Chapter 34: Talk to Yourself
If someone can see Jun Shendu at this time, they will find that his expression shows unspeakable pain, and the soybean-sized beads of sweat on his face keep dripping on the quilt like rain, and Jun Shendu's body has long been completely surrounded by sweat......
Just when Jun Shendu was tormenting in his mind, his mother Su Xueyan was walking towards the small courtyard where Jun Shendu was.
The attendants who were guarding outside the small courtyard saw Su Xueyan and his party walking here from a distance, and knew that it was Mrs. who came to see their eldest young master, so they hurriedly trotted over and saluted and shouted 'Madam'.
When Su Xueyan saw a few people, she was very curious about why they were outside the courtyard, so she sent the maids around her, led them closer, and asked, "What are the 'eldest sons' doing?
One of the high-ranking attendants said, "Madam, Young Master Du is practicing the exercises in the house. Miss Jue asked us not to disturb the eldest son, Jun Kai, Jun Ning and Jun Zimin, the three guards and Miss Jue were guarding in the courtyard. I waited out to prevent anyone from disturbing the eldest son. ”
When Su Xueyan heard him say this, she also showed some happy expressions on her face and said, "This kid can finally stay in the house quietly for me, and let me worry less." Well, a few of you have a heart too. ”
When several people heard Su Xueyan say this, they hurriedly bent down and said, "How dare we be so praised as a lady, these are our duties." It's our job. ”
"Alright...... Whether it is a heart or a duty, the duty is also a matter of opinion, and you have done it, which means that you are very conscientious about your work, and it also proves that the monarch has not lost you. Okay, let's go ahead and have a look. ”
Saying that, Su Xueyan walked into Jun Shendu's small courtyard under the leadership of an attendant, and at this time, the guards who were guarding the small courtyard saw Su Xueyan coming in and hurriedly saluted and wanted to shout "madam", but Su Xueyan stopped them and signaled them not to disturb Jun Shendu.
Entering the small courtyard, Su Xueyan walked to the small pavilion in the small courtyard and sat down.
Su Xueyan looked at the maid who was arranged by her to Jun Shendu, and motioned for her to come over, intending to learn about Jun Shendu's situation from her.
The maid who was sent by Su Xueyan to take care of Jun Shendu was called Su Jue, she was not the maid of the Jun Mansion, but the personal maid sent by the royal family of the Yuntian Empire to grow up with Su Xueyan since childhood.
Su Xueyan likes her very much, when Su Jue was young, Su Xueyan often kept Xiao Su Jue by her side, and sometimes instructed her on some cultivation matters, so Su Jue herself is also a cultivator with some strength, and when explaining the situation of Jun Shendu in the house to Su Xueyan, it can also be said more clearly.
Su Xueyan listened to Su Jue introduce Jun Shendu's situation, and when she heard that the exercise Jun Shendu was practicing was "Hanxiang Nine Heavenly Formula", a solemn look appeared on Su Xueyan's face.
"Hanxiang Nine Heavenly Formula" is the only exercise of the Zhou family, which is the only exercise of the Zhou family, which has been the general of the entire family for generations, since this is the case, then it must meet the needs of the Zhou family, just like the previous "strong physical skills" and "raw mystical skills".
However, it is naturally impossible for such an exercise to have only these two characteristics.
As a general, everyone in the Zhou family had to understand the cruelty on the battlefield when they were still very young, so as to prevent them from fighting in front of the two armies, so it was normal to test everyone's willpower in some ordinary details, and it was also very normal to add something to the exercises that would affect the cultivators psychologically, so as to hone their willpower.
It's just that although it is very simple to say, in the Zhou family, this kind of cultivation is also accompanied by someone with good strength for the first time, in order to prevent accidents and cause some irreparable damage to the cultivators.
Su Xueyan still remembered that one of her aunts was married to the Zhou family, and she told her some things about these things after she came back from the province.
Among them, she said that when she was in the Zhou family, she saw with her own eyes the kind of pain that the Zhou family experienced when they first practiced the introduction of the "Hanxiang Nine Heavenly Formula", although Su Xueyan had not really seen it, she still remembered what her aunt said at that time.
Hearing Su Jue's description, and based on what she knew, Su Xueyan could roughly deduce Jun Shendu's current situation, which was probably inevitable.
Su Jue is a maid who has followed Su Xueyan since she was a child, and she can easily notice the change in Su Xueyan's face, she looked at Su Xueyan cautiously and asked, "Princess, what's wrong with you?"
Su Xueyan waved her hand, signaled that she was fine, and said: "Jue'er, you may not know that this "Hanxiang Nine Heavenly Formula" is not so easy to cultivate, don't look at this kid is just practicing now, if you don't pay attention, the consequences will be very serious." ”
Hearing Su Xueyan say this, Su Jue was very nervous and said, "Princess, isn't that young master ......?"
Su Xueyan waved her hand, "There's no need to be nervous, I think this is just the beginning, and it's not yet." ”
Saying that, Su Xueyan thought for a while, stood up and said, "That's it, Jue'er, you come into the house with me to see what the situation is." ”
When Su Xueyan and Su Jue walked to the door of the house, Su Xueyan paused and said, "Jun Kai, Jun Ning, Zimin." ”
Three guards stepped forward, "Ma'am!"
Su Xueyan didn't turn around, but turned her head sideways and said, "You take the eldest son's attendants to guard the small courtyard, and the three of you personally guard the door, if there is anything wrong with the eldest son, the three of you will come in immediately." ”
The guard who called Jun Kai bent down and replied, "Yes, ma'am." ”
After arranging everything, Su Xueyan hurriedly walked into her son's house.
It's good that if you don't go in, as soon as you go in, Su Xueyan saw the scene she didn't want to see the most, and Jun Shendu's expression was very painful.
Seeing Jun Shendu's appearance, Su Xueyan knew that his son's cultivation had reached this kind of test.
Speaking of which, Su Xueyan was also bold enough, knowing the difficulties faced by her son Jun Shendu now, but she did not immediately go up and pull Jun Shendu out of her ethereal state.
It's not that Jun Shendu is not her own son, nor is it her son who Su Xueyan is ruthless and doesn't care about herself.
Su Xueyan stood aside and observed Jun Shendu's situation, she knew that if Jun Shendu was injured by the negative factors of the "Cold Fragrance Nine Heavenly Formula", the consequences would be unimaginable, and this negative factor would have a deeper impact due to the strong strength and potential of the cultivator himself, that is, the psychological blow would be greater, and at this time, someone must be on the side to wake up the cultivator who was in the ethereal state in time.
But Su Xueyan still wanted to gamble, so she bet that Jun Shendu would be able to hold on for a while.
It stands to reason that as a mother, especially Su Xueyan feels so sorry for this precious son, she shouldn't have this kind of behavior, because no mother will gamble on her son's future.
But Su Xueyan did it, and as for the reason, it is very simple - this is a torture and test of psychology, but it is also a tempering of willpower.
Many famous generals of the Zhou family are all people who have tenaciously persevered and tempered their extremely strong will at such a time, so as long as Jun Shendu can hold on for a while and survive this hurdle, it will be of great help to him in the future.
At this point, Su Xueyan unexpectedly seemed very rational, and kept controlling her legs and did not immediately step forward to wake up Jun Shendu, who was still ethereal, but carefully observed the situation of Jun Shendu on the side.
At this time, Jun Shendu didn't know that his mother was already in the house, and now he was in his own mind, fighting against fear, especially the things that the other 'self' said before, which inevitably affected his mind.
The substitution of one consciousness for another sounds strange, but if you are experiencing it yourself, it is definitely not something to be curious about.
No one wants to die in vain, and in the same way, no one wants to be replaced by the so-called 'other self' and disappear completely.
Truth be told, there is no greater fear than vanishing, knowing that it is a complete disappearance.
Slowly, fear began to appear in his thoughts, and Jun Shendu could even clearly find that he was getting irritable, not only mental pain, but also the meridians around his body were being torn off one by one, and this pain was no less than the mental pain he suffered.
"Why?" Jun Shendu asked himself.
"yes, why?" said another 'gentleman and a du' voice.
"It's painful. ”
"Then be free. ”
"I don't want to ......"
"Why not?"
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In this way, sentence after sentence, the double torture of mind and body made Jun Shendu on the verge of collapse for a while, and Jun Shendu didn't say anything at this time, and completely quieted down.
Strangely, the other one was quiet, in this extremely quiet time.
It seemed like a long, long time had passed, and it had been quiet for a long, long time......
Suddenly, Jun Shen seemed to think of something, and in his mind, he said to the invisible other 'self': "Aren't you going to say something?"
Just as Jun Shendu expected, the voice sounded, "What are you talking about? You should be very clear, right? Between you and me, there can only be one of the two consciousnesses. ”
"Is it? It must only be one?"
"What do you mean by that?"
Jun Shendu, who was in consciousness, smiled, although Jun Shendu still had a painful expression on his face when he saw it in the outside world, but now he was indeed laughing.
"What are you laughing at?"
"I'm laughing at you can't find a good reason to deceive me, no, I can't find a good reason to deceive myself, and now that I think about it, I don't seem to be that smart............"