On the last pages of the diary, nineteen-year-old Ren Zitao also wrote:

I was hurt by Jiang Nan, I wrote to her, complained to her that I was not so good in college, and wrote six articles in detail, but she only gave me a note.

Qingda is the pride of my life, but it can't be the only pride in my life, I know that.

But I wanted her comfort, but she didn't know.

She did this to me, I thought about it angrily, and I haven't recruited it at this stage.

I didn't even dare to tell her that I was a little upset, for fear that she would call me naïve and ridiculous.

I really think she is a little inconsiderate, so I can only comfort myself: when I can get my hands on it, I will teach her again, and teach her until one day she will treat my small things, small thoughts, and small emotions as big things.

If there was a day, would I be so beautiful that my nose was bubbling......

Zhu Liang came to my class today, and at first she proposed to play with me if she had nothing to do, and I wondered in my heart, what do I have to play with a boy and a girl like you? Do you understand what I'm talking about?

But I agreed, and the class was not opened by me, so I love to go.

She sat directly behind me, touched me with her hand, and touched my squeaky nest as if she was accidental: "Ren Zitao? ”

…… I think she likes me, she's going to chase me, look at the charm of buddy, it's only been a few days.

A few hungry wolves in the dormitory also said the same, and I reported to Jiang Nan immediately.

Jiang Nan sent me a short message after a long time.

For half a day, I had a hard time, and I was in class analyzing what Jiang Nan would think, whether he had messed up something.

Any idea how she got back?

Brother Zitao, being loved and liked, this is a necessary stage for you, in the future, as you become more and more excellent, there will be more people who have a crush on you, and it doesn't mean that you are not good enough.

How could she reply to the message like that? I'm very angry.

We both kissed, shouldn't men be jealous and unhappy and lose their temper? Shouldn't you be so angry that you call me three times a day and ask me where I am? Keep me in watch and drink to be honest, right? It's normal to be this program, right?

Li Peibo, the boss of the dormitory, said: Yes.

An Yukai said: Zitao, I don't know whether to say something or not.

I replied: Shut up.

This matter really can't be analyzed in detail, and if it is picked up too carefully, it will be entangled and depressed, isn't this the jealousy that has not aroused the jealousy of men at this stage.

Alas, what if you know it yourself? If you listen to it, you will be upset, and you will only sulk and stiffen with men.

How ruthless is the man, if she is stiff, she will be stiff, she can really contact me, she can do this with anyone, turning her face is faster than turning a book.

Can I? I'm not reluctant, if I had lost my temper, I would have lost my temper a long time ago.

……

Below is the blank page, left blank 10 days ago.

Ren Zitao closed the diary that recorded the time of nine months, and he sat quietly with his eyes closed for a while before standing up and looking at the already dazzling light outside.

On the glass window, he was smiling at the corner of his mouth at this time.

He envied Ren Zitao, who was nineteen years old and had Jiang Nan by his side, very envious, very envious.

Not like him.

First of all, Zeng Tian.

taught him to work hard in the library to read books and get the opportunity to go abroad.

At that time, he was still very young, but his heart was sad, he sat lonely at the airport, and went away from home.

Later, it took four years to be with Chen Jiao, a foreign student, and the girl has been silently caring about him for two years, he thinks this time is true, because the girl is not beautiful, but the smile is very warm, it is said that he appreciates his down-to-earth talent, he feels that these two things will always exist, if the foundation is this, it should be able to be long-term.

But the ending is that after less than a year together, her parents find him, hinting that he is not worthy.

At this moment, he got all the diplomas he could get in the United States, and felt that he was the pride of heaven again, and it didn't matter if he was looked down upon, it was only temporary.

As a result, when she tried the water for the first time, she wanted to succeed too much, and she was drowned in a hurry, Chen Jiao said: She was very disappointed.

The word disappointed immediately broke his last breath.

Drunk, messy, was taken by a friend to the Netherlands to watch people smoke hookah, he paid the money to get ready to smoke, and his parents came.

Mom crackled and hit him, face, head, and hit him, but after the beating, she cried like a child, grinning at him.

Dad said: Son, before college, do you remember that all the uncles and aunts in the community were envious of Dad? Even when Dad's business is not going well, they have to look up to us, why? Because they know that our family will be able to do it sooner or later, I can't, I still have a very good son, and we are not disappointed in you, what are you doing.

Since then, he knows what he should do, he has been a blind outlaw for more than a month, walking on the streets of the United States to hand over resumes, he simply does not apply for a high position equal to his academic qualifications, and only starts from the grassroots level.

Year after year, often working overtime, often busy for several days and nights, he carried office supplies from the large public office to the cubicle, from the cubicle to the independent office, from renting a house to buying a house locally, from the independent office and moved things, and was officially appointed by the Spanish head office in the United States.

At this time, it is already in his early thirties in a blink of an eye, and the year has passed, and the itinerary is even fuller, anytime and anywhere, the assistant will prompt what to do in half an hour.

For a few moments, he wanted to call his father and ask: Dad, when you asked me, what are you doing, I still don't know, you tell me, what am I busy with?

It takes time for a man and a woman to fall in love, he can't do it, and he doesn't know where to look for it, and slowly he falls in love with fast food.

Fast food is so easy to contact, hotel personal managers, investment consultants, auctioneers, calligraphy and painting appraisers, what a reasonable encounter between these women and him, women have become a successful gift to him to a new level of career.

After that, he may miss everything in the country too much, and frequently squeeze out time to fly back, except for his parents, not to see anyone, but to be in an atmosphere where everyone is a countryman, listening to a sentence around "You Gaha?" "What's wrong?" Even if the Northeast aunt quarrels, he will take a few looks.

It's because I have returned to China many times that I know what it is a pity to get in touch again.

I was very touched to hear her speak, the love for him in high school can continue to this day, how can he have this endure, after all, look at what he has been like in the first half of his life.

At the urging of his parents, he said, "Okay." ”

He Xi asked him: "You only have such a word, which makes me embarrassed, as if you are being persecuted." ”

He didn't know how to comfort her, and he didn't plan to touch her before marriage, but for this "line", he flew back to the United States and began to go through the resignation procedures.

Hehe, but what did he receive?

Two emails, a letter of regret but respectful consent for his departure.

A spare tire, a letter of 10,000 words.

The man confronted him, "Do you promise you'll always be like me?" You can't do it, why should you marry Hexi? And so on and so forth.

There are nonsensical questions, and even more vexatious questions, which make him laugh.

This is the last time he flew back in his previous life before he filed it again, and he didn't see his parents, but he heard that Uncle Jiang had a cerebral hemorrhage and went to visit.

He only tried to cover it up for a minute, and then the explanation he gave him was very sensible, so rational that he instantly forgot what the woman in front of him was like in high school.

She said:

"Zitao, I'm in my thirties, not a little girl.

I've been in the past 30 years, in fact, quite ordinary, and you're the only man I can imagine how different my life will be.

Other men can't do it, at least not to the extent that I'm currently in contact with yours, who doesn't want the best?

I don't want to live the same life as most women, I fight for it, is that wrong?

I admire and worship you very much, for so many years, it has never been broken, I really didn't lie to you.

Perhaps, you may think I'm too realistic right now.

But what I want to say is that this is your man's disease, and it must be cured, and I tell you the truth, there is no woman who does not care about her family background.

It's you men who are really strange, why do you want a fig leaf to tell yourself that my woman is not for me? ”

He laughed when he heard what he said, as if he had watched someone else's play, and this scene was actually not as interesting as the Northeast aunt's quarrel.

Do you care about your family background when you find a partner to marry?

This question, he really doesn't need a little boy to get a fig leaf for himself, his answer is: he hasn't seen anything he doesn't care about, but he has seen men or women many years ago, and he doesn't admit it in disguise.

Maybe that's why he ate a quick meal, he thought.

At least, what kind of material security the other party wants, or what kind of mental stimulation he wants, will be clearly said, and he will dare to hold it with confidence, instead of disturbing his judgment one by one under the guise of loving him all the time, and falling into the pit again and again.

However, he didn't tell his parents, why bother, and there was no need to be angry, who was right and who was wrong would not change the result, leaving only a sentence that the wedding was canceled, so he drove to the town and let the blind man touch his face for half an hour.

The smell of dry smoke in the fortune teller house has been lingering on the tip of his nose, and he seems to be able to smell it now, and there is one more thing, which actually pierced his heart just by looking at it once.

I have to say that Jiang Nan's immature pen is very magical, so that he can still put it on his lips on the plane to Sweden and never forget it.

Alas, let him live this day.

A failure, isn't it?

Before the age of twenty, I felt that people all over the world liked me and that I was very good.

Later, I found out that this is not the case, it is always said in this world that it is difficult to make money, but he thinks that making money is much simpler than having a sincere heart of "Hello Nobita, I am Doraemon".

……

Liu Liu woke up, he was attracted by the aroma of food, opened one eye and closed one eye, and muttered, "Hmm, Zitao." ”

After saying this, he began to cough, and after coughing, he asked: ", I drank too much yesterday, how much did I talk to you, listen to my hoarse voice." ”

Ren Zitao was cutting tomatoes, dangdang, and the sound of knives was very regular.

He raised his eyes: "Brush your teeth, wash your face and eat." ”

"What do you cook? When did you learn that? ”

"You also have to learn, Liuzi, we can not do it, but we can't and won't, there is no market for men who can't cook in the future."

"You just went out? Grocery shopping? ”

"Hmm."

Ren Zitao has already begun to put on the plate.

Liuzi put the face towel on the dining chair, and he pointed to the food in surprise: "This is red and green, tomatoes and melon slices, chicken and rice, I'll go, you still talk about a nutritional match, I said, buddy, take me to practice, right?" Are you waiting for Jiang Nan to come, do you want to serve like this? Don't, I advise you, no matter how used you are, you will have to go to heaven. ”

Ren Zitao handed over the spoon: "Eat yours, curry rice, it's a simple makeshift meal, I really didn't find where the vegetable market is." ”

Liuzi picked up a green leaf and was about to stuff it into his mouth, but Ren Zitao, who had asked him to eat quickly, immediately stepped forward and stretched out his hand to block it.

"What are you doing?"

"You can't eat that."

"And what is this?" Rokuko threw the small vegetable leaves on the table.

"Mint." Ren Zitao raised his chin slightly, and motioned to Liuzi to look at the flower pot he had just bought.

Liuzi glared: "Can't you eat what are you doing on the plate?!" ”

Ren Zitao was dumbfounded for a while.

For the sake of good looks.

"Accompany me to the dormitory, look for a mobile phone, I can't find one to buy, go to Liu Che again, and ask him to write me a concussion sick note, you are responsible for handing it over to Yang Bin, by the way, I want to go back to my hometown, do you have anything to bring?"

"What? Aren't you okay with your head? Just go straight away in a while? Truancy? ”

"Well, I want to take an afternoon flight."