1383 Erosion of Despair

I walked along the trail, the ash spilling onto my trench coat and hood, but only a thin layer was glued, and more of it would evaporate into a gray mist in a very short time, but from the time I first woke up, the gray fog that permeated the area had ceased to thicken. Where did the gray fog that theoretically accumulated because of the fall of the ashes go? According to common sense, of course, it was consumed by some mysterious phenomenon, but the scope of these ashes and gray fog spread throughout the entire peninsula in the nightmare, and if the phenomenon of gray fog not increasing that occurred in my case was common, then this mysterious phenomenon of consuming gray fog must also be huge and profound.

The ability of the fourth-level magic pattern can control the aftermath of the temporary data hedging phenomenon to a certain extent, and the mysterious phenomenon that occurs in the entire nightmare environment is of course also a kind of temporary data hedging phenomenon, and its scale will definitely form a huge aftermath, and then be sensed by the fourth-level magic pattern. If there is a central location for the mysterious phenomenon, then, of course, it is possible to locate the exact location by following this induction.

I think that my series of intuitions about the current situation are most likely the embodiment of this "lock-in". With my naked eye, I can't tell the specific point of the incident, and I can't observe the flow of gray mist, but if it is the identity of a fourth-level demon pattern messenger, even if the hunter's seal is still active, it must still be imperceptibly having an effect.

I galloped at a fast pace, not trying to avoid the weirdness that arose along the way. There are a large number of new monsters, but after leaving the original place, you can vaguely notice that their distribution is still regular, and it does not only occur in the "place where the ashes accumulate the most", but also seems to have a restriction of "not being produced in the right path".

was laid and chiseled out. On the mountain trails full of artificial atmosphere, the most common ones are still the weirdness of the original type. In the distance, although it was obscured by the gray mist, you could still feel the strong aura of the new strange gathering. They don't seem to be close to the "right path".

However, whether it is a new type of weirdness or an old-fashioned weirdness, except for the difference in appearance. It's hard to tell which side is more weird, which one is more mysterious, and which one is more aggressive or otherwise inherently characteristic. Even if you have advanced research in the occult, you will probably not be able to judge this kind of thing. As far as I can imagine, the reasons for these new weirdness are actually quite complex. Whether it is the work of the mysterious organization that invaded the nightmare, or simply the change in the deep night, or even the intervention of the mastermind behind the scenes, etc., I am familiar with it, etc., I will bring it up separately. To say that it is the cause of this change is not to let me go.

The composition of the organizations, people and non-people involved in the Deep Night has become too complex, and its relevance even transcends this Las Vegas repeater, the apocalyptic fantasy, and the hospital reality. More likely, it is a unique presence such as a color-binding center that exerts influence and interferes from the "root". The whole state of affairs is completely unimaginable. It's never been grasped.

My thinking could not bring me the slightest change in my situation. It only allows me to determine the level of adversaries I need to deal with in the process of executing the plan.

First of all, the three most direct enemies of Shinrikyo Doomsday, the Nazis, and Area 51 have the support of a "repeater". Possess monsters such as the "Final Weapon" as a direct combat power to participate in the battle.

In addition, the network ball, which seems to be inactive, has also secretly appeared "Marceau" with a repeater controller, and "Super Dorothy", which is not sure whether to join in, and has to be conceived. It has begun to interfere in the "color center" of the situation.

And I'm alone.

Just in terms of numbers, the pressure has always been very high. Even if the quality is compared, if you don't rely on the power of "Jiang", but only as a fourth-level demon pattern envoy, this pressure may not show the slightest sign of decreasing.

Why am I the only one who has to do this? Why do we have to save those people? Does this salvation make sense? If you turn a blind eye, does it not have any impact on the plan you want to execute at all? More directly, I had to answer the question in my heart: Is what I'm doing meaningful? Is it a catalyst for the plan itself that has already been identified? Or is such an emotional act actually just pulling one's own hind legs?

Everyone who is under pressure inevitably asks why they are under pressure, and I am no exception.

Even, every moment, such a question will ring in my heart.

When I kill the weird; When the weirdness surrounds me; When the ashes fall, and the gray mist gets angry; When there is no progress and you are stuck in the situation; When you see the results of your efforts, the impact is not as good as you expected.

These questions become more and more heavy, more and more confusing, frustrating and even desperate.

However, when I confront those poor people, who are completely unaware, who are just indifferent to the despair that inevitably arises, when I talk to them, when I talk to them about stories that are only about themselves, about perceptions that are limited to their own worldview, I cannot completely abandon them.

In fact, if you think about it carefully, even if you give up the entire gathering place, wait until the monster in the depths of that nightmare Las Vegas comes, and then join the "monsters" of other mysterious organizations to kill that guy, and then deal with the remaining monsters of other mysterious organizations one by one - this kind of frontal and hard, relying on the power of "Jiang", to kill all possible and impossible opponents, is undoubtedly crude, direct and simple.

Any other superfluous actions will lead to more complex chains, which in turn will produce more unexpected results, and ultimately more variables in the execution of the plan.

Anyway, as long as I control this Las Vegas repeater, as long as I master this Las Vegas repeater before everything in this world is destroyed, then before the "end" of this repeater world comes, it should be possible to adjust it, right?

As long as I am truly in control of the repeater, I can do whatever I want with the repeater world - this kind of thought has always interfered with my judgment of everything.

However, as a mystical expert, he is cautious. It makes me have to ask: if you control the repeater, can you really do whatever you want in the current repeater world? If that were the case, the Nazis should have behaved even stronger. And if the Nazis can't do whatever they want for some reason, then what advantage do I have? Can I do better than the Nazis?

Taking a step back, if I could really take full control of the repeater, and the "doomsday process" that had taken place in the repeater world could be intervened and eventually stopped by manipulating the repeater. So, zooming in to the entire "Doomsday Fantasy" itself, the "doomsday" that has been bothering people is not stopped in a similar way? However, all the situations I've seen so far. are all against this.

No matter where the "Doomsday" is, whether it is the reality of the hospital, the illusion of the apocalypse, or the world of the repeater, it is like a vast and complex trajectory of fate, an inevitable result that will eventually be reached - what anyone does, no matter what their original intentions are, and the impact of their specific actions, is only to promote the arrival of this outcome.

As a result, the behavior of all people nowadays. will be included in this fate of "pushing the apocalypse". And suppose I can defeat all the enemies and finally take this Las Vegas repeater. This "seizure" itself will also become the cause of the acceleration of the end of this repeater world.

This assumption is terrifying and has once made countless occult experts despair of their existence. If you are an ordinary person, because you have not personally experienced this kind of omen, you can dismiss this assumption as "gibberish" and "negative thoughts". But. Mystical experts feel this sign very strongly every time they experience a mysterious event, and many of the situations they encounter seem to confirm this hypothesis.

Under this assumption, any "making a difference" is "malignant". "Inaction" will not change anything, and in the end it will not change "malignancy", and for anyone who has good thoughts, this is despair. And this experience is one of the reasons why many occult experts finally switch to "doomsday truth".

When I look at myself, I always realize that this sense of despair has a stronger impact than at any other time in the past. Perhaps, the enemy who is really stopping me from doing something, and who keeps me from being in the complex labyrinth of thoughts, is not a specific mysterious organization or individual, but this sense of despair.

If only I was a person who only cares about the present. I thought so at one point.

Complex thoughts, negative answers, do not give me any sense of emptiness, because, as long as there is a little gap in my heart, I will immediately be filled with deep despair and fear.

I instinctively swung my long knife and slashed at everything I could see. The motivation to wield a weapon is both to do something, to overcome despair and fear, and to be driven by the terrible future that you envision. It's as if you just stop means you're going to be caught up in despair and fear.

On the trail I passed, the weirdness was slain, and then reappeared. Their numbers have not decreased, they have just been left behind by me. After slaying the last monster in front of him, the wooden stakes that distinguish the cemetery from the surrounding land are already in view. I walked up and paused in front of the stake, where I could already see the skewed, upright and collapsed tombstones—the gray fog was particularly stagnant here, but the name of the deceased "Takakawa" was unusually conspicuous on the recent tombstones.

I hesitated a little, and I came here to follow my instincts. However, when I arrived at the actual location, I suddenly felt the urge to "not want to continue".

I stepped aside and looked back at the gathering place at the foot of the mountain, from which I could see a misty panoramic view, and although the outline of the building was faint, I could still feel the calm and oppressive atmosphere inside. It was this atmosphere that gave me more courage. The self-questions that are constantly entangled in the heart disappear, and all the thoughts about "worthiness and unworthiness", all the feelings about "fate and despair", fade away at this moment.

I don't know when I'll hesitate or have that compulsive despair again, but now, at least I can step into the graveyard of "Takakawa".

I stepped over the stakes, which were the "dividing line", and the places that had been obscured by the gray fog seemed to become clearer. I suddenly sensed someone watching me, and I turned sensitively to see a familiar figure, standing in front of a tombstone only ten paces away from me. However, I felt that before that, he was not there. He seemed to be coming for me, and he was looking at the tombstones, not in the sense of sightseers and mourners, but in the search for something. He also seemed surprised by the "Takakawa" moniker on these tombstones.

In fact, people from the Doomsday Shinrikyo or Area 51 had already visited this cemetery and dug up graves. I don't know what they took with them, and what has become of the bodies that have been buried under these tombstones, or if they are really the bodies of those people, whether there are corpses, or something mysterious.

But whatever they take with them, I'm sure they'll come back.

Because, of course, the altar on the top of the hill cannot be just an "inexplicable and useless historical heritage", and its existence certainly has a deeper meaning. And with the help of this meaning, holding some rituals has always been a common method of the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion. Area 51, which has cooperation with the Doomsday Shinrikyo Sect, wants to launch a huge mysterious phenomenon, to pull Nightmare Las Vegas, use the "power of liberation" in the deep night, to liberate the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas, and make good use of every piece of things with special meaning in this nightmare, which is the best and necessary choice.

Any expert with a certain level of experience can easily come up with a judgment similar to mine. It was inevitable that they would gather in this area. I don't feel the slightest difference when I see familiar people here, but if this area is really overlooked, it will be a surprise.

"You've changed your image again, interlocutor." I said to the man.

Interlocutor, the one who betrayed the NOG team after me, only I became an independent executor, and his position was more inclined to doomsday truth. As a powerful consciousness walker, he has too much to prove himself to and doesn't need to explain why he is in this graveyard at this very moment.

To be exact, it is the strangest that he does not come.

He just came maybe earlier than the others. (To be continued......)