had invited. Everything in the Gate of Heaven, from the rules of the board of directors to the small objects and furnishings, also remained the same as he was at the time.

I started drinking his favorite wines, eating his favorite things, going where he liked, and doing what he loved......

I couldn't love it, so I lived like him.

I forgot about myself.

Who I am and what I should be.

Goodbye after many years, long yellow sand, rolling heat wave.

He said, "Ah Wan, you are not my opponent. ”

He said, "Ah Wan, you ate it." ”

He said the same thing to me many years ago. That time he stopped me from taking the risk, that time he gave me food to live, and this time he wanted me to die.

It's just life, and I'm willing to give it to him.

But I took the official family's money, how can I live with the official family. Even if I know that I am invincible, I don't want to bow down.

He said, "You eat it, and I'll return the agarwood box." I just want the position of the Heavenly Gate to be vacated. ”

I don't know what he's going to do, and I don't know if he's setting up such a big game for the position of the general catcher. But I know he's always talking.

I entered the gate of heaven for him. Since he agreed to return the things to the official family, I am also worthy of the trust of the official family. He asked for my life, and I gave it to him.

On his palm was a pale green pill, round and lovely, not at all like a deadly poison. It's more like a fruit candy. This medicine has no taste, and I don't feel any pain when I take it, but I feel very sleepy.

When I woke up, I was in front of me.

There was no wind, no light, no sound or color. Looking at it, there is nothing but the vast nothingness, and even time seems to stand still.