Is Dorothy afraid of going off? If she were to answer herself, the answer would only be: not afraid. However, though not afraid, Dorothy still apologizes when she makes all sorts of small moves behind his back, keeps the other person in the dark, and ends up playing with everyone, and ultimately leads to the current situation, even if it's not all because of herself. This apology is not very strong, and besides, for herself, there is a reason and a necessity to do so, and the more she thinks about everything in the apocalyptic illusion, the more she will feel that what she is doing is not wrong.

Yes, if I had to say, when Dorothy acted like that, she felt that she had the right to do it. But even so, she still finds it difficult to show it in front of the fire. This feeling of having to be sneaky will also make her wonder if what she is doing is really right, since she can't be upright, then is her righteousness a kind of hypocrisy? Although she always questioned herself like this, she still did everything she wanted to do. Even if you keep asking yourself if it's the right thing to do, you will still end up giving yourself a proper reason to say to yourself that this is the right thing.

Dorothy has no regrets about what she's done so far. Because, this is the conclusion she came to after countless observations and thoughts, and she never intended to pat her ass and regret leaving. She also thought about the possible consequences and was mentally prepared before she carried out the plan with a cold attitude. Compared to the strong-willed people she had met, she didn't feel that she lacked much in attitude.

That being said, it would still be nice to be able to get out of the London repeater before you wake up. Dorothy doesn't deny her feelings.

Once you wake up and know what Dorothy has done inside the repeater, what kind of mood and thoughts will she have? In any case, a confrontation is inevitable, and Dorothy doesn't know what she should say about the fire. Everything in the apocalyptic fantasy, although there is a real place for her, there is no doubt that the reality of the hospital is more real and more like the source. No matter what she did or what happened in the apocalyptic illusion, if this effect could not interfere with the reality of the hospital, but was only confined to the apocalyptic illusion, then this effect was just an illusion for her.

Dorothy doesn't know how she views the relationship between the reality of the hospital and the doomsday illusion, and she thinks that she can't put the two on an equal footing like Takakawa, let alone fix her cognitive foundation in the doomsday fantasy like the others in the doomsday illusion.

Of all the people she knew, she felt that her perspective on these things was closer to the real researchers in the hospital. Even though Dr. Ender's team most often uses the Color Center, for her part, she feels that she is more compatible with Dr. Ender's team.

If she could, Dorothy didn't want the people in the apocalyptic realm to know what she had done, and to complete the plan quietly - that way, everyone's suffering would end without realizing it, and it would also reduce the possibility of overreaction if they knew about their plan.

Ending the apocalyptic vision, ending the suffering of all people with doomsday syndrome, ending the oppressive and hopeless future—the kind of situation that Dorothy felt was the most ideal, without anyone noticing, was no longer possible.

Omi was right, the impact of the Torchlight's deviation ritual on her was perhaps the strongest. What hurt Dorothy the most was not her own mental blow, but the advantages she had painstakingly created, the traps she had carefully arranged, and the means used to correct the progress of the plan, almost all of which had failed in the distortion of this deviation.

The plan that was completed with great effort and painstaking effort was almost completely overturned and fell into an irreparable situation.

By this time, Dorothy had gotten rid of the initial shock and self-blame, and reorganized her thoughts. She felt that the reason why she had not given up at this point was not because the plan seemed to be theoretically successful. Going deeper, it's actually because the people around me have never said that they want to give up, even in such a difficult time, even if they don't have harmonious ideas and positions, but they are still trying to do more. Therefore, you can't be the first to give up.

Everyone is facing the same danger, the same hardship, the same despair and madness, why don't everyone else give up, but they have to give up?

From this point of view, Dorothy has a bit of a "I'm actually being dragged along by someone else". However, it doesn't matter if she is dragged away by others, Dorothy just has a kind of stubbornness, she will never be the first to admit defeat, even if she is dead and insists on being dragged by others, she must keep moving forward.

Therefore, when Omi mentioned the fire, she could say: "It's okay." She really doesn't want to face a misfire at such a time, but if there is really no way to avoid it, she will never say anything apologic to the other party.

"Does it really matter? You actually care a lot about what you think of you, right? Actually, you care a lot about what other people think of you, right? Omi stared at her with sharp eyes, "Although you've been insisting, you're actually a coward, aren't you?" Do you think going off the rails will forgive you? Will someone else forgive you? ”

"No, it won't." Dorothy never thought that the people she used to carry out the plan would forgive her, but it didn't really matter what they thought of it, because: "They can't forgive anything, they're all dead." ”

"So, because you think they're going to die anyway, why don't you let them contribute more to your plan on the premise that they're going to die?" Omi asked rhetorically, "Can you say such a thing to a fire?" ”

“…… On the other hand, Omi, you are also a person who has your own plan, and you are also a person who silently watched me complete my plan, how would you answer this question? Dorothy threw the question back again.

"Me? I don't think there's anything wrong with that, even in front of a fire. Omi said nonchalantly, "If other people's deaths have a role in promoting my plans, then it doesn't matter if they die all, or rather, it's better to die, that's what I think." You know, I've always been pretty selfish. But, you're different, right? When I learned this, I knew that no matter how close you are to the final weapon in terms of ability, you are still an imitation full of flaws, and you can never be the real final weapon—on the other hand, aren't those who want you to be the ultimate weapon also quite selfish? ”

While the two were talking, the whole London repeater was emitting a strange sound, which not everyone could hear, but anyone who could hear it would feel that it was a sound that had gone wrong, as if the gears of a clock were stuck, and although the power still kept the mechanism running in order, it could not turn it anyway. It was a jamming sound, a cracking sound, and it made people feel that this repeater was being put to some serious test and could collapse at any moment.

When she heard this voice, Dorothy even felt that this was the result of the confrontation between herself and Omi, first of all, because of the opposition between herself and Omi, which led to the opposition of the three pillars that formed the foundation of the repeater, and then the influence of this opposition became greater and greater, involving more factors, thus amplifying the terrible impact that affected the entire repeater structure.

However, whether this is the case or not, Dorothy can no longer judge further. Just now, all the connections between her and the London repeater have been lost, and all the permissions she once had have have been closed. Even though the super department has been supporting, the name "Dorothy" has been crossed off the safety list. On the contrary, Father Sissen, who was standing next to him and could not communicate normally, still retained the authority occupied by the "black nest" to a certain extent.

After all, this London repeater belongs to both Cyberball and NOG, and the "Black Nest" is also a member of the NOG's permanent governing body.

The mysterious organizations that once constituted the NOG are now very few left, and among the remaining mysterious organizations, there are also very few surviving mysterious experts. Just like the "Black Nest", in the personnel record, Father Sissen is already the last survivor of this mysterious organization. Even during the time of his disappearance, his name was almost included in the death list, completely removed from the list of authorized personnel.

The status and authority of the "Black Nest" was an important help for Father Sissen to be able to successfully invade the London Repeater.

Dorothy doesn't know why Omi, who has now regained most of the rights of the London repeater, still retains the rights of "Black Nest" and Father Heeson, but she doesn't plan to speculate deeply. Unless she can leave the London Repeater, no matter what Omi does, she will be in the driver's seat, and her side can only let it go.

Therefore, the primary goal must be to break away from the London repeater.

In this tense atmosphere, the confrontation between the two sides is still based on communication, and in Dorothy's view, it definitely does not mean that it is easy and relaxed.

Because, from the very beginning, it was impossible for this exchange to get results. In the current situation, language is the most vulnerable force, because neither you nor the other party can give up your own ideas and follow the other party's pace and plan, and even the goals that both parties are working on are likely to be different all the time. The reason why we cooperate in a certain process is simply because we have to go through a similar process to achieve different goals, and that's it.

Between people with different goals, different means, different cognitive and thinking angles, and different focuses, but who also insist on their own opinions, it is actually meaningless to want the other person to understand their own language - even if they really let the other person understand themselves, it is meaningless, unless the other party can admit that their ideas are better and more correct, and are willing to follow this better idea to do things. In many cases, even if the other party admits that his side thinks better and more correctly, he is still more willing to go his own way.

In this way, contradictions are always present, antagonism is inevitable, understanding is meaningless, and language that is weaker than ever is more efficient than directly using violence to transform the other person's thinking.

Under the premise that exchanges are meaningless and absolutely impossible to achieve results, the confrontation that is still carried out in the form of exchanges is definitely not the exchange itself.

Dorothy didn't know what Omi had done in this kind of exchange, but she did try to transform Omi's mind herself—consciousness walkers are the best at doing this kind of thing, and although she was not a consciousness walker, she did not lack such means—on the other hand, although she didn't feel it, she didn't feel that Omi didn't make small moves on her side of her "thoughts" at all.

Maybe it's the defense line established in the past that prevents the other party from making a move in one fell swoop, or maybe it's because the opponent's methods are too ingenious to make it impossible for them to detect it in the first place.

Consciousness, thought, cognition – all the ways, processes, and phenomena that can be attacked from one's own subjective perspective to objectively perceive oneself. The impact of this attack on all things that can recognize the "self", all things that can think, and rely on thinking to guide behavior, is also the most radical one.

It's hard to tell if your thinking has been affected by the time you start thinking.

Dorothy didn't believe in the instincts of her own body, which Omi had completed, but she couldn't completely disuse them. The reason why instinct is instinct is that it seems to be resistible, but it does affect a person's perception of self every moment. On the other hand, because he is using such a body, Omi's influence on his side will theoretically be more direct and secret.

In this kind of confrontation that she can't see, touch, or even feel, she uses the observation data of the "super system" as a reference. When she connected with the "super department", she had already begun to back up and analyze her self-perception and thinking patterns at that time. Based on the state at that time, it is clear what changes have taken place in one's ideology and behavior in the time that followed.

She even eliminated suspicious points on the initial samples, completing a minimal backup. Once something really goes wrong with her own ideology, she will use this backup to cover her own self-perception. Perhaps the "self" recovered from this minimal backup is also missing too many things to be truly regarded as the original "self", but it can avoid the infiltration and influence of the enemy to the greatest extent.

The battle of ideas never stops when it comes to communication, it is just invisible. This kind of battle is even more stealthy and scorching than the direct destruction of matter.