Neither my side nor the Whisperer Headquarters has any information about Tomie. I also asked John Bull to pay attention to her situation at one point, but even NOG's intelligence network could not catch even a trace of Tomie, as if she had completely disappeared from this world, and I began to notice that some people who once knew Tomie were gradually losing their memories of her. When I noticed this, I began to notice that when they talked about Tomie with Sakuya and Hakkei, there was something strange about their attitudes. Of course, it's not that they resist the topic, or that there's anything strange about it, they don't mind talking about Tomie, and they don't mind that I talk about Tomie a lot, it's just that more often they listen, sometimes saying things about Tomie that I don't know, and when I say I don't know, they give them a disguised look of surprise.

Lately, they've been reminding me to show them the diaries I have written, the ones I have shown to Dr. Nguyen Li.

They said they loved to read the stories – I always kept a diary as stories, about my adventures, and ideas that seemed ridiculous to the average person.

I always try to keep these stories coherent, but they are often obscure because they are mixed in with too many ideas and guesses. Even so, Dr. Nguyen Le never gave me the slightest hint of advice, praise or reprimanded me about how well the stories were written, and in her opinion, these original stories without too much embellishment really reflected my psychological changes. I know that she uses this as a reference material for her research therapies.

Compared to Dr. Ruan Li's obvious professional needs, I think it is actually very strange that Sakuya and Bajing like to read these diaries. I know that they don't read much of "niche" books. In other words, their preferences are very popular, such as the most popular music of the moment, the classical masterpieces that everyone praises, and the movies that are widely promoted. I don't think that a mentally ill person writes a first-person absurd story. It would be their dish, although, such a story, even if it is not embellished, is bizarre enough.

Yes, I feel a change that is quietly taking place in my daily life and in my daily contact with my loved ones, as if it were gradually decaying. It gives off a quirky smell. I think it's about the change of the "river", but it doesn't make me feel that it's just about the change of the "river", and sometimes, I even feel that this kind of change. It is not directly related to the current mystical diffusion, but rather a deeper one. Not limited to this repeater world, a change that even encompasses all patients with doomsday syndrome, not just this doomsday illusion.

In terms of the scale and depth of self-perception, this change will probably affect the "hospital reality". But I can't wake up from the apocalyptic vision, so I can't see with my own eyes.

However. Although the change I felt was so deep and not limited to this world of repeaters, however, it began. It should be triggered in this repeater world. There is a feeling that the whole process of confluence of causes and effects, which has pushed the past forward, until Tomie leaves and becomes a fact, is a symptom. At first, I didn't feel this way, but I felt that Tomie's departure, although it involved changes in "river" and "virus", was not a certain sign. However, by the time I began to realize something, it had been unfolding for a while.

I don't have access to a clear outline of this qiē change. However, the feeling of this change is becoming more and more sensitive, as if I usually don't feel anything, but occasionally at a certain moment, I will smell a strange smell, and when I ask others, others do not smell it, as if only I have something wrong, or maybe someone else's nose has collectively failed.

The changes in Sakiya and Eight Scenes may just be a superficial expression in this deep series of changes. I can't even explain the changes between the two of them, so how can I analyze something more in-depth? A great whirlpool is being formed, and when it reaches a certain intensity, one does not feel its existence, and thinks that it is nonsense, but the cause is already there, and in the darkness of the unknown, the flow is twisting into one with regularity, coordination, and some complex mechanism.

In this regard, Sakiya, Hakkei, Sagawa, John Bull, and even more mysterious experts in the NOG team don't seem to have felt it yet. I have asked John Bull a number of questions, which are in themselves strange to test my feelings, and I am sure that John Bull must have smelled the strange smell, but she has not given any clues, and perhaps, she has not found them, though she may have been equally concerned about what my identity suggests.

After contacting the Whisperer headquarters, I completely removed myself from the decision-making level of the Whisperer, and I did not include myself in the operation personnel for the time being. I woke up in a nightmare, like a particularly sensitive psychopath, and in a hazy, faint, but uncaring feeling, I had the thought that "this trip to the seminar would be tricky". Of course, even if there is no such thought, the place where Dr. Nguyen Li will go with him is full of signs of crisis - one of the organizers of the seminar, the pharmaceutical businessman who cooperated with Dr. Nguyen Li, is a specific electronic demon messenger with an inherent enchantment; I went to Europe to track down the movements of the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion, but the guidance of the NOG will definitely not just give me an excuse to leave myself, the NOG is also one of the organizers and sponsors of this seminar, if they held this conference at such a time, plus the suspicious participants, it was just accidental, I would not believe it at all.

This private psychology seminar, whether it was the venue, the timing of the meeting, or the members of the seminar, seemed to the occult experts, especially me, who was extremely sensitive and knew many secrets, to a certain purpose. To put it simply, the outcome of this workshop is not how much inspiration the psychologists get, how much friendship they make, or how much they make a deal, but how much they want to make some kind of mysterious change. Coincidentally, there was no news of Tomie. The profound changes I felt from Sakuya and Hachikage were the reasons for my judgment, and in turn, I thought that the seminar would bring about the changes. It is also a continuation of this series of changes.

These events, which I can't hear, I can't see, and only exist in my personal feelings, hidden in the everyday and non-ordinary, are by no means an accidental collection, but are connected by silk threads and influence each other.

It is precisely because this change involves too many layers that so. It makes people feel obscure and muddy, and I have to limit the scope to this repeater world, and judge the impact on my plan based on the situation in the repeater world alone. However, after doing so, the conclusions reached are not proactive, and people are a little uneasy.

First of all. I think that what has been done in the past. The exclusion of other invaders in Asia, the prevention of the first impact of the mysterious spread, and the establishment of the Whisperers are not perfect, but they are generally speaking, although they are not perfect at present. Not a bad choice. Even the worst-case scenario is just "useless things", not "things that make things worse". And this kind of process has actually satisfied my psychology of doing this in the first place.

Secondly, I have a relationship with Dr. Nguyen Lê. And the attitude towards each other, it does give me a great advantage in a certain way—the premise of this judgment is based on the relationship between Dr. Nguyen Li and the core of this repeater world. Although, the hint of the Eight Scenes makes me feel that the particularity of Dr. Ruan Li should be expressed in the "mysterious inhibition force". However, what the Eight Views know is provided by me after covering up the authenticity of the intruder and this repeater world, and it is incomplete, and in many places, it will be misleading about the Eight Scenes. I admit that I will be influenced by the ideas of the Eight Scenes, but the basis of my own thinking will only be used as a reference, not as a basis.

Even so, out of recognition of the "reality of the hospital", I still made a desperate bet to put my chips on Dr. Nguyen Li.

In this way, no matter what the outcome of this seminar trip is for others, for me, ensuring that Dr. Nguyen Le can return home safely is the most fundamental victory.

I have further speculated about the phenomenon of mysterious diffusion, thinking that it is a method of "filtering" out the core of the relay control, so even if the mysterious diffusion has not spread all over the world and has not affected everyone, any mysterious events that occur in this process are also related to "filtering". In this way, since the seminar must involve mysterious events, it cannot be ruled out that some people have realized that Dr. Nguyen Li is special, or, after the seminar, they have noticed that Dr. Nguyen Li is special.

If Dr. Nguyen Li had always expressed her mystery, unable to perceive the mysterious, nor able to be affected by the mystery—in a private meeting in Paris, she had already shown this side, but I don't know if it was noticed by someone with a heart—then, regardless of whether her secrets were detected or not, the attention of Cheng Dù would have been greatly improved.

At worst, we can even think of this workshop as a complex "concern" that has contributed to this fateful journey—human, non-human, or organizational, or some inevitably changing trend.

I can't tell how intense and mysterious the mysterious events that will unfold at the seminar site will be, and in the worst-case scenario, there is an 80% chance that I will take on an enemy of the "Final Weapon" level. Therefore, I had to put aside the whisperer's business mentally and administratively and devote myself wholeheartedly to the seminar.

This day in Paris will probably be the last day I will keep in touch with the whisperer. Once you arrive at the seminar site, you will not be able to communicate with the outside world under the influence of mystery, which can only be regarded as the most common situation.

I woke up from the nightmare and didn't go back to sleep. It wasn't until the next morning that Dr. Nguyen Le told me that the itinerary to the seminar had been revised again, and that I would no longer take transportation by myself, but would be picked up by a special person, because many participants had already arrived in Paris during this time, so the person in charge of the seminar had specially arranged a bus trip. The participants took the bus and the ferry in turn to a villa area on the outskirts of the city where the seminar was held. At the same time, due to various reasons, the accommodation is not arranged in the city, but in that villa area, and the seminar will be postponed by one day. The venue of the meeting will be changed to a local psychiatric hospital, and more in-depth exchanges will be conducted through guò reports, demonstrations, discussions and practices.

Of course, these specific changes in the itinerary and the content of the meeting will be subject to the permission of all participants. before proceeding. However, I don't believe that this will be a well-intentioned change. And places like psychiatric hospitals are often vicious and mysterious disaster areas. That local psychiatric hospital is naturally the collaborator of Dr. Nguyen Li, the specific electronic demon messenger businessman, the personal property of the eponymous "Dallas", who used to be a relational in the "hospital reality". This kind of change is because there are clear clues in advance. Therefore, after making mental preparations in advance, I don't feel so surprised.

I didn't say anything more. Dr. Nguyen Le was in high spirits, as if she was expecting something, and I felt that she was the purest psychologist among the collaborators invited by the big businessman Dallas. It's not that Dr. Nguyen Le is simple, simple and pure. It's not the same. In the surveillance of the meeting at that time, except for Dr. Nguyen Lê. Other psychologists have more or less wavered, and this vacillation is a trade-off between self-interest and crisis premonition, which cannot be described simply as good or bad, but is undoubtedly an ordinary reaction of "ordinary people". In this case. Dr. Nguyen Li, who is completely indifferent, naturally seems special, and this special comes from a sense of purity for the cause he is pursuing—no matter what happens. None of them can shake their lifestyle and research attitude as a psychologist.

Dr. Nguyen Le was the youngest of the psychologists present at the meeting, and it was felt that this purity, which was not shaken by the good or bad circumstances and the unpredictable future, was the reason why she could be placed alongside other veteran experts at such an age.

Dr. Nguyen Le has been studying my condition, and for her, I am a big subject for her, and she has been pestering her for many years without being able to find a cure. I think her expectations this time, of course, have a deep relationship with my condition. Other than that, Dr. Nguyen Le had no objections to how to get to the seminar. She is full of energy, but she will not be anxious about the time it will take to change her itinerary.

As usual, after arriving at the departure point of the bus, Dr. Nguyen Le sat on his suitcase, calmly flipping through professional books while waiting for the others to gather.

Half an hour later, as more people arrived, some of the psychologists who had participated in the private meeting in Dallas with Dr. Nguyen Lê were also present. Contrary to what I thought, not all of the experts and scholars who will participate in the symposium are people in the field of psychology, some of them are more skilled in other disciplines, such as medicine, mathematics, physics and even philosophy, and of course, everyone has a certain understanding of psychology, and even considers psychology as a second major. Because of Dr. Nguyen Li's profession, I am more or less aware of some well-known experts in the field of psychology, but among the experts and scholars gathered here, there are not many names that I am familiar with. Most of them seemed to pop out of a rock, and my first reaction was that these people were pseudo-experts.

However, from another point of view, this symposium has a deep insider, and the private research that Dallas mentions must also need people with real skills, and it is naturally impossible for a talented person like him who has achieved excellent results in both academia and business to cram those who sell dog meat with sheep's heads in the seminar he supports. This also means that although most of the people here are not familiar to me, they have been recognized by the seminar in terms of professional ability.

Dr. Ruan Li didn't know everyone either, but Dr. Ruan Li's fame was also very popular among the people present, so people kept coming forward to say hello. I stood silently beside Dr. Nguyen Le while taking care of my suitcase, and almost everyone who came up to say hello would look at me. Some people who knew my identity – Dr. Nguyen Lê's adopted son and her important patient – and those who didn't know it would learn about it in conversation with other people one after another, and then give me some strange looks.

The atmosphere at the scene became more and more enthusiastic, and the most familiar with Dr. Nguyen Li were naturally the people who participated in the private meeting in Dallas, but Dr. Nguyen Li did not introduce them to me, and even, I am not sure if I have read the information about them in the past, even if I don't know them, there is nothing strange, although Dr. Ruan Li, out of his profession, will tell me about the deeds of well-known people in the industry, but he rarely reveals the identity of the business collaborators. In the cooperation with Dr. Nguyen Li, these people have done a lot of illegal things, such as research that is not permitted by law, and the production of some illegal drugs, etc., and the reason why Dr. Nguyen Li cooperated with them is to find more possibilities for my treatment through these methods.

Dr. Nguyen Le is a very talented psychologist, which is also recognized in the industry, but even she is helpless to deal with my symptoms. In the "hospital reality", I am a very special patient with doomsday syndrome, and the transition of this identity to this repeater world is equally tricky. It's not okay to do research according to the rules, Dr. Nguyen Le often tells me.

I don't mind what illegal methods Dr. Nguyen Le has used and what inhumane research he has done, but since I am a collaborator in this area, it is only natural that Dr. Nguyen Le does not want me to know too much. I don't think Dr. Nguyen Le minds doing these illegal studies himself, but he doesn't approve of this kind of behavior, which also means that Dr. Nguyen Le recognizes himself, but he doesn't approve of himself. The purity of Dr. Nguyen Lê's profession is also expressed here.

Obviously, those people were very familiar with my situation, and I don't know how they understood it, but they didn't look at the patient or the guinea pig too much in the way they looked at me, but there was a bit of resistance, as if they didn't want to deal with me out of some mustard or fear. Before I entered this repeater world, I don't know what kind of person Gao Chuan was, but my own appearance will be more or less affected, or rather, in fact, there is no essential difference between that Gao Chuan and the current me, so when I stood in front of Dr. Ruan Li according to my own thoughts and habits, it didn't make her feel like a different person. Since my present and past are similar, I probably wouldn't have acted in such a way that they would be so resistant.

I was surprised, but at the same time I had a hunch that their appearance was by no means gratuitous, and that it would also be something that would be touched by the mysterious events that would inevitably follow it.

I can only guess that it is possible, that some practical situation will happen that will make me do the things that make them resist. This premonition, once generated, is like a seed, buried deep in my heart.

Dr. Nguyen Le seemed to be aware of their resistance, and simply ended their conversation as they tried to go further, turning around and taking my hand. She shook it hard, and from the palm of her hand came strength and warmth, as if to express her maintenance for me. And I did get a kind of emotional power from it, even though I didn't really care much about other people's eyes.

"Don't worry." Dr. Nguyen Le said to me gently, "They won't do anything to you, I'm your attending doctor." ”

"I'm not worried at all. Mom. I said to her calmly, but she looked at me intently for a moment, as if to confirm that I was telling the truth.

Soon, the person in charge of the trip began to beckon everyone to get on the bus, it was a balding middle-aged man in his forties, a little rich in appearance, not very tall, he didn't seem to be very good at doing this kind of thing, and from time to time he would show an embarrassed expression, and then took out a handkerchief to wipe his forehead, even if there was no sweat there. I think his appearance is too stark, and in the eyes of the psychologists present, the information about his personal characteristics is scrutinized as if it were open.

However, Dr. Nguyen Li told me: "This balding middle-aged man who doesn't look very capable is also a psychologist who has made several achievements in the industry, and his division in the psychology field is biased towards criminal psychology, and he provides psychological counseling for police stations in several cities. The implication is that this balding middle-aged man is an expert in camouflage and anti-camouflage. I don't see it, not only because of the lack of information, but also because I don't have a good eye for psychology.

Fortunately, I have never used this kind of half-baked level to swagger from the past apocalyptic fantasy, and I have never judged someone's psychology with my own psychological cognition, but only the most possible reference. (To be continued......)