In the days when Xiaomei struggled to survive on the battlefield, she had become a qualified occultist, and like every qualified occultist, she trusted her instincts more than evidence.

Although only from the time in her memory, maybe half a year has not passed, but she rarely recalls the days when she was a high school girl now.

She had seen what was happening on Earth and had come up close to see what humanity was becoming. The peaceful, everyday moments before being swept up in the night of Valpurgis in Las Vegas now seemed more dreamy than any dream—she sometimes wondered if the normal time was really a dream, in a state of confusion.

Everything that was once good is gone. Things that once seemed troublesome, troublesome, painful, and boring are now as dreamy as they seem to be. What are the setbacks in that daily life in the past compared to the pain and despair we are experiencing today?

She had dreamed countless times that she wanted to go back to the past, but when she woke up, it only became more painful, and by now, she couldn't even shed tears.

Compared to those who are still alive, perhaps the dead can be at peace? This is the thought that sometimes comes to her after witnessing the death of people she knows or strangers, and she is constantly struggling to change something.

Now, as a warrior, as a survivor, she stands on the battlefield — a situation that doesn't allow her to think too much about "what ifs." She wasn't sure what impact her actions would have on the situation, but she knew that what she was doing was the only thing she could do.

Why are you different from others? Is this just a delusion, or does you really have some kind of mission? Or is it Madoka who stays in the London Repeater and doesn't know how she is doing now?

You have to do something about it.

It is precisely because I seem to be a little special that it is necessary for me to use this particularity to do something - for some people in modern times, this is not the correct logical relationship, but for Xiaomei herself, on this battlefield, there will be nothing special that is different from others, it will appear for no reason.

It's like in a script, all the characters who show peculiarity can't just be passers-by.

The magical girl Xiaomei has already linked the disappearance of her senior sister to the impact of the executive engineering component, and when the two things are connected in her brain, she can't ignore them in any way. She cared more than she thought about the Nazis.

She must find out who is behind this, because it is likely to be the key to saving something. As for what exactly she wants to save and what she can save, even she herself doesn't know. Maybe it's just a senior sister? Maybe it's this cosmic joint experimental fleet? Maybe the scope is larger, but it's hard to imagine that the scope is too large, and it can't be related to "saving the world".

It's just that while she was trying to confirm where the enemy was and who he was, more and more of her companions had stopped their activities and stopped thinking, either voluntarily or compulsively. Of course they are not dead, and they will still fight when necessary, just as they have done in the past. From this point of view, this "enemy" hidden in the cosmic joint experimental fleet may not be an outright enemy.

It's just that what is the position of this "enemy" who has plunged the Cosmic Joint Experimental Fleet into the current situation? What kind of plan is all this? The other party obviously doesn't intend to let others know too much, and this kind of secrecy is what makes Xiaomei feel most uneasy.

Even if everyone has their own ideas, the actions taken by the occult experts who have survived to this day are by no means simply acting according to their own ideas. The practice of pooling the ideas and wisdom of the crowd to fill in the gaps has always been strictly adhered to, and it cannot be said that the results are better than other methods, but from the point of view of the facts, there is nothing wrong with this approach.

Mystical experts, occult organizations, all people and groups with the word "mysterious" believe in and practice secrecy, and it is not a special case. However, even if people in the past took this for granted, now that times have changed, Xiaomei does not feel that it is still the right thing to do.

Now, there is such a guy who may or may not be an enemy, and he is still pursuing this kind of secrecy, and it has caused serious internal effects on the cosmic joint experimental fleet. Far from it, there are fewer and fewer people who can think normally and give advice, and once the situation develops, the time will inevitably come when everyone will have to carry out someone's idea. And what determines the fate of everyone is no longer the thoughts of the people themselves, but the last remaining thoughts.

It will probably be the idea of the person behind the scenes.

Xiaomi is reluctant to put her future in the hands of the man behind this secrecy. Even if everything you see in front of you is pain and suffering, you are like a boat in the waves, you can only go with the flow. But she still wants to decide for herself to a certain extent, how she should act. I also hope that other people can speak their minds and implement their own decisions.

She has all sorts of reasons to be dissatisfied with what this person is doing.

It's just that before she finds out this guy, she can't show herself too special to avoid being exposed to the other party's field of vision.

Even after becoming a mystery expert, Xiaomei never imagined that one day she would need to do such a thing like a secret agent. And she had never done anything like that. Those who have become accustomed to secrecy should easily adapt to hiding and hiding, however, as a new generation of occult experts, she grew up in a semi-military organization that believes in collectivism, "Magical Girl Crusaders", and is not a secretist herself, and she is also consciously opposed to secrecy.

So, when she had to go against the overt actions of the past, and focus on disguising herself and sifting through the enemy, she didn't have much thought.

Before and after Xiaomei became a magical girl, she had worked with the maverick mysterious expert Mr. Takakawa, and it was because it was a special encounter, a special experience, so that memory was very deep, and including her, Madoka and the senior sister, after joining the magical girl crusade, also often paid attention to Takakawa's activity. For the trio, Takakawa himself is a living textbook of mystical experts. When the three of them encounter difficulties, they often think: If Mr. Takakawa encounters this kind of thing, what will he do.

In Xiaomei's impression, the occultist Takakawa himself is not a secretist. Although he is not a secretist, he is full of secrets. Although in her memory, Gao Chuan has experienced many frontal battles, but what impressed her the most was the silence of the other party.

Takakawa's silence didn't seem to be hiding anything, but rather like he was carrying something too heavy to speak to people. Xiaomei feels that his own personality may not be so restrained, but the things he needs to face make him have to be like this - just like himself now, of course, he is not a person who likes to be silent, but at this time, silence may be the best thing to do.

There is no need to express yourself, you don't need to deliberately hide yourself, you don't need to see more and talk less, and keep silent, as if you are just an inconspicuous screw in this ever-decaying group of mysterious experts.

Xiaomei is neither a person who particularly likes to talk, nor is she particularly talkative, and all her personality performances will not stand out among all high school girls, and she considers herself mediocre. When she deliberately speaks, she will feel uncomfortable, however, this discomfort compared to the feeling of deliberately not speaking, but it makes her feel that it is better to be able to speak.

Xiaomei didn't know how other people felt when they were deliberately silent, for her, this silence was like pressing all the bad things in her heart, and everything that made her feel depressed could not be released. Her emotions and feelings become extremely sensitive when she is silent, and she can feel more clearly than ever the pain, madness, and despair that pervades everything in front of her, and all this is like a flood that cannot be vented, and the accumulation of water brings her a fear that sooner or later it will break the embankment in her heart.

The more silent you are, the more you can clearly feel the pressure, the more you can clearly feel that some terrible situation is approaching step by step.

It turns out that Mr. Takakawa is fighting under such pressure in such a world? Xiaomei felt that she gradually understood why the other party was able to do something that was also a little incredible in the eyes of other mysterious experts. At the same time, after she got through the initial ordeal of silence, she also began to realize that silence was poisonous.

When a person begins to be silent, and bears the pressure of silence, and continues to be silent for a long time, it becomes increasingly difficult to speak again. The things that accumulate in the heart seem to have deteriorated in the process of silence, and have become things that cannot be poured out even if they open their mouths, they are so hard, so deep, so complex, even if they deliberately let others see it, others can only see its surface, and they cannot understand what it has become for themselves.

The toxicity of this silence will not only lead to the abnormality of the language system, but also to the psychological and spiritual disorders, and when Xiaomei feels this more and more clearly, she can't stop it, because she can't find a better way to hide her own peculiarity than silence.

Before she was eroded by the poison of silence, she couldn't help but speed up the intensity of the investigation. She wants to hide herself, but she has to make some more powerful temptations, the two are contradictory, and she must strike a balance in this contradiction.

She was the only one to act, and although she had thought of finding one or more allies and telling them about her worries and speculations in order to gain their cooperation, the idea had been abandoned after she repeatedly tried several of her peers who seemed to be able to think normally.

The so-called "normal thinking" is also relative. As long as these companions remain enthusiastic about "executing engineering components" and still have the idea that they must rely on it to face increasing pressure, and as long as their vision of the cosmic joint experimental fleet is still centered on "executing engineering components" in their consciousness and behavior, many of their ideas and plans have been skewed in Xiaomei's eyes.

Their seemingly "normal thinking" is nothing more than a skin, a part of the "executive engineering component", and the core of their thinking is not themselves, but more like the "executive engineering component" has replaced their brain.

No, rather, they are all part of the "executive engineering component". Are the conclusions of those "normal thinkers" from their ego, or from the executive engineering component hidden behind this "self"?

Is it the surviving group of mysterious experts who are now leading the cosmic joint experiment fleet, or is it the mastermind behind the "executive engineering component"?

However, perhaps this is because most of the occult experts who are still active no longer discuss it and are working around "executing engineering components". Even if they don't communicate, they are as sophisticated as machines, and the decisions made and the ideas executed by each person are being combined in an efficient way, so that the operation of the cosmic joint experiment fleet is getting smoother and smoother.

Xiaomei could clearly feel that the cosmic joint experimental fleet she was in was changing from a relatively scattered whole to a well-crafted individual in a more tangible sense, and thus showed a more powerful and concentrated force than the previous state.

The distance of "three light years" between the Nazi lunar repeater and the joint space experimental fleet due to the mystery of time and space has brought ample time and opportunity for the transformation of the joint space experimental fleet. Just from the changes within the fleet that can be observed and felt in front of her, Xiaomei can say that she doesn't like it, or she doesn't think it's right, but she can't deny that such changes are not just the disadvantages she thinks, and the benefits are also obvious.

When she realized this, Xiaomei could finally look at the behavior of the mastermind behind the scenes from a more objective point of view.

However, this objective examination could not shake her to find out the other party's thoughts. This kind of thinking has become no longer about what the reason is, but in silence, it has become some kind of deep-seated goal.