Interested.

Looking at Tang Juanmei, who was snoring and drinking porridge and eating, Gu Nuannuan's heart suddenly swelled with such a feeling. For the first time, she reflected on herself in her heart, was her pattern too small in her previous life, and she had been trapped in all kinds of entanglements with such an uneducated rural woman all her life, just to compete for the attention of the same man, isn't it too funny?

She looked down in thought, not even knowing when the three people below had left.

Gu Nuannuan never thought that she would stay so long in this "dream" this time, the whole decades passed in a flash, and she had been trapped in this villa where she had lived in her previous life. watched her daughter Katsuo experience all kinds of growing love and pain from a young child, growing up day by day under the care of her father and grandmother, and finally reluctantly leaving home with her own happiness;

watched her mother Zhang Minzhen grow old year after year without being treated slowly here, and finally closed her eyes peacefully forever after finally seeing Katsuo happily put on her wedding dress and gave birth to her eldest son;

watched Luo Hongyi refuse the unrelenting forced marriage from his parents several times in the future, and also watched his deliberate relationship with his parents and siblings become weaker and weaker, and refused various requests from his hometown several times, and finally even changed his phone number after his parents passed away, and really cut off contact with his brothers and sisters......

Gu Nuannuan watched it year after year, seeing that as long as she had free time, her favorite thing to do was to hold a photo album, and stay alone in the study where she loved most in her previous life, looking through her photos, and sitting quietly all day...... Until the end, he was so old that he could barely walk, and at the moment of parting, he still remembered sorry for her, hoping to get her forgiveness after death and meet her again~

......

Lying quietly on the bed, Gu Nuannuan was stunned and burst into tears.

She knew that she had returned to reality by crying and feeling the wetness on her cheeks, but she still couldn't get out of that dream for a while, especially when she finally watched Luo Hongyi insist on leaving the hospital and returning to the study in the villa until she left, and she still remembered the photo album that hugged her, that sad feeling has been lingering.

The decades in the dream are extremely real, she hated Luo Hongyi from hatred to gradual confusion, and then slowly began to reflect on herself, the process was extremely long and painful, and finally she had to admit that the cause of the tragedy of the two people's lives could not be blindly blamed on Luo Hongyi alone...... Gradually, her hatred for him became lighter and lighter, and at the last moment, she chose to forgive him and let herself go~~

"Master, are you alright?" Hastache looked at her worriedly from the side.

"I'm fine." Gu Nuannuan took a deep breath, took a handkerchief out to wipe away her tears and sat up, "How long have I been in this time?" ”

"Less than a night." Hastily replied.

"Is it less than a night? But I feel like I've been in it for decades? Gu Nuannuan couldn't help but smile bitterly, "It's really a dream." ”

"Master, those are not dreams, they are your sealed memories, they are all real things." Hastily listened to Gu Nuannuan's words and quickly corrected her.

"Well, I know. If that's true, I think I know why I was able to forgive him in the end. Before, I wondered if it would be too easy for me to forgive him if he just refused to remarry. But after reading everything like this, I realized that it was not easy to be remembered by a person for decades, and I didn't know if I could survive it. I think that his dedication is probably the hard-hearted person in the world who will eventually be impressed, right? ”

Gu Nuannuan sighed, and when she mentioned Luo Hongyi, her mood was extremely complicated, she looked at the void in front of her and whispered, "But forgiveness is forgiveness, but I'm not sure at all, do I still have love for him in this life?" ”

Hastily: "...... But why? Obviously, master, you said that you have already forgiven him? ”

"Forgiveness and no longer loving are not at all in conflict."

Gu Nuannuan lowered her head and looked sad: "Some feelings are over when they are over." Maybe it was because the injury I received before was too serious, but later I reflected on it and realized that I didn't do it as well as I could, and I was also responsible for my mistakes. But after all, it has happened, and the damage has been formed, even after the fact...... I think I forgave him because I didn't want to bear that too much hatred in the end. So I chose to put it down. But I probably let go of the purest part of the love that I once had for him, and I would be filled with joy and heartbeat whenever I thought of him......"

It is said that character determines fate, and in the end she has to admit that she still has a lot of flaws in her character, so it is not surprising that she will end up like that.

Gu Nuannuan buried her head in her knees, and when she woke up from her dream, she could still clearly remember that she had been constantly reflecting on herself for decades, and every time she was equivalent to tearing open her scabbed wound with her own hands, experiencing the bloody pain - it was too painful, so she was afraid in this life, and she didn't want to love him anymore - it turned out that she was such a selfish self~

She sullenly: "Seeing him make up for the mistakes he made in such self-blame, I don't even have the courage to admit my mistakes, right?" But it's too painful to love someone, and you can't help but love the house and Wu. Do you think that his parents, those brothers and sisters, and those people, are worthy of my 'love and love' for them? It's better not to love him. ”

Hastily: "......"

Why does it sound a little weird when the owner says this? It thought sideways for a long time, and hesitated: "Master, do you mean to buy back the pearl like this?" Shouldn't you cherish each other more and love each other more? In the next life, how good would it be for the two of you to make up for the regrets of the past together? ”

"It's just to make up for the regret that we're going to get back together. But... Alas, you won't understand that there is no reason for emotional matters. Love is love, not love is not love, and I don't feel it anymore when I think of him now. Gu Nuannuan shook her head, "But it's not bad if you don't love it, at least you won't feel that being together anymore is also a kind of gain, right?" ”

Hastily: "......"