Chapter 169: My heart is in turmoil
For the first time, Konstantin couldn't understand his own feelings, perhaps because he suddenly saw through his thoughts and felt incredulous and slightly frightened.
Why is it that since I came to the Holy See Academy, I have unconsciously accelerated the pace of my coursework, as if I had a premonition that there would be a day when I decided to end my course early and go back?
Originally, I felt that there was nothing wrong with time passing slowly like this, and I used this slow time to work hard to make progress, and let the unclear things in my heart slowly ferment.
It's been ten years apart, hasn't it?
Compared with ten years, one year is already a very short time.
It's not a bad time in Nishinokuni, on the contrary, everything is going well, it's going well, and I clearly feel that my dance skills are improving day by day.
However, the mind can't be stilled no matter what, and it's not like my normal self at all.
All of this was caused by meeting her the day before leaving.
Shaida is a precious memory that Konstantin has always cherished in his heart. Although everyone was still young when they met, they never met such a special little girl again.
She is two years younger than herself, but she is quite independent, strong, and hard-working. She laughed loudly every day, even when she fell to the ground and her head was bleeding.
She dragged him around the vast grasslands, allowing him to see many things he had never seen before. She loves to watch herself dance, and sometimes she brings tears to her eyes when she looks at it.
This little girl is different from any girl I remember and have come into contact with later, so no matter how time passes, her appearance will always be there and will never disappear.
Konstantin also took advantage of his spare time to go to her, although such a wish was not fulfilled once.
Until this time.
Konstantin was surprised to find that she suddenly appeared in front of him without warning, just one step away from him. He recognized her at a glance, even though her appearance had changed dramatically from ten years earlier.
She has completely grown into a young girl, and her slender and graceful figure is unobstructed under the simple tight-fitting practice clothes. The long black hair was coiled up refreshingly, and the bright eyes were still exactly the same as before.
She spread her hair out after the jump, waist-length, swaying in the wind like a black waterfall rippling with water. When he saw her back, Konstantin was fascinated by this long hair for a moment, and his heart beat faster than when he danced.
It's been ten years, and I never thought that words like "charming" would one day be used on the innocent and cute little girl in my memory.
But she grew up and became a beauty, no longer with short hair and running around like crazy. Konstantin remembered what his mother had said when she was standing on the steppe and laughing:
"My daughter-in-law, in ten years, will definitely become a walking flower on the grassland!"
At that time, Vera Sakarova always called little Shaida "daughter-in-law", which is of course the most common joke. But when I think about it at this moment, I somehow feel a fever on my face.
But I'm really happy, I'm really happy to see her!
For a long time after that, Konstantin pondered the question - in his own heart, what is Shaida?
Because after this separation, he found that he cared for and missed her more earnestly than at any time in ten years.
Although I cherish that experience very much, although I am deeply impressed, after all, I only got along with her for a month, and after ten years, I don't know what kind of person she has become.
Konstantin felt that he did not know her well enough.
So after that exciting encounter, he never said much. But at this moment, he sincerely regretted that he didn't let go of her when he didn't hug her at that time, and he would rather give up his studies at the Holy See Academy than let go of his hand!
There were also three previous times when I went to the East Country to find her, all of which took advantage of the convenience of the performance, and the troupe gave me very little time, so I couldn't find it, so I turned back. Now that I think about it, if I really went to look for it, wouldn't I still be able to find it?
The meaning of the phrase "hard work pays off" is not clearer than a dancer.
But there is no regret medicine in the world to take. The result of all this hesitation, all the vacillation and infirmity was that he found something that he was very, very mindful of.
Since the separation, Konstantin has often called and texted Shaita about his side of affairs, and listened to her talk about her joys and sorrows. Shaida was happy to confide in him, sometimes in great detail, a lot. He was very willing to listen.,And between the lines, he savored her new life in the North Capital School Park.。 However, as time passed, Konstantin found that in Shaida's messages, there was a name that was mentioned more and more frequently, so much so that it ended up being ridiculously high.
That's "Gray Fantaxia".
Konstantin is not unfamiliar with this name, and even, the two have met and shook hands, and they both have a respect for each other. Konstantin carefully recalled the impression of Gray Fantasia, not as a choreographic genius, but as an ordinary male.
Vantacia is a few years older, has outstanding appearance, and looks cold and cold, as if he does not eat fireworks in the world. His speech and demeanor are elegant and decent, but he does not see any emotions or emotions, and he is not easy to approach.
It's the kind of temperament that is most likely to fall in love with girls who don't do more.
Originally, Konstantin admired Vantasia very much, but Shaida's messages kept mentioning him, as if she had him every day in her daily life, which made Konstantin a little unacceptable.
The inexplicable anxiety in his heart and the patience of the last resort made him feel lost in himself, and even affected his performance on the stage.
Today, that uneasiness has finally reached its limit, and he finally understands that he doesn't want this!
If you have missed it again and again because of your own hesitation, now, I hope to be able to take real action and not let it be too late.
Will...... Is it late?
Such a terrible thought came to mind.
Previously, Shaida's name for Gray Fantasia was "Teacher Fantasia", and gradually, it became "teacher", and today, I don't know what happened on the stage of the South Country, her name for Fantasia turned out to be "Gray"!
Between the lines, the original admiration seemed to suddenly disappear, and seemed to have become an indescribable - closeness, even pity!
This feeling brought about an unpredictable badness, which made Konstantin panic inside, and he wished that he could pack his bags today, put on his wings and fly back to the northern country.