Extra three

Laughing and laughing, "Painful and ruthless, she finally loses herself, I lose myself"

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The person in front of him has dark hair and snowy skin, bright and delicate.

It turns out that Ah Wan was originally like this.

In her memory, she was a little thin, her complexion was like that of an ordinary martial arts woman, healthy but not fair, and slightly rough. Most of the time, the expression on her face is cold. It was only when he looked at me that the coldness melted into a light smile.

I know what she thinks of me.

But how can a person who can't help himself is qualified to like someone.

I thought she had warmed my heart for a while, and then she would give up. didn't expect that her heart not only faded away, but became more and more intense. With a few casual words I said, she really ran to lift the stone lock to practice her strength, and she was really always wearing purple clothes.

She expressed her admiration to me several times, and I couldn't bear to refuse, so I could only pretend not to understand.

Now that I think about it, I should have rejected her earlier and cut off her mind. is dragging on so inexplicably, but because of the dark unwillingness in my heart.

Knowing that you can't have it, you still refuse to let go.

What I did was already a source of guilt for me. Because of her appearance, because of the undeserved thoughts, because of the selfish unwillingness, I hated myself more and more. I thought it would be nice to die on an errand.

In a desperate situation, I left the chance of life to her. Not just because I wanted her to live, but because I didn't want to live anymore. I had deliberately missed and wanted to die under my opponent's sword. But I didn't expect that she would pounce on me to block those killer moves, and keep silent for my sword.

She didn't show her affection for me for a long time, and I pretended not to know, numb myself, and indulge myself to treat her well.

I often wonder how nice it would be if time stood still.

We just got on the line together, and when we looked up, we could see her. Just do it together, and hand over your back to each other with confidence. Eating together like this, watching her eat to my heart's content, I also feel satisfied......

When she is there, every inch of time is warm. No matter how bad the weather is, no matter how tense the situation is, I feel happy to have her.

But that time was stolen after all, and I had my mission to accomplish.

If it weren't for Cheng Laozu, the current Great Song Dynasty would not have such a vast territory, and if it weren't for Cheng Laozu, it would not be Taizong who succeeded him back then, and there would not be that legendary Mandate of Heaven.

I am a person who has escaped the four gates, I need to disturb this river and mountain society, and I need to avenge Cheng Laozu.

But I don't want to. Although the DPRK and China are fiercely intriguing and vying for power and profit, their administration is clear and clear, and the officials have official morals. The wind and rain are smooth, and the people are happy. Why upset this situation?

The four doors of escape kept urging, and I had to start looking for opportunities.

I didn't really want to find any opportunities, but the King of Chu sent it to the door himself. It is very easy to use the struggle for succession and people's greed for power to disrupt the situation and the world.

The king of Chu has a habit of breaking his sleeves, but only with his absolute trust can I carry out the plan and achieve my goal.

He played with half-truths and half-truths, and I pretended to be fallen.

He pulled me to make fun, and I endured my nausea to play with him. After that, I locked myself in an unnamed building for a whole day. It wasn't until the middle of the night on the second day that I went out.

The time for the next duty had already passed, but Ah Wan was waiting in front of the door. She pretended to say that she remembered that she had something to do, so she turned around. But her fingers were cold, her clothes and hair were full of moisture, and she had obviously stood for a long time.

I was a little afraid to look at her, so I took the umbrella from her hand and ran away.

Because it was her umbrella, I carefully wiped it with a silk towel when I returned home. Through the candlelight, I saw a clump of white thatched grass painted on the surface of the umbrella.

White grass buds......

I never deserved anyone's affection, I didn't deserve her heart. I decided to stop her thoughts tomorrow. The bridge returns to the bridge, and the road returns to the road. That's how she can be good.

But I am reluctant to return this umbrella.

I braved the heavy rain to sneak into an umbrella shop, picked out a plain umbrella of the same style, took some tung oil, threw the silver money on the counter, and dived back again.

Little by little, I traced the white thatch on the umbrella, carefully brushed the tung oil, lit a charcoal fire to dry the umbrella, and used medicinal powder to remove the smell of the new umbrella. By 10 o'clock in the morning, I had finally finished the umbrella.

I gave her the new umbrella as her umbrella, but I could not say anything about the severeness that I had already thought of.

Let's not talk about it. Time will always fade away.

The official family was worried about the affairs of the southwest, so I asked for a transfer, and the official family finally agreed after thinking about it for a long time.

I told the king of Chu that I would help him plan the military power in the southwest. I didn't care whether the king of Chu believed or doubted, so I hurriedly fled from Kyoto.

In the southwest, away from Kyoto away from her. But the heart is still not calm.

She didn't write a letter to me, not even a word. I think she'll be able to let it go.

That's fine.

However, the king of Chu often communicates with me. He's an adventurous guy and always likes to do something thrilling about walking on the ice. On one occasion he managed to get a portrait for me.

It is a portrait of Ah Wan.

In the painting, she is purple and dark-skinned, as strong as a reckless man.

King Chu, I know what this means. It's because I know that I feel more and more sorry for her. How can a person like me deserve to be like this? Even if I wasn't in front of her, she still remembered my unintentional words. He made himself look like this. They will also be mocked with ulterior motives.

It's all because of me.

Ah Wan once said that she admired my righteousness. She once praised me for having the demeanor of a true chivalrous person.

But the person she said, the person she loved, was just a fake. It's not me, but it's what I've been longing for since I was a child.

If I hadn't been rescued by the people who had escaped from the four gates, without those restraints, I would have lived as she liked. But if I hadn't been rescued by the people of the Four Gates, I would have died of starvation, and if I hadn't taught me the skills of the Four Gates, I would not be the person I am today.

I don't know whether to rejoice or to hate and regret.

I don't remember when, but I started eating her favorite cloud cake, even though I had an aversion to sweets. The sweet taste of the cloud cake makes me feel like she's still around.

A plate of pastries, an umbrella, all I can give myself.

My plan was being realized step by step, I contacted the remnants of the Western Xia, and I got the agarwood box. Seeing that the mission of the four gates can be completed. At this time, I had to get rid of her.

The plan cannot be stopped, and it can only be continued by killing her.

I can't bear it, I can't do it, but I have to do it. No matter how painful it is, you have to be ruthless. I prepared a poison pill for her. It's a strange poison that is hard to find, and it doesn't hurt a bit.

It was as if she was asleep.

I didn't dare to hug her until she closed her eyes. I hugged her like that for a long time, until she was completely breathless and her limbs were cold.

Touching her cold skin, I suddenly regretted it at that moment.

All the scenery in the world has no color.

Escape Simen, Cheng Wu, the world...... What does that have to do with me? But it is the gate of heaven that I have repeatedly turned my backs on, and she who has repeatedly turned my backs, has given me the true warmth of this world. There is no benefit, no utilization, purely because I am me, and I pay for me.

She said she loved the feeling of the sun shining on her. I didn't bury her, I just laid her in the desert. I turned away, not daring to look back. I knew that the wind and sand would soon cover her body, leaving no trace.

There is no such person as Ah Wan in this world.

If I could do it all over again, I'd rather be killed by her. In this way, I repay the kindness, and she can live well.

In order to live up to that kindness, I lost more people, lost her, and lost myself.