I don't know who I am. Even the concept of a name didn't exist in the first place. My only consciousness is simply to survive. It's an instinctive awareness.

However, over time. I have the autonomy to understand a lot of things, which seem to exist in the blood or in the soul itself. It's just that over time, it gradually shows.

I easily understood all the secrets of this world. Energy, matter, time and space, the only existence other than me, are easily controlled by me. I didn't have any references, but I could feel that I was extremely powerful. Well, at this point I've figured out the definition of strong. Because in my unknown memory, there is information about countless living beings. And they are all very weak compared to me, without exception.

However, the information contained in me seems endless. With the passage of time again. I'm getting more and more understanding. I began to understand some of the deeper concepts. For example, the origin, for example, the essence.

I know all the secrets of this world, but I don't know what the world was like before. This means that I don't know how the world came to be. When I came up with this concept, I understood one thing, I thought I knew all about the world. But I don't really know the nature of the world.

I don't know why, but whenever I think about the origin of the world, I always have a feeling called fear. It seems that there is something bad behind this. But the desire to learn still drove me to try to unravel the secret.

I've traveled to every corner of the world and I've seen the difference. Until one day, I felt the boundary. The edge of the world. Yes, I found the edge of the world.

At this time, I was faced with a very difficult problem. The answer is in front of me. But I couldn't take that step easily. The reason is simple. I am everything in this world. Here I can do anything. But outside this border, I will face the unknown.

I've had the concept of fear for a long time. Even though in this world I don't have any real fear. But when I think about things beyond the borders, I don't know anything. I felt an inexplicable fear. In my inexplicable knowledge, I know that this is the fear of the unknown of living beings.

In the face of intellectual curiosity and fear of the unknown, I hesitated for a long time. I'm tired of this repetitive life. I was expecting some kind of unknown to shock my perception. But that inexplicable fear dominated me again, and I did not dare to take substantive action.

Until one day, a second life was born in this world. It made me ecstatic. The vast majority of all the lives I remember were in groups. They develop a connection with each other called blood, or affection. This is something that I can do and never experience. Because I am able to manipulate unimaginable energies. But I can't create a life out of thin air.

It's weird, but that's what it is. I should be able to do it in theory. But I can't because I don't have a 'sample'. I once tried to use myself as a sample. But it didn't work out, and of course I was mentally prepared. Because according to my speculation, I can't create an existence of my level. And as the first life in this world, I am unique and cannot be used as a sample.

I have countless life samples in my memory. But none of them fit. There are some parts of them that never fit into this universe. And without a sample, I can't solve this inconsistency.

But now it's different. A whole new life was born. Out of some sort of gradient rule. This newborn life is a little weaker than mine. But I'm happy to have a companion. In order for him to stay with me forever. I made up a set of claims. I told him that I had created it. I am his father.

As a newborn being, he did what I was told me to do. And I took him as a model and created many similar lives. Now it was even more convinced that I was his father. But I had a concern in my heart. Because I know that he, like me, is a being born in this universe. So it's very likely that he has memories similar to mine in his body. Someday, there will be some kind of breakthrough in it. Understand that all this is a botched lie.

But then I was relieved about it. Because I've decided, I'm going behind the wall. In the time since he was born, I've experienced what I'm missing the most, emotion. I feel like I don't want anything more. The rest is the exploration of the unknown.

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I can't remember what really happened. Or rather, those memories are in my head. But I couldn't understand it, let alone express it. I remember I crossed the 'boundary'. I saw something I had never seen before, and then I ....... The only feeling that can be expressed is fear, endless fear.

I didn't dare tell 'him' about it. I was left alone to comprehend this information silently. Over time, I actually really understood some of the information. And it was this information that filled in my doubts. I, him, and even the birth of this world were just an accident......

I can't accept this fact. I am so powerful that I can do almost anything in this world. But it doesn't make much sense. Because the whole world is just a bubble between the unreal and the real. And I'm just a reflection in this bubble. Hehe, everything is just a dream of 'it'. That's a desperate answer.

I changed, I became more aloof, more withdrawn. All my children were in awe of me. It was just 'him', and the way he looked at me was starting to get a little strange.

I know he's definitely starting to remember something. But I don't care about that anymore. The only thing I want right now is to get out of this bubble. I want to be my true 'self'.

By this time, the world had evolved into more life. But there seems to have been a bit of an accident. It's because of me. Because I broke the boundaries. A wisp of its power seeped in. All the vicinity of the hole are infected with some kind of deep infection. Those births were not what I expected.

By my standards, they are ugly, chaotic, and don't have a complete mind. I know it's because those beings can't harness their power at all. They twisted and deformed into all sorts of chaotic creatures. I don't like these creatures, so I isolate them. Together with that breach, it was completely closed into a small world.

More lives were born. These lives are closer to me. They are weaker, but more rational. I like them. Soon they developed their own civilization. The birth of civilization made the world begin to develop rapidly. And humanity is beginning to reveal the darkness in their bones.

War, endless war. I can't imagine it. My favorite life has become like this. What they do best is kill their own people. They developed tens of thousands of weapons to kill each other. Of all the lives I have ever seen, and even those I remember, there is no more devastating of killing of one's kindred than the one I name human.

I'm disappointed in them. But as the first life in this world, I think I have an obligation to educate them. So I began to walk the world. At the same time, my kids, and he did it together.

I occasionally show my strength on earth. Because humans are stubborn creatures, without profit and power, you can hardly guide them. So a lot of times, I had to use my own power to deter them.

As time passed, my voice began to circulate in the world. A group of believers appeared, and they formed a church to spread my ideas. And quite a result has been achieved. I couldn't be happier with that. By the way, in the process, humans gave us a name, they called me God and called my children angels. The place where we live is called paradise.

Of course he was different, and a long time ago, he gave himself a name, Lucifer.

However, this situation did not last, and soon I could no longer walk the world.

And after the world lost my trace, the church grew rapidly. In just a few hundred years, it has expanded countless times. Finally spread to all corners of this world. The church has become a behemoth that can influence the world. But sadly, I don't feel a truly devout believer in those church leaders anymore. They turned into a bunch of speculators. Use my name for your own benefit.

At that time, I finally understood why when I walked the world, the church could only use a difficult posture and develop slowly. And when I left, it couldn't help but swell. Humanity simply doesn't want me to exist. Or that the strong ones in the human race don't want me to exist. They want to control everything, power, wealth, war, life. When I didn't exist, they were able to play my role and experience what it was like to be a god.

So when I left, they knew their opportunity had come. For them, a 'God' who has no name but will never appear again is the best 'God'. They took my name and fulfilled their ambitions. This made me feel disappointed, with pain. I once thought about punishing them, and it was simple. Even if I were in heaven, I could easily punish those who speculated. But in the end I gave up. Because I decided to use my last power where it was needed most.

That's why I can't continue to walk the world, to put it simply, I'm dying.

That crossing the border cost me dearly. Even I didn't understand why I was doing that. But I just did, I touched its body. And took away one of the most basic units on it. This does not have the slightest effect on it at all. But for me, it's a fatal curse.

I thought that was the only one that wouldn't really hurt me. And I can start here to learn more about it. But I miscalculated. If this situation is described in some language of human society. Presumably, no matter how strong a character in a movie is, it is impossible to threaten a little boy in front of the TV. Because the characters in the movie are illusory, while the little boy is real. All he needed to do was gently splash the juice in his hand like a TV, and he could easily destroy everyone in the movie. This is the difference between the unreal and the real.

And I am the omnipotent character in the movie, and the most basic organization is the little boy in front of the TV. It looks fragile, but to me, it's an order of magnitude higher. I can't do anything about it. And it can affect me in reverse.

My body has started to mutate. An inexplicable whisper also began to appear in my head. In this world, my strength is still very objective. So I'm able to resist that demagogy to a great extent. But that's about it. I couldn't reverse the twist it had on my body. I changed and started moving closer to the monsters I hated the most.

Most unfortunately, this scene was seen by Lucifer. I know Lucifer has awakened a long time ago. He knew how he came to be, and he knew my relationship to it. But he didn't say anything, because I knew that he had come to regard me as his true father. But my unsightly image obviously irritated him.

I knew he had gone to purgatory, the place where I had isolated the creatures of chaos. Although I didn't cross the border, I learned enough information. Then the way he looked at me became even more strange. I knew what he was thinking. He thinks I'm a person who has lost himself for the sake of power.

I didn't explain, I know what kind of person Lucifer is. But the road is just too dangerous. With his character, once he knows the truth, he will definitely keep up with me desperately. But in my opinion, it's not yet time. I can hold out for a while, at least let me pave the way for him.

'It' is gradually infecting me deeply. I did everything I could to keep my thinking independent. As a consequence of this, I couldn't restrain my physical mutations. Soon I won't be able to be in front of my children. I hid in purgatory, using up the last of my independent consciousness to try to parse it.

A variable has emerged. I foresaw it. In this world, I am able to see everything. I saw a life that was not of this world suddenly appeared. I know that there are other worlds beyond the world. I also have a lot of visions of other worlds in my memory. It's just that they're all swallowed up by 'it' in the end.

But this life is different, and he has a very special aura in him. Even if he is in this world, making my home turf, I still can't see through the breath. It's very strange because in this world, and even outside of it. The only thing I can't see through is 'it'. Now there's one more.

That strange human has endless power in him. It's unbelievable, is he a primordial lifeform like me? Otherwise, why is there such a powerful force. And most importantly, I can feel that he is completely different from 'it'. They are like opposite poles, a relationship of mutual restraint. Although his strength is still not comparable to 'it'. But I believe that he is the destined flame of hope.