Chapter 33: Life History (II)
"Then his divorce from you is really just an excuse. Is that right? I asked.
Aunt Xiao smiled bitterly a few times, and the slightly trembling folds on her face seemed to tell the sorrow and sorrow she had been immersed in for many years. "Maybe it's killing two birds with one stone, not only getting rid of a yellow-faced woman like me, but also being free to go to the other side of the ocean to have a happy life."
Although the words are sad, but Aunt Xiao did not show a trace of cowardice and pity, this time has changed, so many years have passed, I believe she has long come out of the pain of divorce, but I don't know if this shadow has always existed for Xiao Yin.
"Then this will definitely cause a lot of damage to Xiao Yin's heart......" Yu Ge lowered his voice, and his face became gloomy with the ups and downs of the story.
"Xiao Yin admires his father the most, this responsible man always talks about responsibilities and morals to his children at the beginning, but who knows that he himself is such a corrupt person." Aunt Xiao couldn't help but laugh sarcastically when she said this. "This really responds to what many people say, being a teacher is one thing in the mouth and one thing behind the scenes."
I began to recall some of what Xiao Yin once said, he always has a lot of understanding of human nature beyond his age in life, which should be more or less related to his irresponsible father. We all know that children will see the idol in their hearts as great, and will regard a person as a goal for themselves to catch up, and once this goal falls, the damage to the child's heart is immeasurable.
"Since then, Xiao Yin has become less talkative, and sometimes he won't say a word to me for a day." Aunt Xiao said. "Before he went to school, this kid always liked to lock himself in his bedroom and paint on paper by himself, and I was worried about whether he would have mental illness because he seemed so withdrawn. It's just that I was in a bad mental state at that time, and I didn't have time to take care of him. ”
This reminds me of the sketchbook that Xiao Yin brought with him when he went to Yunnan, on which was his graffiti on his dreams. If according to Aunt Xiao, then he should have developed this habit in his childhood.
"When I go to school, the situation becomes more serious, sometimes when I go to school to pick him up, I will see a group of children playing at the school gate, only he always walks out alone, at that time they all persuaded me to give Xiao Yin to see a psychiatrist."
"Then Auntie, did you really go?"
Aunt Xiao nodded helplessly, and her already bent spine was even more stiff at the moment. "I took me to see psychiatrists in several hospitals, even to Jinan and Beijing, and those doctors gave Xiao Yin different tests, some asking questions, some hypnotizing, and some painting. But all the psychiatrists told me bluntly in the end, that they couldn't cure Xiao Yin's mental illness. ”
"Can't be cured? It's the first time I've heard that there is no cure for psychological problems. I scratched my head helplessly.
"I also wondered at the time, how can I accept that he is such a young child, and he ends up with an incurable disease that a doctor said? I asked the doctor why he couldn't treat it? Most of the doctors couldn't even give a reason, only the old doctor in Beijing gave me an explanation. Aunt Xiao's shriveled fingers kept rubbing the edge of the teacup, as if this was the only way to hide her inner uneasiness. The doctor's statement is funny when I think about it now. ”
"How does the doctor explain it?"
"The doctor said that in fact, all this was done by Xiao Yin on purpose, and the old doctor said that Xiao Yin's thinking had actually matured a long time ago, although he was less than ten years old, but his mind was no different from that of an adult, so there was no problem of unsound mind." Aunt Xiao said too quickly and urgently, and couldn't help but take a breath. "The reason why Xiao Yin doesn't like to talk and don't like to get along with people is because he deliberately did it himself."
Yu Ge and I looked at each other, and I thought the same as Aunt Xiao in my heart, this explanation is really not very acceptable, a child is not a god, how can he be mentally mature before he is ten years old? We all know that the evolution of a person's brain power is inextricably linked to age and environment, even if Xiao Yin is a genius and matures faster than others, but he has always been in a closed environment, without life experience, how can he have the mind of recognition?
But I thought about it, maybe this is related to some secrets of the Xianglan clan and the son of the orchid, Xiao Yin has always had a repetitive dream, dreaming of the Valley of Love, dreaming of the bamboo building of the Xianglan clan, is it that Xiao Yin's rapid maturity of mind will be related to this dream.
This matter can only be thought about in my own heart, I don't dare to share these things with anyone, although five years of wordless Gu have passed at that time, I don't dare to take risks until I know the true state of that Gu.
"Later, Xiao Yin is what you saw." Aunt Xiao said. "I'm confused about what to do, I'm weak, and I still have hair longer than a woman, I don't know why? I knew that this kid had a hard life and couldn't bear to blame him, and over time he passed in a trance for an unknown number of years. ”
"Auntie? Do you have any impression that Xiao Yin has changed a little in high school, especially when he is about to take the university entrance examination? I recalled Xiao Yin and Zheng Xin's failed early love, and I can't deny that this distorted relationship also had a great impact on Xiao Yin.
"Yes, of course I remember." Aunt Xiao clapped her hands and suddenly realized. "For such a period of time, Xiao Yin suddenly became like a different person, he studied hard, his hair was cut short, and he also paid attention to his personal image. It seems that it was because he fell in love with a little girl, and he was still happily showing me the photo at that time, and the girl looked quite pleasing to the eye, as if it was called...... What Xin. ”
"It's Zheng Xin."
"Yes, it seems to be this name, Zheng Xin, yes, yes, that's the name." When Aunt Xiao talked about this, her mood seemed to improve. At that time, Xiao Yin talked a lot, and talked to me about this name every day, saying how beautiful and gentle it was, and said that he must love her well in the future and never betray her or anything. But you know what? After all, I am a person from the past, and looking at the little love of you young people is like seeing a family, and you will know whether this relationship is true or not when you hear it. ”
I looked at my aunt in shock, thinking to myself, could it be that she also expected Xiao Yin's subsequent split?
"I listened to what Xiao Yin said, as well as some descriptions of the little girl, and I knew that the little girl didn't really like him at all, maybe because she was under pressure to study and just wanted to relax, or she was looking for a companion to better review her homework." When Aunt Xiao said this, she was quite sophisticated, and her eyes seemed to be peeking into the ups and downs of the world. "But I still have to thank that little girl, otherwise Xiao Yin wouldn't have done so well in the exam."
"But Auntie, do you know that after Xiao Yin broke up with that Zheng Xin, he fell into decadence again and collapsed." I asked. "I think Xiao Yin's heart should have been seriously injured."
"O Liu Quan, isn't this kind of thing everywhere in the world? Because of the emotional disobedience, he gave up on himself, which can only be said to be his own lack of anger. Aunt Xiao suddenly became angry again as she spoke. But this brute might as well give up on himself, if he had been decadent like that and had been an ordinary programmer, he wouldn't have what he is doing now, and now he is in trouble for the country and the people, and it is better to die for the sake of profit and forgetfulness. ”
Having said that, it finally returned to Xiao Yin's recent situation, and Aunt Xiao's slightly relieved mood collapsed again. But Aunt Xiao's description of Xiao Yin's life experience did give me a great inspiration, that is, whether it is Xiao Yin's father or Zheng Xin, they have caused a lot of trauma to Xiao Yin, and they are all emotionally unfaithful, and these negative emotions may be the key to the formation of Xiao Yin's character.
But if that's the case, then Xiao Yin should hate these disloyal people, so why would he do the same wrong thing as them? This is really an unbelievable thing, I even began to believe what Yu Ge said, a person like Xiao Yin really has no motivation to be a traitor, just like vegetarians don't eat raw meat, it's a gene flowing in the blood.
And recalling Xiao Yin's previous speech on TV, it was obviously a bit deliberate, it seemed that he deliberately wanted to disappoint everyone with him, and deliberately wanted everyone to hate him.
"Wait, Auntie." Yu Ge is a very suspicious girl, and she suddenly interrupts us. "There's something I don't understand, if according to what you said, Xiao Yin should have collapsed after that, why did he suddenly cheer up again? And did such a big business? ”
Only I can answer this question, naturally because of the power of Orchid Gu, that is, the Xiaolan in Xiao Yin's heart, has been assisting him, otherwise, how could he be so reborn as a normal person within five years. But I won't tell them, because this is my secret with Xiao Yin.
"This problem has also bothered me for a long time, because Xiao Yin has rarely come back since he went to college, he couldn't afford to rent a house and gave me a living allowance in the first few years after graduation, at that time he was dressed in tatters, sloppy, I still felt sorry for him for a long time, but suddenly one day he called me and said that he became a director, and then not long after he told me that he became the vice president, followed by the research and development of mobile phones, and then became a top ten young man that everyone knows." Aunt Xiao had the same puzzled face as Yu Ge. "I naturally hope that my son will become a master, but I hope that he can take the bright road, he has become an elite from a poor boy, and there is almost no transition before, which always makes me wonder if he has done something dishonorable and taken some detours?"
"Have you asked Xiao Yin why he did it again?"
"Of course I asked, and I asked him more than once, I asked him if he robbed other people's money, or killed people and set fires, but he denied it all." Aunt Xiao frowned, full of sorrow. "Even since I asked him about these things, he rarely called home anymore, and he stopped telling me about work matters."
Xiao Yin naturally couldn't say these things, and since then, Xiao Yin has done a lot of relatively extreme things, such as indirectly forcing his colleagues to death, and coercing and luring the boss to step down for the sake of equity, and even using video as a weapon to attack innocent people.
"Willow Springs!"
I'm thinking that Xiao Yin's previous things were all Xiaolan's advice for her, so is this "defection" to the United States also Xiaolan's idea? But if that's the case, what is the quality of an orchid? I really don't smell the slightest nobility in these things.
What I am even more puzzled about is that Mo Lan once said that as long as Xiao Yin's character degenerates, he will die tragically on the spot, but until now, Xiao Yin is still alive and well, and he is still pretending on the TV screen, if Orchid Gu really has such side effects, Xiao Yin should not be immortal, in other words, the only reason why Xiao Yin is still alive now is that his character has not changed.
"Willow Springs!" Yu Ge shook me vigorously and looked at me with a hesitant look. "We're talking, why are you still stunned."
"I ...... Nothing, just a little tired. ”
"I don't think so!" Yu Ge stared at my eyes tightly, her soft pupils radiating a peeping light. "I think you have something to hide from us, you and Xiao Yin must have something we don't know."
"How can there be, I've been by your side all these years, even if I've never been to Beijing on a business trip, how can I have an intersection with Xiao Yin......" I hurriedly prevaricated, and my heart throbbed.
"Huh?" Yu Ge looked at me with blinking eyes. "Then why do you say Xiao Yin suddenly rose? Sudden success? ”
"How do I know that? I guess it may have something to do with the fact that he found a girlfriend, didn't Xiao Yin tell his aunt that he had a girlfriend last time he went home? You see, the last time Xiao Yin rose was after falling in love with Zheng Xin, and this time is definitely no exception. "When I made up such a reason, I realized that it really seemed to make some sense. So much so that my aunt believed me a little in the end.
I kept the Orchid Gu under wraps up like this.
We chatted with the old aunt all day, and it was only after the end that her heart slowly stabilized. Started to look forward to the turn of things with us.
I began to have a fantasy that this was Xiao Yin's prank.
After that day, Yu Ge was still very confused, and secretly asked me if there was anything I didn't want to tell Aunt Xiao, but I still didn't tell her the truth.
Since then, my aunt has been living with us, watching the reports on TV about Xiao Yin's anger every day, watching these absurd things intensify, more and more people have begun to boycott orchid mobile phones, and more and more rallies have begun to rise all over China.